Solitary

Li Hua didn't come back until midnight.

Lin Shu slept very lightly, and had many intermittent dreams. In the dream, he had dinner with He Jiqing, quarreled with Li Hua, and even dreamed of Lin Jian's woman, who had a kind face and asked him kindly: "Lin Shu, can I be your mother?"

He answered "Yes", and then he was awakened by his answer, and also heard the sound of Li Hua opening the door and entering the room. After she entered the room, there was no movement.He called "Em", but no one answered him.

He got up from the bed and went to the living room.The living room was not turned on, and the light from the billboard of the opposite building shone in. Li Hua on the sofa had a gloomy expression.

He didn't speak, Li Hua looked over, his voice was cold: "I won't let them go!"

He turned on the light in the living room, Li Hua's hair was disheveled, his makeup was all over, black eye shadow was all over his face, and the corners of his mouth were covered with scratched lipstick marks.There are mud marks everywhere on the red coat.She dressed up and went out today.She was a queen when she went out, and a defeated soldier when she came back.How could she be willing? !

He asked her, "Did he hit you?"

Li Huahong sneered coldly: "How dare he?!"

He no longer wanted to ask her why she was in such a mess, and went into the kitchen to boil water, while Li Hua cursed Lin Jian and his vixen loudly outside, with gritted hatred.

"I thought he was looking for some kind of fairy. It doesn't look very good. It looks like it's for sale. He doesn't even know how to play with women. It's rubbish!"

"Your father and that old vixen definitely didn't just hook up. They should have been together for a long time. Your father and her may have children. Fortunately, your name is written on the house at home!"

"If it wasn't for his help today, I would definitely kill that vixen! Your father is just a worthless, heartless man, and that vixen will not have a good time following him!"

"It's absolutely impossible for me to fulfill them. I won't make it easy for them!"

Lin Shu came out with boiling water, and saw Li Hua gritted his teeth ferociously, looking like he was going to eat people.She must make a killing, otherwise she will never have peace in her life.

Lin Shu took the tea leaves and made tea with boiling water.He put the brewed tea in front of Li Hua, she picked up the teacup and drank it down, then put the teacup heavily on the tea tray.

"Mum, are you happy?" Lin Shu filled the teacup and asked her in a low voice.

"What nonsense are you asking? Your father is going to divorce me. You ask me if I am happy. Is your brain flooded?" Li Hua glared at him angrily.In her eyes, this son of hers was silent, he couldn't fight back when he was beaten or scolded, he didn't look like a man.Thinking about useless things and saying useless words all day long, always secretly against her, all of which were taught by Lin Jian.Thinking of this, she became even more angry, and began to scold Lin Jian again, scolding him for not teaching him well.

"I worked hard outside, earning money and spending it with you. Look at what your father taught you! You're not like a man! Whoever marries you will be unlucky in the future."

"You were taught badly by your father. You are not allowed to contact him anymore, and you are not allowed to make phone calls. Wechat is blocked. Let's see how long he can be free. I don't want him to die." People are sent to the end!"

"I'm asking you, have you been happy with my dad for so many years?" Lin Shu interrupted her.If Li Hua was more careful, he could see the clenched fists on his side and the straight back.He will never be able to understand why in Li Hua's eyes, this world is always so useless.

"If it wasn't for the force of the family and the force of the matchmaker, who would have married him?!" Li Hua snorted coldly.

"Have you never tried to find someone you really like?" Lin Shu looked at his mother seriously. She was unkempt, her face was dirty, and her eyes were red with hatred.

For a moment, Lin Shu saw a trace of confusion in Li Hua's eyes.But it was only for a moment, and immediately Li Hua began to scold him even more angrily.

"What are you asking, Lin Shu, what are you thinking about every day? Can't you think of something useful? How to get into the civil service, how to work and live in the future, how to make money? Do you think you can rely on My whole life? Can you live without me?"

"I really don't understand you. You are just like your dad. Can you eat your favorites? Can you eat your love? You talk about these nonsense things every day. I think you are watching too many Taiwanese TV dramas. It's gone, the brains are all stupid, one is more stupid than the other!"

"Lin Shu, listen to me, stop thinking about these useless things in the future, you must get me admitted to the civil service!"

She doesn't believe in love, or in other words, she has never thought about this issue, and has never felt the joy of being loved.She couldn't face or understand such a problem.She just lives according to the routine. When others get married, she also wants to get married; when other people have children, she also wants to have children.As for why she wanted to get married and why she wanted to have children, she never thought about it.For the first time, Lin Shu felt that she was very pitiful.

"What if I don't pass the exam?" Lin Shu asked her lightly.

"What do you mean you can't pass the exam? You give me back before you take the exam. You really are exactly like your father. You have no backbone at all!" Li Hua threw the teacup in his hand angrily, almost hitting Lin Shu on the face .

Lin Shu looked at the broken teacup on the ground and smiled wryly: "Mum, I mean if, not necessarily, what if I don't pass the exam? Are you going to kill me?"

He looked at Li Hua, in his calm eyes, there was pity for her and the helplessness and despair of not being able to decide his own life.

This kind of Lin Shu made Li Hua very strange, and she was frightened by his eyes.But she still insisted on maintaining the authority of the parents and scolded him for being outrageous.

"If you can't pass the civil service exam, then go to a public institution. Your uncle has some connections, see if he can help you."

"I can find a job by myself, can't I?" It turns out that you don't have to be a civil servant, Lin Shu raised a glimmer of hope, and asked tentatively.

"What good job can you find yourself? What good job can you find with your major? Lin Shu, do you feel like your father that no matter what I do, I am harming you? What's wrong with being a civil servant? What's wrong with the public institution, why do you always think about going out to find a job by yourself? What are you thinking?!"

Sure enough, Li Hua retorted.Lin Shu looked down at the broken teacup on the ground and smiled wryly.He knew that no matter how hard he struggled, he couldn't escape her Wuzhishan.

"Lin Shu, if I can have one more child, I won't just count on you."

Lin Shu's attitude made Li Hua feel tired.She also didn't understand what she did wrong, why Lin Jian and Lin Shu wanted to fight against her one by one.She has paid so much for this family, but no one understands what she has done. Everyone wants to run away from her!She refused to let it go.Lin Jian can't, and Lin Shu can't.

"Let me tell you, Lin Shu, don't think about those useless things anymore. Mom will only do you good, not harm you. Just listen to me obediently, it's always right. Your father looks like that , it is impossible for me to rely on him. From now on, I can only rely on you, you have to be more confident."

Li Hua didn't want to push Lin Shu too hard, she would rely on him in the future.It was rare for her to change her strategy and persuade him earnestly.But such persuasion, for Lin Shu, is tantamount to being sentenced to death.She lost a man's sense of security, and wanted to grab it from him again.She had been his magic spell before, and now she was his noose.

Lin Shu silently looked at the billboard outside the balcony. On it was an advertisement for KTV, with the words "Sing for Life".When in his life was he happy?His birth was nothing but the product of adults trying to complete their tasks.His future is just a vassal of Li Hua's life.

Seeing that he was silent, Li Hua knew that he couldn't talk to him any more, so he got up silently and entered the room.

Lin Shu sat on the sofa all night, the sky outside turned from black to white, and the faint sunlight illuminated the room.The billboards also turned off their bright red lights at dawn.

Li Hua didn't close the door when she slept. She slept soundly and snored heavily.In her world, there is no trouble that cannot be solved.She is stubborn, tough, and doesn't give up easily.She always wants to be in control.Lin Shu thought he was ridiculous, and told Lin Jian to be merciful.Li Hua will not show mercy to anyone.

Lin Shu walked to the balcony and looked down.

Sanitation workers are sorting out trash cans, and vendors selling breakfast have already lined up.Students and office workers who got up early rushed to the bus platform in a hurry.When the bus arrives at the stop, some people get on the bus and some people get off the bus, in order.

The bougainvillea on the roadside is still luxuriant, and the firecrackers are blooming more and more colorfully.The weather in Xiamen today is very good, blue sky and white clouds, bright and sunny.

Another seemingly peaceful day.Those bad things are hidden in people's hearts.Not easy to open, not easy to be seen.

Lin Shu turned on his phone and checked the calendar. He didn't have much time.The brightest period of his life will soon come to an end.He has to hurry up and create more memories that will last him the rest of his life.

He sent He Jiqing a WeChat message: "When school starts, you can accompany me on a graduation trip, okay?"

He Jiqing came back quickly, obviously he hadn't slept yet, and worked all night.

"Okay, where do you want to go?"

Lin Shu thought about it seriously and said, "Tibet."

He knew that it was not the best time to go to Tibet after school started. It was freezing everywhere and the oxygen was thin, which was a great challenge for people.His roommates have already been there, and they all said that it is very spiritual to make a wish there.He is going to make a wish, hurry up and make a wish.He can't wait any longer.

"Okay." He Jiqing has been to Tibet many times, and he has visited every place in Tibet that can be reached by manpower.But every time he went to Tibet in the past, he was the only one.This time is different, he has Lin Shu.As long as he is with Lin Shu, he is willing to go to Tibet even a hundred times.

"Then it's settled!" Lin Shu said.

"Well, then it's settled." He Jiqing sent a happy smile.

Before class in the morning, Lin Shu went to a stationery store and picked out the most expensive picture books.Zhao Hai saw his drawing book and asked him secretly: "Are you planning to stop listening to the class?"

"I can't pass the exam anyway." Lin Shu has given up on himself.So what if you can't pass the civil service exam?There are also business units!Li Hua will not let him idle.

Zhao Hai felt that what he said was very reasonable, so he also painted along with him.

Lin Shu diligently painted all kinds of He Jiqing, and also began to actively prepare for the strategy of entering Tibet.He drew a detailed strategy in the form of pictures and texts, with more than ten pages.He sent it to He Jiqing, and He Jiqing was amazed, proudly showing it to Jiang Chang and the others.

"In this way, you can publish a book, make a picture book or something." Jiang Chang said after reading it.Lin Shu's painters are not very good, but they have a kind of simplicity, meticulousness and agility, which is very touching.

Everyone else felt good too.

He Jiqing was inspired and sent the picture to the editor of the publishing house.After the editor read it, he also thought it was good, and asked who the artist was.He Jiqing said, "My boyfriend."

After listening to the single dog editor, he felt hurt ten thousand points.He asked He Jiqing, "Do you have any plans to publish a book?"

He Jiqing thought for a while, and replied to the editor: "I have to ask him first."