end of love

Jin Yan was forced to the corner of Tangchi, and he didn't dare to make other moves.

Bai Hao asked: "Is the preserved fruit delicious?"

He kept the nut in his mouth and licked the icing sugar outside, looked at Bai Hao in a daze, and nodded.

Bai Hao then turned his head to kiss him, hooked his tongue, sucked the sweetness in his mouth, and bit the little flesh into his own mouth.

Then he backed away slowly, with a serious expression on his face as if nothing had happened just now.

Jin Yan was like a cooked shrimp, even his neck was red, he raised his hand to wipe the corner of his mouth, and stammered: "Young master, the young master is not too dirty."

Bai Hao leaned against the pool, poured a glass of plum wine, raised his eyebrows, and asked innocently: "I've eaten Jin Yan's saliva so many times, why do you think it's dirty?"

Jin Yan couldn't even imagine that he could say such a thing, buried himself in the water, even his chin sank in, and was so ashamed that he wished he could drown.

With a low laugh, Bai Hao called him to his side, stopped teasing him, and talked to him seriously, asking him how he was doing in the nursing home.

Jin Yan immediately regained his spirits, talking about Li Shuyi, about himself, and about a new mother-in-law who came to the yard recently, she is very kind and kind, and when she sees him, she always stuffs him with some fruit.He also said that Dr. Tong had a beautiful and excellent girlfriend, and many nurses lost their love.He always has a lot to say to Bai Hao, and when he sees a bug flying past his eyes, he can't wait to tell Bai Hao.

Bai Hao listened carefully to his words, occasionally asked a few questions, occasionally chuckled a few times because of the content of his words, and fed him a few preserved fruits when he saw that he was tired from talking.

Plum wine doesn't have any alcohol content, but Bai Hao is a person who can't drink alcohol, and soaked in the hot spring pool, the blood flows fast, and he will feel drunk after a few glasses.

He propped one hand on the edge of the pool, put his fingers on his forehead, tilted his head, and looked at Jin Yan lazily, but his thoughts gradually drifted away.

In fact, when Jin Yan was brought home at first, he didn't want him to stay for a long time.Bai Hao himself is a helpless duckweed, how to raise him.I just thought he was small and looked pitiful, and thought that at least the chilblain on his hands would be healed, and then I would find a place where he could go and send him out.

But how can there be such a well-behaved child.

In the hospital, he whispered to his elder brother, but when he came home, he heard the nanny call him young master, so he changed his words accordingly.I never dare to touch things in the house more, and I don’t know how to stretch out my chopsticks to pick up vegetables when I eat. I got a chicken leg, and I held it in my hand and was reluctant to eat it. I hid in the garden and was secretly happy.Seeing that he was hurt, he cried more than he was hurt...

After a long time, Bai Hao couldn't bear it anymore.

I can't bear this concern, I can't bear this company, I can't bear to send him away.Only then did he beg Bai Jing to let him keep Jin Yan as his only support and sustenance.

If it weren't for the fact that he was provoked and insulted time and time again during his growth, saying that his grandmother was a woman who was fucked by thousands of people, his mother was a slut who ran away with men, and he was so dirty that he didn't deserve to step into the Bai family. The first descendant of the threshold... If it wasn't for this, how could he have lost his mind and got into a dead end, eager to climb up, eager to gain power, unable to distinguish between good and bad, and walked the most wrong path.

Thinking about the past, Bai Hao couldn't help but raised his hand to gently stroke Jin Yan's cheek, and sighed, "Why aren't you angry?" He seemed to be asking himself, Jin Yan, or... For whom to complain.

There is actually no expression on his face, but if you look closely, there is pain in his eyes.

This kind of pain has been weighing heavily on his heart, and once he gets loose, it almost pours out of his eyes.

Why not be angry.

He caused him to go around the gate of hell, and almost couldn't come back.He was seriously injured by him, and the good skills that he had worked hard for many years were wasted.If he is under 22 years old, he will have no future.

Why, don't be angry.

Obviously, he should be so angry that he should be killed, or that he should have ruined his life with an eye for an eye, and let him live with guilt and regret for the rest of his life.

How can it be done, the eyes looking at him are still the same as when I was a child, with wholehearted dependence and trust, without any trace of resentment or defensiveness.

But because of this, Bai Hao suffered even more.Because Jin Yan doesn't hate, he has to bear double guilt alone.

Like a small blade hanging in the heart, no matter day or night, it will cut a shallow opening from time to time, without bleeding and difficult to detect.It's just that the time has passed, and the heart is full of cuts, none of which are good.

How painful it is, only Bai Hao knows.

Jin Yan didn't understand what his young master was saying at first, and was about to ask, but from the other party's painful eyes that almost turned into reality, he understood what he meant.

But he didn't know how to answer. What he wanted to say had already been said thousands of times.So I just leaned over, put my hand on the back of Bai Hao's hand, turned my face sideways, rubbed against his palm, and said softly: "Master, winter is so cold."

It's very cold in winter.

Those who don't have a home, the winter is even colder.

In warmer weather, there is food to be found in the smelly, buzzing trash cans.Even if the food is covered with maggots, breaking off the worms will always fill the stomach.In winter, what is covered by clouds is not only the sun, but also the hope of being alive.

It's not that he didn't want to work in the past, but he is only ten years old, who wants him.When I saw a shop recruiting workers, as soon as I approached it, I was kind enough to give him a steamed bun or two before driving away.More, swearing and kicking him out.What's more, he thought he was dirty, so he took a mop and broom and beat him hard a few times to beat him out.

That winter day, Jin Yan even put on the lady's dress that he found in the trash can.It's just that even though he was curled up under the paper shell, the wind came in through the gap, holding the ice knife to cut the flesh on his body.

He hadn't found anything to eat for two days, and with the last bit of strength he went out, he still found nothing.When he fell to the ground, he kept swallowing, thinking about the last meal his mother made before leaving.As he thought about it, warm tears rolled down the chapped cut on his face, causing him to tremble in pain.

Without Bai Hao, Jin Yan's life would have ended in that winter day when the first snow fell, in that white alley.Just like that, he disappeared from the world without a sound, and there was not even a single person who was worried or sad for him.

Winter is very cold, but because of Bai Hao, Jin Yan had so many winters again.

Just such a simple sentence, not a sensational, grateful answer.But Bai Hao understood, he understood everything Jin Yan wanted to say.

He reached out and pulled Jin Yan into his arms, and stroked his back lightly.In the warm water, the naked skin is close to each other, but it can't give birth to any charming thoughts. It only feels warm and has a sore nose. It just wants to hold Jin Yan forever in the cold winter.

Time in the courtyard seemed to be frozen.The people embracing each other and the bushes and branches inside the wall are all silent.In the light and shadow of the soup pool reflected through the floor-to-ceiling windows, there is only the gurgling water in the bamboo tube.