my joann

Chapter 38

"Imagine a house at the end of the road and you walk past it. Tell me, what kind of house is that?"

Joan breathed gently, and answered after a while, "A concrete room like a box or container, gray with only one floor."

"Go inside and see what's inside."

Joan frowned, and said after a while, "I can't get in, there is no door here."

"Yes, you have to look for it carefully." Ren Youning said and recorded it in the notebook very quickly.

After a while, Joan finally found the door, "I found it and went in."

"What's inside? You may see some strange things, even things that don't exist in the world. Don't be afraid, as long as you see them, tell me."

"Uh, here seems to be a classroom with a lot of desks and chairs. There is a door and a window, and the windows are full of dust and dark."

"Would you try cleaning the windows?"

"I tried to clean the windows..." Joan whispered, "It's done..."

Joan's hands were clenched suddenly, "There seem to be people outside, a lot of people. The windows are dirty again, and now they can't see inside."

Ren Youning was about to speak, but Qiao An's voice became a little frightened.

"There are also a lot of people at the door, and they started knocking on the door! What should I do?" Joan's face changed suddenly, his whole body became stiff, and he clenched his hands tightly.

"Relax your shoulders, hands. Yes, relax," Ren Youning said.

"Now, do you see if there's a peephole in the door? You look through it and see who's out there."

"There's a hole in the door, but they're knocking so loudly that I can't look."

"Relax, I know you are scared, but you have to look, try to see who is outside, if you don't see clearly, they will keep knocking on the door." Ren Youning didn't intend to let Qiao An go, "Relax, you just have to take a look."

"I leaned over to look..." Joan became terrified again, "Ah!!"

"What did you see?"

"There's an eye there, staring at me...I've backed away and can't see it anymore. I wanted to hide, but the noise outside made me very irritable and scared." Joan said, shoulders shrunk vigorously.

"Relax, let your shoulders rest. It's just an eye, you go and see what he can do to you?"

Joan's shoulders relaxed, and his breathing became much lighter.

"I'm watching..." Joan said, "He hasn't moved, just looking at me like this..."

Ren Youning didn't speak, and after a while, Qiao An relaxed a lot, and the muscles on his face were no longer tense.

"He's gone without knocking!" Joan said.

"Are the others still there? Other people outside the window and at the door." Ren Youning asked.

"The people outside the window are gone, but the people at the door are still there, and they are very noisy. They can't see me, as if they don't know I'm inside."

"Can you hear what they're saying?"

Joann paused, then said, "No, I can't hear you through the door, but it's really loud, and I feel like they've found me in there, like they're talking about me...they're knocking on the door again! "

"Try to open the door and see what they are looking for you to do." Ren Youning said.

"No, I can't do it." Joan said, "I'm afraid, there are many people outside."

"Qiao An, relax your shoulders, let go of your hands, don't let them hold each other tightly." Ren Youning said, "It's okay, open the door and have a look, if you don't open the door, they will keep knocking and making noise, You try to open it and see what the hell they're going to do."

Joan seemed to be a little confused, and after a pause, he said, "Then I'll open the door now."

"Everyone outside came in, as if they were going to class..." Joan said.

"Then what did they do to you?" Ren Youning asked.

"No..." Joan said.

His expression was tense, and after easing his breathing, he whispered, "They seem to be ghosts, they pass through my body, I can pass through them, and they can pass through me, like shadows, like air, like Something that doesn't exist."

His tone suddenly became very sad, "It's like I don't exist."

Ren Youning paused his pen, licked his lips, and said slowly, "Then can you hear what they are saying now?"

Joan didn't speak, and his expression gradually returned to calm.

After a while, he said, "Okay, most of them were talking about going to school, exams, cafeteria, group discussions, etc... and some people said that the lights in the classroom were out and it was dark."

"Are you still afraid?"

"I'm not so scared anymore," Joan said.

"Is there still a lot of dust on the windows?" Ren Youning asked.

"Well, yes, the dust makes it look so dark in here..." Joan said.

"Try to wipe it down, wipe it clean and let the sunlight in."

"I don't want... there are a lot of people..." Joan said.

"If you don't wipe it, it will always be dark here, and the people inside will always talk about it."

"Okay, I went to clean the window, the sun came in..." Joan said, "Ah..."

"What's wrong?" Ren Youning asked.

"They can see me now, they're all talking about me. It's like I'm not doing well, I'm a failure, I'm a weirdo... I'm a little sick, can I stop rubbing?"

"Did you wipe it clean?"

Joan looked sad, "No."

"Then keep wiping until you do it clean. You can't do things halfway."

"But they're all talking about me," said Joanne.

"Your job is to clean the windows, clean them with your heart, and turn your attention to cleaning the windows, every movement you make, every inch you clean."

Joan stopped talking, but gradually, he stopped being tense and seemed to relax a lot.

"I wiped it clean." Finally, Joan said.

"Very well, now you look at this room again."

"They're still in the room, they're all looking at me, they're all talking non-stop, they're walking towards me, surrounding me. I want to run away, I have to run away!" Joan's voice choked, her breathing was heavy, her body was light trembling.

"I'm so dizzy, so scary, don't get any closer, I can't get any closer..."

"Hush! Qiao An, calm down! Listen!" Ren Youning suddenly said, "Listen carefully, what are they talking about?"

The room was so silent that not even breathing could be heard.

After a long time, Joan said, "Are they thanking me? They said, thank me for cleaning the windows..."

Ren Youning put the notebook on his knees and fastened the cap.

"Joan, open your eyes now and tell me what you saw and heard."

Joan's eyelashes trembled slightly, and she slowly opened her eyes. There was a little blur at first, but she soon recovered.

"I saw the lamp, the water glass, and you, and I heard the ticking of the clock," Joan said.

"Very good, Qiao An, you did a very good job, how do you feel now?" Ren Youning asked.

"I feel..." Qiao An tilted his head slightly to the left and said, "It's very easy."

After thinking about it, he said again, "It's very easy."

Joan sat up and asked curiously, "What was that just now? What guidance? It's amazing, I feel..." Joan shook his head, "I feel very good, great."

"This is called image guidance, or image dialogue."

"What are those I saw just now?" Joan asked.

"To put it simply, this method will intuitively reveal your inner fears in the form of images. To a certain extent, it will help you face up to your fears, change your cognition, and enrich your heart." Ren Youning said.

"Then what do all the things I see represent?"

"It stands to reason that I generally don't do analysis, but if you want to listen, then I'll tell you something. At first you couldn't get in the house, maybe it was because of some resistance to it, and it was also the fear of the unknown, and the psychological pressure on yourself. Avoidance. That's normal, you're great and found the entrance quickly."

"Afterwards, the people outside the window and the door, according to your social fear, these people are one of the sources of your fear. The world behind the door is safe, and you hide in it and don't want to go out. Including I asked you to wipe it at the beginning. The window, after someone appeared outside, the window immediately became so dirty that no one could be seen."

"These are your protections for yourself. But Joan, in the face of fear, stepping over is the only way out."

Joan nodded thoughtfully.

"And Qiao An, you are very brave. You dare to challenge your own fears, face your own fears, and overcome your own fears." Ren Youning gave a thumbs up.

Joan smiled shyly, "If you don't ask me to do it, I definitely won't dare."

Ren Youning shook his head and said, "Joan, I just told you the method, and you are the one who really did it."

"Go on, let me ask you a few questions, Joan, first, do you know why the eyes in the cat's eyehole left at the end?"

"Uh..." Joan bit his lower lip, "He seems a little scared of me?"

The corners of Ren Youning's lips curled up slightly, "Then what did you think of it?"

Joan thought about it again, not sure, "Not only am I afraid of him, but he is also afraid of me. Many things are not as scary as I imagined...?"

"Then Joan, when you are cleaning the windows, how do you feel when there are so many people watching you behind you?"

"I was very scared, flustered, and wanted to run away."

"But what happens when you focus on cleaning the windows?"

Joan's expression changed, and then he said in disbelief, "I'm not afraid anymore, I'm not afraid anymore?!"

"Joann, focus is power. Or to put it another way, it's diversion. Where your attention is, your energy, your emotions, your whole being goes. At this point, you're no longer afraid. "

"Studies have shown that the connection between the amygdala and the frontal lobe of the brain in patients with social phobia is poor..." Ren Youning saw Qiao An's incomprehensible expression, smiled and changed the phrase, "When faced with many things, Your brains have to be overexcited to keep everything running smoothly and normal for you."

"In situations where you feel extreme fear, your mind is on a roller coaster."

"Today's image guidance, you did a very good job and bravely defeated your fear." Ren Youning said, "But these are all your imagination, so it is far from enough to go through this method."

"Then what else should I do?"

"In addition to image guidance, you also need to overcome yourself in real life and learn to brake lightly."

Ren Youning said jokingly, "I will help you from three aspects, so here comes your homework."

"homework?"

"Yes, starting today, go home every day before going to bed and clean the windows in your room for 10 minutes. Put your whole body into it and feel the process of your labor."

Joan nodded, this is not difficult.

"There is one more thing, that is, I need you to go outside for a walk every day." Ren Youning said.

Joan didn't dare to speak, but her face was full of resistance, wrinkled like a freshly baked bun, still smoking.

"Don't look at me like that, you have to go out and have a look. It doesn't have to be too far, just near your house. Don't wear a mask or earphones when you go." Ren Youning continued to add conditions, "Of course, you You can choose someone you trust and let him walk with you."

"Huh?" Joan looked incomprehensible.

Ren Youning shook his head with a smile, "While walking, you can keep talking to him to divert your attention. Joan, think about when you are cleaning the windows, you can definitely do it."

Joan nodded reluctantly.

"Also, this thing can be done together with the last one, which is to exercise. In addition to walking, you can go out for a run every day, or play badminton, or whatever you like."

"Oh." Joan said, he could accept exercising at home, like before.

"It's going outside to exercise, not at home." Ren Youning filled in.

Qiao An slumped her shoulders, begging to be let go.

"Can it be done?" Ren Youning asked.

Joan thought for a while and said, "I can try."

"Come on, Qiao An, the only way to overcome fear is to face it and overcome him." Ren Youning said, "Oh, by the way, there is one more thing."

"what?"

"I asked you before why you didn't want to tell your family about this, and now I want to ask you again."

Joan's expression remained the same, and without much thought, "My answer remains the same."

"Okay." Ren Youning nodded, "Then Qiao An, see you next week."

The author has something to say:

Lu Yihang: Wife, come on!Defeat the little monsters!

Joan: And win the princess?

Lu Yihang: You can only marry Princess Lu.

Joan: Someone really doesn't want FACE!

Notes of Lu's Beloved Wife 38

Even the input method will never forget my love for you.

Crossing over is the only way out. —Robert Frost

I'm sorry it took so long, but believe me it's worth it. Through these few days of study, I believe that although the BUG will still exist, it must be much less! =3=Thank you for not abandoning me!

Some plots in the imagery dialogue are adapted from some real cases, and will be marked uniformly after completion.