i want to go home

Li Qian thought that he could leave after finishing speaking, but Xie Yuming dawdled for a long time. He looked at the man who wanted to speak but didn't dare, it was funny but helpless: "What do you want to say?"

Xie Yuming borrowed his courage, looked down and did not look at him: "May I call you—" After finishing speaking, he hurriedly denied, "No, no, just send a text message..."

Li Qian felt that Xie Yuming could really direct and perform a good show by himself, so he twitched the corner of his mouth and said, "Yes." As for whether to reply or not, that's another matter.

"Thank you Qian!"

This child is as if he has received great favors. Li Qian was so troubled by him that he didn't know what to say. After thinking about it, he said: "I don't often look at my phone, and I don't always call back when I do."

The truth always hurts a little bit, Xie Yuming's smile froze immediately, but he also knew that he should not ask for too much, nana: "I know, I won't bother Qian."

"The driver is in a hurry."

"I'm leaving……"

"Well, let's go back quickly." Li Qian nodded, thinking that he had finally sent this pig spirit boy away.

Xie Yuming left reluctantly, and Li Qian heaved a sigh of relief.

After he left, Li Qian remembered: He changed his phone number three years ago, but he didn't tell Xie Yuming.

But after thinking about it, this person has been pretending to be crazy for so long, he must have secretly obtained his phone number long ago.

Sure enough, at night, I received an embarrassing text message from Xie Yuming, very unnutritive, asking him if he had eaten.

Li Qian was cleaning the kitchen. He glanced at the lit screen, but did not turn it on to reply. After a while, the phone rang again with a "ding dong". After washing his hands and drying his hands, he picked up the phone and clicked on a few photos of the dishes, which could be taken together on the table, but Xie Yuming wanted to take a photo of each dish very seriously, as if to show Li Qian how to appreciate each dish. The level of sophistication in a dish.

If Li Qian hadn't just finished eating and his stomach was still full, he would definitely think that he was poisoning in the middle of the night, with malicious intentions.

Finally, he asked him, "Qian, can I cook for you tomorrow?"

Li Qian was a little surprised, he didn't know when Xie Yuming also learned to cook, he used to be the most impatient with these things.

Afraid that he really came to the house, he quickly replied: "No need."

Xie Yuming, who was staring at his phone in a daze over there, finally received a message, but in the end he refused, his head drooped suddenly, listless.Although the ending had been expected, I still couldn't help feeling a little disappointed.

Unwilling, he obediently replied: "Okay..."

From these two words and the string of ellipsis, Li Qian could feel Xie Yuming's grievance and reluctance that he was about to pass through the screen, and for some reason, the corners of his mouth curled up.He didn't call him back, and the other side wisely stopped disturbing him, and the phone returned to silence.

Li Qian walked into the study quickly, picked up the manuscript, and captured the inspiration that slipped out from a certain corner of his heart.

The next morning, Li Qian went for a morning jog as usual, and while running, he saw a sunny and energetic young man running from the opposite side. It was only later that he realized that it was Xie Yuming, a young man in his late thirties.He was wearing a sportswear, exposing a large area of ​​skin on his arms and sides of his body. He wanted to have a handsome figure. Wearing it like this was the high-quality attack of many little wolf dogs in the gay circle—although he didn’t match the word at the time— ——But after three years of neglect, the thin and pale body is now wearing this dress, which looks a bit seductive, gay, and accepting.

Xie Yuming smiled nervously at him, like a shy and immature boy.

Li Qian: How coquettish...

He had never seen Xie Yuming who looked so coquettish, even in bed, exuding an aura of "I am the most gay in the world".

He wanted to pretend he didn't see it, but how could Xie Yuming make him do so, he trotted beside him, didn't say a word, quietly, but the panting became louder and louder, but he didn't take a step. Li Qian's stubborn appearance makes Li Qian's heart soften.

This person has been stolen for two years, and now everything is different, Li Qian sometimes feels that Xie Yuming did it, sometimes he feels that he can't escape the responsibility, and sometimes, he feels sorry for this person—— Even if he doesn't want to go on with him anymore, I hope he won't live so hard and keep his pride, at least he won't step himself into the dirt for one person.

He stopped, his breathing was still very calm, Xie Yuming relaxed all of a sudden, panting heavily on his knees, and after a while, he gently grabbed his clothes, a little frustrated: "I'm sorry..."

He is really not in good health now, he was on glucose again yesterday, and he was very excited when he was thinking about sending out the dinner he made for Li Qian, but after being rejected, he felt sick to his stomach, and he vomited after only a few mouthfuls. In addition, I have not exercised all year round. Although I have gradually strengthened the training this month, my calf is still sore and sore that I can hardly walk.

He insisted on running with Li Qian, but when he couldn't run anymore and asked Li Qian to stop and wait for him, the other party must have annoyed him to death.

Xie Yuming felt his eye sockets start to sore.

But without Li Qian's side, he couldn't eat well, he couldn't sleep well, he seemed to have lost his heart, he had already endured to the limit in a month, and he only hoped to spend more time with him.

"Are you all right?" Li Qian looked at those straight but weak legs that were trembling, and helped him up, skillfully letting most of his weight lean on her.

"...No, no." Xie Yuming really wanted to say yes, in exchange for more tenderness from him, but Li Qian finally took the initiative to get close to him once, and he was afraid that he would be found out and make him hate him.

Both legs were as soft as noodles, and he said "no", Li Qian promised that if he let go now, this person would slide to the ground.

"Can you walk by yourself?" He asked knowingly.

Xie Yuming was afraid that he would let go, so he nervously grabbed Li Qian's arm: "Qian...I, don't let me go..."

"Well, not loose."

"I can't stand on my own...huh?!" He was halfway through the sentence, only to realize that Li Qian had just agreed, his eyes suddenly came alive, and sweetness appeared in the blink of an eye, as if Li Qian was just asking him to marry him.

"I'll help you to sit next to me." Li Qian pointed to the bench beside the road.

Xie Yuming became nervous again, afraid that Li Qian was going to leave him here, and dawdled not wanting to go there.

"Qian... I will run with you, I don't have to sit down, okay?"

After running for a short time just now, Li Qian didn't think he could still run in his current situation, so he reprimanded him, "Don't make trouble."

"I want to follow you..." he murmured, completely wronged, "I don't want to be left behind by you, I want to follow you."

—Will Qian still be with him?Will Qian never want him again?These problems made it difficult for him to fall asleep every night, and sometimes he was extremely lonely, but he could only bite the quilt by himself, swallowing all his sobs and sobs.

He has never been an optimistic person, he has never seen Li Qian, he is afraid that he will toss himself into a mental hospital again in the endless darkness.

Seeing him like this, Li Qian finally pulled out a hand, rubbed his head on the early morning street where there were almost no people, and said softly, "I'll wait for you to rest, huh?"

Xie Yuming felt that his Qianqian was so gentle that it would explode.

"You are too thin." Li Qian sighed, sickly.

"Can I be with Qian—" Xie Yuming blurted out the words, but he stopped him in time. He had already been rejected by Qian once, and he had the cheek to raise it. Li Qian might not know what to think of him.

He looked at Li Qian in embarrassment, and felt that it was enough to cherish every second now.

"What?" Li Qian didn't have any idea at first, but seeing Xie Yuming's entanglement of longing but not daring to say it, he probably knew what he wanted to say.Seeing his pitiful appearance, which was much thinner than a month ago, he still let go and said, "Go to my house for breakfast." He didn't even use the tone of inquiry, because Xie Yuming's eyes had already lit up, and he was stuttering , A look that wants to die but has to be reserved.

"Is this convenient and convenient?" Xie Yuming regretted it after asking. He finally had an opportunity that fell from the sky, but he wanted to ask this way. What if Li Qian really said it was inconvenient and didn't let him go?

He was so anxious that he hastily added another sentence: "It's convenient..." After finishing speaking, he smiled at Li Qian.

Fortunately, Li Qian was not so vicious, and nodded: "There is nothing inconvenient, we will leave after you have rested."

Xie Yuming was eager to go home as soon as possible, for fear that Li Qian would change his mind if it was too late, and infinite strength suddenly surged in his legs.

"I'm fine, I can go..." After speaking, I also felt that the eagerness was absurd, and I lowered my eyebrows and eyes to pretend to be cute.

Li Qian let out a muffled laugh, which made Xie Yuming's heart skip a beat.

"Let's go then." He took a step back, watched Xie Yuming struggle to get up halfway, then fell down again, raised his head to look at himself in a panic.

"I'll be, wait, I'll be fine soon..." He was a little anxious and explained incoherently.

Li Qian thought: I'm not urging you, why are you in a hurry.While still reaching out to support him, Xie Yuming seemed to have grasped at straws, stood up according to his strength, and took steps cautiously, it seemed that he was not going to let go.

Li Qian walked slowly beside him. Occasionally someone saw him, and it was only to help the patient recover. No one would think there was anything strange about it.

Only Li Qian knew the burning sensation of this person's palm and the layers of sweat.

Xie Yuming also felt his nervous gaffe, he didn't want Li Qian to hate him, but at the same time he was reluctant to let go. Fortunately, Li Qian was afraid that he would fall, so he took the initiative to hold his hand, which made Xie Yuming's flinching hand go nowhere Go, save him from entanglement.

There was a blush on his face, he didn't know if it was from shame or joy.