difficult love

"Ah Xing, I have something to say—"

Tan Yixing focused all his attention, and stared at him quietly: "What?"

If Xie Mingjiang opened his mouth, he was unwilling, and even thinking about it, his heart and lungs would slowly hurt.

Xie Mingjiang clenched his hands, lowered his head, and leaned on Tan Yixing's shoulder, unable to speak made him feel extremely painful.

In Tan Yixing's eyes, he is so good. He likes the feeling of being looked up to. He wants to be tall and soft in front of Tan Yixing. He wants both his admiration and his love.

If he said it, he would never look at himself in such a light again, probably never.

He was about to lose him.

Xie Mingjiang leaned against Tan Yixing, and said slowly and with difficulty: "Aren't you curious about Zhou Zhuo and me? I'm telling you now, you have to listen if you don't want to."

"I put him—"

The music in the venue suddenly started, and Tan Yixing put his arms around Xie Mingjiang's shoulders, and patted him comfortingly: "You didn't lie to me just now, then I am interested in listening, but don't talk about it now, okay? Let's go to Xu Yaojia's adult competition first. Li, I don't want to miss his coming-of-age ceremony."

He supported Xie Mingjiang, straightened Xie Mingjiang, and smiled at Xie Mingjiang: "Let's go, tell me carefully when you go home at night."

Before Xie Mingjiang could reply, Tan Yixing dragged Xie Mingjiang back to the scene. Their seats were very close to each other. Xu Yaojia stood on the stage and turned his head slightly to scan the audience from the corner of his eye. He was obviously looking for Tan Yixing.

Seeing Tan Yixing pull Xie Mingjiang to sit down, he deliberately pouted, and raised his fist at Tan Yixing when his parents were not paying attention.

Tan Yixing hurriedly made an apology gesture and mouthed to him: "You are so handsome today!"

Xu Yaojia's face turned reddish, and then he looked away.

There were many Xu Yaojia's elders at the scene, and those who had a few acquaintances praised Xu Changfeng's handsome and handsome son. Later, when he was performing, he sat in the middle of the first row, applauded with a smile on his face, and then raised his glass to invite Everyone drinks and behaves decently.

In this regard, he and Tan Yixing have a lot in common. They usually look at the mud puddles, but they can still support the wall at critical moments.

Xu Changfeng and his wife saved face and led him to Lu Shan. Xu Changfeng spoke carelessly: "Xiao Lu is only in his twenties, and his name is brother. Not only does he study well, but he also has a good character. Now his company runs Very good, in fact, he is the son of Dean Lu! That's amazing!"

Lu Shan pursed her lips and smiled: "Don't dare, Yao Jia looks very smart, and I heard that her grades are very good."

"He can't, oops, just fiddled with those toy models in one day, and I said you are not a three-year-old kid, what are you doing with that garbage?" Xu Changfeng admired this young talent more and more when he looked at Lu Shan, and said sincerely, " When can he learn from you, I will burn incense!"

His wife was embarrassed and apologized by the side, and she was a million unhappy. There was nothing wrong with Lu Shan, but it was well known that his old Lu family had turned their backs on their backs because of their relationship problems. Xu Yaojia couldn't follow him.

She tugged at her husband's shirt from behind, Xu Changfeng was talking loudly, a little embarrassed by being disturbed, and then realized his slip of the tongue, his face flushed immediately: "I am, people are crazy, and I can't hold it when I drink too much."

Lu Shan nodded and smiled lightly: "Boss Xu is happy today, I can understand, after all, my son is so promising."

Xu Changfeng thinks that Lu Shan is actually very interesting. It's not that he has never met him before. He has the arrogance of a son-in-law, and there is a faint kind of indifference to others, but when he really went up to chat, he found that he has a good personality.Now that he has done something himself, his aura is getting stronger, even if he takes the initiative to talk to people, others dare not underestimate him.

The sex looks more and more square.

After he greeted Lu Shan briefly, he saw that Lu Shan was surrounded by others chatting again. He nodded and smiled while holding the wine glass, and he could still see that he was relatively silent.

Lu Shan has always dealt with this kind of situation by himself. When Zhou Zhuo came, he would not know where to shrink to play with his mobile phone. College students are more relaxed. Now he is more and more youthful, and he is very skinny in front of him. Zhou Zhuo laughed at him for several days when he stumbled on a professional English vocabulary when he asked him and couldn't remember it.But he is better at playing games than Zhou Zhuo. To help Zhou Zhuo pass a level, Zhou Zhuo must express that Zhou Zhuo will really hold him down and kiss him twice. Zhou Zhuo showed off, pretending to be lucky.

Lu Shan's cooking is also average, but Zhou Zhuo has free time to study, which is more delicious than his cooking. On weekends, Lu Shan hugged him and stayed in bed, teasing him: "Get up and make me some food."

Zhou Zhuo covered his head with the quilt, and kicked him lightly under the quilt: "You almost broke Chef Zhou's waist, do it yourself." He also ordered: "I want to eat salt and pepper pork ribs, Mr. Lu will make one , Serve it while it’s hot!”

Lu Shan didn't force him, he let him eat and drink for such activities.

The terrace at night was very windy and very cold, so there were few people. Xie Mingjiang took the opportunity to talk to Tan Yixing, but Tan Yixing ran to coax Xu Yaojia, who had just finished the form, with his classmates. He had to be carried to a quiet place by Fang Duan and Liao Zheng After chatting, I went to the terrace and saw a man sitting on the wicker chair concentrating on playing with his mobile phone. The man also raised his head, and Xie Mingjiang's heart was shocked: "Zhou Zhuo."

Zhou Zhuo held the mobile phone on his knees with both hands, and remained silent for a long time, as if he had the urge to leave.

Seeing this, Fang Duan and Liao Zheng walked away first. There were only the two of them on the huge terrace, and the atmosphere was so quiet that it was even dull.

Xie Mingjiang couldn't back down, he wanted to say hello, but he felt that neither he nor Zhou Zhuo needed such an opening statement.

In the end, he just walked over, stood still in front of the fence next to Zhou Zhuo, and looked at the night scene in the distance. After a long time, he heard his own voice:

"Don't go, I just want to say a few words to you, after I finish speaking, even if there is an occasion with you in the future, I will automatically stay away, okay?"

Sure enough, Zhou Zhuo put away those subtle movements and did not move.

Maybe it was too cold, Xie Mingjiang's voice was trembling: "I've been wanting to tell you, I'm sorry."

Zhou Zhuo had lowered his head, but now he raised it, his eyes were half puzzled and half clear.

Xie Mingjiang turned his head and looked at his eyelashes fluttering up and down. His heart was bitter and soft, and his tone became lighter: "Although it is meaningless to say this now, but when you asked me why I treated you like that, it was actually because I thought you and those The same as the young master, also sell."

Zhou Zhuo's eyes widened suddenly, his expression was full of astonishment, but he gradually regained his composure and shook his head: "I won't sell it, you made a mistake."

Xie Mingjiang nodded silently, and squeezed out a few words: "I found out that night, so I regret it."

"I don't understand, Xie Mingjiang." Zhou Zhuo put the phone back into his pocket, "Even if I sell it, I have to sell it to you? I also have the right to choose customers. You just drag me into the car without saying a word. Your villa is open, I begged you so much and you are indifferent, why, you treat the seller as an inappropriate person, and you don't have the slightest right to speak?"

Xie Mingjiang had nothing to say, his own thoughts and intentions appeared to him as if they were just a superficial package wrapped in a layer of hypocrisy, and there was nothing else but darkness and ugliness inside.

Xie Mingjiang felt guilty, he was wrong before, and I'm afraid he couldn't say sorry no matter what.

But after Zhou Zhuo left, he always wanted to say sorry to Zhou Zhuo, even if he didn't accept it, he could feel some relief.

But Xie Mingjiang didn't feel relieved now, heartache and regret tore him into pieces, although he seemed so indestructible.

"Before, I didn't know how to love, and behaved like a beast." Xie Mingjiang said dryly, "I love you, I have liked you since the first time I saw you, but I don't know how to express it to you .”

He lowered his head and sighed, and it took him a long time to look at Zhou Zhuo: "I love you, I think I like you as much as Lu Shan. You didn't understand at that time, when you left me, did you feel after I said it? To even the slightest?"

Zhou Zhuo was startled suddenly, and looked away, as if he was thinking, with embarrassment and helplessness.

For a long time, he said, with regret: "Xie Mingjiang, I couldn't figure it out at that time, and I couldn't figure it out later. Why did you target me? Now you tell me the reason. Although I don't understand it, I understand it."

Xie Mingjiang's throat twitched, and he wanted to say something, but he couldn't.

Zhou Zhuo stared at Xie Mingjiang with searching eyes for a while, and his tone was softer: "But in the end, thank you for Cong Yue's matter, I have always owed you a thank you, I couldn't say this before, but you help me She is something else..."

"No." Xie Mingjiang interrupted him, "You know I helped her to keep you by my side, I'm not a charity."

"But she is doing well now, there is no doubt about your kindness." Zhou Zhuo lowered his eyes, and after a long time, he said, "Xie Mingjiang, let the past go, I accept your apology. In fact, you don't need to apologize to me , I am no longer waiting for your apology."

He murmured: "You let me go, and you let go of yourself. Is it not good for us to be like strangers? You start your new life again and forget about me completely."

Xie Mingjiang didn't make a sound, took out a cigarette from his pocket and put it on, and tried to light it with a lighter, but after lighting it a few times, the sparks went out in a flash. He was too strong in front of Zhou Zhuo, but the result was always If it's not as good as he wants, it looks like he's in a mess.

He always stood there, hesitating and hesitating, but in fact Zhou Zhuo had already left.

They stayed silent until Lu Shan came in, and almost immediately walked up to Xie Mingjiang with fury: "Do I have to warn you to stay away from him so that you don't come to harass him?"

Xie Mingjiang turned his head, Zhou Zhuo had already come to grab Lu Shan's arm: "Okay, he won't do anything to me, you know."

Lu Shan looked sideways at Zhou Zhuo, with a hint of melancholy in his eyes, Zhou Zhuo shook his head: "Xie Mingjiang just apologized to me."

Lu Shan grabbed Xie Mingjiang's collar: "I know you loved him, you did a lot for him, and helped his first love."

"But let me tell you, Xie Mingjiang, it's not that if you hurt yourself and make up for it, all the wounds can be erased and you won't be blamed for the past. Zhou Zhuo may be able to, but he is mine, and I can't do it yet." He accepted Tightening his fingers, he pulled Zhou Zhuo behind him, took a deep breath, "Xie Mingjiang, if you and I switched positions today, I'm afraid you would have beaten me a hundred and eighty times. My tolerance for you is for this occasion. Save the last bit of face between us, don't come over and challenge my bottom line again and again."

After speaking, he let go of his hand, turned around and left.

When he came out, Tan Yixing stood blankly at the door, blocking his way.

Lu Shan's anger has already rushed to the top of his head, but he still remembers the last time Xie Mingjiang took this person out for dinner, tried his best to suppress it, pushed Tan Yixing away, and said in a deep voice: "Go and explain to Xie Mingjiang, let him not be immersed in it." In the compromised self-movement, I can do it myself."

"..." Tan Yixing was speechless, his eyes turned directly between Lu Shan and Zhou Zhuo, still digesting the ins and outs of what he had been eavesdropping on while standing here for a long time, and then the light went out little by little, There was a silent silence, before nodding after a few seconds, "Okay."