[Earthbound Boy Hanako-kun] It's too difficult for me to raise a cat

Baxun Yangyue has always envied her younger sister.

When I was young, I watched my sister easily get along with everyone and have fun together, and Baxun Yangyue, who was sitting alone and ignored by no one, just watched helplessly.

She thought, it's great, it's great, when can I become such a person?

Although the younger sister Baxun Ningning is a child, she has already noticed her sister's loneliness, so she often pulls her sister to join their games.

But when she was a child, Baxun Yangyue was always clumsy, she couldn't do anything well, and she always stared at people in a taciturn manner, infiltrating people like a ghost, so she was quickly excluded from the small circle.

This trait is also hated when entering the middle division.

But at the same time, everyone also found that although Baxun Yangyue is silent, she has the weakest sense of presence in the class and the lowest status, but at the same time she is quite easy to talk to, and if you ask her not too much, she will basically be granted.

This did not accumulate good popularity for Baxun Yangyue, on the contrary she began to be bullied.

——It's easy to talk, and to a certain extent, it's also easy to bully.

"Hey, Baxun, I have something to do today, please help me on duty."

"Ba Xun, do you have money? Last time I saw you brought it, give me some money to spend."

"Wow, Baxun, why are your legs so thick and ugly, they look like radishes? How about we call you radish legs from now on? How about radish legs?"

"Why did you do better than me in the radish leg test?"

"You are disgusting."

……

The homework was deliberately scratched, the place just cleaned was poured with a basin of sewage, the beloved pen was stolen from the pencil case, and a series of insulting words were maliciously written on the book...

Baxun Yangyue, who had finally escaped from the cold violence of indifference, was greeted with even more unbearable insults.

It even developed to the point of beating.

Ba Xun Yangyue was not stupid, she clearly knew that the current situation was not right, so one day, she went to report the matter to the teacher.

However, it was useless, the bully was even more malicious.

After school that day, Baxun Yangyue was surrounded by people in the corridor.

The popular and sought-after girls and boys in several classes surrounded her.

Someone threw a heavy bag on her face, and Baxun Yangyue whimpered, wanting to cry out for help.

But a girl grabbed her hair even faster, and then slammed Baxun Yangyue's head back hard.

"I misunderstood you, and you dare to tell the teacher? You are quite courageous, radish legs."

"You still have a younger sister, I think it's from Class A, her name is Baxun Ningning, right..."

"Why did you show such an expression? Why didn't you think about us when you went to the teacher, and think about us? Now just talking about your sister seems to be going crazy. Is it disgusting?"

"I almost vomited."

……

There seemed to be buzzing in the ears, and the voices of those people seemed to come from far, far away, but the pain was so clearly tormenting every nerve.

Crouching on the ground in an awkward posture, being stepped on her head, Baxun Yangyue, whose hair was completely disheveled like a lunatic, panted heavily. The dust entered her lungs and brought a dull feeling, and she couldn't help coughing again.

was beaten.

Got hit again.

Is it useless to resist?

...I hate it so much.

Why don't they die?

Seemingly bored, the group laughed and left.

It's just that the laughter was a little harsh in Baxun Yangyue's ears.

She leaned against the wall like a dying fish, motionless except for breathing.

After a while, Baxun Yangyue combed her hair with her hands to ensure that she could see people, then stood up with her tired body.

"That... are you okay?"

Ba Xun Yangyue turned her head and looked hostilely at the questioner.

The green-haired senior sister holding a stack of papers was standing a few steps away, she hesitated and said, "Your arms and face are all injured..."

Without listening to her continue, Ba Xun Yangyue ran to the stairs, and then quickly went downstairs.

There seemed to be voices behind her, but she didn't want to hear them at all.

Ba Xun Yangyue picked places with few people all the way, and after leaving school, she didn't go back home directly.

She found a secluded place in the park and sat down directly on the ground.

The moon climbed up to the center of the night sky little by little, and the cold silver glow was like a dream.

Ba Xun Yangyue looked at it for a while, but didn't think about anything, but thought about everything.

She curled up into a ball, trembling all over, and finally couldn't help crying.

"Why on earth..."

At the end of the screen, the bruised 'I' questioned me over and over again.

"Why on earth..." She cried and asked, "Why don't they die, they will come again? I can never get rid of this kind of life... I am really bad, why should I live? ..."

She looked at me, with tears still on her face, and asked me word by word like weeping blood——

"Why are you still alive? Why, didn't you die then? Why didn't you kill those people? It was all planned at the time, right?"

"Tell me, why on earth!?" The past Baxun Yangyue asked me like a collapse.

I touched the cold mirror.

"……I do not know either."