my joann

Chapter 31

Early the next morning, Qiao An waited for Lu Yihang to leave, and went back to the old house.

After arriving home, he walked to the bedroom without hesitation and opened the closet.There were two drawers in the closet, one of which was locked, and Joann took out the key to open the drawer.

After opening it, he didn't move for a long time, just looking at the things in the drawer.

Before graduating from university, Joan was afraid of contacting people, and she hardly had much communication with people in the four years of university.Always be the first to arrive at class, sit in the corner, and be the last to leave without disturbing anyone, like a ghost.

No friends, no roommates, he left the school after the military training, looking for a house to live alone.

At that time, he didn't know that he had social phobia, or he didn't want to admit it.

After graduating from university, Qiao An failed to find a job like everyone else because of social fear.Fear of human contact, fear of a room full of people, absolutely impossible to speak in these places, even afraid to meet the interviewer.

Once he mustered up his courage and didn't run away before entering the interview room, but after entering the interview room, he couldn't control his face, and couldn't speak. He was dizzy all the way, and fled there before collapsing.

That was the closest he was to an interview.

The parents didn't know that they were troubled in this area, but they just comforted themselves, saying that there would always be work, and told him not to be sad, it would be better to take this opportunity to travel once, and he would not have so much time to work in the future.

Joan did not continue to look for a job. He told his parents that he was going to travel alone. There might be no signal in the far place, so don’t worry if he can’t be contacted. His parents agreed.But he didn't actually go anywhere, and shut himself up at home for almost a week.

It's a scary thing to think about alone.

Qiao An was bored at home, like a walking dead, and the psychological pressure caused him to collapse several times.Finally, when he turned over and got out of bed, he accidentally knocked over the photo frame at the head of the bed and broke the glass on it.

It was a photo of their family of three. Joan finally walked out of the house after sitting in front of the photo for a long time.

He went to the first psychiatrist in his life.

It is a very beautiful lady who enlightened Joan like a big sister, and let Joan know what disease he was suffering from for the first time.

After the diagnosis, Qiao An couldn't tell what he was feeling, but he just remembered that he was in a daze, took the medicine prescribed by the doctor, and returned home.

The pressure of life made him breathless. Facing the three bottles of medicine, Joan crazily smashed his pillow at home.

Then he took anti-anxiety medication for the first time.

It didn't feel good, and soon began to have severe dizziness and headaches. Qiao An once thought that he was going to die, and even suspected that the doctor was actually trying to kill him.

The side effects of the drug made Joan restless, with headaches and nausea.After a long time, it gradually weakened, but with constant diarrhea and a slight spasm in the right hand, Joan lay in bed and couldn't sleep all night.

Later, Qiao An got used to the side effects of the medicine, and also fell in love with the relief it brought him after taking the medicine.

Later, some things happened. Joan quit taking the medicine by himself, and never saw a psychiatrist again.

Honestly, it felt like hell.

This time Joan went home to get medicine.He has a good impression of Ren Youning, but as a psychiatrist, Qiao An doesn't trust her very much.He doesn't think a psychiatrist can cure him, and he can only take medicine if he wants to return to normal.

Taking medicine has a lot of side effects, but the positive force it brings is even greater.

Joan looked at the medicine in the drawer for a long time before raising his hand to take out the bottle inside.

It's been so long, and I don't know if it's expired... Qiao An was making fun of himself in his heart, trying to relax himself a bit.

The medicine was not expired, Qiao An took the medicine and went back to bed, he took out his mobile phone and sent Lu Yihang a WeChat message, explaining that he had something to leave and would go home in three days.

Then he threw the phone aside.Joan got dressed and went to the supermarket downstairs to buy some food.

He was not sure what it would be like to take the medicine again after such a long time, not sure how strong the side effects were at the beginning, and whether he could pretend that nothing happened in front of Lu Yihang.That's why he decided to stay here for the first three days and survive alone.

After returning home, Qiao An stopped hesitating and took the medicine with mineral water.Joan took two deep breaths, then went back to bed and lay down in silence.

The next step is to wait and get used to it.

Half an hour later, Joan began to feel a little dizzy. He lay on his side on the bed, blinked hard, and fought with himself as if unwilling to give in.The head started to tingle, along with some nausea.

Joan sighed, pinching the quilt to control her breathing.

After a while, the feeling of nausea intensified and I felt like vomiting.Qiao An thought silently, what I ate this morning was the steamed stuffed bun made by Uncle Li and the sweet soup cooked by Aunt Wang, they are so delicious, I must not spit them out, hold back, Qiao An!

His stomach also started to hurt, but Joan didn't care. He was still lying on the bed, but the discomfort all over his body made him a little confused.

"Coo coo coo", Joan opened his eyes, he touched his stomach, then rolled over and got out of bed.Slowly, like a weak old man.

This feeling is very familiar to Joan, he used to experience it every day.

Joann had a strong rejection reaction to the medicine the doctor prescribed to him at first, and that medicine would make Joanne fat.Afterwards, I switched to a different medicine and started to have diarrhea every day. Fortunately, my figure was maintained, and I became the weak chicken I am now.

Joan squatted in the toilet, a little regretful, the buns and sweet soup did not come out from above, but left from below.

When I go back, I have to eat more to compensate myself.

After pulling, Joan continued to lie back on the bed. Until now, Joan didn't have as much headache as before, but he was still a little dizzy and sleepy.

Go to sleep, it will be fine when you wake up.

Joan slept deeply, and these medicines would make him very excited. In order to get through this stage quickly, he just took a Valium mixed with the medicine, so that he didn't respond at all to the vibration of the mobile phone on the bedside table.

After waking up again, the surroundings were pitch black, and Joan didn't know what time it was. He lay on the bed and felt his body.

Every part is still there and can move.I am still living well, but my mood seems to have changed a bit?Joan was not sure, sleepiness made him close his eyes again.

One of the most common side effects of this type of anti-anxiety drugs is drowsiness.Joan said without exaggeration that he once slept in bed for almost a day before waking up.

No one knows whether to eat or sleep after waking up.

When he woke up the next day, Joan felt a little hungry. He dug out the food he bought yesterday, picked and cooked some.

After cooking, Qiao An looked at the dishes that usually attracted her, and didn't want to move her chopsticks.Losing his appetite, Joan bit his lip and forced some into his mouth.

Still not working, want to vomit.Joan frowned and swallowed the food, giving up eating.

So tired, Joan thought, let's continue to sleep.Joan sat back on the bed, and the phone next to the bed beeped a few times to inform that the battery was low. He picked up the phone and looked at it. There were many missed calls and WeChat messages.

To reply to them, should reply.Joan unlocked the lock, suddenly felt nauseous, then threw away the phone and rushed to the toilet.

After vomiting, Joan sat on the cold floor of the toilet, motionless.

Bear with it a little longer, it will be fine after this period of time has passed, Qiao An cheered herself up, supported the sink to stand up, and returned to the bed.The medicine was on the bedside table. Joan forgot when she took the medicine yesterday, and didn't think too much about it. She had to take it anyway, so let's take it now.

Joan drank the rest of the water yesterday and took the pills.

After eating, he went to the closet and took out another box of medicine from the closet, brand new and unopened.Joan took the box of medicine and took a few deep breaths, finally opened it with great strength and ate one.

After drinking, he sat on the edge of the bed in a daze.One of the psychiatrists he had seen before confirmed that Joan was still mildly depressed after a diagnosis. Joan didn't believe it. He felt that he was just afraid of socializing and had no negative emotions.

To this day he does not consider himself depressed.The doctor prescribed medicine for him, but Qiao An didn't buy it, he bought everything except antidepressants, no matter how much he persuaded him, it was useless.

Qiao An was very stubborn in thinking that he was not depressed, and finally scolded the doctor for making a random diagnosis, and ended up changing another doctor for it.

But before Joan left, the doctor gave Joan two boxes of medicine.Joan thought for a long time, but still didn't lose it.This is the kindness of others, but it is also a kindness that is somewhat difficult for me to accept.

What he just took was the medicine the doctor gave him back then, not because he succumbed to feeling depressed, but because he was afraid that taking anti-anxiety medicine alone would not work.

The phone issued a low battery warning again, and Joan walked over to pick up the phone from the ground, and then took out the charger from the bag.

After charging it, Qiao An remembered that there was still no reply to WeChat.

[Lu Yihang: An An, where are you going? 】

[Lu Yihang: An An, are you here yet? 】

……

[Ghost: Joan, when are you going to come over? 】

……

【Mother:……】

【Lele:...】

……

There was a lot of news, and Joan flipped through it from top to bottom for a while before reading it.What do you reply?Joan thought about it, thought about it, and the effect of the tranquilizer was on, and Joan fell asleep on his stomach again.

When he woke up, he found himself lying on the ground.It was a little cold, but I didn't want to move, so I turned over slowly and continued to sleep.

Seems like something hasn't been done... what?Forget it, let's go to sleep.

After waking up again, he didn't know the time or how long he had slept. Qiao An felt that he should take medicine, so he continued to take it.

He was lucky, and the side effects were not as severe as the first time he took it.It's also possible that he fell asleep the whole time.

After taking the medicine, he felt very hungry, but he didn't want to eat, and he was also very thirsty. Qiao An bought a lot of water. He expected that his mouth might be dry, and it was as expected.

Joan began to drink water and drank two bottles, as if he was no longer hungry or thirsty.

He sat on the ground, feeling weak all over.

Hey, what day is this?Qiao An crawled over slowly, picked up the phone and looked at it, there were a lot of messages, yes, there were still messages that had not been answered...

What date did you come here?Joan kind of forgot... Time to go home?The rejection reaction to these medicines has also weakened, and the side effects have passed, but they should worry if they don't go home again.

Time to go home.

Finally take another dose of medicine and go home.

The author has something to say:

[The above are the needs of the plot, and you must follow the doctor's advice on taking medicine!Don't find medicine to take by yourself, and don't stop medicine privately!If you have something to tell your family and doctor, don't hold it back. 】

Lu Yihang: Why does my wife always want to face it alone? In fact, you still have me.

Joan: If possible, who doesn't want to show their lover the best side of themselves.

Lu Yihang: >////

Joan: What's wrong with you?

Lu Yihang: Lover~~

Joan: No, I'm not, I haven't......

Notes of Lu's Beloved Wife 31

Even if the road ahead is difficult and dangerous, I am willing to face it with you.

I wonder if you saw the fake note I posted in the comment area yesterday?Ha ha