Solitary

The female voice of the subway is announcing the station: "The next stop, the terminal station Jingtian Road Station, open the door on the right, passengers who want to get off, please pay attention..."

Lin Shu stood by the door with her backpack in her arms, leaning on the armrest and looking down at the new white sneakers on her feet, as well as the new jeans, the new thick coat, and the newly cut hair. Everything was new. An appointment with the uncle named Qing on Douban.He was surprised that Qing actually took a fancy to his ID photo.

When the terminal arrived, Lin Shu walked out of the subway station with her bag on her back.It was getting dark outside and the temperature was starting to drop.On the side of the road are newly planted sycamores that have not yet grown up, and the bare twigs point to the sky.A gust of cold wind blew, he buttoned up his denim jacket, followed the navigation to find the bus stop, and it took four stops to get to that person's neighborhood.

There are very few people in the bus, and there are advertisements for Kunqu opera performances on the bus TV. In December, Nanjing Museum Theater performs performances every afternoon, and the ticket price is cheap.A clip of the performance was shown on TV, and the actress sang sadly and eloquently: "It's a beautiful day, but who knows how to enjoy the beauty?"

Outside the car window are strange roads, strange houses, and strange people.Places that have never been to are also unfamiliar in Nanjing.Lin Shu suddenly had some regrets. He didn't know what the other party's real name was or what he looked like, so he agreed to the other party recklessly and went to the appointment alone.He looked at his own shadow in the window and laughed at himself as crazy.

Half an hour later, the bus arrived at the stop, and Lin Shu got off the bus. When she looked up, she could see the huge golden lettering "Yanming Mountain Villa" at the gate of the opposite community.He slowly crossed the road and stood at the gate of the community.I found that the community has access control, and you have to swipe your card to enter.

A middle-aged security guard in a neat black uniform in the security booth asked him, "Are you looking for someone?"

He nods.The security guard asked: "Who are you looking for? Which building do you live in?"

He couldn't even answer, Qing didn't say anything, and he didn't ask.All I know is that he lives in Yanming Villa.He opened WeChat, clicked on the conversation with Qing, and there were only a few words in it.It was Qing who added him first.

"Hi, I'm Mumu from Douban."

"Hi, I'm Qing."

"Want to meet?" He asked first.

"Okay." The other party agreed.

"where do we meet?"

"My house, can I?"

"Yes. Can you do it tomorrow?"

"Okay. Yanming Villa."

He hesitated again.If you return at this moment, there are many reasons, "the school has an urgent matter", "the club has an activity", "the class meeting is going to be held suddenly"...any one is fine.Even if there is no reason, the other party can't say anything.

While he was hesitating, the other party sent a message first: "Are you leaving?"

"I'm here, at the gate of the community." He finally chose not to escape.

"Building 3, Area C, He Jiqing, you can come in after you register at the security office." He sent the specific address and name.

He Jiqing is also a nice name.Lin Shu took a deep breath, registered at the security office, and entered the community.

The complex is all detached villas.The greening is very good, and there are thick sycamores on both sides of the sidewalk.The villas are sparsely distributed, and almost every villa is planted with climbing vines that climb the wall. The leaves turn red in winter, which is very beautiful.Many villas do not seem to be permanently resident.He followed the signage of the community and climbed up the slope to Area C, and climbed another set of steps to find the 3rd building.Standing in front of the carved iron gate, Lin Shu looked back and saw the whole community in a panoramic view.He raised his hand above the white doorbell button, hesitated for a long time before pressing it.

"Jingle-jingle-jingle-"

Triple-click.Lin Shu's heart began to beat faster when he heard the bell ringing inside the iron gate.

The small door on the side of the iron gate opened slowly, and Lin Shu walked in through it.The small door closed slowly again.He glanced back, turned around and walked in on the withered grass.Outside is a yard with several tall red maple trees, and there is a swimming pool next to it, with fallen leaves of red maple floating on the water.The appearance of the villa is different from other villas in the community. It is square and square, with two floors staggered, one floor is light gray and the other is light white, which has a sense of design.There is a row of floor-to-ceiling windows on the first floor, and the lights are turned on, and the warm yellow lights light up the courtyard.Behind the floor-to-ceiling windows is a light-colored couch and a piano, and behind it is a whole wall of bookshelves filled with books, just like the photos in the post.Lin Shu climbed a few more steps and finally stood at the main entrance.

The door has been opened, and the man is standing by the door, tall and slender, wearing light-colored home clothes, and wearing gold-rimmed glasses.He called him: "Mumu." His voice was low and gentle.

Lin Shu stared at him blankly, only to hear his heart beating like thunder.It stopped and jumped again, and he felt short of breath.

"I'm He Jiqing." He stretched out his hand to him, it was big with long fingers.

He took half a step back and looked back at the door.He looked down at the new shoes under his feet, his face was so hot that he was unconscious.He wanted to run away, but couldn't move.

He never thought that He Jiqing would look like this, like a movie star.He didn't dare to look at him directly, it felt like a dream, and his mind was dizzy.

The young boy stood at the door with his head bowed, not coming in for a long time.When He Jiqing saw his red neck and ears, he thought it was cute.He asked him gently: "Do you want to come in?"

The boy looked up, with a fair face, slender eyes, plain but regular features, much better looking than the ID photo he sent, proving his feeling was right.He blushed and said, "Yes."

He turned sideways and made a "please" gesture to the boy.

Lin Shu was changing shoes, and He Jiqing had already walked in, and asked him as he walked, "Mumu, do you want water or a drink?"

"My name is Lin Shu, Shuangmulin, comfortable and comfortable." He put on cloth slippers and followed behind him: "Just call me Lin Shu."

He Jiqing turned around and smiled slightly: "You can call me Ji Qing."

Lin Shu quickly lowered her head, not daring to look at him more.When he took a look, he blushed.

"Lin Shu, do you want water or a drink?" He Jiqing asked him again.

"Water is fine." Lin Shu looked away.

He Jiqing smiled: "Are you nervous?"

Lin Shu glanced at him cautiously, nodded: "Well, a little bit."

"First time?" He Jiqing turned around and continued to move forward.

I don't know what kind of first time he asked.Lin Shu held back his panic, and blushed in response: "Yes."

"It's my first time too." He Jiqing said.

"Huh?" He couldn't believe it.

"This is the first time I'm looking for friends on Douban." He Jiqing continued.

Lin Shu exhaled silently, it turned out that this was what he asked.

The two walked to the lobby with French windows, He Jiqing pointed to the sofa: "You sit first."

Lin Shu sat on the sofa and found that the sofa was very long, wider than it looked from the outside, with graceful and soft lines at the corners.The soles of the feet are covered with plush carpets of cream color, there is no coffee table, and the red maple in the grass outside the window is in front of you, like a giant painting.

He Jiqing brought water and red wine.He put it directly on the carpet and sat down cross-legged.Lin Shu followed his example and also sat down cross-legged.He Jiqing handed him water, and he took it and said thank you in a low voice.

He Jiqing asked him: "Do you like watching movies?"

He shook his head: "I don't usually see much."

"Then what do you like?" He Jiqing asked.

Lin Shu thought for a long time, and replied uncertainly: "Huahua?"

"You know how to draw?" He Jiqing poured himself a glass of red wine.

"The grades in high school are not good enough, so I only learned it for the university entrance examination." Lin Shu smiled shyly. He only knows how to draw, not good at drawing.He only started learning in the second year of high school, and when he arrived at university, more than half of the students in his class were better at drawing than him.

"Apart from painting?" He Jiqing asked again.

Lin Shu shook his head slowly, it was not the first time he found himself bored.

"Then let's watch a movie!" He Jiqing said.

Lin Shu nodded: "OK"

He Jiqing picked up the small white remote control and pressed it against the floor-to-ceiling window, and the black curtain was slowly lowered.On the roof behind the couch, the projector unfurls like a robot.The room was dimmed, and the projector cast a beam of light onto the curtain.

The movie started, it was a foreign movie.The cheerful piano music kicked off, and the title of the movie translated into Chinese is "Call Me by Your Name".

He Jiqing said: "This is a movie adapted from a novel, have you seen it?"

Lin Shu still shook his head, he hadn't seen anything.He Jiqing smiled, leaned back on the sofa, raised the red wine glass, the red liquid flowed into his throat, and his Adam's apple bulged up and down.He stared at his elongated neck, and his fine jaw.

He Jiqing tilted his head to look at him: "Do you want to drink?"

He hesitated and said yes.He poured him the wine, and he took the glass and drank the whole glass in one gulp.

He Jiqing smiled, and poured him another half a glass: "Drink it slowly, it will keep you going."

Lin Shu took a deep breath, turned her head and concentrated on watching the movie.It was only after watching that he realized that this is a gay movie, and the main character is a teenager and a young man.

The story takes place in Italy in the 80s, and the scenery is beautiful.

Men are attracted to teenagers, and teenagers have a crush on men.The two were riding bicycles on a country road, and their feelings slowly fermented.By the deserted pond, the boy and the man kissed for the first time, and the boy licked the man's lips with his tongue.

Lin Shu had never seen a gay movie before, this scene was very shocking to him, he lowered his head, not daring to look at the screen again.But the kissing sound of the actors in the movie was clearly heard in his ears, and there was a crackling sound in his head, and there was a fire in his body, which burned his cheeks hot.He saw He Jiqing's legs slowly approaching in the changing light and shadow on the carpet.His hand was on the back of his hand, and it was hot and hot.

His shoulders were pressed against his.Lin Shu has never been so close to a stranger of the same sex, even with very few friends and relatives.He could clearly smell He Jiqing's body, a cold plant bitterness, probably some kind of perfume.He Jiqing turned his head to look at him, and he raised his head to meet his gaze.There was a gentle light in the other party's beautiful eyes.He took the initiative to get closer, imitating the young actor in the movie, and kissed the corner of his pretty mouth.

This is his first kiss.He only stayed at the corner of the other's soft lips for less than three seconds, and then quickly left.Before he could fully retreat, the back of his head was pulled, his eyes widened, and he saw He Jiqing's handsome face standing in front of his eyes, with raging desire written in his beautiful eyes.The two can smell their breath.

He Jiqing closed his eyes, he saw the other's eyelashes, thick and curly.When his lips were pried open, he finally closed his eyes too.This is the real kiss, with the moisture of the lips and tongue, and the smell of alcohol.

He Jiqing's kiss was not gentle, but filled with repressed impulse and ambition to conquer the city.Probably no one would believe that no one had ever kissed him proactively like the boy in his arms, with his admiration and devotion.He loves it.

He Jiqing put his hand in from his waist.

The boy who was kissed opened his wet eyes and pressed his hand that was walking in: "No."

The boy pushed him away and put his face in his hands: "I'm going back to school."

The boy's voice was very soft, and he didn't speak.The boy got up, ran a few steps outside, came back again, put down the wine glass in his hand, took the schoolbag from the sofa, and fled like the wind.

The movie was still going on, the boy had a nosebleed, and the man pressed his feet.The boy touched the hexagram necklace around the man's neck and said, "I used to have one like this."

He Jiqing has watched this movie more than ten times since it was released abroad.The translation and subtitles for this version at home are done by himself.He watched it alone and didn't need translation and subtitles, but he thought that if someone else came, maybe he could watch it together.