[Comprehensive] The posture of rebirth is not right

A 'ding~' came from the mobile phone on the table, interrupting the absent-minded Chong Ye.He didn't pick up the phone in a hurry, but watched the brightened screen turn black, then picked up the phone and unlocked the screen.

A text message from Aya came into his eyes, the content was about Akashi.

Such text messages, he didn't know how many messages were lying in his messages, and they were all about Akashi without exception.

From the time he made up his mind to step on the plane and take Ellie back to the land of Sicily, all the news about that person was learned through Aya.

Even the little things, Aya also wrote down all the small things, and passed them on to him in a timely manner through a series of social software.And Ellie, who was brought by his side, will also pass his news to Akashi.

After being with you for so many years, it doesn't mean that you can let go if you let go.

In fact, when he left Aya and took Ellie back to the headquarters, he had this kind of selfishness in it.He didn't stop this blatant behavior, nor did he deliberately instruct them.Akashi should also know about their behavior, but he never stopped it. All this was done with the acquiescence of the two of them.

He is also happy to learn everything about Akashi in this way, pretending that he is still by his side; pretending that he has never confessed his secret thoughts; and pretending that their relationship is still the same as before, inseparable.

Chong Ye put down his phone and smiled wryly, how could he return to his original appearance.

From the moment Akashi said that to him, he knew that he, like Miracle, was sentenced to be out.

He still remembered the look on Lusilla's face when he returned to his base in Sicily.Then there was Lusilia who kept thinking about it, what was broken in love, what was the big sister's arms that were always open for you, and so on.As annoying as a buzzing fly and accompanied by exaggerated body movements.

Chong Ye, who was already irritable because of that incident, whose degree was comparable to that of XANXUS, couldn't bear it and wanted to throw people out directly, and in fact he did so.

Chong Ye, who drove away Lusilia, thought he was at ease, but he ignored Lusilia's big mouth.In a short while, several people who were still on missions in various places learned that they had been dumped by Akashi.

Afterwards, Chong Ye received the loving care from all the teammates.Angrily, he directly squeezed the good-quality glass in his hand. He and Akashi haven't confirmed the relationship yet, so how can we use the word 'throw'?

But they were right.He was so arrogant and didn't say hello to anyone, and he took Ellie back to the headquarters without authorization. In their eyes, didn't he just lose his love?

To say the truth is exactly the case.Otherwise...otherwise he would not have made the decision to return to the headquarters to escape reality.

It would not be an exaggeration to say that he is as timid as a mouse now, but when it comes to feelings, he is not as strong as he was on the battlefield.Or maybe it's because that person is Akashi that he walks on eggshells.After getting that answer, flinched.

Thinking about it, maybe he is not good enough, or maybe he made a mistake, otherwise how could he get the current result.Or was it because of a miracle that he had such a result?

Akashi doesn't have that kind of affection for him, but he has an obsession with Akashi.This is not caused by the influence of Balian or Pengo Lie's environment, but the love that infiltrates bit by bit when he and Akashi get along day and night.

Regarding the matter of confessing, Chong Ye never regretted it, because he knew that it was only a matter of time.In the past, he was always waiting and waiting. Ever since he discovered his little thoughts, he had been patient.

On the one hand, he felt that the timing was not mature enough, and on the other hand, it was because he didn't have much confidence in himself.After finally waiting for him to make enough preparations and gain enough confidence, he got such a result.

This is tantamount to a blow to the head.

Maybe it's because he thinks highly of himself, this kind of cognition makes Chong Ye a little bit hit.

On the second day after returning to Balian headquarters, he started a crazy mission mode, all of which were single-person missions of S rank and above.There is a kind of madness to vent all emotions in the mission, and to die at any time, which makes Bell, who is known as the "Prince of Ripper", stare at it.

Chong Ye lived like this for a year and a half, spending every day on missions, which worried the others.But for things like feelings, the person concerned still has to figure it out for himself, no matter how much others say, it is meaningless.

For them, of course, they hope that Chong Ye and Akashi can reconcile as soon as possible, and it is not unreasonable for the fat water not to flow to outsiders.

Chong Ye still vividly remembered the events of that day.How romantic the season of cherry blossoms is, it is a very suitable season for confession.Instigated by Ellie and Aya, he started his confession plan.

The scene of the confession is not what Alyia saw in the book, in an empty classroom, or in an empty corridor, or in a corner where no one is watching or under a certain cherry tree.But he didn't start his plan until he and Akashi returned to their home in Kyoto.

After Akashi finished everything, and even used shogi to pass the extra time, he blocked Akashi who wanted to go back to his room to sleep.

Inside the house, there is bright and warm light; outside, there is the hazy and cold moonlight.He drove Akashi in a trance, as if he wanted to describe the whole person in his heart stroke by stroke.

He didn't prepare any love letters or other gifts, the only thing he offered was a hot and possessive heart.

Seeing that he hadn't spoken for a long time, Akashi frowned slightly and asked him.

After he was awakened by Akashi's voice, he opened his mouth to tell Akashi the purpose of this move.

When he said that, he who had been watching Akashi didn't miss a single bit of the other's expression.

Chong Ye, who was waiting for Akashi's answer, couldn't get a response from Akashi for a long time, and his heart suddenly became cold.

The short few minutes of Akashi's thinking seemed to Chong Ye to be as long as a century, and it tested his psychological endurance.He was eager to know the result that Akashi said, but he was also afraid that the result was not what he wanted.

The longer Akashi remained silent, the more uncertain he felt, and the more panicked he became.

Until the moment he heard Akashi's answer, his heart sank completely.

Akashi said: Sorry.

Akashi's sorry sentence seemed to drive him into the bottomless abyss.Let him not know what kind of expression he should make to face Akashi at this time.

He endured for so long, exhausted all his courage, and gained enough confidence, but he still got such a result.

I'm sorry.

Is it really the result?Chong Ye couldn't believe it.

In this world, no one understands Akashi better than him, and no one is as worthy of everything he has given as Akashi.It is not an exaggeration to say that they are half of each other.But now...

Judging from this result, he can't even compare to them who are miraculous.

"I can't respond to you right now." Akashi said these words lightly.

Unable to give a response...

What kind of answer is this!

Why not refuse directly, if you refuse directly, it will be regarded as breaking his thoughts.

What Akashi said later, Chong Ye didn't know.He just fell into some unknown emotion and walked out of the room in a daze.Standing in the courtyard for a long time, ignoring Akashi who was staring at him with an emotion called pain.

The night in early spring was still very cold, with gusts of cold wind blowing in, but Chong Ye didn't feel cold at all.

Akashi watched Chong Ye from the position outside the door for a long time.As he said before, he has always felt guilty about Chong Ye.But this guilt cannot be the reason for him to accept Chong Ye.

Because he found that he seemed to have lost the ability to love.

If he really agreed to Chong Ye, it would be too unfair to Chong Ye.

But looking at Chong Ye who was hit hard by his words, he didn't feel good either.

There is no need to say how important Chong Ye is to him.He once said that Chong Ye was his habit, and even his breath smelled of Chong Ye.

Having been together day and night for so many years, the more Chong Ye understands him, the more he understands Chong Ye.

But he couldn't. In fact, it wasn't just because of this reason. It can only be said that this reason accounted for a relatively large proportion.The other part of the reason is probably because he can't escape the prejudice of this world.

He has indeed lived in Italy for so long, and there are many people like this around him.

Balian has Bell and Fran, XANXUS and Skuvalo, and Vengley has Skylark and Liudaokui, Yamamoto and Prison Temple. Influenced by these various aspects, he doesn't think there is anything right or wrong, or Feel disgusted or something.

He took it all for granted.Because in his view, everyone has the right to pursue their own life and their own way of life.He has no right to ask or question others about these, and this is each of them's own voluntary choice.

Regarding the word love, he had never experienced it before, but it did not affect his cognition.

He could see that they cherished each other's existence, just like his father and mother.There is no difference between the two, and they should not be treated unfairly because of gender differences.

But on the contrary, there are still some differences between the two, which are probably caused by differences in gender and personality.In the former, they exist shoulder to shoulder, while in the latter, they support each other in the most traditional way.

Other people's feelings are one thing, but your own is another.

When Chong Ye abandoned the whole world and used all his courage to say such a sentence to him, it is a lie to say that there is no disturbance in his heart.

But he had scruples.

He doesn't care what others think, but what if that other person is his father?He is his only family member in this world, so what should he do?