waiting for the flowers to bloom

Song Fanfan went back alone, and after struggling for a long time, he decided to send Sui Dong a message.

Sui Dong usually receives frequent text messages and phone calls. The last time he contacted him was when Sui Dong called to greet him after returning from Yuanshi a few days ago.

Song Fanfan keenly noticed that Sui Dong's attitude seemed to have become a little colder, which was probably just an illusion.But what does it matter?I should have thought it would be like this, but fortunately I didn't report any hope at the beginning...

Fortunately, I didn't report that much hope...

Has he finally figured it out?Decided to give up?Thinking of this, Song Fanfan seemed to breathe a sigh of relief, staring at the airstrip outside the window in a daze.

Mrs. Maisel had gone home and had decorated it with some care.

"Happy holidays, Van."

"Thank you, happy holidays. How was your trip to the south coast of the United States?" Song Fanfan put his luggage aside.

"My God, you would never have guessed how wonderful this trip was. We started in California and went east along the south coast, which was completely different from New York or something. I felt like I was crossing Germany and France. But my favorite I still like Florida, you know, it is said that many celebrities have villas in Florida, but unfortunately I didn’t get to meet them.”

"It sounds really good, and I would like to experience it if I have the chance."

"Trust me, it's definitely worth it. By the way, would you like to try the pancakes I just made today, it's the lemon flavor you like."

"Thank you, I'll put my luggage up and come here."

Sui Dong came much earlier than Song Fanfan expected, but the two of them felt a little uncomfortable when they met each other. Mrs. Maisel seemed to have seen something, but she didn't ask anything.

Song Fanfan was going to take a part-time job as soon as he came here, but he suddenly received a call a few days ago saying that the store was about to be transferred, so the part-time job that hadn't started had to be scrapped.

At the beginning of the new year, there were no particularly urgent tasks. Song Fanfan stayed in the house with some leisure these two days, and Sui Dong had no intention of going to London.The two looked up and saw each other, but they didn't know what to say. Without Sui Dong's initiative, their relationship seemed more awkward than before.

In the end, it was Mrs. Messer who couldn't bear it anymore. The stiff atmosphere between Song Fanfan and Sui Dong had seriously affected her. After dinner that day, Sui Dong went out to buy something, and she finally seized the opportunity to ask. Song Fanfan is gone.

"Although I know this may be inappropriate, but what happened between you?"

"No, nothing happened."

Mrs. Maisel looked at Song Fanfan and paused for 5 seconds, "Well, I just never saw Sui so silent."

Song Fanfan smiled and didn't speak, in fact he didn't know why Sui Dong suddenly became like this.It couldn't be because of what he said before... He knew that what he said was hurtful, but...but it was obvious that he said it in a hurry. Didn't he feel better afterwards?

"Really... nothing happened, maybe something happened at home." Seeing that Mrs. Maisel didn't believe it, Song Fanfan emphasized it again.

Mrs. Maisel picked up her teacup and took a sip, "I don't know what happened to you before, but I can feel that he really cares about you. Of course I won't suggest that you should accept him or... how. Just If it were me, I would have a good talk with the other party, no matter what the final result will be, at least don’t avoid the existing problems, this is good for us, what do you think?”

Mrs. Messer was right, and Song Fanfan certainly understood this truth, but he really didn't know how to talk to Sui Dong.

How much he wants to leave everything in the past behind, and if he has the fate, he can find someone he likes and start a new life.

But Sui Dong is such a big living person living beside him, how can he not care.He walks decisively and cleanly, but he is not deaf, blind, or an emotionless monster.He can hear, see, and feel Sui Dong's words, actions, and feelings.

He was afraid of this feeling. In only half a year, the line of defense in his heart seemed to be captured.

This is a silent battle, and the comparison is who has persisted longer. Now, the battle seems to have entered a fierce stage. Both sides are exhausted and have run out of ammunition and food...

Sui Dong came back very late, and Mrs. Maisel had already gone to bed.Song Fanfan heard Sui Dong's footsteps in the bedroom, got up and went to open the door.

"It's so late and still haven't slept?" Sui Dong seemed a little surprised, it was almost early morning.

"I'm waiting for you. I want to talk to you."

"? Well, what do you want?"

"Come in and talk." Song Fanfan turned his body slightly and let Sui Dong enter the bedroom.

Sui Dong hesitated and sat on the bed opposite Song Fanfan, but unexpectedly Song Fanfan also sat beside him.Before the doubts in Sui Dong's heart disappeared, he heard Song Fanfan say: "What's the matter with you recently?"

"No. Nothing." Sui Dong shook his head.

"If it's because of what I said that night... I apologize to you. In fact, I am very grateful for so many things you did, and I remember them all. It's just... I really can't respond to you. Even without Zhao Cheng Fang those things..."

"You know I don't care about him anymore." Sui Dong replied a little dejectedly.

"Maybe, but it's not just because of this, there are still many problems between us. Although it seems that there is nothing wrong now, it will be too late after a long time when the accumulated problems erupt."

"What's the problem?" Sui Dong asked a little puzzled, he really didn't understand what he could do to make Song Fanfan believe in him.

"I have said so many times that I like you now, and I feel owed to you, but I can tell the difference between these two feelings. I have minded about Tong Puhui, but I have accepted the result, and I don't hate it either. Him. You said you thought I was dirty, but in fact, I haven’t found anyone else for a long time. I know that my former self is not worthy of you, but I have been working hard to change it. I don’t ask you to be the same as before Like me, but can you, can you not always think of drawing a line with me?"

Listening to Sui Dong's words, Song Fanfan suddenly felt sour, Sui Dong, Sui Dong, why are you so stubborn?

"Aren't you tired? I know you have to study a lot in London every day, and you have to run around from time to time. When you get here, you still think about how to get along with me; me too, I have to be nervous when you appear Get up, be careful with every word, every action, find a way to let yourself ignore your existence, and think about what you should do to maintain the most correct distance and relationship with you. We are already very tired living like this. "

Tired, of course very tired.One of them was busy wooing and giving, and the other was tired of coping and avoiding. Sui Dong thought of giving up more than once, but he couldn't do it.He believed very much that he was waiting for the day when Song Fanfan softened, it was just a matter of time, they were supposed to be together in the first place, and it had nothing to do with anyone else.

Sui Dong didn't answer.

The two were silent for a long time before Song Fanfan spoke again: "After I came back from Yuanshi for the last time, I transferred the fees for those few times to you. I don't know if it's enough. If you have any questions, you can tell me after you figure it out. Also, I... In addition to thanking you for doing so much in the past few months, I also want to persuade you to stop wasting time with me. I decided that if there is a chance, Find another one that suits me. I'm sorry for being so sudden, but I don't want to hide it from you."

"You already have someone you like?" Sui Dong felt so helpless and panicked for the first time, he didn't know who could teach him what to do.

"Not yet, I just decided to draw a line with you. You also adjust yourself, and someone suitable for you will appear."

"So...you really made up your mind?"

"Ah."

Sui Dong lowered his head and chuckled, "Then... you haven't even had a little bit of affection for me?"

Song Fanfan remained silent and didn't answer. He didn't like lying. When an answer required him to respond with a lie, his choice would always be silence.

"Okay." Sui Dong didn't wait for Song Fanfan's answer, but he thought he had already got the answer.

He looked out of the window bitterly, and said softly, "Don't worry, I... probably won't bother you anymore. At the end of this month, my master will lead the team to France to participate in the competition, and I will follow to watch the competition. There is a newcomer challenge in June, which is also there. I have to study in France for the past few months, and the arrangement behind it is not clear. Originally, I always thought about going after your birthday, and I wanted to personally I'll make a cake for you. I've been thinking about it for more than ten days and I still don't know how to tell the master, but now it seems that I don't need it. Don't worry, I will pack my things soon, and I will leave this weekend at the latest."

After Sui Dong finished speaking, he stood up, looked at Song Fanfan, "I'm sorry to bother you for so long, then I'll go back to the house first." Without waiting for Song Fanfan's response, he quickly left.

Song Fanfan looked at the closed door, but his heart was not at all relaxed.He thought about Sui Dong's possible reaction when he said these words, but he never imagined that Sui Dong would leave so soon.

Are you satisfied?

Maybe……

Maybe not.

He lay on the bed a little restlessly, upset.

It was a Friday when Sui Dong left, and he felt rushed, and he didn't know how he explained it to Mrs. Messer.Before going out, Sui Dong suddenly pulled Song Fanfan aside: "I know you probably don't want to see me anymore, but...but if one day you find someone you like, can you let me meet him?"

……

Song Fanfan didn't expect Sui Dong to have such a request, seeing Sui Dong's decadent expression, Song Fanfan shifted his eyes uncomfortably, and said softly: "Okay."

Mrs. Messer reluctantly hugged and bid farewell to Sui Dong. Sui Dong put his luggage into the taxi, looked at Song Fanfan, and smiled slightly: "Goodbye."

A gust of cool wind blew, as if it had blown into his eyes, Song Fanfan hurriedly turned back to the house without saying anything.It's all over, this time for real, it's all over.

Mrs. Maisel sent Sui Dong back and saw Song Fanfan sitting on the sofa in a daze. She wanted to say something, but finally sighed and went back to her room.

Since the conversation between Song Fanfan and Sui Dong that night, the two of them have basically avoided each other for the past few days, except that they have to sit at the same table during meal time, and they have hardly met each other.

Song Fanfan stood in front of Sui Dong's door, opened the door gently, and the inside was very clean.The quilts were stacked neatly, the water in the vase on the table was still clear, and the roots were clearly visible, but there was nothing that belonged to Sui Dong.

It seems that I have finally succeeded in driving Sui Dong away, so my parents can rest assured.

The author has something to say: I am very sorry, I have been very busy recently, I will try my best to keep the update speed...