my joann

Chapter No.16

Ren Youning turned on the small iron stove on the table to boil water for tea.After a while, there was a sweet smell in the office.He warmed two cups and put them on the small tea table, then brought the brewed tea over and put it on the warmer.

"Drink some water, you are very tired today, take a good rest here." Ren Youning poured tea, pushed one of the cups to Qiao An, thought for a while, picked it up, and stuffed it into Qiao An's hand.

Joan originally planned not to drink it, so he didn't want to drink it upside down.

"I know you're not used to drinking in public, but Joan, it's okay, I'm not in a public place here, no one will pay attention to what you drink or eat, just like you won't pay attention to what I drink. After Ren Youning finished speaking, he took a sip of tea, his face full of enjoyment.

Maybe it was attracted by Ren Youning's expression, or maybe it was because the atmosphere here was really too comfortable, Qiao An was really relieved, and took a sip of the tea with a sweet smell in his hand.

Qiao An seldom drinks tea, but he knows very well that tea usually has a hint of bitterness.I don't know why, but the cup in my hand is not bitter at all, and even has some sweetness. After swallowing, there is still a lingering aftertaste.

What kind of tea is this?Joan couldn't help but take another sip.It is indeed a bit sweet, and it is really fragrant, which makes people want to relax unconsciously.

"This is peach oolong. I like sweet things and tea, but I don't like milk. This just satisfies all my fantasies." Ren Youning looked at Qiao An and said with a smile.

Joan held the cup with warm palms.Not only that, the tea I drank went down my throat and warmed me to my heart.The teapot on the heater was gurgling and steaming, and the warm yellow light shone on the two of them. Everything was so gentle, so gentle that it made people fascinated.

Should I trust him?Joan suddenly asked himself in his heart.can i get betterWill it really work?Can I... still act like a normal person?

Joan looked down at the teacup, and there was a trace of steam rising from the amber tea.

In fact, I desire it.After so many years, it is still longing.

I hope that one day I will no longer be afraid, and I can do whatever I want without fear.Can walk out of the house confidently without being afraid of other people's eyes.

and...

The figure of Lu Yihang appeared in Qiao An's thoughts.This guy didn't know he had social phobia, and he thought he was normal the whole time.If one day, he discovered his own essence, would he still be so kind to himself?

Can I really live in hiding?So many times, although he didn't see him, but recently he was real, and it was getting harder and harder to control his fear.

No matter how hard you hide it, it will definitely be discovered one day... When that day comes, what will happen?Separate, and then return to a person's life again?

It seems that there is nothing wrong, isn't this what I have been looking forward to...

But why, my heart is so unwilling, why is it so sour?Why do you seem to be reluctant?

Isn't being alone the most enjoyable thing?Why do I feel so sad when I think of leaving Lu Yihang?

What's going on here?

Actually, there's nothing wrong with trying again.If it gets better, at least it won't be like today, when my father is hospitalized, and there are so many problems when I help with the hospitalization procedures.

Want to try it?But those treatment options are terrible, and I really don't want to go through any of them again... But if I don't try, I will be like this for the rest of my life, alone.

The ear-piercing phone rang suddenly, and it was like a flower exploded in Joan's mind, it was still huge.The call was made by Qiao's mother, and she knew why.But how dare Joan take it?Even if he dared to accept it, how would he go to see her correctly with a scar on his face?

Sensing Qiao An's entanglement, Ren Youning didn't urge him to answer the phone, and let the voice spread.The warm atmosphere of the whole room disappeared, and was cut into pieces by the sound.

"What are you worried about?" Ren Youning was lying on the sofa, his right foot was up and down rhythmically, "Is it the injury on your face? Or is it simply that you don't want to answer the phone?"

Joan was a little surprised, because these two items were all right, he whispered, "Both."

"Well..." Ren Youning sat up straight, put his hands under his chin, "Why don't you go back these two days, I'll take you to my place to recuperate, and I can help you sort out other things by the way, how about it?" ?”

to his house?Joan was terrified, how could this be possible, he shook his head in a panic.

"Hey, don't be so busy rejecting me, think about it, you have wounds all over your face, you sure don't want your family to see it?"

Joan nodded, that's true, but going to his house is too...

"Where I am, no one knows that you have an injury on your face, and it can be treated. Why not do it? You just tell your family that you need to leave work for a few days."

Qiao An still shook his head. Leaving his home and moving to Lu Yihang's place was already fatal. If it happens again, isn't it the second death? !

"Then what do you do? Go home? Then you can't hide the wound on your face." Ren Youning looked at Qiao An and discussed with him seriously.

He didn't intend to force Joan. In fact, he made this suggestion only out of the kindness of a friend.No matter what Qiao An decides in the end, for Ren Youning, it doesn't make much difference.

"My father is still in the hospital." Qiao An glanced at Ren Youning apologetically, sorry for rejecting the other party's kindness, but he couldn't be so irresponsible, he was the only child in the family, and he must stand up at this time.

"Sorry, I don't know, I was reckless, what's wrong with uncle?" Ren Youning asked.

"I don't know the details." Qiao An lowered her head and fiddled with the phone a few times, then stood up and said, "Thank you Mr. Ren today, then I'll go first."

"Well, I'll take you there." Ren Youning also stood up, "I just happen to be going to the inpatient department to meet a friend."

Joan nodded, not a little bit of worry in her heart.

"I'm going to get something, Qiao An, wait for me." Lu Yihang put down his teacup and walked behind the desk. Joan glanced nervously at his back, and then quietly took out a small ball of paper from his trouser pocket.

The paper ball was wrapped with the medicine he put in in the morning, Qiao An quickly took one out of it and put it in his mouth, mixed it with the peach oolong soaked by Ren Youning and swallowed it.

"Okay, let's go." Ren Youning waved a file bag in his hand, and walked towards Qiao An.

When he walked to his side, Ren Youning said jokingly, "It seems that you also like peach oolong very much, come and drink next time."

Qiao An breathed a sigh of relief, he had been very nervous just now, worried whether Ren Youning saw him take the medicine, but now it seems that he has not.

Ren Youning should be very familiar with this place. The road he took Qiao An was not normal, turning left and right.But there were very few people on this road, Qiao Ancheng was very relieved, and thanked Ren Youning for his thoughtfulness.

After leading Qiao An to the door of the room, Ren Youning stopped moving, "Qiao An, I won't go in, and I have to deliver materials to my senior brother."

"Okay, thank you."

"If you have any thoughts about that, remember to send me WeChat." Ren Youning took out his phone, "Let's add friends first."

Joan's heart beat twice. This was the first time in a long time that he was asked to be a friend in person.In the past, the friends he added were either required by work or requested by his parents. For example, Lu Yihang was requested by his parents. No one took the initiative to add Qiao An as a friend.

Nervousness and excitement made his hands tremble slightly. Joan took a deep breath and tried to calm himself down.

The excitement caused a trace of physiological tears to overflow from the corners of his eyes, not many, and after blinking the corners of his eyes twice, they disappeared without a trace.

"Okay." Joan nodded.

"Then let me scan you?" Ren Youning said after looking at Qiao An's phone.

sweep me?What's the meaning?Qiao An tightened his grip on the phone, but he couldn't figure it out after turning his mind a few times.Listening to these words separately, Qiao An understands each of them, so how can they become a foreign language when they are connected together?

"I'll do it." Ren Youning took Qiao An's mobile phone and tapped the upper right corner of the WeChat interface. Qiao An watched him operate the mobile phone without saying a word. After a few breaths, he finally understood what "sweeping you" is mean.

The trend of young people is simply difficult to understand.

But does Ren Youning feel that he doesn't understand anything?Did he see that he couldn't do it?

Before Qiao An could indulge in the joy of adding a friend for a few seconds, he began to worry about whether this new friend would be dissatisfied with his performance just now.

"Okay, then I'll go first, contact me on WeChat!" Ren Youning patted Qiao An's shoulder with a smile, and before Qiao An could reply, he waved his hand and turned to leave.

Qiao An stood there, watched him disappear at the end of the corridor, then let go of the hands holding the phone stupidly, and waved it into the air.

"Goodbye."

Happy times always fly by so fast, and now Joan has to return to reality, thinking about how to explain these scars on her face to her parents, and why there has been no news for such a long time.

It feels like I passed the duck egg test when I was a child, and the teacher asked everyone to go home and ask the parents to sign.

What's even more frightening is that you are the only one who failed in the class.

Yahoo, so sour.

Joan stepped back three times, and finally stood in front of the ward. The door was ajar, and there was a little laughter coming from inside, which was very different from the gloomy atmosphere in the whole hospital.

This is mother's laughter, Joan can hear it.

Completely different from Qiao An, Qiao's mother is a person who will have friends wherever she goes.Outgoing, optimistic, and friendly, Qiao An often wonders if there is anyone in this world who doesn't like Mother Qiao?Probably not.

Such a sunny person, wherever he goes, there are laughter and laughter.

A person who is also so sunny has a son who is so inferior and gloomy, a son who hides deeply.

Like people from two worlds.

As for the characters of Mother Qiao and Joan, one stood on the north side and the other shrank to the south.

Don’t dare to go in, the happiness inside does not belong to you.Joan put down his hand on the doorknob and leaned his back against the hospital wall.

Cold and biting.

It was nothing like the warmth in that room just now.

Joan slowly slid to sit on the ground, put his hands around his knees, and buried his head between his knees.

This posture is his favorite posture, the one that can feel the safest.

Ren Youning was right about one thing, Qiao An thought, he was really tired today and wanted to rest.But the location he gave Joan was not the correct location.

Maybe it's very warm there, but it's still not right, there are still some things that are not right, Joan is sure.

It's great there, but it's not home.

And my home should be in...

"Joan." The warm body temperature cut off the cold behind him, and his strong hands embraced Joan into his arms. The slightly rapid heartbeat filled Joan's ears, and the voice from his chest was a little Misty.He said, "Here I am."

Yes, it should be, here.

The author has something to say:

Lu Yihang: QWQ I thought I had no chance to play again!

Joan: Hold on!

Lu Yihang: Oh~ my lovely wife!kisses!

Notes of Lu's Beloved Wife 16

The thing I want to do most is to be able to fly to your side.

Sorry it took so long to update, I saved the manuscript for a few days, and I can update it for a few days~~=3=