end of love

As the year approaches, the weather is getting colder and colder.

Jin Yan was wearing a thick down jacket and a scarf covering half of his face, squatting by the pond to feed the fish.

He wrapped himself up like a bear, and his movements of sprinkling fish feed were particularly clumsy. The goldfish in the pond were also lazy, swimming and then not moving.

Jin Yan stretched out his hand to pull down the scarf, and when he spoke, white gas came out of his mouth: "Eat, eat."

The goldfish swam away slowly, flicking its tail.

Jin Yan was feeling depressed when Aunt Zhang, the owner of the farmhouse, came down from the stairs and saw him shouting, "Xiaoyan, it's cold, don't play in the water."

Jin Yan was overdressed, so he turned his head with some difficulty and said, "I'm not playing in the water, I'm feeding the fish."

Aunt Zhang came closer and said, "Auntie is going out, do you want to bring anything?"

Her little grandson, who is less than two years old, is standing at her feet, holding a bottle in both hands and sucking non-stop.

Jin Yan walked over to tease him with fish feed, and said with a smile, "Auntie, bring me peanut brittle candies." He likes to eat sweets, especially this kind of long and thin sugar rolls made of peanuts and sugar, one bite is full of sweetness The smell, Jin Yan can eat a bag in a day.

The child really put down the bottle and grabbed his hand, Jin Yan smiled and hid.He tried several times but couldn't catch it, so he went to look at his grandma anxiously, almost crying with his mouth puckered.

Aunt Zhang nodded, she should know, she picked up her little grandson again, and said angrily: "You are so naughty at such a big age, let's see how your uncle treats you when he comes back."

When Jin Yan heard the expression on Li Shuyi's face, he collapsed, watched Aunt Zhang leave, and couldn't help sighing.

After they came out of the nursing home, they went to this small village on the outskirts of the city and lived in Aunt Zhang's small courtyard, which is very close to the city and the conditions are quite good.

It's just that they are not familiar with the place here, and it is time-consuming and costly to build a farm. Fortunately, Li Shuyi later introduced a designer through Yi Tian, ​​and it was much better for the two to work together.But the designer has a wife and son and is busy with work, most of the things still fall on Li Shuyi.

Although Jin Yan doesn't need to use a wheelchair anymore, he still can't stand tired, can't lift heavy objects, can't run fast, and can't help him, Uncle Li.Every time he thinks that Uncle Li is so busy that he doesn't see anyone all day long, while he stays at home like a rice bug, he feels a little heartbroken.

Jin Yan sealed up the fish feed and walked slowly back to the house, thinking as he walked, if only he hadn't been injured so badly, if only he was still as healthy as before.

Then he can do a lot of things, let him do all the heavy and tiring work, and he, Uncle Li, can rest more.

Anyway, he is young and can stand the toss.

Thinking about it, Jin Yan felt that he was daydreaming, and sighed heavily again.

When Li Shuyi came back in the evening, Jin Yan saw that his face was flushed and he was still coughing non-stop, and asked him if he had a cold.

There is a stove in the room, which is very warm.Li Shuyi took off his coat, frowned, and said, "Maybe a little bit." As he spoke, he dug out the medicine box, randomly found two cold medicines, and swallowed them with cold water, so that he didn't take himself seriously at all.

Jin Yan refused to let him drink cold water, but this man moved so fast that he couldn't stop him, and said anxiously: "Uncle Li, let's go to the hospital, you must have a fever."

"It's not so serious, just sleep and it will be fine." Li Shuyi felt that he just had a little cough, so there was no need to make a fuss about it.

He was tired all day, and the cold medicine had sleeping ingredients, so he barely managed to take a shower, and fell asleep as soon as he touched the bed.

Jin Yan went to the bedroom to see him several times before going to sleep, but after thinking about it, he was still uneasy, so he went to his room to hug the quilt and sleep next to Li Shuyi.

He, Uncle Li, has always been like this, no matter if he was injured or felt any pain in his heart, on the surface he always looked calm and breezy.Ask him how he is, and the answer will always be those few words, nothing, no problem, it will be fine in a while, and it will be fine in a few days.

Others would like to let the whole world know about the smallest injury and pain, but he would like to hide the largest injury and pain from anyone.

Jin Yan was deceived by him before, but after experiencing so much, now he no longer believes in his so-called "nothing".

Jin Yan was a light sleeper, and because he deliberately paid attention, he never fell into a deep sleep.So in the middle of the night, almost as soon as Li Shuyi felt abnormal, he turned over.

Jin Yan turned on the desk lamp, and saw Li Shuyi shrunk himself into a ball, his teeth were gnashing, his forehead was covered in cold sweat, and his body shivered unnaturally.

"Uncle Li!" Jin Yan rushed over to call him.

Li Shuyi closed his eyes and didn't respond. He opened and closed his mouth and spit out the word "cold".

Jin Yan pulled the quilt over him, wrapping him tightly, but Li Shuyi was still shivering and screaming as if he had been exposed to the winter night.

Jin Yan felt more and more wrong, so he didn't wear his coat, got out of bed and ran out of the house as fast as he could, waking up everyone in Aunt Zhang's family, took out all kinds of cards and documents, and asked her son to drive them to the city in a van. in the hospital.

It was only after arriving at the hospital that Li Shuyi found out that Li Shuyi had acute pneumonia. The doctor said that if his condition continued to develop, he would develop septic shock, which would be life-threatening.

Jin Yan was so frightened that his expression changed.The doctor asked about Li Shuyi's medical history, but he didn't dare to hide it. He told him that Li Shuyi had been shot before, and that he had a severe high fever after being exposed to the rain, including headaches from time to time.

The doctor frowned and arranged a series of examinations for Li Shuyi. After thinking about it, he suggested that Jin Yan give him a brain CT scan.

Jin Yan nodded in agreement, and asked Aunt Zhang's son to go back first, and stayed up all night in the hospital by himself.

On the second day, the designer knew about Li Shuyi's illness and helped transfer him to a better ward.Not long after, Mu Ran called and asked Jin Yan how the situation was and if he needed to come over.

Now that the weather is cold and the Chinese New Year is coming soon, Jin Yan dared not bother him, so he repeatedly refused.He also said that he would contact him in time for anything, so Mu Ran gave up.

Li Shuyi's illness was so severe this time that she never woke up.When those examination results came out, saying that he had a meningioma, Jin Yan was dumbfounded.In order to avoid misdiagnosis, another MRI was done later, and the same result was obtained.

Jin Yan forced himself to calm down, inquired in the hospital, and took the medical certificate to the most famous neurosurgeon in the hospital.

The doctor said that according to the examination results, Li Shuyi's meningioma had a clear boundary, little atypia, and was benign.Although benign meningiomas grow slowly, they grow expansively. If surgical resection is not carried out as soon as possible, it will oppress the brain tissue and inhibit the respiratory center when it grows to a certain stage, and sudden death is not impossible.There are also very few, which are benign at first, and then gradually turn malignant.

If it becomes a malignant brain tumor, one year's life is not bad.

In short, for this disease, the sooner it is treated, the better. Not only can it not be completely removed, but the prognosis is poor if it is delayed until the later stage.

Jin Yan finished listening with a pale face, thanked the doctor solemnly, and then returned to the inpatient department.

It is already night.It's just that in the hospital, people are leaving all the time, some are suffering from illness, some are sad, and it always seems so noisy and hurried.

Jin Yan stood by the streetlight at the entrance of the trail.

Doctors, nurses, patients, family members, many people passed by him.He stood there in a daze, feeling as if he had been blocked suddenly, not knowing what they were doing, nor what he was doing.

He remembered that when Li Shuyi was still in Jinhai City, Dr. Wei pushed Li Shuyi to have an examination when he fainted. He also remembered the medicine that Li Shuyi always carried with him, and he remembered the sentence he said in the nursing home, one must try everything in one's life .

Suddenly he realized that he, Uncle Li, knew that he was sick a long time ago, but he just didn't want to treat it.

He just didn't want to live anymore.

When this idea appeared in his mind, Jin Yan's legs were so weak that he couldn't stand up for a moment, so he could only hold on to the lamppost tightly and squat down slowly.

He said before that he regarded Li Shuyi as his father, he was not joking.

He doesn't know what fatherly love is.When he was a child, his father could kick him from the middle of the room to the corner, beat him when he was in a bad mood, beat him until his nose bleeds non-stop, and later even wanted to hack him to death.

Although the young master treats him well, the young master is only a child who is not a few years older than him. He has only received the care and love of the elders from Li Shuyi.

If Li Shuyi dies...

Thinking of this possibility, Jin Yan couldn't hold back his face and wept.She cried so much that her chest hurt so badly that she couldn't breathe, drank the cold wind again, squatted on the ground and coughed violently, her heart was about to be coughed out.

Li Shuyi woke up intermittently several times in the next few days, and each time was not very long.Once he talked nonsense in a dream, Jin Yan patted his chest lightly, but heard him suddenly yelled two words in a low voice.

"Bai Jing."

Jin Yan was stunned, his eyes slowly turning red.

When Li Shuyi's condition really stabilized and he became fully awake for the first time, when he saw Jin Yan whose face was full of worry and his eyes were red and swollen as if he had been beaten, he couldn't help but want to laugh.

Why is it that every time he is sick and opens his eyes, he sees such a picture, he is tired of seeing it.But think about it, if there is no Jin Yan, maybe he died somewhere, and no one will find out.

Li Shuyi knew that the child must have been terrified, subconsciously comforted him: "I'm fine."

As soon as the words fell, the other party jumped up and shouted: "Don't say you're fine anymore! Always say you're fine! Then what's the matter!"

It was the first time that Li Shuyi was yelled at by Jin Yan, and she couldn't react when she stared blankly at him.

Jin Yan couldn't help crying as he spoke: "Uncle Li, since you are sick, why did you hide it from me? If one day you fell down in front of me and couldn't wake up again, have you ever thought about what will happen to me? ?”

Li Shuyi was silent, only then did he realize that Jin Yan already knew about his illness.He wanted to sit up, but he didn't have the strength.

Sensing his intention, Jin Yan sniffed and went to help him.

"Sorry, I made you worry." Li Shuyi sighed, "Jin Yan, for some people, being alive is not necessarily a good thing, and death is not necessarily a bad thing." He paused and asked softly, "Do you understand?"

Jin Yan cried and shook his head vigorously.

He doesn't understand, he doesn't understand at all, he only knows that when a person dies, nothing is left.But he also knew how stubborn Li Shuyi was, no one could change his decision.

Jin Yan was so sad and desperate for the first time.

After this time, the two of them didn't bring up this topic again, Jin Yan said less and less, and his usual smile disappeared.

Li Shuyi saw the change in him, but he still didn't say anything after all.

Li Shuyi's cell phone rang early this morning.

He was still sleeping, Jin Yan looked at "Yi Tian" displayed on the screen, and hurried out of the ward with his mobile phone.

Yi Tian knew that Li Shuyi was still ill, so he was not surprised to hear Jin Yan's voice, and only told him that Bai Jing had found their location.He helped stop them for the past few months, but now he can't stop them anymore. The only way is for them to transfer immediately, maybe there is still room for change.

Jin Yan was silent for a while before saying: "Mr. Yi, we are not leaving."

"You don't need to discuss it with Li Shuyi?"

"No, I'm sorry for your troubles during this time."

After hanging up the phone, Jin Yan sat down slowly in the corridor.

He is not a smart person, so he doesn't know whether the decision he made is right or wrong.But they are not related to Yi Tianfei, so they really shouldn't bother each other anymore.In addition, his Uncle Li's voice of Bai Jing in his sleep made him sure that if there was anyone in this world who could keep his Uncle Li alive.

It can only be this person.

In case, if he made a wrong judgment and harmed Uncle Li, he would pay for it with his own life.

In the afternoon, after Li Shuyi finished taking the medicine and rested, Jin Yan left the ward.

Unexpectedly, just as he walked outside the building, two people came to stop him and said, "Sorry Mr. Jin, you can't leave the hospital right now."

It took Jin Yan a long time to react: "Are you... from the Bai family?"

The two of them didn't speak, which was a tacit agreement.

Jin Yan didn't expect them to come so quickly, and he and his Uncle Li were already under surveillance.He also knew that these people would not answer much, so he stopped asking and stood stubbornly downstairs waiting.

The weather was so cold that he wore a lot of clothes, but his nose was still red from the cold.Those two people couldn't persuade him, and they didn't dare to force him in, so they could only drive him to the corner to protect him from the wind as much as possible.

Without waiting for too long, a black car drove up in the distance, and Jin Yan knew they had arrived by the reaction of the two of them.He pushed them away and walked forward. Before the car came to a complete stop, the door was pushed open and a person got out.

When Jin Yan saw the other party, his face instantly turned pale, and he turned around and ran in.

"Jin Yan!" the man called out to him.

Jin Yan's mind was in a mess, and he couldn't figure out why Bai Hao appeared here.

He couldn't run in the first place, he didn't look at the road in a panic, and he tripped and fell to the ground after running a few steps.

Bai Hao quickly caught up with him and helped him up, and said anxiously, "Why are you running! Did you fall somewhere? Show me quickly!"

Jin Yan shook his head vigorously, avoiding Bai Hao from looking at his face.Bai Hao raised his chin, but he blocked it with his hands, and shouted in a panic, "I'm not Jin Yan! I'm not Jin Yan! Jin Yan is dead!"

There was chaos on their side, and on the other side, Bai Jing and Zuo Mingyuan also got out of the car and entered the hospital.

Bai Jing was tall, wearing a black overcoat, with a straight back, a cold and solemn face, with a heavy sense of oppression.As soon as he came in, almost everyone was secretly looking at him.

"Which floor is it?" Bai Jing asked.

The two people guarding the hospital hurriedly answered the floor and room number.

Bai Jing heard that the floor was not high, and he couldn't wait for the elevator, so he raised his legs and walked upstairs.Zuo Mingyuan took the time to explain a few words to those two people, and immediately followed.

Arriving at the door of Li Shuyi's ward, Bai Jing stopped suddenly and did not move for a long time.

Zuo Mingyuan didn't urge him, and quietly backed away a little, intending to wait outside the door.

After a while, Bai Jing finally opened the door and walked in slowly.

The room was very quiet. When he walked to the bed, he saw that the person on the bed was asleep with his head turned slightly.

Those cold eyes were closed, the eyelashes cast a faint shadow, and there were a few strands of tiredness between the brows, looking fragile and pitiful.

There was a tearing pain in Bai Jing's heart, he stretched out his hand to caress the other's pale and thin cheek, and for some reason, he remembered the expression of this person's extreme aloofness when he was a teenager who ignored everyone.

But who made him like this?Who overdrawn his life and turned that young man into such a state that he couldn't even breathe.

Bai Jing leaned down, closed his eyes and gently pressed against his forehead, choked up and said, "Li Shuyi..."

My Li Shuyi.

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Just give this chapter as a gift to the "Colorful Little Fish 007" girl in Jinjiang.Thank you for your long comment. Meeting readers like you is the greatest meaning of my writing.Compare heart.