weightlessness

Four years ago, on November [-]th, Lin Zhujin was so drunk that he collapsed in front of Guan Shan's tombstone. He mumbled about countless new lovers and didn't miss you.

A light rain began to fall in the sky, Lin Zhujin woke up with half-closed eyes, staggered up while holding the tombstone, got in the car and went to the establishment where he used to go before he married Li Chenyin, often held some entertainment parties by the lake villa.

When he went, the party was already at its climax, but in November, the villa was full of heat, and a sexy foreign girl in a bikini was holding a few glasses of champagne, and there were several male waiters in the same revealing clothes.

Lin Zhujin was already drunk, went over to get a glass of champagne, and before he took a sip, someone who had been eyeing him since he just walked in the door posted it.

Lin Zhujin never refused to come, his hand was held and put under one man, and the other stuck up and poked in from the hem of his clothes to caress his body, lick his lips, kiss him, and invite him Go upstairs to the private room.

Lin Zhujin was hugged by two men and went to the second floor. He was drunk and unconscious, and he was thinking of Teacher Guan Shan for a while, and shouted hot for a while.

When they arrived in the room, the two men began to take off his clothes. He felt itchy and smiled foolishly. When he smiled, the two men were suffocated for breathing, and the movements of their hands became faster, like hungry beasts. Usually, when they jumped on it, they felt that they had really picked up a top product.

When they were anxious to untie Lin Zhujin's clothes and were about to take off their pants, a man suddenly broke into the room.

The door was kicked open directly. The man looked like he was in his 30s, with no expression on his face. When his eyes swept over the two of them, he seemed to be looking at something dead.

Suddenly, a man recognized who the person in front of him was, and he quickly grabbed his companion who was about to get angry when things got mixed up, and while quickly pulling up his pants, he hinted at him in a flustered expression: "That Li...that Li family ...."

"What Li..." The companion was stunned and immediately reacted: "Then this is..., that Lin Zhujin?" He suddenly opened his eyes wide, this is to catch a traitor!Can the Li family be messed with by anyone?He also panicked, and the two tremblingly got up from the bed, waving their hands along the wall: "I didn't touch him, I haven't had time yet...Really..., we don't know, we don't know it's your house That one, I really know, even if you give us ten guts, you won’t dare.”

Li Chenyin looked at Lin Zhujin, who was disheveled on the bed and his face was flushed abnormally. The blood all over his body was about to freeze, and it burned up again in an instant, making his chest numb and painful.

The air pressure in his body was extremely low. Looking at the two men who were so frightened that their knees softened, he gritted his teeth and said, "Get lost."

Those two people ran away, and they were still saying something about admitting their mistakes and begging for mercy, but Li Chenyin couldn't hear anything clearly.

All he saw was Lin Zhujin lying on the big round bed, her lips were bright red and glistening, as if she had been loved by someone not long ago.

He stood there and looked at him quietly. It took a full 10 minutes before he let out a sigh of relief, walked over, and seemed to calmly button up the buttons that others had unbuttoned for him one by one, and half took them off for him. He pulled up his trousers and buckled his belt.

In the middle of the journey, Lin Zhujin looked drunk, squinting at the man who was swaying in front of him and dressing himself slowly, his eyes widened with effort, and he muttered: "Li Chenyin? Um..., old-fashioned?"

"Why are you here too?"

"Hey, did you get up to play too?" Lin Zhujin grinningly poked Li Chenyin's face that seemed to be frozen by a layer of frost.

Li Chenyin turned a deaf ear to him, ignored his words and some actions that teased him, dressed him and dragged him out.

"Oh, what are you doing... um..." Lin Zhujin took a drink break, and was dragged away by his wrists. His steps were fast. He was already drunk, and his legs and feet were not very sharp. He nearly fell over with such a tug.

Li Chenyin took him into the car, locked the door, and drove all the way.

It rained into the night, and it was already falling heavily, crackling against the window.

When they got home, Lin Zhujin got out of the car and squatted at the door to vomit. Li Chenyin stood aside and held an umbrella for him.

After Lin Zhujin finished vomiting, he woke up a lot from the wine. He slowly stood up on his knees. Looking at Li Chenyin's expression, he couldn't help but feel a little guilty. He said with a sneer on his face, "I drank too much."

This sounds like an explanation, like saying that I didn't mean it.

But Li Chenyin's expression didn't change at all, and he didn't answer his words.

When they entered the house, Li Chenyin put away the umbrella, and when they went upstairs, Li Chenyin didn't say a word to him.

When he was lying on the bed, he went to wrap his arms around his neck and said, "Don't be angry, look at this face." He wrapped his arms around his neck as if to admit his mistake, and wanted to kiss Li Chenyin.

But Li Chenyin pushed him away, let him talk full of coaxing words, Li Chenyin was unmoved, and he didn't touch him.

When Lin Zhujin ran out of patience and couldn't help but say some impatient confrontational words, Li Chenyin tore off the pajamas he had just changed, separated his legs, and was about to go in very roughly.

Lin Zhujin cried out in pain in no time: "Ah..., what are you doing..., wait...ah" He was sweating from the pain, trying to relax his body so that it would be easier for him to come in.

He thought it was a gesture of goodwill, so he smiled again and wanted to hug him.

But Li Chenyin pushed him away.

"He only came into me that night, but he stopped kissing me, hugging me, touching me, and letting me touch him. I didn't realize it until the middle of the night. It turned out that he thought I was dirty."

"No matter what I said to him, he didn't talk." Lin Zhujin suddenly paused when he said this: "Then he cried."

"Can you imagine? Like Li Chenyin, he cried." Lin Zhujin's voice suddenly became hoarse, as if he was the one crying in his mouth.

"He was in my body, and then tears dripped on my heart, which made me tremble uncontrollably. At that moment, I didn't dare to look at his face, and I didn't dare to talk to him. Look at each other."

"At that time, he was not the only one who cried for me, but he was the only one who made me feel so wronged."

"So, from that day on, I was shrouded in a huge sense of guilt. I couldn't squander the kindness he gave me like before, because I knew what he wanted, but I didn't have it, and I couldn't give it to him. , I am like a very hungry poor child going to a magnificent restaurant, there are delicacies from mountains and seas, delicious food, I can't help eating, but I have no money, although I am not asked to pay the bill now, but I will ask for it one day. "

"I deliberately said hurtful things to stimulate him and hurt him intentionally, and then he would be very sad at first and ignore me, and then he would calm down and come to me after a while, so I got worse, and sometimes he would be provoked by me I can't help but hit me, and then I can deceive myself, you see, he is not that kind to me, he hits me so painfully, even if he treats me better sometimes, it shouldn't be a big deal if I don't like him Big mistake."

"I found out that I was sick, and I felt guilty. When he hit me, I felt a sense of atonement, and I felt a lot easier. But later, when I found that I needed him more and more, I couldn't do without him." When he was there, I wanted to try it, maybe I could start a new life with him, but he kicked me out."

"But after moving out, the guilt that made people go crazy did not disappear. I seemed to have been falling into a bottomless abyss, day and night, and couldn't sleep well, so I tried I scratched myself, it worked at the beginning, but gradually, it didn’t work anymore, so I started to make deeper and wider cuts..."

"So, don't look for him. It has nothing to do with him. I'm sick. He just wants me to love him. He has nothing wrong with it." When Lin Zhujin said this, his voice was extremely hoarse, and his voice was low and low. Shen, every word and every sentence revealed that he defended Li Chenyin's grievances.

He was usually domineering and domineering in front of Li Chenyin, with an air of fearlessness, but secretly, because of Li Chenyin's love, he felt that he had sinned deeply, and even deliberately provoked him to beat and scratch himself time and time again.

He is so delicate and afraid of pain.

Just because she couldn't show reciprocal love anymore, she was forced to kill and kill herself like this.

The recording stopped here.

Wang Lianqing pressed the phone screen, he raised his head, with a faint smile on his face: "Mr. Li, after listening, do you have anything to say?"

Li Chenyin sat across from Wang Lianqing, his eyes moved away from his mobile phone, he didn't answer Wang Lianqing's words, but asked him: "Where is he now?" He looked at Wang Lianqing, his eyes seemed cold There is no warmth in the silence, but there are heavy and rolling waves below.

"Don't be so impatient, let's chat, Mr. Li."

Wang Lianqing was smiling, not at all intimidated by Li Chenyin's appearance: "I'm here today to speak for Xiao Jin."He went straight to the point, looking at Li Chenyin who was in front of him with extremely low air pressure and a bit of a threatening aura.