lemon early summer

The location of the performance was not far from the school, but Zhang Xiaoning still didn't go after hesitation. It's not that she didn't like to watch the performance, but she just didn't want to watch Gu Xia's performance, because no matter how well Gu Xia sang or danced, she always loved her. It doesn't matter.

Knowing that Zhang Xiaoning didn't go to the show in the end, Gu Xia was a little angry, but there was nothing she could do about it. Zhang Xiaoning's temperament was unknown to others, and she could still not know it. Sometimes it was extremely weird.

But Gu Xia didn't know, Zhang Xiaoning was annoying, she was always annoying, about money, about life, about everything, she was very annoying, although she worked hard to get a scholarship and earn extra money, but the crisis The feeling is always with her, it's not that the money is not enough, but she feels that it is far from enough.

Sooner or later, when the money is spent, she doesn't want others to know her miserable life, so she keeps carrying it, trying to make her financial conditions look similar to everyone else's. The last thing she wants is that Gu Xia know all this.

There are some people in the world who just want to share the joy with others, while others don't want anyone to know about it.

For a long time, Gu Xia always took a part-time job only when she was eager to train herself.

In fact, another reason why I didn't go to the show that night was that Zhang Xiaoning took over a temporary job and had to get a picture out before the next day.

She said, "Anyway, you have performed so many performances. If you don't watch it this time, you will watch it next time." She pretended not to care.

Gu Xia said: "Next time, who knows when the next time will be, you are so lazy."

"I'm not lazy, but sometimes I don't want to move."

"Is there a difference?"

Zhang Xiaoning has become a role model for her classmates throughout her college career. She has never lost a scholarship, and she has done a good job in part-time jobs, but she has no sense of accomplishment. Maybe it’s because she’s busy, maybe because she’s tired, and sometimes she even feels that none of this is worth it. significance.

When she was finally free to go out with her roommates and come back after having fun, she couldn't help crying silently after the lights were turned off.In my heart, I feel like some hypocritical poets, with all kinds of poignant and beautiful poems spinning in my mind, hurting the spring and sorrowing the autumn.

But she will still go to her classmates' gatherings, and she looks like everyone else, joking and slapstick together, and it looks like nothing happened.In the dead of night, a famous quote from a certain writer I have read will always appear at the right time - the joys and sorrows of human beings are not connected, I just think they are noisy.

I don't know what the fate is, but in senior year, Gu Xia and Chi Jiayan came together again, Zhang Xiaoning couldn't laugh or cry. "I really want to see how many times you can divide."

Chi Jia said: "The affairs of the world, if they are united for a long time, they will be divided, and if they are divided for a long time, they will be united."

"Shouldn't it be that good horses don't turn back?" Zhang Xiaoning's words hurt both Gu Xia and Chi Jiayan. In short, neither of them is a good horse.

Gu Xia ignored Zhang Xiaoning's bitterness, and when Ling mentioned that she was going to take the postgraduate entrance examination, Chi Jiayan also wanted to take the postgraduate entrance examination.

"It turns out that we have a common goal. I wish you two don't do too badly in the exam."

Chi Jiayan: "Why are you still the same as in high school, talking so viciously? Boys will be scared away if you are like this."

"It's none of your business."

In fact, Zhang Xiaoning also wants to continue studying, but the facts do not allow it. Although she can get a place in the insurance research institute with her current grades, she gave up. If she continues to live a part-time job, she feels tired. There are still tens of thousands of student loans to be repaid, and these debts make her feel uncomfortable.

With the excellent grades in college and the many works produced by part-time jobs, Zhang Xiaoning soon entered a large advertising company as an intern, and every day of the internship was full of fear.

She is afraid that if she is not careful, she will lose her job, and she is also afraid that if she is not careful, she will not have the opportunity to stay. After all, the salary of regular employees here is still considerable.

She thought that as long as she had money, she should be able to breathe a sigh of relief.

After all, the long-term aggrieved is not all because of lack of money.With this kind of feeling, Zhang Xiaoning is conscientious in her work. Even if it is not her job in many cases, she will try her best to do it as long as her colleagues ask. Even if she works overtime, she will never complain.

The salary for the internship is very low, but my parents seem to have a conscience, and they will take the initiative to ask if the money is enough.Zhang Xiaoning looked at the 200 yuan balance in the first place, and denied the lack of money.

200 yuan is still a lot. In high school, I lived with only two yuan left on my body.

Thinking of this, she swallowed all the grievances again, but after hanging up the phone, she lay down on the window sill of the rented house, and Zhang Xiaoning began to cry again. There was a lot of traffic in the big city under her feet. At one end, Chi Jiayan and Gu Xia stayed up late reading in the library.

In the dark night, it seemed that the two worlds had been cut off from now on. After leaving the school, she felt so reluctant. When she calmed down, she felt that Gu Xia was the one who was most reluctant.

Only in the dead of night, lonely and helpless, Zhang Xiaoning dared to be honest with herself. She really likes Gu Xia, likes everything about her, and wants to stay by her side for the rest of her life, and doesn't even want to care about the opposite sex around her Whoever it is, as long as he treats Gu Xia well.

After all, it's just a wish.

There was another urging message in the WeChat group, and the leader was still arranging work in the group in the middle of the night. Occasionally, Zhang Xiaoning wanted to smash the phone, because as long as the phone vibrated, she knew it was work again, and she didn't know why. Who Invented the Smartphone...

After finally surviving the end of the internship period, Zhang Xiaoning finally went to find Gu Xia, because she knew that the postgraduate entrance examination was over now.

"I can stay and work over there."

"Congratulations!" Gu Xia was really happy for her, "After that, you will be a salaryman, and I want sugar daddy."

"Come on, big money, in the next life."

"I heard that if you develop well over there, the salary is that much." Gu Xia stretched out her hand to compare the numbers, Zhang Xiaoning pressed her hand, and said: "Don't imagine, I'm just a little guy, No matter ten or eight years, how could it be like that.”

"Anyway, congratulations, I've always known that you are excellent, and you will definitely make a lot of money in the future."

On the one hand, Zhang Xiaoning's work has been settled, on the other hand, Gu Xia and Chi Jiayan have finished their postgraduate entrance examinations, and together with a few other students who have finished the exams, everyone decided to go and relax together.

Zhang Xiaoning didn't like to eat hot pot or barbecue at first, because she had to do it herself, until Gu Xia developed a habit, whenever eating barbecue, hot pot and other things that need self-help, Gu Xia will help Zhang Xiaoning take care of it Everything, dishing, barbecue, vegetables.

Mrs. Gu Xia said: "Chi Jiayan doesn't get this kind of treatment, it's fine if you don't thank him, but you always despise this and that."

"Hey hey." Zhang Xiaoning smiled with her head down and let her talk.

During the dinner, it was the first time for two people to eat with them. Seeing that Zhang Xiaoning was taken care of so well, they couldn't help but marvel, "Those who didn't know thought she was your daughter!"

Gu Xia raised her eyebrows, "I don't have such a big daughter." She turned her head and glanced at Zhang Xiaoning again, and found that this girl was really petite, so she smiled again: "But she is like this, she is anyone's daughter No one suspects that."

"Hahahaha." A group of people started to roar with laughter, Zhang Xiaoning buried her head lower, it was the first time that so many people made fun of her together, she was really embarrassed.

Chi Jiayan was also interested and asked Zhang Xiaoning, "Is your company not suspected of recruiting child labor?"

"Eat yours! Too much nonsense!" Zhang Xiaoning poured all the mashed garlic from the garlic bowl next to him into Chi Jiayan's saucer, and Gu Xia laughed afterward, "He dislikes you the most." Things to eat."

Zhang Xiaoning hit it by mistake, but the effect was achieved, Chi Jiayan really disgusted and went to change the saucer.

After dinner, the group went to the bar again, and Zhang Xiaoning, who didn't like to go to the bar, followed for the first time. She just thought about how many times there would be such a reunion in the future, so she put it aside for the time being. Likes and dislikes in my heart.

Gu Xia didn't see the ups and downs in her heart, and joked with a smile: "Then follow your sister carefully later, be careful of being abducted."

"It's not like I haven't been there."

The environment of this bar is actually very good, without that kind of smoky feeling, the nearby students love to come here when they have nothing to do, and occasionally there will be a band singing.The relaxed environment allowed Zhang Xiaoning to release the pressure during this time, so she drank more wine. Although they were all low-alcohol fruit wines, for a person like Zhang Xiaoning who didn't drink often, drinking too much It is also necessary to go up.

Seeing that Zhang Xiaoning's face was flushed, Gu Xia knew that she had drunk too much, so she asked, "Are you dizzy? Are you all right?"

Before Zhang Xiaoning could answer, there was a sudden burst of cheers from the bar. Looking in the direction of the sound, Chi Jiayan didn't know when Chi Jiayan rushed to the resident stage. He only heard him say that today he will dedicate a song to someone .

"I'm fine, listen, he's going to sing for you."

Gu Xia happily looked at where Chi Jiayan was, but Zhang Xiaoning didn't look over, just closed her eyes, feeling that every word Chi Jiayan said was like a chime, and every word struck her heart.

She forgot what song Chi Jiayan sang, it was just a love song, and many people were cheering. Zhang Xiaoning was already used to it. Although Gu Xia was happy, it was not the first time that people confessed to her in public, and she behaved very generously. , and also sang a duet with Chi Jiayan on stage.

The light of the bar was captured by the two of them, Zhang Xiaoning looked at the figure in the distance that gradually blurred in his vision, and smiled.

The more she looked, the more blurred she became, until something dripped from her eyes onto her hand, and Zhang Xiaoning came back to her senses. It turned out that she was crying again.

It's really embarrassing, Zhang Xiaoning subconsciously lay down on the bar counter, she can't be seen by acquaintances like this, and I don't know when Gu Xia came over, and asked her if she was sleepy, Zhang Xiaoning said that she wanted to sleep, so she went first left.