yesterday's wine

, whispered to Xia Yu's ear:

"That...is hard."

"what happened?"

Xia Yu was a little surprised, they had a lot of trouble last night.Cheng Zhen didn't know why, so the two walked for a while, and the wind cooled his feverish body.

In fact, they may not know the reason. These daily intimacy desires are suppressed severely, and they always have to find a place to vent, although sometimes it seems unbelievable.

They are not cynical, and they have no intention of complaining about the society. They just stick to their own side of the world in silence.This kind of little accident has become a fun, and they tease each other in private, chewing on the sweetness that others can't understand.

And life is also weaving downwards in these bittersweet trivialities, year after year.

While Xia Yu was struggling with his qualifications, Cheng Zhen's career had already improved.

After passing the second-level interpreting certificate, he can do consecutive interpreting at business and academic conferences, sitting at the conference table one or two nights a week.The participants are all elites in various fields, and the participants are not without foreign language foundation.The suit propped up Cheng Zhen's decent image, but the inside was trying to block the heartbeat and focus on the speaker.

Not long after the situation lasted, Cheng Zhen got used to the atmosphere and gradually became more at ease.On some occasions where the atmosphere is not so serious, he will also make a joke according to the speaker's intention. Before that, he always bite the bullet and say to everyone: "This is a joke, please everyone laugh."

He gradually discovered that his ability to extract information and express language is not bad. After careful study, it is also due to his endless pestering Xia Yu when he was a child.

This habit has been kept for many years. Until now, every time he participates in any activities or meets anyone, he has to "translate" to Xia Yu in his own language.

Xia Yu couldn't get tired of hearing it.

"The worst thing is not the meeting." Taking off his suit, Cheng Zhen was still sitting still, leaning on Xia Yu as a pillow, "The whole dinner, I watched them eat, don't even think about having something in their mouths. "

He turned over and gnawed on Xia Yu's body: "I'm starving to death..."

Xia Yu asked knowingly, "What do you want to eat?"

Cheng Zhen lifted his clothes familiarly and looked for food by himself, but when he was satisfied, he heard Xia Yu's vague and suppressed sigh.

"what happened?"

"I..." Xia Yu hesitated, "I'm sorry."

Cheng Zhen sat up: "Why do you say such things again?"

"With my current salary, I can't treat you to a meal like that."

Xia Yu's face was gloomy, and he remembered the banquet scene described by Cheng Zhen just now, the magnificent hotel, only heard of rare delicacies that he had never seen before, and the people were well-versed in the world, elegant and decent.Cheng Zhen often goes to and from such occasions, but when he returns home, he has to face the shabby living room, and the self who is bound in the hospital, mentally and physically exhausted, and has no future in sight for the time being...

Most of the advantages he had in front of Cheng Zhen came from his age, but now he is making up for the gap with experience, walking faster and further away.Xia Yu thought of his mother who was far away in Moscow. She and her father also had a reluctant love, but in the end they were separated by thousands of miles, leaving everything behind and themselves.

The bird's wings are getting stronger and stronger, and its sight is getting wider and wider. As long as it flies high enough, it may be able to see that the sea under its feet is actually only as big as a lake.

When I encouraged him to explore the world at the beginning, I may have thought that this day would come. Deep down in my heart, is I yearning for fulfillment, or am I compulsively repeating the broken ending of the year?

"You're here again." Cheng Zhen bit Xia Yu's shoulder, feeling puzzled, and knocked his forehead with his forehead, trying to wake him up.

How many times does it have to be said before he believes that he will never leave him?

Are words not enough and actions not enough?How can I prove it to him?

"I can invite you," he rubbed Xia Yu's forehead, "if you want. I still think the roadside stalls you took me to when I was in school are the best... But I really want to be capable, Take you to the best place, I want you to experience all the good things I have told you. Isn’t that why I work so hard?”

"Cheng Zhen..."

"In my line of work, at the end of the day, I just bend over and whisper behind big shots, just like the traitors next to devils in anti-Japanese movies."

Cheng Zhen exaggerated, Xia Yu was amused by him and smiled wryly.

"But you are different, Little Doctor Xia——from now on, Director Xia, they all have to be polite to you, but they are much better than me... Hey, I'm almost going to kill myself. Alyosha, let's I'm in my twenties, I'm in my third year, can you stop me from talking like a child?"

"I just happened to be transferred to the pediatrics department in the past few days, and I learned how to speak from you."

"I can't stand you anymore..."

Cheng Zhen lay on top of him and completely surrendered. He was clearly trying to comfort Xia Yu, but he was so dizzy in the end. Looking into his blue eyes, he thought, how could he leave this person?Even if tomorrow is the end of the world, he has to die with him.

"Alyosha, let's go to the cinema."

"What movie?"

"It seems to be called "2012". I heard them say that it is very exciting, and it talks about the end of the world."

Xia Yu doesn't like Hollywood movies very much, but Cheng Zhen likes them, and he is willing to accompany him.

After coming out of the movie theater, there were no pedestrians on the street. There was no nightlife in winter in Northeast China. Everyone hurried back to the heated house, only Cheng Zhen and Xia Yu were still wandering on the street.

They haven't had dinner yet, and most of the restaurants on the street are closed, leaving only a few barbecue restaurants.

Cheng Zhen pointed to a shop with a signboard of "King of Kidneys": "Go, I'll go and make up for you."

Xia Yu chuckled: "It's unbelievable to supplement the shape with the shape, the cholesterol content in the viscera is too high, it's not good for your health..."

Cheng Zhen snorted, and pulled him into the "King of Waist".

Sure enough, he ordered several strings of roasted whole waists that were full of oil. Under his instigation, Xia Yu had no choice but to give up a healthy lifestyle and risk his life to accompany him.They also drank some beer that day, Xia Yu was overwhelmed with alcohol, watched Cheng Zhen drink glass after glass, and remembered his appearance of alcoholism back then.

"It's all made from vodka." Cheng Zhen put down his glass with a smile. He saw the worry in Xia Yu's eyes and returned the unopened beer. It's so hard..."

Xia Yu squeezed his hand across the table.

Cheng Zhen thought of the movie just now. After the stimulation, the images of landslides and tsunamis became dull, and his mind was full of thoughts about what they would look like if such a day really happened.What is certain is that he will not give up on Xia Yu for any reason. He spurned his father's choice back then, and he will never follow the old path.

They chatted a few words about the movie, then checked out and went home. Xia Yu had to go to work the next day, Cheng Zhen was very restrained.

There are almost no people on the street, not even cars.

They walked back along the road, the cold wind quickly dissipated the heat brought by the alcohol, and they naturally huddled together.

"Alyosha, let's change our house and rent one that is closer to the No. [-] Hospital. You don't have to get up early and wait for the bus. It would be nice to sleep with me for a while..."

The talking mouth was getting closer and closer, Xia Yu felt that he must be drunk, otherwise why would he kiss him on the street?

Cheng Zhen put his arms around his neck and smiled mischievously, Xia Yu became even more drunk.

No one could tell whether it was the sky and the earth that were spinning or they were spinning. They tugged and spun around on the street, circling wildly for a short while, until both of them struggled to breathe and couldn't stand stably, then they staggered and separated.

Xia Yu was in a trance, with Cheng Zhen still smiling, and gradually lost his balance. His short boots slid on the icy road until they hit the shoulder of the road, and he wobbled backwards.

"Cheng Zhen!"

Xia Yu woke up in an instant, and Cheng Zhen lay down on the road, his back leaning against the corners of the road shoulder, his eyebrows frowned.

"Hiss... Alyosha, why can't I move?"

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33 Fear and Persistence

Xia Yu too knew what the words "can't move" meant, lumbar fracture, paraplegia...

At that moment, many images flooded his mind, Cheng Zhen's back was cut open on the operating table, the shattered spine, damaged nerves... and the rest of his life in a wheelchair.

His knee hit the road so hard that he couldn't feel the pain anymore.

"Alyosha! What's wrong with you?!" Cheng Zhen struggled to crawl over and slapped his face, which was ashen as a dead man.

It took a long time for Xia Yu to see from Cheng Zhen's movements that his lower body seemed to be able to move.

"I can move, I can still..." He staggered over, stretched out his hand to Chengzhen's shirt, and repeatedly touched his lumbar spine, "It's okay, it's okay..."

Cheng Zhen hissed because of his cold hands: "What are you doing? You're on the street, come home... hmm?"

He didn't know the ups and downs in Xia Yu's heart, he just felt that apart from the unprecedented enthusiasm, there was also a deep fear in that kiss, as if the world was about to be destroyed and hope suddenly came.

Just a kiss, he rubbed his bitten and swollen lips: "What's going on? Is it a fall..."

Cheng Zhen shut his mouth suddenly, because he saw Xia Yu was still kneeling on the spot, his whole body curled up, trembling on his knee.

"Alyosha..."

"Don't move."

Xia Yu's voice was muffled, choked in his throat, with an imperceptible trill.

"I'm fine, I'm wearing such thick clothes...the buttocks hit the ground first, so it won't break because of the meat." Cheng Zhen stroked his hair, trying to comfort him, but Xia Yu reached into his pants and touched his tailbone.

Cheng Zhen blushed from being touched: "If you touch it again, I will be hard..."

Xia Yu's complexion gradually returned to normal, but he was still worried. He called an ambulance and forced him to lie down until he went to the hospital to take an X-ray. Only after seeing the intact X-ray did he feel at ease.

"As for..."

It was already midnight when they got home.

Cheng Zhen helped him take off his coat in a nonchalant manner: "Don't talk to me all the way."

Xia Yu leaned against him wearily: "When you said 'can't move', I was very scared and never recovered."

Cheng Zhen suddenly realized, and hugged him: "I was in so much pain that I didn't dare to move... I was wrong, and I won't scare you like that in the future... Rest early, I have to go to work tomorrow."

Xia Yu nodded, and hurriedly washed his hands, but after going to bed, he felt uneasy again, so he turned Cheng Zhen over and examined his waist carefully.

Cheng Zhen's sensitive belt is all over his waist, and he trembles all over when he touches it. Wherever his hand touches it, it will itch.Xia Yu couldn't tell whether he was moaning because of the pain or for other reasons. His fingers pressed against his skin, and they couldn't move away.

"Are you afraid that I will break my waist?"

His answer was heavy breathing.

"Then your sexual happiness for the rest of your life will be gone... ah..."

Cheng Zhen couldn't stand his fingers the most. Since more than ten years ago, when he watched Xia Yu disassemble the harmonica, he was fascinated by his hands. The slender knuckles, the muscles and bones that only showed when he exerted force, but the touch was gentle.It was a pair of flexible and powerful hands, Cheng Zhen's whole body melted when he thought of how they were churning inside his body.

Those two fingers direct his desire, wherever he points, he will flow there.But in the end, he didn't wait for the expected invasion, he only felt a damp heat falling from his waist, and Xia Yu gasped next to his ear.

Cheng Zhen let him clean himself up, turned off the desk lamp, and stroked the same spot on his lower back in the dark.

"Alyosha, if I am paralyzed..."

"no difference."

"What about you?"

There was silence in the darkness.

Cheng Zhen wanted to turn over, but when he moved his upper body, he groaned in pain.

Supporting his back with one hand: "It's awkward, turn over."

"You haven't answered my question yet."

Xia Yu became silent again.

"That's the problem," Cheng Zhen poked him, rolled back, and pressed against his forehead, "I know that if I'm paralyzed, you won't leave me, but if it's the other way around, you won't leave me." It's the same...you still don't believe me."

"Cheng Zhen, go to sleep."

"Alyosha..."

"I'll be back later tomorrow...I have to go home, and you can eat by yourself."

Cheng Zhen wanted to say something, but he tapped his lips and sealed the words below.

"Good night."

The next day was very late, Xia Yu didn't come back, and Cheng Zhen called him but no one answered, so he had to rush to the hospital in person.

There was no one in the outpatient clinic where he was. After asking around, he found out that they were in the orthopedic surgery ward.

Xia Siwei was also there, he was losing his temper in Pan Huaiming's office, Xia Yu stood aside silently.Cheng Zhen glanced at the door and then hid aside. He didn't want to cause trouble for Xia Yu - since they were together, he had never seen Xia Siwei once, and bloody storms would be inevitable when they met again.

After listening for a while, he realized that the reason for Xia Siwei's temper had nothing to do with the two of them.He broke his wrist, and Pan Huaiming suggested that he should cut it open and fix it with a steel plate. Xia Siwei refused to see blood and insisted on conservative treatment, even Xia Yu was scolded together.

Cheng Zhen remembered that when he lost his teeth when he was a child, Xia Siwei was afraid of blood. The fear could turn a senior doctor into a doctor, and he wanted to laugh.

"Teacher Pan, go smoke a cigarette, I will communicate with my dad."

Xia Yu's voice was getting closer and closer, Cheng Zhen hurriedly hid in the nearby stairwell, and waited for the footsteps to go away before returning to the office door.

The voice inside turned into Xia Yu's persuasion again: "Dad, you have to have an operation, the wrist structure is complicated, and the plaster fixation effect is not good."

Only the father and son were left, and Xia Siwei's voice lowered: "That's not the right way, why didn't you listen to me?"

"Dad, don't talk about this..."

"If you didn't move out, what could have happened to me? How long have you not been home?"

Xia Yu was silent for a long time, and Cheng Zhen's heart sank. Compared with him, he was really smooth, and his mother's understanding was the greatest comfort in the world.He thought to himself, he must go home to see her more in the future, and never let such an accident happen to his mother.

"Dad, if I move home, will you accept him?"

"Impossible." Xia Siwei's tone became fierce again, "You haven't become a full-time official yet, so you don't know what's going on here. The courtyard knows about your relationship, so you can still get along?"

"Will not……"

Xia Siwei sighed again: "I'm old too, so you're going to fool around like this to the end, won't you give me an explanation?"

"Dad, we are serious and we are going to entrust the rest of our lives to each other. If you want, we will take care of you together..."

"Stop talking! Call Lao Pan here, I'd rather have a surgery than listen to your nonsense."

Xia Yu exited the office and saw Cheng Zhen standing in the corridor.

The two looked at each other silently, and moved away silently. Cheng Zhen said "I'll wait for you in the outpatient hall", then turned to the stairwell, and Xia Yu walked into the duty room where the teacher was.

Although there was heating in the outpatient clinic, it couldn't warm the empty hall. Cheng Zhen sat alone on a cool chair, hugging his shoulders, feeling sleepy and cold.After waiting for an unknown amount of time, Xia Yu finally came to his side and stuffed a cup full of hot water into his hand.

"are you tired?"

Xia Yu shook his head.

Cheng Zhen held his hand and found that it was no hotter than his own, so he put the cup between them to share the warmth.

"Where's Uncle Xia?"

"I have to stay in the hospital for a few days, these few days..." Xia Yu looked at Cheng Zhen with a trace of shame, "I may not be able to go back."

Cheng Zhen didn't take it seriously: "It's okay, I'll wait for you."

"Did you hear it just now?"

"Ah."

"He has always had this attitude. If one day, I have to make a choice..."

Xia Yu didn't say any more, Cheng Zhen knew what that meant.

"No. Alyosha, you have no choice." Cheng Zhen pulled his other hand over and pressed it on the hot water cup, "Whether you want me or not, I will pester you. If you want to blackmail you, you will never be able to run away in this life."

"Cheng Zhen..."

"How do you say that?" Cheng Zhen smiled, "'A difference of a year, a month, an hour, or a second is not a lifetime', right? Ouch, I'm starting to feel nauseous again... How can I be with you, I always have to say such things?"

Xia Yu's cheeks turned a little bloody, and he also smiled: "I love to listen."

Cheng Zhen was speechless and choked, and his face was red again, and he fell into the same blue every time, and couldn't swim out until he died.

"Alyosha, why do I love you so much..."

"Me too."

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34 Carry forward

Xia Siwei lived in the most advanced ward of the Second Hospital, and the head nurse came to take care of him several times a day, but he was still dissatisfied, with a cold face all day long, feeling hopeless.The young people hated him very much and scolded him behind his back for relying on the old to sell the old. The old man had experienced his glorious era, so he could understand his loss.

Apart from Cheng Zhen and Xia Yu, the person who knows the inside story best is Chang Qing.She would come to his ward every day to convey care for Corey. Xia Siwei didn't give her a cold face directly, but there was a bit of awkwardness in what he said. "Director Chang".

Chang Qing still called him Director Xia, and the two directors came and went for a while, feeling awkward, so they changed their names at the same time.One called the other party "Mr. Xia" and the other "Xiao Chang", just like going back to many years ago.

After the barrier of identity was broken, the indifference and estrangement in his heart began to melt, Xia Siwei finally let go of his airs:

"I'm getting mad."

Chang Qing didn't expect him to say such a sentence, and couldn't help smiling: "What kind of star do you think you are?"

"When I was commended by the central government, you were still studying!" Xia Siwei sullenly said, "Everyone is eager to kill me and rebel against me!"

Chang Qing laughed out loud. Compared to Director Xia, Xia Siwei on the hospital bed was obviously more human.After laughing, her face became serious again: "No one denies your achievements, but do you really want our level to stay in your era?"

Xia Siwei was silent for a long time, and sighed: "I understand the truth, but if the matter falls on you, are you willing?"

"I am willing."

"Pretty words."

"Isn't the progress of academics just a process of overthrowing the fallacies of the predecessors and keeping the truth from the false? If a person wants to make progress, he must have the courage to betray his past self and admit his mistakes, so that he can have a future..."

"Stop. I know what you're going to say, and you said almost the same thing as her."

Chang Qing stopped talking and looked at him quietly.

"Do you have anything else to do?"

"Mr. Xia, after so many years, we can all see it, children..."

"If you say this, I will turn my face."

Chang Qing knew that he was bluffing, because the injured hand was raised and he didn't shoot it down.She glanced out the window, the snow and icicles were melted by the sun, and the water dripped on the window sill.

"Otherwise what else can we talk about?"

Xia Siwei was a little sad: "You are still young, I am too old. Even if I admit my mistakes, many things cannot be undone. There are still many things that I am powerless, so we can only talk so far."

"Teacher Xia..."

"Go." Xia Siwei waved his hand, "Go back and tell them, don't make mistakes, while you are young, there is still time to change everything."

Chang Qing's words were all stuck in his chest, so he had to get up, fill his thermos cup with hot water, turn and leave.When she reached the door, she turned around again and went back to the hospital bed:

"Mr. Xia, if I say, they are right?"

Xia Siwei lay down on the bed, silently pointing to the door, Chang Qing sighed and walked out of the ward.The moment she closed the door, she vaguely heard Xia Siwei sigh again:

"No one is wrong..."

Cheng Zhen wanted to visit several times, but was rejected by Xia Siwei, so he could only chat briefly on the phone.It was hard for him to describe how he felt at that time. It was the first time Xia Siwei spoke to him in such a cold tone, but he didn't mention anything about himself and Xia Yu, which seemed to give him a glimmer of hope.

He looked up at Xia Yu, who was looking back at him with the same complicated eyes.

After that, they went home more frequently, and the communication between Cheng Zhen and his mother became deeper and deeper. Both Xia Siwei and Xia Yu tacitly avoided this matter. For them, this was the best way to maintain peace. good idea.

Some problems are destined not to be resolved once and for all. Cheng Zhen and Xia Yu have been burdened all the way, and they have long been used to this kind of bittersweet life. Xia Yu even feels that this is the best situation.

Cheng Zhen disagreed, and replied with his words back then:

"It can be better."

It was already 2011 when Xia Yu completed his regular training and became a formal resident doctor. At this time, Cheng Zhen had already entered the simultaneous interpretation box and participated in several small and large meetings.

The family building of the Second Hospital finally ushered in the demolition. As early as two years ago, Chang Qing bought an off-plan house, with his name written on the real estate certificate.Cheng Zhen was so envious that he couldn't sleep for several nights, and he also began to imagine that he and Xia Yu had the same nest.

"... There is another big dog in the house. When you are on duty, it will accompany me for you. What do you think of Labrador?"

"No."

Xia Yu refused too simply. Sometimes, Cheng Zhen couldn't stand him—Xia Yu not only had the cleanliness of a surgeon, but also the obsessive-compulsive disorder of a physician.After washing his hands, he would also roll his sleeves up to his elbows. If Cheng Zhen hadn't strongly opposed it, he would have divided the house into a clean area and a polluted area. The scene of dog hair flying around and messing up the ground would never appear in their house .

So this is just a joke, Xia Yu is usually too tense, Cheng Zhen always wants to make some cracks in this expression.

"Alyosha, even the patient has introduced you to someone..."

"Nothing."

"Alyosha, I heard that you don't wear underwear when you have surgery?"

"Who said that?"

"Alyosha, it is said that surgeons are full of dirty jokes. Why don't you tell me?"

"I do not know."

"Impossible! Even the nurses in your department can do it!"

"Do you want to hear?"

"Ah."

"Put your ears out."

……

There is no necessary connection between listening to jokes and sore waist and weak legs, but when Xia Yu talked about these unsuitable topics for children in that serious voice, Cheng Zhen realized what it means to be cocooned.

But he never learned his lesson.

"Take it easy, Cheng Zhen... There are more than ten beds to take care of in the past few days..."

"You take care of this bed first, understand..."

Having said that, Cheng Zhen is still very measured. Most of the aftermath work that Xia Yu did before was taken over by him more and more.Most of the daily housework is undertaken by him. When Xia Yu dragged his tired body home and fell asleep, he would silently help him cover the quilt and go to the study to do exercises alone.Cheng Zhen is used to being lonely, and also used to taking care of his mother since he was a child, a life that is not easy for ordinary people to accept. He doesn't think it is too hard.

While Xia Yu was asleep, he checked the numbers on the passbook again, estimated the house price at that time, and felt depressed again.

His income has doubled several times over the years. Sometimes, one day’s remuneration is comparable to a month’s when he first entered the industry, but house prices have also been rising year after year. Since the 08 trillion flood in 4, the prices of everything have doubled several times. times.As a result, Chang Qing lamented that his lifetime salary was not as much as buying a house.

Cheng Zhen saved enough to buy a house a few years ago, but by the end of 11, it was only enough to pay a down payment, but he has no work unit, and the bank will not give him a loan.

He was at a loss, so he had to hand over the passbook to Xia Yu, and curled up on the sofa in frustration.

Xia Yu has no obsession with the house, but he can understand Cheng Zhen's mood, just like when he wanted a space of their own, it was an expectation for a stable and long-term relationship.

He threw away the pillow in Cheng Zhen's arms, and wrapped the arms that had no place to rest around his neck: "This is a matter between two people. When I get admitted to attending medicine, my income will not be lower than yours."

Cheng Zhen didn't feel comforted at all: "But we can't buy a house together like people with a marriage certificate. Our relationship..."

Xia Yu smiled calmly: "Then write your name."

Cheng Zhen also smiled: "Aren't you afraid that I will run away?"

"I'm not afraid, you won't leave me."

Whenever he thinks of this memory, the air in Cheng Zhen's chest becomes sweet. It took him so many years to finally make his Alyosha believe in himself. This is the most proud and fulfilling thing in his life.

But what happened next was an experience they least wanted to recall in the past 20 years since they met each other.

Because the person who left was not Cheng Zhen, but Xia Yu.

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35 Heaven Hell

Just after the New Year in 2012, people recalled the movie three years ago. After dinner, they jokingly discussed what unfulfilled wishes they had before the world was destroyed.If there is still a countdown to the end of the world, it is God's mercy to let people go there to fulfill their wishes.Real catastrophes are often like Hiroshima in 1945, where people went about their lives and even hoped, only to be devastated suddenly.

Cheng Zhen also talked about this topic with Xia Yu, and came to the conclusion that of course they should hug on the bed until the last second.

After laughing, life returns to normal.

Cheng Zhen's desk is piled up with a lot of materials. In the next year, he will be a Russian translator at a large medical conference. He still has many terms that need Xia Yu's help to clarify.

The meeting will last for a few days. Not only Russia, but other countries in the Far East will also send people to attend the meeting. Only the simultaneous interpretation needs English, Russian, Japanese and Korean four languages.Simultaneous interpretation is usually done by two people, and the team with Cheng Zhen is a senior translator in the industry.Cheng Zhen is looking forward to this cooperation and hopes to learn some experience from her.

But on the day of the meeting, the big guy had an accident, and it was too late to hire another translator, and all the pressure fell on Cheng Zhen alone.When the last day was over and he came out of the simultaneous interpretation box, he was almost exhausted.

Cheng Zhen slept for three days before recovering from his exhaustion. When he was asleep, a huge sum of translation fees was credited to his account. The remuneration originally intended for two people was all charged to him alone.

In addition to the considerable income, Cheng Zhen also became famous in the first battle, his social status and workload have increased, and he can get a job almost every week. The troubles at the end of last year are not a problem now.

"Every critical moment, you can always help me."

Cheng Zhen attributed the turning point of his destiny to Xia Yu, and this attribution gave him an association that their lives were closely intertwined, which excited him more than the physical intertwining.

Xia Yu remained indifferent and did not take credit for it.

"Without you, I wouldn't be here today..." Cheng Zhen was still expressing emotion, "Alyosha, I don't even know how to treat you well. Tell me, how can I treat you better?"

"That's good, I'm very satisfied."

"If I were a woman, I could do more things for you. If I was a talented woman, it would be even better - write poems for you, draw pictures, write a novel with you as the protagonist, win a literary award, let you Your name will be engraved on the trophy with me...Even if I don't have any talent, I can still get a certificate from you, so that you can justify..."

"Cheng Zhen—" Xia Yu couldn't listen anymore, "I don't want those."

"Then what do you want? Do you have to ask for something?"

"I want you, I want you enough."

Cheng Zhen heard this sentence too much, and couldn't help complaining: "Can you change some new words..."

Xia Yu smiled: "Nothing new to me?"

Cheng Zhen had no choice but to prove by himself that he regarded Xia Yu's behavior as coquettish at this time, although he never admitted it.

"I want to give you a present."

Cheng Zhen scratched the position of Xia Yu's heart with his fingers, and murmured.

The gift he refers to is shown to be buying a house. Although he can only afford a small area, it is a sustenance for the rest of his life.Besides, he couldn't think of any other promises to Xia Yu. Any kind of contract is limited. Instead of using those abstract clauses, it is better to use this visible and tangible thing to give him a solid security. Feeling, this is Cheng Zhen's consistent logic, simple and rude.

"Do I have to come in person? Can't I bring his ID card and household registration book?"

"No, sir. And, the account name for the bank transfer must be the same as the name on the real estate certificate..."

After repeated explanations from the sales lady, Cheng Zhen had no choice but to give up the "surprise" plan, and he gave the salesperson a small sum of money and asked her to keep the house for him for a few days.

After coming out of the sales office, he went straight to the Second Provincial Hospital, wanting to transfer money to Xia Yu before the bank closed, without delaying for a second.

But he didn't find the person he wanted to see.

A few hours ago, a comatose male patient with an open fracture was transferred to the emergency department, and Pan Huaiming asked Xia Yu to pull the hook as usual.The patient's injury was very complicated, he had a lot of bleeding, and the lowest blood pressure was only [-] to [-].The operating room was quiet for a while, except for the sound of the aspirator pumping blood.

Everyone was spattered with blood, Xia Yu had been staring intently at the wound, when a drop of blood suddenly burst into his eyes.The nurse on tour immediately washed him with salt water. Everyone was still shocked. Pan Huaiming looked at the skinny patient and asked:

"Have the four items before the operation come out?"

"No."

"Don't be a..."

The so-called four pre-operative items are the examinations for hepatitis B, hepatitis C, syphilis and AIDS. Pan Huaiming only said half of what he said, because everyone present understood what he said next.In principle, before each operation, these checks must be done for the patient, but it takes at least two or three hours for the test results to come out. In case of an emergency, everyone can only bite the bullet and go on stage.

The patient was morbidly thin, and everyone was so focused on rescuing him that they didn't pay attention. Hearing Pan Huaiming's words, everyone's hearts were suspended, and their movements became more cautious.From time to time, they glanced at Xia Yu from the corner of their eyes, and the latter's expression remained calm, as if nothing had happened.

After the operation, Xia Yu went to get a shot of immunoglobulin, and before returning to the duty room, he heard Pan Huaiming yelling:

"Where are the family members? Why haven't they arrived yet? Is there a letter from the police?"

He stood in the corridor for a while, inexplicably not wanting to step into that door. Before long, the results of the first four items of the surgery would be on the table, like a verdict or a pardon.

A young man as thin as the patient swayed beside him for a long time, looking into the duty room from time to time.

Xia Yu looked up for a while, and said, "Are you a family member?"

"No, I'm not..." The young man quickly denied, but he still didn't intend to leave, and tried to inquire about the patient's condition.

Xia Yu's heart moved, and he had a guess: "Are you his friend? Or one of those...'illegal' family members?"

The young man froze suddenly, then nodded sadly.

Xia Yu suddenly understood everything, and comforted him softly: "I am the doctor involved in the operation, he is fine, don't worry."

The young man's expression was a bit strange, as if he was not comforted, and seemed to be in unspeakable pain. He stared at Xia Yu's face, tears welled up in his eyes:

"sorry."

"It's okay, we are already contacting his family..."

Xia Yu still wanted to continue to comfort him, but the young man repeatedly said sorry, wiped his tears with his sleeve, ran into the stairwell, and fled quickly.

"Xia Yu, come in."

Pan Huaiming opened the door himself, with a more complicated expression than that young man.

The doctors involved in the operation were all there, no one spoke, and they all looked into Xia Yu's eyes silently. Although they had long been used to his distinctive blue eyes, they had never looked straight at them like now.

"I called the laboratory just now." Pan Huaiming has never spoken so slowly, carefully choosing his words, "Don't be too scared, the probability of this kind of thing is too small, if it happens, you can do it Buy a lottery ticket."

Xia Yu stood there quietly.

"That patient... is HIV positive."

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36 wandering in the world

Cheng Zhen asked everyone, and everyone was vague about Xia Yu's whereabouts. The new intern slipped his mouth and said, "Teacher Pan took him to the epidemic prevention station to get medicine", which made him feel a little uneasy.

"Get the medicine? What kind of medicine?"

He really asked again and again, but the intern refused to continue.Cheng Zhen waited in the corridor for a long time before seeing Pan Huaiming come back alone, and he went up to say hello.

"Hey, Cheng Zhen, you broke the water glass again?" Pan Huaiming couldn't see anything strange on his face, and he continued to tease.

"Uncle Pan, I'm looking for Xia Yu."

"Xia Yu? Do you need something from him?"

"Well, it's very urgent. No one answered his cell phone, so I wondered if he was undergoing surgery..."

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