double autumn

My aunt called each of us early on, telling us to go to the old man's house for dinner on Friday, and brought a girl from a relative's house to let us know each other.She first called Lin Jin to tell her about it, and when she heard that there was an outsider, Lin Jin instinctively wanted to refuse, but her aunt immediately called her father to lobby, and he couldn't say anything.Then she called me immediately, speaking more clearly, suppressing excitement in her tone, and said: "Hey, you must get to know each other, they are here for you! Hey, don't tell Ah Jin just yet. Ah, just meet each other and have dinner at home!" Lin Jin was listening to the replay next to me, his face felt uncomfortable, he asked me: "Blind date?" I had no choice but to nod in agreement.

He lowered his eyes, blinked his eyes a few times, and turned his eyes to the side, quite unhappy: "Blind date, blind date, your family is not in a hurry, but she is in a hurry. What's the use of getting married, and it's not good to have a baby." Her family's grandson." He mumbled, and suddenly came over and put his arms around my waist, buried his head in his chest: "Brother, don't forget to kiss your brother when you see the little girl, I don't want a sister-in-law." Seeing his grievance, I didn't find it funny, so I took him into my arms again, and assured him in a low voice: "It's okay, you only have your own sister-in-law." He stopped talking.

In fact, a few years earlier, he would have told me to tell my aunt that I didn’t want to meet, but if I did that kind of thing too much, he started to worry again, thinking that it was not good to keep doing this.I don't really care. In fact, my father's attitude towards the major events in our brothers' lives is already very clear. It doesn't matter if we get married or not. People are not used to continue the incense.It's just that my father couldn't bear the hardships of my aunt, so I had no choice but to let her arrange for me to meet some girls.She didn't know Lin Jin well, so she only played a monster on me.Lin Jin has become more and more hesitant lately, always worried about whether his father actually wants to see us get married, and he keeps nagging next to me every day, so annoying that I can only ask him: "Do you want me to marry or marry you?" ?" He answered without hesitation: "Marry me." "That's it, shut up." I glared at him.

Lin Jin was always hesitant about our relationship, and she didn't change it for many years.It's been ten years at least since I dragged it in high school, and it's too late to repent. I don't know what he's thinking—maybe it's a shitty moral issue.I don't understand, a little scholar like him likes to argue about this kind of thing.I have nothing to do with myself, it’s what you want, it doesn’t harm the society, and I don’t have a public relationship and don’t advocate brotherly love. Besides, if there are no children, I’m afraid of inbreeding?Lin Jin felt that my thinking was a bit too orderly and chaotic, so I said so what, you can stay with me anyway, if you want to talk about moral condemnation, then you should be condemned even more when I was 16 years old.He said you should really be condemned.

The car finally passed the most congested section of the main road, and the traffic flow was at least a little less, so I started to speed up.He took out my phone from my coat pocket, unlocked it with his fingerprint, and started playing.There are no games on my phone, only social and office software, and he is browsing my WeChat Moments.

"Are you ready for winter vacation?" I asked him.

"That's right." He clicked on a photo of a female colleague and looked at it carefully.

"Dad said he would go back to Nancheng for three days this year, and come back on the second day of the new year."

"You said that?" he said.I looked at him and he looked up and smiled at me.

"Well, don't visit relatives, so that he won't get drunk again."

"That's pretty good." He zoomed in on the female colleague's chin, "This woman, the photo has been overly retouched, her eyes are as big as balls, half of her face is eyes and half is chin." I smiled : "Women, I like this. I have a vacation when I come back from the festival. When it comes to the Lantern Festival, where do you want to go?"

"Hmm... Where are you going..." His fingers quickly slid on the screen, "There are many people everywhere..."

"Gulangyu?"

"Can I go to a place with snow in winter?"

"There's nothing fun in the north. It's too cold, you won't be able to bear it."

"Um……"

"Xi'an." I saw that he was slightly disappointed, so I had to follow his wishes.

"Well, okay." He searched through Moments to the bottom, and then looked at the chat records between me and my leadership colleagues.I use WeChat for work, and of course there are only work content in the records with them. He can't understand it, but he still likes to read it.After flipping through WeChat, he checked my QQ again.I only added a few family members and a few college classmates there, but because they all use WeChat, there is no news at all.He glanced at him a few times, then curled his lips and said, "You're really boring, you don't hang out with others, you don't even have an ambiguous female colleague, I'm bored to death."

"To be interesting, wouldn't it be better to go and see those little girls who chat with you all day long?"

"Everyone treats me as a good sister, and asks me about relationship problems every day, and I can't even hide!" He suddenly became a little flustered, as if eager to prove his innocence, "I don't have the leisure to provoke them, One is more fierce than the other."

"Seeing that you are easy to be bullied like a little brother, I will attack you." I answered casually.I know Lin Jin's attitude towards women. He is so polite and considerate that one might think he has some thoughts, but he really doesn't, and the other party can't possibly misunderstand.He takes care of women the same way I take care of him, which will inevitably look very ambiguous to others.Because of this, and because he had indeed talked about girlfriends before, no matter whether they were relatives or people with good intentions, they were not in a hurry to tell him about a blind date.

On the contrary, I am indeed a little anxious.Lin Jin came out to a few close friends, but I didn't.In fact, the main reason is that I don't have any friends who are familiar enough to know my privacy.So in the eyes of outsiders, I am a 26-year-old bachelor who worries about my younger brother and has never held a girl's hand.I heard from others that the female colleagues in the company think that I am not easy to get close to, just like a monk who is ascetic—abstain from sex and lust.In fact, they don't know how interesting my private life is, even so interesting that it is a bit unhealthy.I have Lin Jin's name tattooed on my heart, and I also have a tattoo on the scar on my left forearm. The scar was from getting stabbed in a fight with someone in a bar.On nights when I don’t work overtime, I like to ride my family’s heavy-duty motorcycle on the roads near the community. My community is next to the fast ring, and it’s all the land that the boss who raises a lover loves to buy. Even a ghost in the middle of the night No.When I was abroad, I went to the mountains with an expedition team for three months. I had no experience, so I was so bold that I almost died there. When I came back, I won some kind of award in the light of others.When he was young, he was addicted to smoking and drinking. Anyway, he had a lot of bad habits, and he loved to fuck his own brother when he was fine.I'm also glad that no woman has taken a fancy to me, otherwise, if someone can accept my life and is completely devoted to me, then I will be at fault and delay the girl's great youth.I'm really not interested in anyone other than Lin Jin.

In fact, I think so because I have indeed met such a woman.When I was still abroad, I met her at a faculty gathering.The party was before the exam, so there were not many people, only me and her, two Chinese, were present.She said that she came here because her parents were here, but she had been in China before university, and her hometown was a village in Hebei.I asked her to speak a few words of Hebei dialect for me to learn, and she said that it is not like you southerners can learn it.Then we added QQ to each other.Later, I chatted with her one after another, and found that I could chat with her. The two design students talked about quantum mechanics and philosophy all day long.After I got to know her better, I told her about Lin Jin. She really wanted to know why I broke up with him before I left the country, but I didn't want to mention it, so she wisely never asked again.It is this detail that makes me have a good impression of her.She knew about Lin Jin and I being together in our sophomore year of high school, and also about my decision to go abroad because of his refusal to stay.

Later she confessed to me, as if it was a matter of course.But I rejected her just as logically, so she gave up just as logically.In fact, after I refused, I thought about it calmly. After all, it's really good to accept such a girl. Besides——I thought at that time, besides, God knows how long I will wait for Lin Jin?During the three months when I was isolated from the world in the mountains, when I couldn't make it any longer, I took out my mobile phone to look at Lin Jin's photos and past text messages. After leaving the mountains, I found that she was the only one looking for me.

After she came out, once, she asked me to watch "Chongqing Forest" with her.She kept replaying the last can of pineapple in the supermarket, and watched over and over again the scene where the hero and heroine met and missed in the corridor.I guess she is showing it to me, but also to herself: you should let go of unsuitable feelings early.

However, just as I was reconsidering whether I should let go of my obsession with Lin Jin, I received a call from him for the first time.It was that one transoceanic phone call that "boomed" the life path I had planned so hard before.At that time, it was 26:[-] a.m. in China. Before I could recover from the unbelievable state, he opened his mouth first and called me in a low voice: "Brother, when are you coming back? I feel so uncomfortable. , I can't take it anymore...I miss you so much..."

"I don't want sugar dumplings, I want you, brother, I want you..."

I listened for 10 minutes before I understood that he was talking nonsense out of his mind.Once in the second year of high school, he had a fever. I went out to buy medicine for him. On the way back, I passed a cool food stand and asked him if he wanted me to bring sugar dumplings. Also cried out.But his phone call didn't sound right to me, so I hung up without saying a word, and called my father, who answered the phone and said:

"Hello? Lin Mu! Come back quickly! I just wanted to call you! Your brother committed suicide, and he is in the First Affiliated Hospital of Medical University. I just passed by Nancheng now, so I don't know what's going on!"

At that moment, my heart seemed to be hit hard. There was a moment of blankness in my brain, and then it was filled with overwhelming doubts.I felt that I wanted to ask something, but I couldn't open my mouth for a long time, so I only replied: "Well, I'll go back right now."

The process of returning to China took several days. Before boarding the plane, the girl sent me a text message, saying that she had a premonition that I would not come back, and asked me if that was the case.I said maybe, if I could stay there, I wouldn't be in the UK.No matter how many people I meet, I will still choose my brother and never forget to love him.She said well, I wish you success.She was the first person besides Lin Jin to walk into my heart, but it was only temporary. The moment my plane landed in China, I knew that my fate with her would come to an end.

I will never regret choosing Lin Jin at any time, but I will never be nostalgic for those who are only in love.Later, I went back to England several times to deal with school affairs, and wanted to meet her for dinner, but it was not a coincidence.Until last year when my father and my aunt got married widowed and widowed, I took a picture of Lin Jin and I standing under the wedding arch and posted it on QQ that night. She chatted with me privately, saying congratulations on your success and wishing you happiness .I replied to you too, and she happily told me that she was getting married too.

I have never been to England again, and sometimes I think I am really happy for her, and I didn't stumble here.She is a smart and rational girl. She knows that liking me is asking for trouble, and it is good not to insist.I suddenly felt that this girl was somewhat similar to Lin Jin.

The author has something to say: Corrected some typos and grammatical errors caused by input problems in the previous chapters.