After memorizing the book, I am super strong

"Hey, I'll just pick it up and admire it, it's really a beautiful pattern." Xie Gongxuan didn't dare to meet Dazai's eyes for a while, and put the pillow back into her arms at a loss.

What a normal conversation about discussing the enemy's situation, as she and Natsume Soseki dodged reflexively, why did they start to feel guilty for no reason? !

"Oh, is that right? Obviously Gong Xuan said that she needs to go down alone to get the vase, but the courier insisted on delivering it to the door—"

Osamu Dazai seemed quite troubled, and approached leisurely.

"It's really worrying why Gong Xuan sent me away..."

Reflexively throwing the pillow on the ground, Xie Gongxuan, who tried to block the gap between the sofa and the floor, said, "It's definitely an illusion...you can't rest assured that I am so dedicated and sincere!"

Although the disbursement is true...isn't it because Osamu Dazai always hides the truth, so I plan to see the situation——

Xie Gongxuan said that my motive was absolutely pure.

"Ah, is that so—" Osamu Dazai finally reached the opposite side of her, and his long legs straddled the pillow.

Xie Gongxuan, who was suddenly caught by such a belt and fell towards the sofa, her first reaction was to hug his waist - but with the sound of the sofa moving slightly due to the force, the two of them fell together.

"...You definitely did it on purpose!"

The enlarged face of the other party was at such an extremely close distance, Xie Gongxuan suddenly became a little stiff, and asked a question in a low voice.

"No~ I just want to get closer and make sure if it smells like other cats~"

When Osamu Dazai tilted his head slightly, the smooth black hair brushed against her cheeks, but the originally quiet room seemed to be able to hear the echo of a clock pendulum that synchronized with the heart rate.

"Look, there's a newly published "Super Suicide Complete Book"—"

Xie Gongxuan pointed at his back and shouted. After a brief silence, she found that Osamu Dazai's pupils didn't even move.

"Huh? Such a method is useless against me—so is Gong Xuan guilty?"

While saying this, Dazai's curious and probing gaze approached at the same time.

"That can't, cough cough, if you don't believe me, I'll turn into a cat and show you~" Xie Gongxuan shrank her neck, "But you have to get off of me first!"

"Well, if you want to change it, let's modify the real one~ the one I can touch—" Osamu Dazai seemed to be thinking about this suggestion seriously, and the iris-colored eyes that were close at hand also bent into beautiful arcs because of a smile.

"I can't, what if I can't change back—"

Xie Gongxuan felt that she should be thinking calmly.

"Keep the ability to speak and you can use the ability to change it back~ Didn't you say to me every day like 'I'm sorry to be born as a human', and you have repeatedly emphasized that this sentence is quite different from me Origin or something?"

Osamu Dazai suggested in a tone of "sincerely want to lick the cat".

"Isn't that just to amuse you—wait a minute, you're still holding grudges, aren't you?!"

As soon as she finished speaking, Xie Gongxuan found that she didn't think calmly - she shouldn't have rejected the strange suggestion of 'becoming a cat that Osamu Dazai can touch' right away!

"Ah, you're taking my train of thought away again!" Xie Gongxuan who discovered the truth suddenly regained her confidence and knocked Osamu Dazai away.

"Well, it hurts..." Dazai rubbed his forehead and turned to his side, and let her go freely, "Isn't it because Gong Xuan gets tricked every time—this is to make you smarter?"

"When you didn't lower my IQ, I think my IQ was always above the line!" Xie Gongxuan was suddenly annoyed.

"Well, so I have always believed in Gong Xuan's judgment—"

From Xie Gongxuan's perspective, he could only see Osamu Dazai's side face covered by the black hair scattered around his ears, but he couldn't feel the emotion in his eyes covered by the drooping eyelashes.

He said, "So, this is at your disposal."

A white plain envelope was handed along with his words.The middle was completely sealed with red wax, but there was no information about the recipient.

"It's in your vase -- no matter how you look at it, someone wants to talk to Gongxuan secretly --" Osamu Dazai raised his leg a little angrily, but the direction of his foot was not good.

Xie Gongxuan, who had just received the letter, caught him again as quickly as possible: "Ahem, there is such a beautiful pillow on the floor—kicking it into the sofa will get dirty, right..."

I don't know if Natsume Soseki is still below, if he has shrunk to the corner, it would be too miserable——

Probably not, it is so powerful, there must be a way to escape.

Xie Gongxuan began to blindly trust her elders, and decided to forget about Natsume Meow.

"Well, I know~"

Osamu Dazai replied with a tone of "it doesn't matter anyway", leaning back on the pillow behind him as if without energy.

"..."

Xie Gongxuan saw him closing his eyes and planning to sleep, and landed a precise punch on Osamu Dazai's head.

"I can't beat you, let's take a look together."

"...Well, that's what you asked for. I don't particularly care about the 'mystery letter' or the like—"

"..."

"This is 100% trust. Even if you smell like other cats, you calmly chose to forgive—"

"..."

"If you are really moved by my sincerity, I will not refuse you who insist on giving me some rewards..."

Xie Gongxuan finally chose to interrupt with the soul: "If you don't watch it, I'll bottle the flowers?"

Then Dazai became so quiet.

Well, it's better to be obedient - Xie Gongxuan was quite happy when she opened the letter.

Before opening the envelope and touching the paper inside, Xie Gongxuan thought about it calmly. She and Osamu Dazai are currently on the same sofa, so even if there is any supernatural power hidden inside, it shouldn't cause any harm——

OK, unfold!

A piece of pure white letter paper, with [a poem dedicated to you] written on it in beautiful cursive characters.

poetry?

[The time that will not go back is flowing backwards for you, the traveler who brings the lost things.

Those missed regrets and tenderness will become eternal imprints...]

Xie Gongxuan had just read two lines, and after not understanding the inexplicable beginning, her sight was covered by a hand.

"What's going on, I haven't finished watching it yet?" A question came from her.

"Well, it's better not to read the following content."

Osamu Dazai's voice was clear and gentle in her ears, but it contained an admonition not to refuse.

"Wait, you're done with all this? It's inhuman speed—" Xie Gongxuan grasped the point.

"Anyway, if someone tries to challenge your heart, I'll be jealous—" Osamu Dazai said, pulling the paper out of her hand.

The hand covering the eyes moved away, so Xie Gongxuan, who had regained the light, felt that her fingers were empty, and she tilted her head in doubt.

This is neither beautiful nor concrete, an inexplicable beginning...

In the end, Xie Gongxuan chose to give up thinking: "Okay - then I will trust you."

As you trust my judgment.

……

In the end, when Xie Gongxuan began to bottle the bouquets with great vigor, Osamu Dazai had already repacked the letter and threw it on the table casually.

"Thank you, Natsume-sensei."

When he said this, the three-flowered cat under the sofa also crawled out, and then stretched its limbs.

When she finally turned her head, Natsume Mew clearly exuded the aura of "I knew why I pretended to be".

"Sorry, because I'm not completely sure."

The tone of Osamu Dazai's answer was gentle and innocent, and he didn't feel guilty at all for feeding the elders cat food.

Because I will put some hair or draw some lines on the window sills, walls, or drawers and files, so any details of changes in my home can be found——

Therefore, Osamu Dazai noticed a cat visiting from the window from the moment he entered the door.

When he was about to say something, Xie Gongxuan's voice was not clear because of the wall: "I always feel that this house is not suitable for playing..."

When the emotional Natsume-nyan left from the window sill again, Osamu Dazai stood up and replied, "Well... it must have been too much."

"Isn't it a good house that you can't arrange flowers casually!"

Xie Gongxuan began to gesture to the dressed flowers.

"Sure enough, I still want the kind of house in Plants vs. Zombies... The Japanese-style layout always feels that it doesn't suit my pursuit of an unrestrained life~"

Osamu Dazai blinked, as if recalling what Plants vs. Zombies was: "The game you played before... the kind of room where enemies can invade from the roof?"

Xie Gongxuan was stunned for a moment: "...can you focus on the key points and think in a better direction!"

"Yes...the point is that Gong Xuan wants a new home—"

Xie Gongxuan was taken aback: "That's not the case..."

Dazai didn't seem to notice her sudden stiffness, and continued to spit out wild words: "Actually, if Gongxuan wants to become a family with me, I won't refuse~"

……

Then Xie Gongxuan jumped up and hit him on the head.

"Sooner or later, I'll beat you to my IQ!" Xie Gongxuan gave him a rua in the face, then turned and ran.

Then with the bang of closing the door, Osamu Dazai, who behaved too aggressively, was left alone in the room.

Not even a cat.

"Hey, it's still so easy to be shy."

……

No matter where it goes, the past that has never been mentioned is like a deep-rooted city wall.

As the night gradually opened a huge net to capture the dust, Xie Gongxuan had already drawn the curtains, and behind her was a room with no lights on.

She finally saw the last line of the letter.The moment I read the title, I saw it when my eyes moved inadvertently——

A line that says [If you want to know the truth, find your past self].

To put it bluntly, this sentence is to yell at her "You forgot something important".

What exactly did he forget, something that could be called "truth"——

There is nothing to think about, no matter what purpose the other party has, since it is something that has been forgotten, it is good to get it back.

I wonder if Osamu Dazai found out?

What he said... always felt like he couldn't hide anything.

He should have known it, otherwise he wouldn't have used Zhan Lu's eyes, which wanted to keep her, to talk about the future with allusions.

There will definitely be a future between them, and it will definitely be a beautiful one.

But before each other appeared in each other's life, we were all fighting alone——

So for things like retrieving memories, let’s do it alone.

Xie Gongxuan finally made such a decision.

"I love memories because memories are the filter through which we look at our own lives."

As the last syllable of her sentence about "awakening memories" came to an end, images of the past appeared in her mind like an unrolling scroll.

And the last page of this scroll is red, covering almost all the flames of thinking.

The author has something to say:——

The main line is advancing~

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Today's skills, get rid of the trouble of forgetfulness~

Kazuo Ishiguro "Pale Shadows of Distant Mountains"

"I love memories because memories are the filter through which we look at our own lives."