save and be saved

Summer, in this city, is a rainy season. The weather forecast issued an orange rainstorm warning, and the water level downstairs has reached the stairs. This is not good for the old city, with inconvenient transportation and imperfect drainage systems. There is no way to go, but the rent is cheap, and Wen Ling can barely make do with it, especially since he has no job now, so he should live frugally.

It has been two months since I moved here. The alleys here have nine bends and eighteen bends. It took Wen Ling a while to memorize the route. He needs to walk for more than ten minutes to reach the bus stop by the main road. Wen Ling thinks this is very good, it's like exercising.

At that time, he left in a hurry and called his boss directly to resign. According to the contract, the company deducted half a month's salary. For work, naturally I can't choose such a good location as before. After many twists and turns, I found this place. Wen Ling didn't want to have too much involvement with Tong Ze. After waiting for a few days, he moved all his things when he went out. Before leaving, he put the things belonging to Tong Ze at the door of his house, and then threw away the phone card. Wechat has always been a verification code to log in. Once the phone card is lost, the two of them will be separated, and they will never be together again. There is an intersection.

It was pouring rain outside the window, and the raindrops hit the window with a thud, and then merged into water and fell down. The outside world was hazy, and the mango tree by the window was bent several times, and then stood upright again. Unfortunately, there is a row of sweet-scented osmanthus under the window The stamens of the tree were damaged by the rain, and the fine petals fell all over the ground. Wen Ling only felt sorry for them.

Fallen flowers are not heartless things, into Chunni more quadrangle.Looking at the sweet-scented osmanthus, he only thought of such a poem.Wen Ling sat in front of the window, even if the window was not open, she could still smell the faint fragrance of osmanthus, which was also mixed with the smell of soil.

The landlord is a book lover. The study room is full of books. Some of them have been moved away, and the rest cannot be moved away. He and every tenant carefully told each tenant that the books can be read, but they cannot be damaged, and they have to pay more. With a deposit of five hundred, Wen Ling readily agreed, and even thought that he had made a fortune. The decision at that time was so wise. In such a rainy weather, he saved his boring time in life.

Some books are so old that the covers are falling off. Wen Ling took out a collection of poems, slipped his hand, and fell to the ground. It happened to land on a certain page. He just lowered his eyebrows and saw:

Such a happy day.

The fog lifted early in the morning and I was working in the garden.

Hummingbirds perched on honeysuckle.

There is nothing in this world that I want to possess.

I know no one I can envy.

I have forgotten any misfortune I have suffered.

It does not embarrass me to think that I am the same person today.

There is no pain in me.

Straightening up, I saw the blue sea and sail shadows.

"Stand up straight, I can see the blue sea and sail shadows..." Wen Ling couldn't help but read out silently.

Hummingbirds, hardworking birds, and honeysuckle flowers, survive the winter and live forever.It was two ordinary things, but Wen Ling suddenly found the magic in this poem.He seemed to feel the happiness of the poet, and also the beauty of this tiny thing.What else can't let go?This world is beautiful and peaceful. Instead of struggling with the shadow left by the past, why not try to move forward?No matter how rough and dangerous the road ahead is, as long as you keep moving forward, you should be closer to happiness than standing still.

Wen Ling copied the poem and read it silently several times before letting go. He stood up and looked into the distance. When he saw the mango tree, he felt that it was tenacious.All these things made him feel peaceful and serene.He seemed to have finally reached reconciliation with his past self.

Maybe it was a beautiful day, and finally before the National Day, the weather cleared up and the sun was shining brightly.The stagnant water receded overnight, leaving only some damp soil and fine sand, but it would soon be brought to every corner of the city by the passing crowd. Everyone living here was dusty.

It was rare for Wen Ling to change into a shirt and trousers. He didn't like to wear them usually because he was too thin and couldn't hold them up at all. In terms of formal clothes, Tong Ze looked good in them. He was tall and muscular, so he should be separated from regular exercise It doesn't matter, Wen Ling is not shorter than him, but she is still not as good as him when she wears clothes.

If he doesn't find a job, he probably won't be able to find a job until after the National Day. It's because he was not in a hurry and had a casual attitude before that he hasn't found a job for more than two months.You can't really just sit back and eat. Today he has to interview two companies, both of which are about the same size. Fortunately, the time appointments are not the same, so we can take care of them together.

At the end of the day, Wen Ling estimated that the two companies were useless. He had a mediocre education, and there were a few master students competing with him for the same position. In such a comparison, he had no advantage at all.Doing one's best and obeying destiny, Wen Ling didn't feel regretful with such an attitude.

Since the two companies were in opposite directions, he didn't even eat lunch in order to hurry up. The company behind him happened to be near the university, so Wen Ling simply found a clean restaurant and planned to have dinner before going home.

Not long after, it was the peak time for dinner after class, and wave after wave of young students poured in. Wen Ling was forced to compete with others at the table, but he didn't mind it, and was even a little comfortable.

He finally understood why Tong Ze chose to be a teacher. The teenagers in the ivory tower are always full of hope, full of vigor and vitality.Four years in college may be the happiest time in one's life, with both the edification of academic atmosphere and the joy of swaying youth.Wen Ling couldn't help thinking of his college days. At that time, he also had a very good friend, but he ended up parting ways. Looking back now, he hadn't thought of each other for a long time, and now he and Tong Ze are also like this. As for the ending, maybe after a while, Tong Ze will always be a passer-by in his life, buried by the fine sands of time, and never see the light of day. Thinking about it this way is embarrassing.

Now that we have arrived at the gate of the university, it doesn't matter if we drop in. Based on his memory, Wen Ling walks along the avenue, under the shade of flowers and vines, and arrives in front of the teaching building where classes used to be held. It is not class time and there are no students in the classroom. Go up, walk up to the third floor step by step, pass the classroom along the corridor, and then stop behind the door of a classroom in the middle.

When he was late that time, he stood here and saw Tong Ze in class through the window. Now that he thinks about it, Tong Ze's writing on the blackboard is really not very good. It should be good, at least he, a layman, understands a lot. Now that school has started for a while, I don't know if he is still in this classroom, giving lectures.

Wen Ling felt amused by his behavior along the way, could it be that he was thinking about it?He always thought that he was a cruel person. He once said that he would never contact his friends. He shared the pain side by side, and had too many happy memories, so it was particularly unforgettable for him.

After leaving the teaching building, walk along the avenue on the right, and you will arrive at the playground. At that time, you were in Tong Ze’s car, and you didn’t think it was too far away. Now you go on foot, over the tall buildings, and through Xiyuan Lake, but you still don’t see the playground. He was already sweating profusely.

After not running for a long time, his physical strength returned to what it was before. Fortunately, the playground is not too far away. After walking for more than ten minutes, he finally saw the track.

He looked happily. There were many people on the playground, some were playing football, some were running, and some were lying on the lawn playing games.Such a lively playground was completely different from the playground that night, but Wen Ling felt very happy.

He sat down on the lawn, his eyes followed the football, the teenagers ran on the field, their tanned faces were filled with joy and excitement, the shouts of passing the ball resounded through the playground, even the setting sun was attached to them and couldn't bear to let them go.

Can't bear to fall, but will fall anyway.On the other side of the horizon, the last sliver of sunset disappeared, and the runners gradually left. After the football game, they must also leave.Wen Ling felt lost, he envied these youthful students, because he had missed them before, but now he can't have them.

The bell will ring soon, and the class at night is in the innermost teaching building. Tong Ze didn't expect the traffic jam to be so serious. It takes 10 minutes to drive for 10 minutes, passing through the playground. , happened to be a place with many students, no matter how anxious Tong Ze was, he could only move slowly while playing the horn.

Finally passing through the playground, Tong Ze glanced intently at the rearview mirror. Suddenly, he seemed to have spotted someone, and subconsciously stepped on the brakes. He stared at the rearview mirror for a long time, then parked the car aside, got off The car ran towards the playground.

It was that familiar figure. He saw that person from a distance, stood up and patted his pants, then turned around and mixed into the crowd, and disappeared in a blink of an eye. At this moment, the bell rang, Tong Ze cursed secretly, and ran back to the car , and then drove away.

The moon hangs high, but there are not many stars. Tong Zeming knew that the person had left, but he still didn't seem to give up. He ran around the playground, even climbed up the hillside, and scanned the entire playground to make sure that there was no sign of that person. Penumbra, only then walked down disappointed.He lowered his head and walked around the playground twice, then looked up at the night sky again, the night sky was different, and the person beside him was gone.

When he knew that Wen Ling had moved away, besides anger, he was disappointed.He paid a lot and thought he treated him sincerely, but the other party left without saying goodbye.In the scorching summer, Tong Ze seemed to be in an ice cave.It turned out that this was the feeling of being abandoned by someone. Maybe the other party never cared about him. He always thought that Wen Ling was lonely because he closed himself. It never occurred to him that maybe he might just be cold.

Tong Ze felt that he was ignorant and stupid. He used to love him so much and worry about him. Later, it turned out that this was actually a self-righteous one-man show.But as time passed, his anger subsided, and his worries flooded like a fountain, and he couldn't stop.

He began to understand Wen Ling, his departure, and his awkwardness.He believed in his own feeling that Wen Ling was not a heartless person, otherwise he would not be so sad because of his parents, and it was precisely because he was too affectionate to face it.The place where the breakup occurred, and the people involved in it, could make him feel sensitive and painful, so he left without saying goodbye.And he has no friends, not because he doesn't need friends, but because he values ​​friends too much and is afraid of being hurt, so he chooses to simply refuse.

After many dreams, Tong Ze felt that he might never be able to forget that person again. He walked into Wen Ling's heart and discovered his fragility. He was troubled by the relationship, but he never had the chance to understand what that feeling was, because that person had already left, and if nothing happened, he might never see him again.

He had imagined the scene of meeting Wen Ling again countless times, but today, he missed him in the blink of an eye. This kind of regret kept him awake all night. He couldn't help thinking desperately, maybe this was the relationship between the two of them. last side.

But Tong Ze has never been a person who is easily discouraged. Maybe he will come tomorrow?I saw him leave yesterday when the sun was setting. If he had gone earlier, maybe he could have met him.And Wen Ling, why did he go to the playground?Is there something, something worthy of his nostalgia?Thinking of this, Tong Ze's heart beat faster, and fell asleep with the memory of the two walking in the playground.

The author has something to say:

Collection of poems from Milosz "The Gift"

I like it very much