I am him [Comprehensive]

M's words are sonorous.

In the end, even the mocking smile on his face disappeared, leaving only a calmness, which seemed to be convincing.

Kongphop's heart clenched again because of his words.

However, seeing M's calm expression, he couldn't help but ask: "Is this really the whole truth? I don't believe it."

Finally, M's face was a little more embarrassed.

He turned his face hastily, refusing to look at him again: "That's all I want to say. As for the rest, if you really love him so much, you can remember it yourself. It’s just an ugly supporting role, and I never thought of helping you regain your old dreams.”

After M finished speaking, she stood up again, walked to the edge of the pool, and leaned over to jump in.

It seems that only by constantly consuming his energy in the swimming pool can the present him forget some pain.

"M!" Kongphop chased two steps forward and grabbed him.

M had to stop, but still stubbornly didn't look at him.

In the past, he was always docile and well-behaved in front of Kongphop, but at this moment, looking at his indifferent profile, Kongphop realized that he really didn't know anything about this person in front of him.

There are many emotions accumulated in Kongphop's heart, anger, disappointment, doubt, confusion... All kinds of emotions pull back and forth in his chest, which makes him even more at a loss.

He originally thought that when he saw M, he would definitely not be able to help but fight him first.

But when he really saw him, he realized that violence could never solve any problems.

He let go of M's arm, and M didn't continue to jump into the water, but just looked at the quiet water surface silently.

Kongphop sighed, and said again: "I don't remember much about Arthit. Most of them are just blurred pictures, and I can't even see his figure clearly. But... I have never forgotten the memory The feeling of that person. It is a very strange feeling. I don’t even remember his appearance, but as long as I think of that vague figure, I feel that no matter how much I pay, I have to get back the memories with him. Come on. For more than a year, I have always thought that the person in my memory is you. So I have been trying hard to fall in love with you again. Those days, I had a really painful life. I don’t know where it is Something went wrong, why can't the strong emotions in memory be projected on you again?"

Hearing that my long-awaited expectation was nothing but torture in the eyes of the other party, M's deliberately pretended indifference finally cracked a bit, and his figure couldn't help trembling slightly.

"What is it like to lose memory? Maybe no matter how much I say, you won't be able to understand it. You know that you have a lover, but no matter how hard you try, there is only a blank in your brain. It's okay if you forget everything, but your mind forgets. My heart still remembers this feeling..." The end of Kongphop's gaze also fell on the pool of water, "Do you still remember the feeling of drowning when we just learned to swim? The feeling of suffocation like drowning is always there. Surrounding me, Arthit is like the person standing on the shore I see through the water, I can't see who he is, but I know that only he can save me from the bottom of the water."

M clenched his fists tightly, probably the last thing he wanted to hear in this world was Kongphop's deep friendship for that person.

"I don't remember him, but M, you know? Just because of the feeling in my memory, I know that no matter whether it is me in the past or me now, it is impossible to really want to leave him. Absolutely impossible. Even if he thinks he doesn’t love me enough.” Apart from the days of confusion, Kongphop never seems to be as firm and firm as he is at this moment.

After hearing his words, the muscles on M's face couldn't help twitching.

Every ounce of Kongphop's affection is like a sharp knife, piercing his whole body to pieces.

"What you said, I can't tell which ones are true and which ones are false, but I won't believe this." Kongphop sighed, looked at M's trembling that could hardly be concealed, and continued, " Knowing each other for so many years, I used to think that no matter what happened, we could tolerate each other, but this time, you hurt not only me, but when I think about what I have done to Arthit these days, I can't even help myself forgive."

M's figure swayed, taking advantage of his bloodless face, making him look a little precarious.

"Kongphop..." He couldn't help murmuring.

But Kongphop will no longer laugh at him when he hears his shout like before.

"I can't respond to your feelings, I'm sorry, but I'm sorry, I said this to my good brother M who has trusted me for more than ten years. If you still know him, please tell me." Kongphop's eyes There was also a layer of tears. This was probably the first and last time he cried for that former good brother. "It's fine if you don't want to explain. I will find the rest of the answers myself. As for us..."

Kongphop's words stopped involuntarily.

M raised his eyes to look at him, the muscles on his face trembled, and the emotion surging in his eyes didn't know whether it was unwillingness or reluctance.

But he also knew that no matter what, they couldn't go back to the past, so no matter how many emotions they had, they could only suppress them in their hearts, unable to say a word.

"As for us." Kongphop looked at the very familiar face in front of him, and suddenly felt that his voice was too dry, "Just pretend that we never knew each other."

After Kongphop finished speaking, he turned around and walked out.

Seeing his determined back, M panicked and couldn't help but blurt out: "I just love you too much! I'll drop out of school with you and take a major that I don't like at all... I've done so much, Are so many... not worth this mistake?"

Kongphop stopped, but didn't look back.

"Kongphop!" M's voice was hoarse again.

"I know, maybe you don't think you are wrong now, but M, have you thought about it? No matter how deep or shallow our relationship is, you are not qualified to make any decisions for us." Kongphop turned his head, Glancing at him, "Maybe it's really like what you said. I was really confused. It was my fault. I will spend my whole life to make it up to him. But you...you kept saying that it was because we didn't love each other enough that we could not be together." Will take advantage of the situation. Whether the fact is really just like this, only you know."

M's figure trembled slightly.

He couldn't help reflecting in his mind the infatuated eyes that that person always showed behind Kongphop's back.

He shook his head, quickly putting the image behind him.

"I'm not lying! No!"

Kongphop looked at his hysterical appearance, and felt that he had finally given up.

"I used to always think, if I can't fall in love with you again, how can I make up for everything you have done for me? Now, seeing that you are now desperately making excuses for your selfishness, let me I feel relieved. We are all selfish people. I can't forgive you for what you did to him. As you said, he is also someone I want to hold in my hand and protect for the rest of my life. I will not allow anyone to hurt Him. If I really made the decision to hurt him, then I will spend my whole life begging for his forgiveness... because I can't live without him."

Kongphop finally took another step forward, and this time, I'm afraid there will be no turning back.

M only felt that a heart seemed to be split from the middle, and blood was flowing, submerging him in it.

He plopped into the water, letting himself sink to the bottom.

He finally realized the feeling that Kongphop said, that feeling of suffocation like drowning.

The silhouette of Kongphop was looming on the water, and M knew so well that only if he was willing to reach out, could he escape from the icy bottom.

But that figure eventually went further and further away.

From then on, no one reached out to him from the pool, pulled him out of the water with a smile, and said to him, "Don't be afraid, I will accompany you home."

Never again.