Solitary

In the blink of an eye, Lunar New Year.On the eve of New Year's Eve, there was a heavy rain in Nanjing, and the pool in the villa was full. Several koi ran out, but they didn't follow the waterway and ran aground soon.One jumped back to the fish pond, and the other jumped back to the waterway. Going down, you will probably go to the nearby moat.A few jumped farther and farther, unable to return to the pool or find the waterway, struggling with their tails on the dry grass.

Standing in front of the floor-to-ceiling windows of the bedroom on the second floor, He Jiqing watched them find their way out, some escaped, some returned to their original places, and some died.

The remaining koi floated on the surface of the pond, shaking their heads and tails.The sky is surrounded by black clouds and fog, and the weather forecast says that there will still be heavy rain in the evening.Spring came a little early this year.

The phone rang again.He Annian made a third call.

"Brother, have you set off yet? Lunch is ready, and dad has stewed beer duck." The man in his thirties still sounded like a child.The sadness that was hit by him last time has long since disappeared.

He Jiqing replied, "Yes, soon."

He Annian sent a message on the phone: "Brother said he's coming soon!"

He Jiqing hung up the phone and went into the bathroom to take a shower.After washing, he came out naked, and the mobile phone rang a WeChat notification tone, once, twice.There was a few seconds in between.

He walked to the bed and picked up his phone.He thought it was He Annian, but he didn't think it was Gu Chunshui.

The first one is a polite New Year greeting.Wish him a happy Year of the Dog.Last year was a happy year of the rooster.Repeat a few words over and over, but not in groups.His name was typed in front: "Ji Qing, I wish you a happy Year of the Dog."

In the second article, he asked him: "I heard, are you in a relationship?" Seven words, carefully.

"Well, we're divided again." He replied quickly.

About a minute later, Gu Chunshui replied: "The squad leader said, is he a boyfriend?" He was still cautiously probing.

"Yeah, what's wrong?" He sat cross-legged on the bed naked.The black clouds outside the window were getting heavier, and there was no wind, and they were stagnant in the air.The faint sound of thunder came from afar.

"I didn't expect you to have a boyfriend." Gu Chunshui sighed softly.

"Accident?" he asked deliberately.

Before Gu Chunshui could reply, he quickly added another sentence: "Do you regret it?"

Aggressive, pressing every step of the way.The thorns that stuck in my heart back then have long since taken root.It's just that there is a lack of rain, which makes it even bigger.

Today is the best time.He Jiqing thought while looking at the black clouds outside the window.

"It's all over." Gu Chunshui replied.

"Really? I heard that you and your wife have a bad relationship. You raised a little boy outside, right?" He Jiqing mercilessly exposed him.Before meeting Lin Shu, he knew many things about Gu Chunshui like the back of his hand.There is no need to investigate, there are always a few old classmates who know the basics and gossip about each other in private.He says yours, you say his.There are true and false.Otherwise, how would Gu Chunshui know that he had a boyfriend.

"What's wrong with you today? Why did you break up?" Gu Chunshui was so clever, he threw the question back to him.

"Pretending to be a straight man or pretending to be drunk, which one is more difficult?" He Jiqing's meanness that had been hidden for many years broke out completely.

The phone automatically switched to the incoming call screen, and Gu Chunshui dared to call.He Jiqing quickly swipe to answer, it's better to confront directly.

"Ji Qing, what's wrong with you? Did that boy hurt you?" He worried carefully, trying to comfort him.

He Jiqing sneered loudly: "Gu Chunshui, take some time to take care of yourself first!"

"I'm sorry." Gu Chunshui said, "I was wrong back then."

An apology after so many years has long since lost its meaning.It finally rained heavily outside the window, and the raindrops hit the window, hysterical.He Jiqing was at a loss for a moment, he seemed to be floating in mid-air, he didn't know what he had done.

"You're so good, I'm not good enough for you." Gu Chunshui's voice instantly aged.

In three to five years, both of them will be forty.Once love, has become the past.He Jiqing fell back from mid-air, the spurred branches in his heart were rapidly withering.

"I promised you, I said yes."

The two were silent at the same time.The rain outside the window was getting heavier and heavier, and it was getting dark.He Jiqing got up from the bed, stood at the window and looked down, the pool was full again, as if another fish had come out.

"At that time, why didn't you expose me, or question me like today?" Gu Chunshui spoke first.

He Jiqing remained silent.He has nothing to say.

"You don't like me." Gu Chunshui sighed: "If you also like me, then you will expose me."

Up to now, he still has to fight back.He Jiqing laughed back angrily: "I promised you, isn't that enough?"

What else do you want from him?Stalking and pestering endlessly, like a bitter woman, crying and begging for help: "Come and love me!"

"It's all over, Ji Qing." Gu Chunshui was also exhausted.

Worrying about the past doesn't help.It's better to be quick and easy and forget all about it.Only by looking forward can we live well.

"How did you break up?" he asked.

"What does it have to do with you!" He Jiqing asked coldly.

"Are you okay?" he asked again.He is sincere.

He Jiqing hung up the phone and blocked his number and WeChat.The rain spread on the glass windows, and everything outside was blurred.He Jiqing could no longer see the world clearly.

There was a sudden thunder outside, as if exploding the world.With blood and flesh, a thorn was pulled out.There is a bigger one!From He Jiqing to the conversation with Lin Shu, from the moment they met, the conversation between the two has been there.From stranger to familiarity, never love to deep love, every word and every word was like a knife, cutting He Jiqing's heart.He clicked on his WeChat and clicked "Add to Blacklist", but his fingers trembled and he couldn't click "OK".

Lin Shu was a bigger thorn that pierced his heart.It took him so many years to pull out Gu Chunshui's thorn.What about Lin Shu?

There was another thunder outside, louder than before.The whole house seemed to be shaken.He Jiqing was a little dizzy.He is already desperate, let the thorn rot, rot his heart, and rot his body.

But, it really hurts.Do you want to spend the rest of your life in such pain?He Jiqing stood naked in front of the mirror, examining himself in the mirror.A body that exercises regularly looks healthy and plump.The inside is full of holes and broken.

God is really fair. He gave him everything, but he did not give it to someone who truly loved him.

The phone rang again.This time it's He Annian.

"Brother, it's raining heavily outside, and the thunder is so loud. The meal is ready, are you almost there?" He asked obliquely.

"Eat, I'll go there at night." He Jiqing was very tired.

He Annian was very sensitive, so he could tell he was wrong.

"Brother, what's wrong with you?"

"It's nothing. I suddenly have something to deal with. I'll go there at night."

He Jiqing hung up the phone, he was powerless to deal with He Annian.He turned up the heat in the house to the highest, he was sleepy and wanted to sleep.Only in his dream can he see Lin Shu.He has been in the dream, killing him many times.This time, he didn't want to kill him, he asked him: "Can you come back? Come back to me, I miss you so much!"

Unfortunately, he woke up before dreaming of Lin Shu.One after another, very urgent.He opened his eyes sadly, and saw a drenched He Annian standing in front of his bed, his face was covered with water, and the knees of his trousers were still stuck to mud.

"I called you, but you turned off the phone." He Annian's eyes were red, as if he had cried.

He Jiqing sat up on the bed clutching his forehead, "How did you get in?"

"Over, over the wall. You can't hear me calling you." He Annian wiped the water off his face.

"what time is it?"

"It's past four o'clock."

I slept for almost six hours, and had many short, messy dreams. I dreamed that I was walking alone in the mountains in the countryside before I was seven years old. I also dreamed that I was a model for others in junior high school... I dreamed about everything, but I didn’t dream about Lin Shu. .He Jiqing rubbed his temples.

Seeing him sad, He Annian asked, "Brother, are you okay?"

"Go take a shower, find a suit of clothes and change yourself." He Jiqing closed his eyes and continued rubbing his temples.

He Annian didn't move, He Jiqing opened his eyes and looked up: "Go, I'm fine."

He Annian picked out a set of sportswear, and walked into the bathroom in three steps.He washed it quickly, and when he came out, He Jiqing was still sitting on the bed, staring out the rainy window in a daze.

"Brother—" he called softly.

After waiting for a long time, He Jiqing slowly turned his head, "The rain is lightening!"

The dark clouds are gone, and the sky is bright again.The trees and houses in the distance have been washed clean.

"Brother, let's go home and eat." He Annian said.

He Jiqing nodded: "Okay."

The He family's reunion dinner was as rich as ever.

A family of four gathered around a table, He Xiatian smiled and prepared to serve wine, Sun Xiang served soup for everyone, He Anian turned down the volume of the TV a little, and the countdown to the Spring Festival Gala was about to begin.He Jiqing stared blankly at the dishes on the table, and the clip of Lin Shu going home with him last year kept flashing in his mind.Lin Shu who is nervous, Lin Shu who is shy, Lin Shu who is cautious, Lin Shu who talks eloquently when it comes to tea...

In a blink of an eye, almost a year has passed.He can hardly dream of him!

Sun Xiang put the soup bowl in front of him, "Ji Qing, this is your favorite old duck soup. Your dad has been cooking it all day!"

He Jiqing raised his eyelids and looked at her, "Thank you."

"I didn't even let me drink a sip at noon!" He Annian complained loudly on purpose.

"You don't like to drink!" Sun Xiang glared at him.

He Jiqing reluctantly twitched the corners of his mouth, took a sip of the soup, the taste of the duck meat in the soup was stewed in, it was fragrant but not greasy, "It's delicious!"

He Annian hurriedly drank a big mouthful, but was burned, and exaggeratedly shouted with his tongue out: "I'm scalded to death!"

He Xiatian scolded him while handing him ice and sprite: "You deserve it!"

On TV, the performers of the Spring Festival Gala were celebrating the New Year together. He Jiqing cheered up when he heard "Happy New Year".He got up and offered to pour wine for everyone.He first said: "It's New Years again, let's touch one first!"

He Annian hastily agreed: "Touch one!"

The sound of four red wine glasses touching each other was clear and crisp.He Jiqing's mind flashed again, Lin Shu clinked glasses with everyone here like this back then.He is not good at drinking, he can blush with just one sip.

"I wish my parents a healthy and happy new year, I wish my brother all the best, and the new book is a big seller!" He Annian said first.

"I hope everyone has a good New Year!" He Xiatian laughed.

"I hope everyone is well!" Sun Xiang looked at everyone: "Ji Qing's career is developing smoothly, and Annian, hurry up and find a girlfriend and start a family soon!"

"Okay, everyone!" He Annian quickly finished his drink and sat down.

He Jiqing was still in a daze, but He Annian said to him, "Brother—"

"Happy New Year to everyone!" He Jiqing said simply, before finishing his glass of wine.