end of love

His mother ran away when Jin Yan was ten years old.

In fact, he knew that she was going to leave. After all, she cooked a lot of food for him that night, including several meat dishes. You must know that meat is never seen on the dinner table at his house.

This woman has a hot temper, and when she lectures Jin Yan, she always twists his ears and calls him "little bastard" and "short-lived bastard", and will cut him a few times when she gets angry.She was very gentle to Jin Yan that day, she didn't beat Jin Yan when he got a single digit in the math test, and she kept adding vegetables to his bowl during the meal.

Jin Yan was terrified by his mother, and he didn't care to eat a small cabbage in his mouth, so he raised his head and asked stupidly, "Mom, what's wrong with you?"

His mother pushed his head down and said impatiently: "Eat your meal."

Eye sockets are red.

Jin Yan looks heartless, but he is not stupid at all.

He lay on the bed at night and didn't sleep at all, even though his mother relaxed his hands and feet, Jin Yan could hear her packing things.He didn't move, just stared at the yellowed and cracked ceiling with his eyes open, tears streaming down the corners of his eyes, wetting the pillow cover in a short while.

Then the rustling outside stopped, and the footsteps stopped outside his bedroom door.

Jin Yan didn't dare to make a sound.He pursed his mouth vigorously, pushing his mouth to the tip of his nose, his facial features squeezed together, tears mixed with snot all over his face, his appearance was funny and pitiful.

He thought, let's go, you won't be beaten if you leave, you don't have to hide from those debt collectors, and you won't come back after you leave.

His mother seemed to have heard these voices, but she didn't come in to take a look at him after all.

The footsteps gradually faded away, and there was a sound of locking outside the door.

It wasn't until this time that Jin Yan sat up from the bed and yelled heart-piercingly, "Mom!"

No one answered him.

No one will respond to him in the future.

Jin Yan raised his head and cried loudly, he knew that he had no mother.

It has been several days since Jin Yan's father came back.

The man smelled of alcohol and was swearing all the time. Jin Yan knew at a glance that he had gone to gamble again, and lost everything again.Jin Yan was afraid that he would die of fright, so he hid in the corner and did not dare to make a sound. The man stared at him and asked viciously, "Where's your mother?"

Jin Yan didn't dare to breathe, and shook his head.The man searched the house red-eyed, and when he found his wife had run away, he angrily smashed everything in the house, grabbed Jin Yan and beat him up.

Jin Yan was beaten until he cried for his father and mother, and no one in his neighbors dared to help.

After following his father for a while, Jin Yan also ran away.The reason for running away was that his father started taking drugs, and when the drug addiction broke out, he almost chopped him with a knife.

Jin Yan had no one to rely on, and after moving several times to avoid debts, his family had long since lost contact with those relatives.He was too young and couldn't find a job, and couldn't earn a penny, so he could only wander on the street.

It was alright at the beginning, Jin Yan could find food by digging through the trash cans, and slept under the flyover, with the cardboard box covered for a whole night.It's not going to work until winter comes, it's icy everywhere, and the winter wind blows on my body like a blade.

Jin Yan still remembered that the day he met Bai Hao was the first snow in winter.

At that time, he hadn't eaten for two days, and he was wrapped in several ragged clothes that had been found out of the trash can. His hands were covered with chilblains, and his ten fingers were swollen like sausages.

It was still early when he arrived on the street, and there were not many people on the road, but a few breakfast shops rolled up their curtains and were ready to start business.The owner of the steamed stuffed bun shop pushed out the steamer, and when he lifted the lid, the big meat buns were next to each other, and the steaming heat made it hard to keep your eyes open.

Jin Yan stood beside him, his eyes were staring straight, and saliva was almost dripping down the corners of his mouth.

The boss noticed his gaze, gave him a hard look, and waved his hand away: "Go, go, go." His tone was like chasing a dog.

Jin Yan twitched the corners of his mouth and shuffled away.I searched the street again reluctantly, but found nothing, and finally couldn't hold on anymore, and fell down at the entrance of an alley in a daze.

I don't know when, the sky suddenly began to snowflakes.

Jin Yan opened his eyes, watching them fall down softly, onto his eyelashes, the tip of his nose, and his mouth.He felt that he was about to die. Although he didn't know what death was and what it would become after death, he knew that if he closed his eyes here, he would never be able to wake up again.

People came and went around, Jin Yan listened to the hurried footsteps around him, and slowly closed his eyes.Before he completely lost his sanity, he saw a vague figure standing in front of him.

Recalling this point, Jin Yan couldn't help laughing.

This was the first time he saw Bai Hao, even though he couldn't see his facial features clearly, and he couldn't remember his expression at that time, but that blurred figure was seared in his heart just like that.

Bai Hao rescued Jin Yan, not only sent him to the hospital for treatment, but also brought him home.

The nanny at home was called Young Master Bai Hao, and Jin Yan also followed her example, calling around Bai Hao every day as Young Master. In fact, he didn't know what Young Master meant at the time.

Bai Hao's family has no parents, nor any other elders.Jin Yan didn't ask, Bai Hao gave him something to eat, and he ate it, and Bai Hao didn't ask, so he wouldn't rummage through things.Until one day, when Bai Jing and Li Shuyi came, Jin Yan was gnawing chicken legs in the garden, and seeing them frightened him half to death, he thought they came to drive him away.

The result was different from what he thought, not only was he not driven away, but after Li Shuyi's arrangement, he went back to school.

From then on, when Bai Hao went to school, he also went to school, and when Bai Hao went home, he also went home.Then the two of them ate together. After the meal, Bai Hao did his homework, and he played by himself. After Bai Hao finished writing, he would teach him to write his homework.

They spend a lot of time together every day.

For Jin Yan, after such a wandering life, what made him most grateful was not that Bai Hao saved his life, but that he gave him a home.

Jin Yan leaned against the wall, the corners of his mouth slightly raised, and his fingers gently caressed the envelope.

Every time he thinks of Bai Hao, he feels as if there is a sun in his chest, warm and warm, and he becomes happy for no reason.

The night is getting deeper and deeper.

When it was close to twelve o'clock, a car drove slowly.

Jin Yan was sitting in front of the guardrail on the side of the house, just in the backlight, he couldn't see the people in the car clearly, and the people inside couldn't see him naturally.

The car stopped in front of the house, Jin Yan recognized it, it wasn't Bai Hao's car.He was still a little confused, so Bai Hao got down from the co-pilot.

Jin Yan stood up suddenly, the smile on the corner of his mouth widened, and before he had time to call someone, he saw another person coming down from the driver's seat, it was Song Sile.He walked to Bai Hao's side and didn't know what to say. Bai Hao nodded and turned around to walk in, but before walking a few steps, Bai Hao was stopped again.

Then, Jin Yan saw that Song Sile walked up to Bai Hao, leaned over and kissed him.

Bai Hao did not refuse.

He raised his hand and pressed it on the back of Song Sile's head, and the two kissed for a long time.

Jin Yan stared at them blankly, and the envelope in his hand fell to the ground at some point.

After Song Sile drove away and Bai Hao walked to the door, Jin Yan came out from the darkness.

Seeing him, Bai Hao frowned and asked, "Why are you here?"

Jin Yan still looked dazed, and he replied: "Master, today is your birthday, I... I'm here to give you a birthday present." After speaking, he stretched out his hand, only to find that the envelope was gone.He searched in a hurry, then ran back to the corner just now, picked up the envelope on the ground, ran back in a panic and handed it to Bai Hao.

Bai Hao looked at him impatiently.

Jin Yan stammered: "Master... I wish you... Happy birthday to you."

Bai Hao took the envelope without saying anything.

Jin Yan didn't move. It took him a long time to lower his head and ask, "Master, why did you and Master Song..."

A trace of embarrassment flashed in Bai Hao's eyes, he interrupted Jin Yan and asked, "Did you see that?"

Jin Yan nodded, but still lowered his head.

Bai Hao clenched his hands slowly, and replied in a cold voice, "It has nothing to do with you."

Jin Yan raised his head at this moment, and Bai Hao saw tears on his face.

He wiped his eyes with the back of his hand, felt that it was not enough, and wiped it hard again: "I saw you... I am here..." He pressed his heart, "I am so uncomfortable here." Tears kept coming, Jin Yan Unable to see Bai Hao clearly, he asked stupidly, "Master, I...do I like you?"

Jin Yan never considered his feelings for Bai Hao, because all his feelings were on Bai Hao.

Even when his Uncle Li teased him, he would feel shy, but he never examined what those feelings were.

Anyway, as long as Bai Hao is fine.As long as he is happy and he lives well, no matter what choice he makes, Jin Yan will follow him.

But Jin Yan never thought that love is different. Love has jealousy and a desire for dominance that cannot be compared with other feelings, so he is so sad now.

Bai Hao looked at Jin Yan in astonishment, seeing the tears in his eyes turning back and forth but refusing to fall, he answered hoarsely after a long while: "No." Bai Hao avoided Jin Yan's sight and said displeasedly, "What nonsense are you talking about?"

He turned around, turned his back to Jin Yan and said, "You go, don't come to me if you have nothing to do in the future."

After finishing speaking, he went straight in without looking at Jin Yan again.

Jin Yan didn't chase after him like before, he stood under the streetlight for a long time.He didn't know what he did wrong, why Bai Hao hated him so much now.He also knew that crying was a cowardly act, but he almost rubbed his eyes, but he couldn't stop the tears from falling.

I don't know how long it took before Jin Yan shuffled away. After walking a few steps, he would look back again.

Bai Hao looked at his back and loosened his tie a little irritably.He didn't understand why he had such emotions, and this incomprehension deepened his irritability, like a vicious circle.

Bai Hao thought, he is right, what is wrong with him?What's wrong with him and Song Sile? Do you still have to take Jin Yan into consideration?What is Jin Yan?If he hadn't picked him up by himself, he would have been frozen to death long ago!If he hadn't picked him up by himself, would he be able to live so carefreely with Li Shuyi now?

The thoughts in my head were extremely chaotic, and all kinds of noisy voices were chattering endlessly.

Bai Hao was so irritable that he couldn't even sit down. He suddenly saw the envelope on the table. He picked it up and opened it violently, then shook it out vigorously. Then, a photo fell out lightly.

In an instant, all sounds stopped abruptly.

Bai Hao seemed to be frozen in place, and he didn't even dare to blink his eyes.

The girl in the photo is about fifteen or sixteen years old, with soft features, wearing an elegant white dress, standing in the garden, looking at the camera shyly and nervously.

The photo is very old, so old that it has turned yellow, and almost every place has left the imprint of time polishing.

Holding his breath, Bai Hao carefully picked up the photo, his hands were shaking constantly, and the corners of his eyes were red.

That was his mother.

Bai Ya.