Fantasy Abyss Sticking to Ink Dye

"Yuan Fan, don't scare me, what's wrong with you?" I held back my tears, and gently wiped Yuan Fan's face, but Yuan Fan trembled violently, and suddenly opened his eyes. Full of panic and mourning, he hid back for a while, staggered up and backed away, and with an extremely calm look, he took out his mobile phone, "Ah, yes, call, doctor, find a doctor."

Looking at Yuan Fan's appearance, I was so distressed that I couldn't breathe. Under the calm surface of this child, a panicked beast was about to swallow him up. Now he is crazy and out of control. He is like a desperately trying to cover up. A victim of his own out of control, it seems that exposure is beyond redemption.I looked at his trembling hands, stepped forward to hold him down, and then took out my mobile phone to call the emergency department for surgery.

Yuan Fan took a deep breath, and after a pause, he looked at the unconscious dean again, and when I was about to say something, he suddenly ran to the bathroom in my lounge and vomited out in pain.

The surgical colleagues were terrified when they came in, and quickly put the dean on a stretcher for first aid.I hurried to the bathroom and saw Yuan Fan's face was full of tears. He was propping up the wall with one hand and his knee with the other. He had already vomited up what he ate in the morning, but his back, waist and abdomen were still twitching. , retching non-stop.What can be spit out is transparent gastric juice, occasionally a little yellowish bile.I know that his current condition is a bit serious, but I know that this is no longer simply a matter of taking some gastrointestinal medicine.

Yuan Fan has never been a benevolent person. He has killed people, even messed up people's teeth, eyes and brains, and let his organization members kill people. From the description, I can imagine that it must be very disgusting, and Yuan Fan must have seen it.Yuan Fan was never a person who would vomit when he saw a bloody scene, not to mention that the dean was only bleeding a little bit, and although the wound was big, it was not disgusting.But now, Yuan Fan is vomiting.

I knew he wasn't expressing disgust at the way the Dean looked.There are other reasons.

There is something wrong with Yuan Fan's spirit.It was his nerves that caused the stomach cramps.I think my subconscious mind finally came to the fore.It's my incompetence. As a doctor, my lover is sick, but I haven't noticed it all the time.Now I can only gently pat him on the back and accompany him quietly.

Yuan Fan swallowed hard and held back his retching. He lowered his head, his voice was full of weakness, "I'm fine, you go out, there's a smell here."

I didn't respond to his request, but just handed him the cup of water I prepared in my hand, "rinse your mouth, wash your face, and lie down for a while. Let's talk."

Yuan Fan was silent for a long time, and twitched and retched twice before taking the water glass. After rinsing his mouth, he pressed the flush button, looked straight at the whirling water vortex, and then turned his head to show me a sad look. With a smile, "Mo Xiaoqi, I caused you trouble, didn't I?"

Silently, I soaked the towel in warm water, wiped Yuan Fan's face carefully, then pulled him onto the bed, pressed him to lie down, covered the quilt, and then said, "I am your boyfriend, Yuan Fan .not your parents."

I'm not your god, Yuan Fan, I'm not such a distant and elusive, nothingness, I'm right beside you, your lover.

That's right, I can always feel Yuanfan's humbleness. When he faces me, he only becomes stronger when he is jealous, and even becomes unreasonable, but other times he just treats me like a god. , and he himself is like a ragged and down-to-earth believer, so cautiously, trying his best to like me, even with the fear of offending me.

I have always felt the pious weakness of abandoning myself, but I only care about Yuan Fan because he has been sad for too long and finally got it.I didn't realize anything.

This kind of humble emotion is not right in the first place.

Yuan Fan has always liked to injure himself, but I lost my temper with him a few times because of this matter before he held back.

Yes, hold back, not give up the idea.Yuan Fan's indifference and strength, as well as the great contrast of humbleness and cowardice, made me realize that my boy, he has been ill for a long time, but because these emotions only face me, no one can Perceived, and I was also immersed in our emotions, the healer does not heal himself.

There is a disease called bipolar disorder.

Both genetics and environment influence.Environmental factors, such as chronic stress and childhood abuse, may contribute to the disease.During the manic phase, you feel or appear unusually happy, energetic, irritable, often make reckless decisions, and have a reduced need for sleep.During the depression period, you will cry, develop negative views on life, and may commit suicide.

Yuan Fan's current appearance clearly tells me that he has been suffering from mixed bipolar disorder. The obvious manifestation is that he often becomes extremely pessimistic and painful after a violent rage.

Yuan Fan lay on the bed and looked at me quietly. After I calmed down for a while, I asked, "Yuan Fan, why are you sad? I never thought you were troublesome, otherwise I would never have accepted you from the very beginning. It was much better before, wasn't it? When I first met you, you were so confused that you couldn't even understand what I said. "

Yuan Fan lowered his gaze, and his whole body was huddled under the quilt, only his pale and thin cheeks were exposed. His dark eyes and bright red lips made him look like a vampire who was crucified and gradually weakened.

Yuan Fan obviously had no scruples, but he condemned himself in his heart.

And now he won't tell me what he's convicted of himself.He suddenly raised his arms across his eyes, and after a long silence, he said, "I wanted you to take a rest on a business trip. It's my fault. I shouldn't be impulsive. Do you have a lot of things to deal with? I'm sorry."

To be honest, the mood of bipolar disorder is easily affected, and we should be careful when we get along with this kind of patients, but it doesn’t matter whether I am indifferent or dereliction of duty, Yuan Fan is really amazing, emotionally he is as weak as a He could break down at any time, but he was incredibly strong in other things.The root of my panic is that I can't accept it. For so long, I haven't realized that Yuan Fan has been ill all the time, my irresponsibility to me, and the sadness of letting Yuan Fan suffer the pain alone. I don't think it's just as serious as his illness.

To put it in an irresponsible way, I never thought that anything serious would happen to Yuan Fan.Because of this person, he has always put me first, and he is most afraid of me being sad.I can't repay him much, and I don't want to use my relationship as a repayment.I think the best relationship is that we try our best to treat him well, and don't pursue who gets more.