How To Say I Love You

Without a doubt, this was the most embarrassing moment in Xiao Jiashu's life.He felt extremely ashamed, as if he had been stripped naked and driven to parade in the street, no, not only the clothes, but even a layer of skin was scraped off, exposing the blue blood vessels and pulsating muscles to the sun, opening the The heart and unbearable emotions are exposed in the air, the pain is unstoppable but cannot be escaped.

He stood there clutching his chest for a while before going out, and asked in a low voice, "Did Brother Ji see it?"

Lin Leyang, who helped him "watch out", shook his head, "He didn't know, only I saw it. The relationship between the same sex is always not accepted by the world, so we dare not show too close in front of people. This time it is not It's your fault, you don't know it, I just don't want to see you getting deeper and deeper. Brother Ji treats people very sincerely, and may have given you some illusions, please forget them. You will definitely meet better ones in the future people."

Xiao Jiashu took a few coconuts and left behind a low-pitched "I will stay away from him".He is very glad that he learned to control his emotions while filming "Zerg", and he is even more fortunate that Brother Ji didn't see anything, otherwise he would only be more embarrassed.Thinking of how often I texted and called Brother Ji, and thinking of chasing him to a tropical island to be with him, my sense of shame was slowly replaced by disgust.

He despises that kind of self, without any shame or morality, dangling in front of others like a clown, while others may be rejecting, despising, or even loathing him in their hearts.Not only is he unconscious, but he even has the idea to pursue it boldly. How ridiculous is it?How sad?

He restrained his surging emotions all the way, and clearly wanted to throw them all away, but in the end he suppressed them tightly in his heart.It turns out that the reason why a person becomes strong is because there are too many things in the heart, which turn into cornerstones, making the fragile atrium stronger and difficult to open again.When the camp was in sight, there was no trace of fluctuation in his eyes.

Lin Leyang waited for him to walk away before showing a bitter smile.He didn't want to do this at first, but seeing the relationship between Ji Ge and Xiao Jiashu becoming more and more ambiguous, he was anxious and only wanted to stop them.

That day he heard Brother Ji's monologue. He was in extreme pain, but he realized it.It's just that Brother Ji shouldn't have added the last sentence. What is "Xiao Shu is like my own brother in my heart"?If he was really with Xiao Jiashu, he would never say such self-deprecating words.He is cautious in his words and deeds, and cherishes his feathers. If it is inconvenient to announce something to the outside world, he will just keep silent, but he doesn't bother to lie or mislead.

So you see, he, Lin Leyang, also knows Ji Ge very well. In order to cater to him and gain his approval, he once observed him so carefully.If he played the game of "watching words and watching colors" again, how could he lose to Xiao Jiashu?Ha, it's a pity that his thoughts are all in the wrong direction. Do lovers need to be careful?No, what they need is care, understanding, dedication and tolerance.He has been facing Brother Ji with a humble attitude, but he turned his head and scolded Brother Ji for looking down on him. His cognition has long been blinded by himself.

But it's not too late to realize these mistakes. As long as there is still a vacant seat next to Brother Ji, he will stick to it forever and drive away all those who try to get close to Brother Ji.

Xiao Jiashu was the first one, and things went much smoother than he imagined, thanks to Xiao Jiashu's good family education.Lin Leyang had to admit that Xiao Jiashu's three views were very upright and his self-cultivation was good, so he immediately decided to quit, without getting to the bottom of it or stalking him.If he is a person with a weak sense of morality, knowing that he is a third party and unwilling to let go, then Lin Leyang has nothing to do with him.

It is true that honest people are always easy to be bullied.

The two walked in the mountains one after the other, without exchanging a word during the whole process. The PD felt very boring, but he would not force the guests to speak.Even in the same company, there are situations where they don't like each other or even plot against each other. Didn't Lin Leyang secretly blackmail Xiao Jiashu?The two didn't deal with each other in the first place, and it was against harmony to pretend to be friends.

At the same time, Ji Mian was sitting on a rock by the sea in a daze.He really doesn't know how to deal with his relationship with Xiao Jiashu. Age and family background can be ignored, but there is only one thing that makes him worry a lot, and that is the ability to read people's hearts.

He can easily feel the psychological activities of people he likes or dislikes, so he avoids many traps, learns many secrets, and even has no disadvantages in the business field.But at the same time, he also drifted away from his relatives and friends around him.The human heart is the most complex and uncontrollable thing in the world, the more you explore it, the more chilling you will be.But Xiao Jiashu is different from everyone else. If other people's hearts are mazes, then his heart is a garden, which can be seen by Ji Mian at a glance, but it is so beautiful.

He is the only one who can make Ji Mian take the initiative to listen to his heart, and the only one who can make Ji Mian completely relax and even feel happy.His heart is too simple and pure, but it is precisely because of this that Ji Mian dare not touch it easily.

If they were together, he was worried that he would use mind reading skills to manipulate Xiao Jiashu, slowly turning himself into a devil, or arouse Xiao Jiashu's resistance in the process, turning him into a devil too.There is often only a thin line between love and hurt, and his special ability makes this bottom line easier to cross.Sooner or later, the beautiful garden will turn into ruins, because there is no constant human heart, only constant desires.

He can see through everything about Xiao Jiashu, but Xiao Jiashu doesn't know anything about it, which is obviously unfair.So he would rather look at the garden from a distance than destroy it with his own hands. He was already prepared to die alone.

When he was in a daze, the PD had to remind him in a low voice, "Mr. Ji, the baits are all hooked up, why don't you throw them into the water?"

Only then did Ji Mian come back to his senses, and quickly threw the hook made of sewing needles into the water.He knew that he couldn't catch any fish like this, but it was just an excuse to dismiss Xiao Jiashu.His feelings are so fierce that even if they are far away, they can burn Ji Mian's heart like a raging fire.

If we continue to get along with him, Ji Mian doesn't know how long he can last, so he has to find a quiet place to stay alone for a while.He has to admit that Xiao Jiashu is his favorite appearance from the inside out, and it is difficult enough to resist his cute and silly thoughts, not to mention the hot and sincere love.

In his wild thoughts, half an hour passed. Since few people came to the island, the vigilance of the fish was not high, but two of them were hooked, but they were not big, so they were used to stew soup.When he brought the fish back to camp, the rest of the crew were also back, drinking coconut water.

"Captain, sit down and rest for a while. Wow, you really caught a fish! We have some fish to eat!" Huang Yingxue jumped up and down and shouted.

Ji Mian gave her the cleaned fish and subconsciously glanced at Xiao Jiashu.He originally thought that the other party would be the first to greet him, and he would foolishly circle around him as usual, with a simple and happy smile.But right now, he was squatting on the ground, cutting a pair of bamboo chopsticks with a dagger, and never raised his head.

This surprised Ji Mian, who was already mentally prepared, and felt a little inexplicable palpitation.He listened uncontrollably to Xiao Jiashu's heartfelt words, but he didn't hear anything.He clearly sat there, but he didn't think at all, like an empty skin.

Ji Mian's heart trembled slightly, and after sitting down, he asked worriedly, "Xiaoshu, are your feet better?"

Xiao Jiashu raised his head and smiled, "It's much better, just now Yu Baixiu helped me rewrap the gauze."

With a sincere smile and a gentle tone, he seemed to be as usual, but it was completely different.But what is the difference, Ji Mian couldn't tell for a while.He collected himself, and ordered, "Let me see again, I have to walk a lot today, I'm afraid you won't be able to hold on."

Xiao Jiashu immediately crossed his legs, waved his hands and said, "It's really all right. You don't have to worry about losing your appetite if you look at your feet while eating breakfast."

These words are still as intimate as usual, making Ji Mian's heartstrings slightly loose.He warned, "Wear thicker socks, don't be afraid of the heat."

Xiao Jiashu nodded in agreement, and finally continued to chop bamboo chopsticks.

Lin Leyang pulled out five bananas and distributed them to his teammates one by one, "Come on, let's all taste the taste of wild bananas."

Yu Baixiu took a bite enthusiastically, and then his facial features twisted into a ball.Huang Yingxue threw up on the spot, and said, "Oh my God, is this a banana? Is this pepper? Why is it so bitter!"

Ji Mian frowned, but in the end he still swallowed the banana, as long as it can fill his stomach.He looked at Xiao Jiashu who was sitting opposite, but found that his expression was very calm, and he was gnawing small bites, as if he had no sense of taste.His every move is so familiar, as if he has returned to the state of filming "Zerg", turning into a cold machine from the inside out.

Ji Mian frowned fiercely, but it was difficult for the camera to ask questions.It's only been half an hour, why did the little tree become like this?He has completely got rid of the shadow of the role, and it makes no sense to have an attack after more than two months.

After a simple breakfast, the group washed the pots and pans, and then set off to find a source of water.Xiao Jiashu walked at the end of the team without a cane, and his demeanor was very relaxed. From time to time, he would chat with his teammates and smile, which seemed normal.

But Ji Mian was still unable to feel at ease.He couldn't hear what Xiao Jiashu was thinking, and if he closed his eyes, he could hardly feel his presence.So he had to look back at him frequently, and had to ask him every few minutes if he was okay and if he could persevere.

Unable to hear Xiao Jiashu's inner voice, he seemed to be missing something and always felt uneasy.He completely forgot the original intention of alienating Xiao Jiashu.When he can see through the other party, he has a lot of worries, and when he can't perceive it at all, he is nervous and anxious because of it.

"Xiaoshu..." As soon as he turned his head, Huang Yingxue said helplessly, "How about you, Xiaoshu, can you still persist? I said captain, how many times do you have to ask me? You don't care about me, a delicate beauty. Why do you always care about that rough guy Xiao Jiashu?"

Ji Mian's expression was slightly stiff, and he simply said, "Everyone sit down and rest for a while."

"Ah, I can finally rest." Huang Yingxue and Yu Baixiu immediately collapsed on the ground.

Ji Mian walked towards Xiao Jiashu, Xiao Jiashu stood up immediately, and said with a smile, "Brother Ji, I'm fine, you don't have to worry. It's convenient for me to go, and I'll be back in a while."

"Don't go far, watch out for poisonous insects and snakes!" Ji Mian stared at his receding back, and suddenly wanted to smoke a cigarette.If he sees too clearly, he is worried, but if he can't see through, he is even more worried. What's the matter?

Lin Leyang handed over the kettle and interrupted his thoughts, "Captain, do you want coconut juice?" Before setting off, he chopped open all the coconuts and poured the coconut juice into the kettle to keep everyone from getting thirsty on the way.The program team said that they would not provide mineral water if they did not provide mineral water, which is really ruthless!

"Thank you, no need." Ji Mian glanced at him lightly.

Five minutes later, Xiao Jiashu came back, and everyone continued on the road.Following the footprints of the animals, they found a pool of water first, and several monkeys were lying on the edge of the pool, looking very alert.The staff guarding here immediately came up to congratulate them on completing the task, and told them that they could choose a camping site first.

For the convenience of life, the two teams naturally had to move to live near the water source, and there were two campsites designated by the program team, one was on a large rock in the open air, exposed to wind, sun and rain, without even a shelter; The other one is in the jungle by the pool, the terrain is sunken, backed by rocks, very cool.

Ji Mian called the team members together and asked, "Which site should we choose?"

Everyone expresses their opinions, and the thoughts in their hearts pop out like a cannonball, which makes Ji Mian a headache.But the strange thing is that although Xiao Jiashu is responding on the surface, his heart is dead silent.His soul seemed to fly away, leaving only a shell.

Ji Mian suddenly held his hand, "What do you think, Xiaoshu?"

Xiao Jiashu broke free from him naturally, went to get the water bottle, and smiled, "Brother Ji, you decide, you are the captain."

"You don't have any idea?" Ji Mian stared at him.

"We all listen to the captain." Xiao Jiashu lowered his eyes.

Ji Mian still couldn't knock on the door of his heart, frustration and anxiety scorched his nerves, making him slightly unsteady, "Then choose the shady land," he said in a deep voice, "The distance between the shady land and The pool is closer and cooler, but we have to build our house on the trees."

"Building a house on a tree? How difficult is that!" Yu Baixiu wailed.

"The land is high on all sides and low in the middle. When it rains, the rainwater will pour back. If you want to wake up and lie in the water, I have no problem. By the way, the surrounding trees are so dense, and there are many snakes and insects, maybe you will Get into your clothes..." Before Ji Mian finished speaking, Huang Yingxue quickly interrupted, "On the tree, we must build the house on the tree!"

"Then let's do it now. On the way here, I saw a few bamboos that can be used as building materials. Who will cut them with me?" Ji Mian stared straight at Xiao Jiashu.

Xiao Jiashu stood up and said, "Let Lin Leyang go, we will stay and find a suitable tree."

Lin Leyang immediately agreed, "Okay, I'll go with Brother Ji."

"No need, you all stay here, I'm enough alone." Ji Mian took out a multi-purpose engineer shovel from his bag, which he brought specially, and it just came in handy now.He finally understood that Xiao Jiashu was alienating and even avoiding himself, but why?Where have all those beautiful dreams and passionate love gone?Was he hallucinating because he was too tired, or did Xiao Jiashu realize that homosexuality is a disease that needs to be cured in less than half an hour?

Logically speaking, it is Ji Mian's wish for him to voluntarily give up. They can avoid hurting each other, and avoid embarrassment and embarrassment.But for some reason, Ji Mian was extremely irritable.He chopped the bamboo vigorously, trying to vent his powerlessness.

He didn't realize until now that he had nothing to do with Xiao Jiashu.Whether the opponent advances or retreats, he can only wait.

On the other side, Xiao Jiashu found a huge banyan tree with branches all over the sky, criss-crossing in all directions, not to mention building a tree house on it, even building a building.Turning around among several branches two or three meters above the ground, he decided, "Let's build it here. It's not too high or too short. It's just right."

"I think it's okay. A lot of nails are needed to build a tree house, right? What should we do if we don't have any nails?" Yu Baixiu asked.

"Then twist the rope instead. Let's build the frame first, and explore while building it." Xiao Jiashu paused, and continued, "I saw a few surfboards by the beach, which should be marine garbage discarded by others and washed ashore Here they come. I'll go get them up, they can be used as floors."

"Hey, this idea is very good, I'll go with you." Yu Baixiu palmed.

"The surfboard is not heavy, so I can carry it. You need to put up the frame first, which is more troublesome." Xiao Jiashu's figure quickly disappeared into the jungle, and the two PDs followed behind him, almost unable to catch up with his pace.He didn't look like a person with a foot injury at all, but he was more energetic than Ji Mian.

When he picked up a few surfboards and climbed halfway up the mountain, he suddenly fell down without a sound, and was rushed to the infirmary by two PDs.

In order to ensure the personal safety of the guests, the program team trampled the island a few months ago, and built a simple small building to store equipment and accommodate personnel.Naturally, there is also an infirmary, and the equipment is very complete.The guests don't have mobile phones, but the PDs wear headsets and can contact each other at any time.

They soon received the news that Xiao Jiashu had passed out and notified all the guests.

An hour later, Xiao Jiashu opened his eyes, and before he could figure out where he was, he heard an extremely hoarse voice, "You're awake."

He turned his head and saw that Brother Ji was sitting beside the hospital bed, with a gloomy face and dim eyes, a cigarette in his hand, and many cigarette butts were thrown on the ground, but there was no peculiar smell in the house, and an air vent was above his head It spun rapidly and creaked, and the windows on the opposite side were open to see the undulating ocean.

"The gauze on your feet was not wrapped tightly, and it all fell apart," he took a puff of cigarette, and said in a low voice, "The blisters on your feet are all broken, and there is a lot of blood, don't you feel it?"

Xiao Jiashu stared at him blankly for a while, as if analyzing his words, sat up after about half a minute, looked at his tightly wrapped feet, "I really don't feel it, what's wrong with me?" His soul has been separated from the body.

Ji Mian threw the half-smoked cigarette on the ground, stomped it out, and said in a hoarse voice, "You don't feel your feet are worn out, do you feel the flesh being cut by a knife? Do you think you are a robot? Xiao Jiashu, tell me what's in your mind What are you thinking?"

Even he himself felt ironic when he asked this question.As long as he tries his best to like or dislike a person, he can see through their minds.But now, no matter how he knocked on the door of Xiao Jiashu's heart, he couldn't hear any response.It seemed that what sat in front of him was not a person, but a deep sea.Only then did he understand why there is such a disease as "deep-sea phobia" in the world, because "undetectable" is the greatest fear. The ocean is there, so close to humans, but humans don't understand it as well as Less than one-tenth of the moon.

Its depth is no different from the abyss, just like Xiao Jiashu is close to him, but he can't guess his mind.

If Xiao Jiashu hadn't accepted him unreservedly and with all his strength before that, he might not feel that way.But after experiencing such warm and meticulous care and sincere and passionate love, he could hardly face this cold person in front of him.

"Brother Ji, I didn't think about anything, am I sick?" Xiao Jiashu didn't feel the pain until now, and he took a deep breath.

With just this breath, Ji Mian's anxiety and anger were blown away.He called the doctor through the communicator, and gritted his teeth, "The gauze on your feet was loose, and the blisters were worn out, and there were a few puddles of muddy water on the road. The wound was infected and inflamed, which led to a high fever. We must send you to the nearest hospital." big hospital for treatment."

"Then do I have to come back to record the rest of the show?" Xiao Jiashu stared at his fingernails.

"What are you still shooting if you are so injured, you won't be able to walk for ten days and a half months." Ji Mian wiped off the helplessness on his face, "I will send someone to send you back to China after the injury is stable, Huang Meixuan is waiting for you in the hospital, I can't walk here Come on, take care of yourself."

He paused and sighed, "Don't be so heartless anymore, okay?"

Xiao Jiashu nodded hesitantly, "Okay... never again..."

The last four words pierced into Ji Mian's eardrum, making his heart palpitate inexplicably. He was about to ask more questions when the accompanying doctor came in and did a round of examination for the patient. After making sure that he was fine and his fever subsided, he sent him to the hospital immediately. On board the helicopter.

Xiao Jiashu was carried into the cabin by Ji Mian, his head was lowered the whole time, and he didn't say anything else.The plane lifted off slowly, and he waved to Huang Yingxue, Yu Baixiu, and Shi Tingheng, and then he lay back on the hospital bed, turned on his phone, and deleted all the content about Ji Mian in Moments.Too many people followed Weibo, so he didn't dare to move, but when he found one of the photos, he suddenly burst into tears.

This is another group photo, taken half a year ago by the crew of "Apostle".Ji Ge put his arm around Lin Leyang, held his mobile phone in the other, and smiled warmly.He said that this is the young rookie he personally saw and signed, please take care of him.No wonder he always went in and out with Lin Leyang, no wonder he sent the best resources to him, and stood up to defend him at critical moments. It turned out that they were a couple.

With a slight movement of his fingertips, Xiao Jiashu liked this photo, and said in his heart: Goodbye, my heartless...

Ji Mian stared at the departing helicopter with an inexplicable expression.Standing behind him, Lin Leyang let out a long, relieved breath.Xiao Jiashu was easier to deal with than he imagined, but he told him that he and Ji Ge were just lovers, and he was so miserable that he left voluntarily.I really hope that he will not come again in the next issue, the next issue, so that he can be completely at ease.

At this moment, Ji Mian, who was looking up at the sky, suddenly turned his head to look at Lin Leyang, his face was terribly gloomy.