long thoughts

I have never realized so clearly that Cai Yujing, who accompanied the whole childhood, has grown up.He won't need me again, in any capacity.In fact, I should have known this a long time ago, but I am always unwilling to blow out that faint hope, just like the stupid thief in the story of stealing the bell, thinking that if I cover my ears, the bell will not ring.

Guo Jie said that I was so busy that I didn't even come for the engagement, but it wasn't true, I was really busy, but more often than not, I didn't want to come.The news of the engagement came out early, but my answer was delayed again and again, until Cai Yujing even said "I'll pick you up" before I had to answer.

The host did not know when the warm-up event ended, and the emcee took the stage, and Cai Yujing followed suit.Probably because the brain cells that controlled the nervousness came back to his senses. Standing on the stage, he looked around, looking for something in the crowd for a while, and then lowered his head and smirked for a while. Fortunately, he looks handsome enough, with a white suit He is unparalleled in the limelight, even if he is stupid, he is the most handsome fool in the field.

The cheerful marching music gradually faded away, replaced by the wedding marching song. Accompanied by the master of ceremonies' speech, the bride entered the venue with her father's arm in one hand and the long wedding dress in the other.

Her long hair was tied behind her head, leaving only some fragments around her ears. When she turned her head sideways, the soft black hair gently brushed across her cheeks, gentle and dignified, bright and moving.The white gauze dress that matches the groom is a tube top design. The designer deliberately showed her slender neck and delicate collarbone, and tightened it at the waistline, and then adorned with small diamonds and unknown Bird's wing feathers.With a tall and straight posture and a good figure, Yao Shu'an at this moment is as graceful and calm as a swan.

Guo Jie was very excited beside him, and he couldn't do anything out of the ordinary, so he clapped desperately to vent his excitement and excitement. Thinking about it, he knew Cai Yujing and Yao Shu'an after all.I also stood up, watching the newly dressed couple gradually approaching, the encounters and acquaintances they had met and accompanied each other over the years flashed in my mind, and my heart was filled with mixed feelings.There was discomfort, regret, sorrow, and envy, all turned into a silent sigh in the end.

I was unwilling, unwilling that I didn't dare to reveal my heart from the beginning to the end, unwilling that the boy I had guarded for more than ten years would be handed over to others, unwilling that he would never leave footprints in his life for the rest of his life.But isn't this what I asked for?I am a complete coward, I dare not say anything, I dare not do anything, I am timid, if there is any trouble, I will hide tightly, what good results can I ask for?

I don't want to see the flowers fall, so I simply don't plant flowers.

The newlyweds on the stage finally reunited, full of embarrassing but eager contradictions born in a wedding, and walked to the center of the stage step by step. The master of ceremonies took the bride's hand and led them to turn around to face the relatives and friends in the audience.

Cai Yujing always wanted to peek at the bride, and thought he was casting his gaze secretly, but everyone in the audience saw it clearly, and laughed frequently.He coughed twice, and no longer pretended, he stretched out his hand to hold Yao Shu'an, trying to seduce the bride past the master of ceremonies.

The master of ceremonies was also offended by him, and laughed at his lack of restraint, but seeing the shy and happy smile of the couple, he could only shake his head and continue with the engagement process.

After reading the oath, the two exchanged rings, exchanged a superficial kiss in the cacophony, and then changed their clothes and prepared to toast one by one.

After drinking for three rounds, there were already many people, and there were also a group of Cai Yujing's bad friends, who caught him drinking vigorously.The bride was dragged to the table of her girlfriends to whisper, and she didn't bother to help him block it.

Affected by my mood, I feel uncomfortable in doing anything these days, but now I feel a lot more comfortable seeing Cai Yujing being fed, and I can even eat a few more bowls of rice.Of course, it may also be because this big hotel has first-class cooking skills and good taste.

Over there, Cai Yujing was half-drunk, and managed to get out of Guo Jie's encirclement. When he looked up, he saw Lu Chengze and I eating happily, and suddenly felt unbalanced. He picked up the bottle and insisted on making peace. I clinked two glasses, and then used me as a shield to run away.

Along the way, Cai Yujing stayed close to me, with his hands on my shoulders, so close that I could almost feel each other's breath.This was a very exciting distance, but he smelled like wine, like a mobile wine tank, heavy and unpleasant, making people want to throw it aside.After coming out of the bathroom, Cai Yujing didn't dare to go to the main hall, turned the road to the front desk and planned to open a guest room for a short rest.

I took out the room card I got from the front desk and opened the door. As soon as I helped Cai Yujing to the bedside, he couldn't wait to pounce on him. It was not appropriate to say that he pounced, it was more like falling straight down, like a salted fish after being exposed to the sun. Dry.After getting rid of Cai Yujing, I was finally able to stand up straight, shook my hands and beat my waist, when I lowered my head, I smelled the smell of alcohol on my body, and couldn't help feeling a little disgusted, and immediately went into the bathroom in the room.

When I came out, Cai Yujing was still in the head-down position at the beginning, so I patted him casually and asked him if he wanted to sleep in a more comfortable position.Cai Yujing groaned twice, turned over, rubbed off his shoes, and got under the quilt, complaining vaguely: "Guo Jie is a bastard, so many people are he who feeds me the worst, I remember today. Stop it... I just slept for three hours yesterday, I will sleep for a while, remember to call me after 10 minutes." I responded casually and sat on the sofa chair by the window.

Cai Yujing didn't speak after hearing the response, she closed her eyes to feel sleepy, and her quiet appearance was somewhat childish.Soon he fell asleep, and the sound of breathing gradually slowed down.

I swiped open the lock screen of my phone, and opened the work message I received in the morning, and seven or eight minutes had passed by the time the rough reply was finished.Seeing Cai Yujing sleeping so soundly, he immediately felt that he was the world's number one sinner for waking him up.However, thinking of the text message I just replied, I hesitated to make a decision.Turning off the phone, stood up, took out the wedding gift that was ready to be given to him from his pocket, and placed it in the most conspicuous place on the bedside table.

It was a pair of custom-made couple brooches, with the initials of Cai Yujing and Yao Shuan engraved on the reverse.

It stands to reason that I should leave after placing the presents, go to the main hall to find someone to wake him up as I planned, and leave without saying goodbye.Anyway, I'm leaving, and Cai Yujing can't fly over to beat me.But standing in front of the bed and looking at him who was unaware and defenseless, I suddenly wanted to do something.

A voice came out from the bottom of my heart and said to me, I have been restrained for more than ten years, and I am leaving, a little indulgence is not too much.Immediately, another voice retorted, "It has been hidden for more than ten years, is it going to fall short?"Not to mention taking advantage of people's danger.The two voices were so noisy that in the end, it was the first voice that prevailed.

Bending down, I stretched out my hand and gently placed it on his forehead, I didn't dare to use force, I just put it on it weakly, and then slowly fell a most pious kiss.Even if Cai Yujing doesn't know anything, I don't want to take the risk of doing something that might be disgusted by him, that's enough.I straightened up, gave him one last look, then turned and strode toward the door without looking back.

Farewell time is over.

But I don't know, the moment I closed the door, Cai Yujing gently opened his eyes.

The author has something to say:

I was wrong, the next chapter officially wraps up, and it won't be very long.

Modified a bit, although still not satisfied. .