my joann

Chapter 35

On the fifth day after the Mid-Autumn Festival, Qiao An made an appointment to find Ren Youning.

During this period, Qiao An insisted on taking medicine every day. He did not stop the antidepressants, because Qiao An felt that the medicine was still helpful, and he was a little afraid that stopping the medicine at will would cause withdrawal reactions.

Qiao An generously let Lu Yihang see him taking it, but Lu Yihang always thought that Qiao An was taking cold medicine.

"An'an, when are you coming back today?" Qiao An told Lu Yihang two days ago that he had an appointment with a friend today.

"Not sure." Joan said, "What's wrong?"

"I see that you have taken so many days of medicine, but there is still no improvement. I want to ask whether I should wait for you to come back and take you to see a doctor."

"No, I'm almost fine." After hearing Lu Yihang's words, Qiao An realized that he had gotten carried away recently, and it would be better to eat secretly in the future.

"Really? I think you still have a bad appetite, and you always have diarrhea. Don't you really need to go and see?" Lu Yihang was still very worried.

"In fact, my stomach is not very good. Even if I don't have a cold, I often have diarrhea." Qiao An argued.

The obvious side effects of this medicine are diarrhea and drowsiness. Qiao An felt that it was time for him to find other reasons to prevaricate.

"Is it because the food at home is not to your liking? Why don't you tell me what you usually eat and what habits you have, and then ask Uncle Li and the others to pay more attention when cooking. It's not good to have diarrhea all the time. "Lu Yihang sat next to Qiao An and rubbed Qiao An's stomach.

Feeling itchy, Joan ducked back.

"No, the food is delicious now, but I have a bad appetite these days, don't worry, I'm taking medicine and I'll get better soon."

"Well, if you still don't get better in two days, I really have to take you to see it." Lu Yihang stood up, "Getting ready to go to work, shall I drop you off?"

Joan nodded, "OK."

When they were ready, they went out together.

I don't know if it's Qiao An's illusion or what, since he started taking medicine, he found that his relationship with Lu Yihang has become more natural.When Joan got along with him, he was much more relaxed than before.

The premise is that Lu Yihang doesn't have so many intimate actions, which still makes Qiao An nervous.

Qiao An still didn't explain his true intentions to Lu Yihang, every time he wanted to talk to Lu Yihang, he always wanted to procrastinate.

But why he had to delay, Joan himself couldn't explain.

Maybe it was some vanity, or maybe it was greed for Lu Yihang's feelings for him. In short, Qiao An just pretended to be stupid and didn't mention a word about this matter.

"Is it here?" Lu Yihang stopped the car and looked around.

"Well, it's here." Joan unbuckled his seat belt, "Then I'm going up, bye."

"Have fun, call me when you come back, and I'll pick you up."

Joan declined, "No, I'll just take a taxi myself."

Lu Yihang shook his head, "What should I do if my little idiot is lost again? I'd better take care of myself."

Joan had no choice but to agree, "I'm leaving, goodbye."

"Wait." Lu Yihang said.

Qiao An turned around and looked at Lu Yihang suspiciously.

Lu Yihang leaned over and pressed a kiss on Qiao An's mouth, "Okay, let's go."

With a dry face, Joan turned around, opened the car door, and ran out.

This time when he went to Ren Youning's house, Qiao An didn't prepare a gift because he came for psychological counseling.

Qiao An originally intended to be unwilling to do psychological counseling. His previous experience told him that seeing a doctor is worse than taking medicine, but Ren Youning, as a friend, has always been very concerned about this matter, and said that all he does is for his friends and will not charge.

Ren Youning said that, and Qiao An felt that if he refused again, he would be too ignorant.As for the fee, Qiao An plans to pay it to Ren Youning at that time.

It's not that he said he didn't need to give it, so he wouldn't give it.Even as Ren Youning said, they are friends, but this is what Ren Youning works for,

Don't talk about other people, Qiao An himself doesn't like those people very much, and asks him to help in the later stage for free under the guise of a friend.Not to mention whether they are familiar to that point, if everyone is familiar with Joan, then according to their theory, Joan will not be charged for doing so much work.

You don't have to live on it anymore.

Of course, if Joan voluntarily does not charge, that's another matter.Qiao An still likes to participate in the later period of public welfare.

Joan stood at the door, took two deep breaths, and then rang the doorbell.

They didn't go to Ren Youning's studio, but chose to do it at his home. First, Qiao An didn't want their identities to change into doctors and patients. Second, he had been here before. He is at ease.

Soon Ren Youning opened the door.

"Qiao An, come in quickly." Ren Youning looked like he just got up, and he was still wearing pajamas.

"excuse me."

"Sit here." Ren Youning took Qiao An to a small room, which was also strange, as soon as Qiao An walked in, she felt an indescribable sense of comfort.

Joan sat on a recliner sofa. The back of this chair was tilted backwards. It looked very comfortable, but Joan did it very neatly, and even his buttocks only sat on a small half of it.

Ren Youning came in with two glasses of water, gave one to Qiao An, and sat on another recliner.The movement is natural, and the whole body is leaned in very well.He looked at Joan's sitting posture, said nothing, and put the cup on the table next to him.

"During our conversation, can I take notes?" Ren Youning took out a notebook and shook it.

Joan was familiar with the process and nodded.

"I'm glad you're still here." Ren Youning said.

Joan nodded and took a sip of water.

"Am I the first person to help you with psychological counseling?" Ren Youning asked.

Joan paused, then shook his head.

"Oh? So have they already diagnosed you? Would you like to talk to me about these experiences?"

Qiao An looked at the water glass and wondered why this Ren Youning was so gossip, is he a professional...why is it different from the previous doctors, or is this a new routine?

Seeing that he is also very young, so enthusiastic, maybe he is his first counseling object?

It seems reasonable to think this way, but since we are friends, it is also good to chat with him a few times to increase his experience.

"Uh... my first counselor said I had social phobia, and the third one diagnosed me with mild depression based on social phobia." Joan finished.

Ren Youning snorted, nodded, and then said nothing.

Qiao An waited for a while, and found that Ren Youning really didn't seem to intend to speak.What does it mean?Qiao An was a little puzzled. Could it be that she was too nervous to do the consultation for the first time?After thinking about it, Qiao An felt that as a friend, he should help him answer the conversation.

"But I don't think I'm depressed," Joan said. "I'm having a good time."

Ren Youning still didn't intend to speak, so Qiao An had no choice but to continue, "He also prescribed antidepressants for me, but I didn't buy any... Finally, when I stopped consulting, he gave me a bottle."

This time Ren Youning spoke up, "Did you throw it away?"

Joan smiled and said, "No, I wanted to throw it away at first, and I'm not depressed. What should I do with that medicine? But later, I thought it was his kindness, so I stayed."

"It's so warm, then have you taken anti-anxiety medicine before?"

"Hmm." When it came to this topic, Joan began to get a little nervous.

"Then are you still eating?"

Qiao An looked up and looked at Ren Youning.Ren Youning held the pen and looked at him with a smile, like a pool of peaceful warm water.

At this moment, Joan felt that he was deeply trusted.

He took a deep breath, lowered his head and said, "No."

Ren Youning didn't dwell on this topic anymore, he asked the next question, "Why did you want to go to psychological counseling in the first place?"

Joan took a sip of water, pinched the cup and didn't know what to say.

After a while, he said, "I have always disliked being in contact with people, especially when there are many people."

"After graduating from university, I went to find a job, but I didn't dare to interview, and I didn't even dare to come out the door. I didn't want my parents to worry, so I went to a psychologist."

"Well, do your parents know?"

Joan shook his head, "I didn't say that."

"Did no one know until now?"

Joan thought for a while and shook his head.

Ren Youning leaned forward, "Who else knows?"

"You." Joan said.

Ren Youning smiled, then nodded again and again, "Yes, and I know. Why don't you want to tell them?"

Joan frowned. He hadn't seriously thought about this issue. He had always thought it purely and didn't want them to know.

Qiao An thought for a long time, during which Ren Youning didn't interrupt, just sat quietly by Qiao An.

"I don't want them to worry..." Joan said uncertainly, "I don't want them to think I'm different from others..." As he spoke, Joan nodded, "I don't want them to think I'm sick."

Ren Youning nodded, "I understand."

In his past experience, Qiao An has heard the phrase "I understand" many times. He used to scoff at these three words, always silently thinking that you understand.

But just now he couldn't help thinking that Ren Youning really understood what he was talking about.

It's hard to explain this feeling, but at this moment, Qiao An wanted to tell Ren Youning something more.

He carefully avoided Ren Youning's gaze, and focused his gaze completely on the water glass. With his movements, the water in the glass rippled slightly.

"I have been hiding for many years, and no one has found out. You were the first person to find out. It really scared me at the time."

"I seem to be getting worse during this period of time, and it may be that I have gone out more often. Anyway, you have seen it, and you have bumped into me several times. Actually, I don't usually go out very much, and I haven't been sick for a long time."

"Actually, it's good for someone to know. I'm hiding it from everyone alone. To be honest, I'm still a little tired. It's good to have a chat with you."

Joan took a sip of water and stopped talking.

Next to his ears was the sound of Ren Youning's pen tip scratching across the paper, and before he knew it, he was already relaxing on the sofa just like Ren Youning.

Thinking about it this way, Qiao An began to feel a little ashamed of her own judgment. It really shouldn't be judged by appearance, Ren Youning is indeed quite powerful.

"I'm also very happy to chat with you. I'm really happy today. It's an honor to be the one who knows this secret. Thank you for being willing to tell me." Ren Youning put down his notebook and looked at the time, "It's been more than an hour. This time we're almost done. Before you go back, I need to let you know a few things."

Joan nodded.

"You have done psychological counseling before, you should be clear about your rights, such as confidentiality agreements, right?" Ren Youning asked.

Joan nodded, "I know."

"Well, I won't say more. Our consultation time is one and a half hours, once a week, at the same time. You just need to come on time next week." Ren Youning stood up.

"Okay." Joan put down the cup and stood up. "Thank you."

"You're welcome, this is what I should do. I won't keep you here. Be careful on the way back."

Qiao An said that he knew, and after saying goodbye again, he left.

After going out, Qiao An realized later that Ren Youning was really serious about this matter, and he was indeed very professional, controlling the time and the distance between them very strictly.

But Joan still felt that taking medicine was better than seeing a doctor.

Even just now he intuitively didn't want Ren Youning to know that he was taking medicine.

The author has something to say:

Lu Yihang: Did you know?In fact, you can share anything with me.

Joan: So is there any secret you haven't told me?

Lu Yihang: ...

Lu Yihang: The weather is really nice today~

Notes of Lu's Beloved Wife 35

It's you before you go to bed, and it's you when you wake up.