Clear and Muddy Loss of Love

love is too deep

At this moment, all the words in the world cannot accurately describe Qi Yan's mood.

She worked hard to come to this day, step by step, and tried her best. The rotten heart beating in her chest was bleeding bright red because of Nangong Jingnv.

She tried her best to minimize the damage to Nangong Jingnv before ending all this.

But her 15-year-old birthday wish is to step into this sea of ​​flames that is beyond redemption.

agree?This girl will endure ten times, a hundred times more painful things than now.

refuse?Tears wet the clothes on her chest, she was holding on to her clothes...

"Are you okay?" Nangong Jingnv raised her head, and Lihua's rainy face showed cautious anticipation, which made Qi Yan's heart ache.

"Your Highness..." Do you know how moths fly to a flame?

A full teardrop hangs in Nangong Jingnv's eye socket, crumbling, she almost pleads: "Please..."

Nangong Jingnu was drunk, otherwise she would never have said such a thing.

She was drunk, so she couldn't understand the sadness flowing in Qi Yan's eyes.

She was drunk, and she only wanted to go back to the past.

"Your Highness doesn't regret it?"

The nerves paralyzed by drunkenness could not think about the meaning of this sentence, she bit her lip and shook her head vigorously, tears fell down.

"I promise you."

Nangong Jingnu sniffed: "Really?"

"a man of his words."

Only then did Nangong Jingnv let go of her hand, and instead grabbed the skirt of Qi Yan's chest: "Then you stay tonight."

"Okay, listen to Your Highness."

……

When the lanterns come on, all the guests are returned.

Nangong Jingnv vomited again, Qiu Ju brought over hangover soup, and Qi Yan went to open the door.

Qiu Ju handed the soup bowl to Qi Yan, glanced into the hall, and gave a deep blessing: "My son-in-law, I don't know if I should say something in my heart or not."

"Sister Qiuju, please tell me."

"This servant is bold. Although this servant is a servant, she has served His Highness since childhood. To put it bluntly, this servant has watched His Highness grow up. These days His Highness often shuts himself in the study for a whole day. This servant watched His Highness grow up. Thin and helpless."

Speaking of this, Qiu Ju knelt in front of Qi Yan and lowered her head: "Your Highness, you must know why. Even the servants in the inner court know that His Highness Zhen Zhen has a very good temper. You are well-educated and sensible, and you are older than His Highness... I implore my servant to treat Your Highness well."

Qi Yan helped Qiu Ju up: "I understand, I am worried about sister Qiu Ju."

"This is the duty of a servant. The servant has offended the son-in-law and is going to receive the punishment."

"No need, Sister Qiuju is loyal to the master, and I will be the second master for His Highness. Sister Qiuju will go to receive the reward."

"Thank you consort."

Seeing Qi Yan not returning for a long time, Nangong Jingnv called out: "Qi Yan?"

Qiu Ju called Wanfu and took it to the door of the bedroom, Qi Yan came to the bed with hangover soup.

Nangong Jingnv was sitting on Ba Bu's bed with only one coat on, her cheeks were flushed.

"I'm going to serve your highness hangover soup."

Nangong Jingnv frowned slightly: "Don't drink it, the hangover soup smells disgusting!"

Qi Yan sat next to Nangong Jingnv, stirred the spoon and blew on it, scooped up a spoon and handed it to Nangong Jingnv's lips, coaxing gently: "Your Highness is very drunk today, if you don't drink sober soup tomorrow morning, you will be drunk." Headache. Besides, sister Qiu Ju has worked hard for an hour, come~ I will feed you."

Nangong Jingnv opened her mouth obediently as she watched Qi Yan's well-articulated hands.

The pretty face wrinkled in one place, and finally swallowed the second spoonful and handed it to her mouth, and opened her mouth again.

When the bowl of soup bottomed out, Nangong Jingnv hugged Qi Yan's arm, rubbed her forehead against her shoulder, and said coquettishly, "Mm~ I won't drink~."

Qi Yan: "There is only one bite left."

"Don't drink it~, it tastes so disgusting, I'm going to throw up if I drink it again!"

But Qi Yan insisted: "The sober soup comes according to the dosage, Your Highness should finish it."

Seeing that being coquettish was ineffective, Nangong Jingnv looked at Qi Yan angrily, but in the end she couldn't resist and took the last sip.

Qi Yan put down the empty bowl and said seriously: "From now on, if His Highness drinks like this again, he will drink two bowls of hangover soup."

Nangong Jingnv suddenly understood that Qi Yan was "punishing" herself, she murmured softly: "Careful..." But a wave of affection spread in her chest.

"What did your Highness say?"

"Well... I see! I'll drink three cups from now on~."

Qi Yan's ink-like eyebrows were raised: "Every day or every meal?"

"How can anyone drink alcohol for three meals a day! Nor do they drink every day... Naturally, it's the time of the palace banquet."

Qi Yan nodded in satisfaction and stood up.

Nangong Jingnv asked, "Where are you going?"

Qi Yan rolled up her sleeves and sniffed it seriously: "Accidentally smelled of alcohol all over, I'm going to wash up. Your Highness, go to bed first?"

Taking a bath was just an excuse, the intention was to wait for Nangong Jingnv to fall asleep before coming back, but Nangong Jingnv grabbed her by the sleeve: "I don't dislike you..."

The neckline of Nangong Jing's underwear was a little loose, and the fiery red bellyband was looming.

Three thousand blue silks were scattered, and a few bundles of hair fell across the shoulders and fell to the chest, arching a small arc at the chest.

Qi Yan looked away: the girl in front of her seems to have grown up...

"Since His Highness does not dislike it, I will blow the lamp."

"I'll accompany you." Nangong Jingnv struggled to get up.

"No need, sit down, Your Highness."

Speaking of which, Nangong Jingnv had already stood barefoot beside Qi Yan, and because her feet were floating, she simply leaned on Qi Yan's body.

Seeing Nangong Jingnv drunk like this, Qi Yan didn't forget that she couldn't see at night, and had mixed feelings again.

She didn't refuse any more, and half embraced Nangong Jingnv and blew out the lamp on the table.

The two returned to the bed, Qi Yan helped Nangong Jingnv to lie down, stood in front of the bed, took off her outer robe and put on only her inner garment, and lay down next to Nangong Jingnv.

The weather in November was already a bit chilly, Qi Yan pulled the quilt, but Nangong Jingnu took the opportunity to hug her.

It was like a small stove, dispelling all the chill in an instant.

"Your Highness?"

"Hug me~."

"it is good."

Nangong Jingnv's eyelids were heavy, but she struggled and refused to fall asleep.

It seems that the last time Qi Yan left without saying goodbye left a shadow on her, and she was afraid that it would be just a dream when she opened her eyes again.

Only by seeing and feeling with your own eyes can you be sure.

Qi Yan didn't know what Nangong Jingnu was thinking, she remembered the experience of coaxing Xiaodie to sleep when she was a child, and patted Nangong Jingnu on the back: "Sleep, Your Highness."

"Hmm." Nangong Jingnu agreed, but pulled herself together again.

"Qi Yan..."

"The minister is here."

"You won't go?"

"Your Highness, don't worry about sleeping. When you wake up, you will see the minister at first sight."

Nangong Jingnv finally couldn't suppress her drowsiness, closed her eyes and murmured, "What about after that?"

Qi Yan sighed lightly: "From now on... the minister will always be here."

"Well."

Nangong Jingnv entered the dream, but Qi Yan looked straight at the face that was close at hand.

Scenes of the past flashed before their eyes, and in a month's time it would be the second year of their marriage.

This 15-year-old girl is fading away her ignorance and youthfulness, like a plump flower bud, waiting to bloom.

Qi Yan doesn't know how long this road of revenge can last. It has been 11 years, and she has been looking forward to that day all the time.

At this moment, listening to Nangong Jingnu's even breathing, seeing her peaceful sleeping face, and feeling the scorching heat, Qi Yan really thought that time would stop at this moment.

At least, the girl in her arms is still happy, she has not been affected by hatred, nor has she tasted the pain of leaving her relatives...

Thumbs gently across the long-dried tear stains, over and over again.

His gaze was fixed on Nangong Jingnv's slightly parted lips, and her breathing stagnated.

"Your Highness..." Women, can you like women?

Qi Yan squirmed her lips, and could hear her own heartbeat.

If Nangong Jingnv found out the identity of her woman... There was a stabbing pain in her chest again.

Qi Yan put her heart on the line, held her breath and moved over.

"Qi Yan~."

Qi Yan bounced away seeing the babbling again, laughed silently, raised her hand and pinched Nangong Jingnv's nose: "Hey..."

I failed to steal incense and jade twice, the last time was a farewell thought, but this time...

It's like a kitten has walked into my heart, coming out to catch it from time to time.

It was not until dawn that I barely fell asleep.

An hour later, Nangong Jingnv woke up.She has a special constitution, the more she drinks, the earlier she wakes up.

The sharp pain in her temple made her let out a muffled groan, and when she saw Qi Yan sleeping next to her, she smiled brightly again.

Another half an hour later, Nangong Jingnv was a little bored, she twisted a bunch of hair and swept it towards Qi Yan's breath.

"Well."

Seeing Qi Yan showing signs of waking up, Nangong Jingnv felt guilty and wanted to turn her back.

Unexpectedly, Qi Yan grabs the naughty man's wrist first, and pulls towards him.

"what!"

Nangong Jingnv fell onto Qi Yan's body, their chests were intimate and they smelled each other's breaths.

Nangong Jingnu smiled guilty: "Are you awake?"

Qi Yan looked at the fluttering lips, and the longing that was finally suppressed surged out again, and he raised his hand to clasp Nangong Jingnv's waist.

Nangong Jingnv's heartbeat changed, she stared blankly at Qi Yan.

Qi Yan took a deep breath, and the hand resting on Nangong Jingnv's waist changed from clasping it with one hand to encircling it with both hands: "Your Highness... what are you doing?"

As he spoke, he tightened his arms, and the distance between the tips of their noses was only an inch.

Nangong Jingnu: "I just, I..."

Qi Yan saw that many hints were "to no avail", so he simply raised his head and planted a superficial kiss on Nangong Jingnv's lips.

Nangong Jingnv was completely stunned, and her cheeks quickly heated up.

A faint blush welled up on Qi Yan's fair cheeks, and after suppressing it all night, she finally got what she wanted, but more greed gushed out at the moment of separation.

In 19 years, she has never been like this, and she seems to be sweeter than expected...

Looking at Nangong Jingnv's expression of surprise and astonishment, Qi Yan was a little shy, and argued forcefully: "This is punishment for disturbing people's dreams... um." The last word was hidden between his lips and teeth.

Nangong Jingnv closed her eyes and took the initiative to post it.