end of love

The old men of the Bai family probably suffered from too much hard work when they were young, and they suffered from various diseases when they were old. No matter how much supplements they took, no matter how good the doctor was, they couldn't make up for it.

Bai Jing's grandfather was the first to leave.Bai Weifang only celebrated his [-]th birthday last year, Li Shuyi didn't expect him to survive this winter.

The only son that Bai Weitang really recognized was Bai Zhengyuan. Bai Jing had a very bad relationship with his father, but he had a much closer relationship with the Bai family of Bai Weifang's blood.And after Bai Weitang left, Bai Weifang followed his brother's last wish and took care of Bai Jingduo, so Bai Jing felt very uncomfortable when the old man died.

He stayed in the hospital for two days and had to deal with matters in the company.And because Bai Weifang had many children, there was a lot of fluctuation in the family because of the distribution of the inheritance.Bai Jing's seniority is not the highest, but his status is very important, and he has to stand up to maintain the situation and prevent them from fighting too much.

The most time in two days is to close your eyes and rest for half an hour.

He cared about Li Shuyi in his heart, and rushed back as soon as he was free, but he hadn't eaten yet.Two days of irregular eating made his stomach ache all the time, but he still thought about taking care of Li Shuyi's food and medicine first.

But the porridge was overturned, and Li Shuyi treated him like air, seeing that he was scalded, he was completely indifferent.

Bai Jing felt wronged.

It was an emotion he rarely experienced.He never relied on anyone before, never flattered anyone, never worried about rejection and alienation from others, so he didn't know that he would be wronged too.

Li Shuyi was hugged tightly by Bai Jing, and his whole body was wrapped in his arms.Bai Jing still buried his head in his neck, his face kept rubbing against his skin, and the scorching breath in his breath made his whole body itch.

And what made him unbearable the most was the sentence just now, calligraphy.

No one ever called him that.

Such an extremely intimate title, Bai Jing called it out so naturally, as if he had already called it thousands of times in his heart, and he was familiar with it.

Li Shuyi's hand was tightly held by his side, the indifference and annoyance on his face could not be maintained.When Bai Jing was superior, he could quarrel with him, fight him coldly, and embarrass him mercilessly, but he didn't know how to deal with such a Bai Jing.

Don't talk about dealing with him, just hear the tiredness in his voice, and guess that he will be uncontrollably worried about him because of his busy these two days.

Li Shuyi felt that he was hopeless.He thought it was three years ago, if Bai Jingken held him like this, lowered his posture a little bit, and asked him not to hinder his engagement, or even let him die in such an intimate and trusting tone, he would definitely not hesitate. Do it all.

There is no calmness, no relief, but he chose to escape because he was forced to have no choice.Layer after layer of camouflage covered her body, and she even deceived herself.

He also finally understood his father.

Why did Jiang Manqing treat him like trash, but he still foolishly chased after her and fell in love with her wholeheartedly.He loves so much that it's like the soil she stepped on, he will hold it up and carefully treasure it in his chest.

This is the humble and paranoid, sick and pathetic, immortal emotion he inherited from his father.

Bai Jing secretly hugged and kissed Li Shuyi countless times when he was asleep, but now that he is awake, he thought he would be pushed away.After waiting for a long time without seeing Li Shuyi's movements, he felt a little strange, so he let go of his hands slowly, and when he stood up, he met Li Shuyi's stagnant eyes.

"What do you want me to do?"

His words were endless, Bai Jing was puzzled, and he continued: "Before I die, I still have value, what do you want me to do for you, just say it."

Bai Jing was stunned, a chill surged in his heart.

After a while, he stretched out his hand and caressed Li Shuyi's cheek with his thumb. With this movement, he suppressed the violent emotions in his heart, and said as gently as possible: "It's my fault, I shouldn't tell you this. I haven't eaten yet , can you accompany me to lunch?"

How could Li Shuyi not know that this person was on the verge of rage.But he didn't mean to provoke Bai Jing by saying this kind of thing, he really felt so.

Li Shuyi didn't say anything, got out of bed and went into the bathroom.

Bai Jing waited until he could no longer see him, then bent down to pick up the cotton swab and medicine, and applied the medicine himself.After walking a few steps, he stopped again, pressed his stomach lightly, and waited for the throbbing pain to ease before going downstairs with his things.

After Li Shuyi took a shower, he checked the time and walked downstairs. When he saw the table full of dishes, he was a little speechless.

Bai Jing was lowering his head and rubbing his temples to refresh himself. Hearing the sound, he turned to see him and said with a smile, "I don't know what you want to eat, so let them make some."

Li Shuyi sat down opposite Bai Jing without saying a word.

Bai Jing uncovered the black earthen pot placed in the middle of the dining table, inside was still steaming steaming fish soup that had turned into milky white, boiled bamboo shoots and shiitake mushrooms, and a few goji berries floating on it, which looked extraordinarily beautiful.He picked up a porcelain bowl and filled it up, put it in front of Li Shuyi, and warned: "Be careful of burning."

Li Shuyi frowned as she looked at the bowl of warm and fragrant soup without any oily smell, and picked up the spoon without saying anything.

Seeing that he was only eating the soup without moving his chopsticks, Bai Jing picked up a few steamed shrimp and siu mai on a small plate next to his bowl, and picked a small plate of soft and tender crab roe tofu and handed it over. .

After a while, Li Shuyi's hands were full of food, and he finally raised his head unbearably and said, "Enough."

In the past, when his hand was injured, Bai Jing helped to pick up the vegetables, so he still had to politely say thank you.Now he is sick, but he is still far away from death, so there is no need for the other party to take care of him like this.

Bai Jing saw that he was really upset, and finally settled down.After eating a few chopstick dishes, there was something in my stomach, so I got up to get stomach medicine.

When he walked back, he passed by Li Shuyi's side, and his eyes caught Li Shuyi's bare ankle, and he couldn't help but frowned slightly.

Bai Jing swallowed the medicine, put the water glass on the table, and went upstairs without saying a word.

Although Li Shuyi didn't look at him, he heard him taking the medicine and couldn't help being distracted.

Both he and Bai Jing had stomach problems.In the past when he was busy, he could eat regularly for a few days, but it has gotten better in the past few years, and he has been paying attention to Bai Jing when he was here, and he has never seen him take medicine again.I don't know why this person has tossed himself like this again.

As Li Shuyi thought about it, he felt that he really should check his mind.Bai Jing is such a proud son of heaven, so many people love and worship him, but he has to make him into a poor guy who doesn't love his parents and doesn't love him. Seeing people feel a little uncomfortable, he feels sorry for him.

It's really a bitch to the bone.

Li Shuyi originally thought that Bai Jing had gone back to his room to rest, so when he came back, he felt a little strange.

But Bai Jing didn't say anything, walked straight to Li Shuyi and knelt down, hugged his legs into his arms, took off his slippers, first covered his feet with his hands, and then picked up a black Put wool socks on top.

He put on socks for Li Shuyi with a serious expression that he only had during a meeting, but Li Shuyi didn't react for a long time.The socks were half put on, and then I remembered to take my legs back, and gritted my teeth, "Why are you crazy!"

Bai Jing held his calf, frowned and said: "Don't move, eat yours, it will be fine soon."

Where is Li Shuyi still in the mood to eat, turned around to face Bai Jing, then bent down to grab his hand to push him away, only to feel a layer of sticky ointment, remembering the back of his hand that was scalded just now, instantly stuck in place.

Bai Jing quickly put on Li Shuyi's two woolen socks, put on cotton slippers for him, and then put his feet back on the floor.Then he went to wash his hands, and sat down opposite Li Shuyi again.

Li Shuyi felt as if he had lost all feeling in his heels, and his entire lower body was stiff. When he opened his mouth, his voice was stiff: "What do you want to do?"

Bai Jing resisted the drowsiness, was too tired to hear Li Shuyi's words clearly, thought he thought he was bored, so he stood up and answered with strength: "Eat some more, I won't disturb you, I'll sit on the sofa. "

After speaking, he went to the living room without waiting for Li Shuyi's answer.

After a while, Uncle Wu came over, seeing that Li Shuyi ate more than usual today, a gratified smile appeared on his face.Smiling and a little worried, he sighed and said, "The young master hasn't slept for two days, Mr. Li should persuade him."

Li Shuyi put down the bowl heavily with a cold face, walked to the living room, saw Bai Jing sitting on the sofa, propping his head on his elbows on the cushion, with his eyes closed, he didn't know if he was asleep.Just about to call him, Bai Jing woke up.

"Have you eaten yet?" Bai Jing asked in a hoarse voice, his eyes were full of bloodshot eyes that hadn't rested well.Li Shuyi ignored him, he stood up and muttered, "Then it's time to take medicine."

On the tea table, Li Shuyi's medicine for this meal has been sorted and put away, and there is a cup of hot water beside it, which Bai Jing poured in advance just now.He stretched out his hand to test the temperature of the water. After leaving it for a while, the temperature was just right. Bai Jing held the water glass in one hand and the medicine in the other and handed it to Li Shuyi.

Li Shuyi looked at him in silence, and Bai Jing gave a suspicious "hmm" in his nasal cavity, his expression was extremely gentle.

Li Shuyi avoided his gaze, took the water glass and took the medicine, saw him sitting back on the sofa, frowned and said, "Go to bed and sleep."

Bai Jing knew that Li Shuyi used to read in the corner of the living room after eating, where he could see the whole garden, so he said, "I want to stay with you for a while."

Li Shuyi was restless.This person's mind is dumb now, and he may not even know what he is talking about.They used to suffer for days and days, when they were in their 20s.Now there are more than 30 people, how can they bear it if they haven't slept for two days?He kicked his leg and said, "Get up."

Seeing that he was about to lose his temper, Bai Jing could only stand up.Li Shuyi grabbed his uninjured hand and led him upstairs.Just now Bai Jing washed his hands and didn't apply the medicine again. Li Shuyi reapplied the medicine on his face impatiently, and then left him beside the bed.Sitting by myself at a round table near the balcony—a position that I can see when I lie on the bed and raise my eyelids.

Bai Jing was stunned for a long time, and when he came back to his senses, there was an uncontrollable smile on his lips, and he went to bed and slept next to Li Shuyi.It was just because the porridge was overturned on the bed just now, and all the supplies were just changed, and the quilt and pillows lost Li Shuyi's breath, and he frowned in dissatisfaction.

There was no light in the room, and the curtains on the side of the bed were drawn, making it look a little dark.There was still a light source where Li Shuyi was sitting, but he didn't do anything, he just sat quietly, clasped his hands in front of him, and looked out the window with his head slightly sideways, not knowing what he was thinking.

Bai Jing's eyes fell on him, and he smiled and thought that no matter how much he resisted and hated him, Li Shuyi still cared about him and would still give in for him.Between the two of them, he was always the winner.

It's just that his eyes lingered on that person's face for a long time, and in the other's calm, unwavering expression, the joyful mood quickly disappeared.

Li Shuyi loves him, but this love is full of helplessness and self-loathing, so much so that he has driven himself to a dead end, and even has no will to live.What is there to be thankful and proud of for this kind of love?

"Book meaning." Bai Jing called him in a low voice.

Li Shuyi didn't look back, and still maintained the sitting posture just now, like a lifeless statue.

Bai Jing looked at him again for a long time, until he couldn't bear it anymore and slowly closed his eyes.But before he fell asleep, he still said what he had been hiding in his heart that he didn't dare to say, and he felt that he was not qualified to say it for the time being.

"Shuyi, I love you."