double autumn

He lifted his hem and put his palms on the skin of my thighs to caress them.I raised my head and took a deep breath, and suddenly thought of something else: "Brother, why...why did you get a tattoo? Excluding...the reason for removing my name."

The hand that was walking on the top of my thigh suddenly stopped, and then he kissed my earlobe, exhaling hot air while speaking: "You just said this? Then I don't know, it is instinct to engrave you on my heart." Then he Let go of my hands, reach under me and tear off the strap of the bathrobe.

Lin Daoyi's wine was too strong, he felt hot when he first tasted it, but now he felt his throat was dry and a thin layer of sweat broke out on his back.I felt a little dizzy, and was confused by Lin Dao's kisses.My waist was pinched by him, but when I just realized it, he moved a little bit, pressed against the seam of my legs, and whispered: "Don't move."

"I never asked you why you chose those things... different from ordinary people."

"For fun." His hand was placed between me and the bed, and his palm stroked my chest. "You've been too thin recently." He pulled my collar to my waist again, and pressed his chest against my back.

"But it's very dangerous... When your hand was cut, I thought... Well, I thought you would die, and I worried for a long time." I tilted my head, and dimly saw his left arm passing by my eyes. , that scar is very obvious.

"Well, you wouldn't be that happy if you actually did that," he said against the back of my neck, making me itch, "but at least it's better than doing nothing. Some people want to , but didn't do it, they want to live well. Turn around, you won't be comfortable going in from the back."

"I will." I bent my knees, knelt on the bed, pressed my forehead against the sheets, and smiled with my eyes closed.

He poured the cool ointment on my body, and I heard him chuckle lowly: "I remember I taught you, don't hand over your back to others easily."

"You are not someone else." I stepped back, rubbed against him, and raised my head, "Brother, no matter when, I will only give you my back."

"Yeah." His hand came around in front of me, pinching my chin, forcing me to raise my head as much as possible.He held my waist, and a sharp pain came from behind.I gritted my teeth, held my breath, and took another deep breath, making a sound similar to a sigh. "Just say it hurts, don't hold it back." He comforted me by biting the back of my neck, I think he must have left tooth marks, "I said you won't be comfortable this way."

"It doesn't hurt." I answered him, but my voice was a little louder, as if this would relieve some discomfort, "Well...it will be comfortable, just take your time."

Strictly speaking, I only slept with Lin Daoyi.In the past, when I was still hesitating in my heart, I accepted it physically.I don't like to talk about pain, and I always hold it back, so he always said to me, "Just say it hurts, don't hold it back."But it didn't happen with Shen Yi. I tried several times during the passionate love period, but I couldn't be happy, and I never made it to this point.My apology to Lin Daoyi seems to have sprouted very early - I promised him to do it twice, and I kissed him twice afterwards, in the way of a lover's kiss.When I first recognized my brother, I never thought that it would develop into the situation I am today. When I first did it, I was just thinking, why the elder brother who has always been strict, domineering and has a bad temper suddenly became so gentle.

"It's meaningless to live desperately, you have to die anyway." He said this suddenly.I froze for a moment before realizing that he was continuing to answer my previous question.

"It doesn't matter what you live for. Money, dreams, or politics? It's meaningless. When all human beings are extinct, it's useless to do anything. Even the universe will collapse and clear." He spoke slowly, constantly A kiss fell on my back—he almost pressed his mouth against my skin, making a rumbling sound with pious emotions, "So, I live only to love you."

He slowly reached the deepest point.I know that he is like this, he likes to be the first to go to the deepest, one hand tightly around my waist, with his head resting on the crest of my neck, as if he wants to rub my whole body into his body.I breathe shallowly, and I can only exhale thinly and elongated each time, and the air leaks out from between the teeth; he stuck his fingers on my lower teeth, opened my mouth, and told me to breathe harder , a little heavier.I took his fingertips in my mouth, licked them, and then smiled secretly as if I had done something bad: "I discuss life and death when making//love, brother, you are No. 1 in the world."

Then, suddenly, he slammed in hard.

The top of my head went numb for a while, and pimples appeared on my arms, and my upper body trembled uncontrollably.I can't describe that kind of pleasure, I just feel that it has overwhelmed the pain, and I am still unsatisfied, but when he hits the point, I can't stand it and want to escape.I have heard people describe it as "floating in happiness", but at the moment I can't clearly understand what kind of feeling it is, I only know that it is not enough, not enough, it seems to be an illusory pleasure.It wasn't until he muttered in a low voice again that I realized that I was indeed in Lin Dao's arms.

"Tobacco, alcohol, violence, and maverick...it's not for anything...it's just the way I choose to continue living. And maybe...make//love with you, but when you don't want to, I don't Will force it."

"I don't care... I'm willing to, ah... do it with you..."

"What if one day I die?" He stopped suddenly, and asked in my ear, "Maybe one day I live enough, I will take//drugs, and then jump off a building, who knows? Anyway Nobody knows why I'm dying."

I couldn't see his expression, but I knew he was joking.His sudden stop gave me a chance to breathe. I crawled out of his arms, turned over, continued to lie under him, raised my legs to rub against him, put my arms around his neck, and stretched out. I got up and touched his lips with the tip of my nose: "Don't always say, die, die... I've heard enough from Shen Yi." I could feel his eyes following me, and his arms wrapped around my shoulders: " Don't kiss, be obedient. Now it's your turn to answer me. Talking about Shen Yi, do you still want him? Do you still want to run to suffer a crime?"

"No." I answered without thinking. Probably alcohol and sex made me lose my ability to think. "I thought about it tonight, and I think he is very similar to you. But you are a little better than him."

"a little?"

"a lot of."

He put my legs up, lowered his head and kissed the inner thigh, and then touched my crotch lightly with his lips: "Shen Zhiqiu, what I said to you tonight is serious. I know you are still awake, tomorrow morning Don't pretend to be drunk, turn your face and deny me."

"Hmm." I don't know why, but I could hear some timidity in his tone.I always thought that Lin Dao was not afraid of anything, but I didn't expect him to still fall into the cliché and lose emotionally.I suddenly felt it was funny, so I grinned unconsciously, and shook his head between my legs: "I know what you mean, don't die. Brother, you are historical nihilism, it's okay. It's me Comparable."

He licked a few times with the tip of his tongue, straightened up and kissed me. "It's not necessary." He said, "This person in my heart is probably the only normal thought I have."

I desperately longed to be hugged and kissed by him.I longed to be skin to skin with him.I have never had such a strong desire, and now I am indeed hugged by him. I really suddenly realized that the reason why I am attracted to Shen Yi may be because he is slightly similar to Lin Daoyi.But only in Lin Daoyi, there is a kind of strength and yearning that allows me to do my best regardless of any gains or losses.I didn't realize it at the time, but now I understand that I have always loved Lin Daoyi. Before I realized it, I had loved him for a long time, and everyone I fell in love with had Lin Daoyi's shadow.

I stroked his chest with my hand, and stroked it with my fingertips: "Brother, you...you should wash it off and change it...well, stop, slow down, slow down...I think I should call...Lin Zhiqiu... ..."

Lin Dao paused, turned his head to kiss me, and said, "Okay, Lin Zhiqiu."