For the rest of his life

Lu Qiong held the lunch box and looked at the vacant seats in a daze.

Xu Chenmu looked at Song Xinshan's mother, and suddenly thought of her own mother. When she was standing in front of the tomb, she suddenly thought that she had a certain mission to stand in front of the tomb. To reunite with memories for memories, to collide with opinions, life will continue The ups and downs, the joys and sorrows, the ups and downs along the way, the dead are gone, what is it to insert a tube here and shake a soulless body with human power?

No memory, dead sample.

It has nothing to do with the former Song Xinshan's mother, except for the body.

"Does she have a memory?" She asked in a daze, stunned for a moment, why did she care about memory so much?Does the memory bring me anything?If you don't have the memory, you can just follow Lu Qiong foolishly and sweetly, but having the memory will only make you more distressed.

But she suddenly gave herself a reason to convince herself, she thought, people are happy even when they are stupid, they are happy if they have food, clothing, food and sports, and the lowest level of happiness, if he has wisdom, he will see When you get the vastness of the universe, see the vastness of this world, see the sea and mountains, you will find that you are such a small and ignorant existence, and you will feel pain-but the happiness brought by knowledge is more than the happiness of being full. Majestic happiness--

So although the memory carries a lot of pain, it is better than ignorance and happiness. Socrates' happiness is different from that of a pig. She is still reluctant to part with her beautiful and colorful memories. , just can't remember it.

"No—" Song Xinshan sat down slumped, with his hands on his knees, and he silently lowered his head, "It's nice to see you today—"

"Well."

"I always wondered, if you hadn't met Lu Qiong, would you have been with me all the time?"

???

who?Who is with you all the time...

Xu Chenmu became much more energetic now, and suppressed the astonishment in his eyes. This person suddenly said such words, and judging by the tone, it seemed... as if they had been together before...

She was suddenly a little scared. Could it be that Lu Qiong didn't trust her so much after she cheated on her?But after going over the facts in her mind, this is not right, she never had the matter of betraying Lu Qiong in her mind, she believed that she would not—

I was almost bewitched by Song Xinshan. If I really believed it, I would have to burn incense and kowtow to her to ask for forgiveness. When my mind was oiled, it started to turn, staring at Song Xinshan's mother: "You plan to do this Let her go?"

"Otherwise, what else can I do?" Song Xinshan's tone was a little cautious, and he put it lightly, with the tip of his tongue against his chest as if he was gently protecting something, for fear that if he said it too seriously, it would be a blasphemy to Xu Chenmu.

"I don't know, this is your own choice," Xu Chenmu stopped talking after successfully changing the subject, she thought that Lu Qiong should have returned by now, would she look for herself?Does she feel like everyone is saying goodbye after she runs away?What if you call the police?Will she be in a hurry?She was full of ideas, but none of them were accurate. She thought that her nose was itchy, as if she was about to have a long nose like Pinocchio. Did she lie?She didn't, when did she lie?She never said that she can't run anymore, and she can do whatever she wants if she runs again.

In short, let Lu Qiong wait so much anyway, so he let go of his heart, spread his heart into a big cake and threw it aside. Song Xinshan frowned for a long time as if he had been driven into hell by his own words, and sighed unceasingly. The whole room Filled with his sighs, as if shrouded in such negative emotions, Xu Chen thought that standing next to Lu Qiong had such emotions, and now sitting in front of a man whose strangeness to her is gradually fading, it is still the same atmosphere……

After coughing a few times, Youyou opened her mouth. She thought that she looked like the reincarnation of Cixi, but the words in her heart were extremely sincere, and even the image of the person in the words came alive as if the voice and smile were still in front of her eyes. She said Speaking of his mother, he spoke out all her mother's instructions about the afterlife, with a long ending.

Originally it was just perfunctory, procrastinating time to relieve embarrassment, gradually a sincere heart surfaced by accident, the image of the remaining mother in the memory became much fuller, she talked about the dignity of the dead, she said that the value of a person is Thinking, brain death is death. After that, all existence is meaningless. After talking a lot, I vented all my own or my mother's views. After I finished speaking in one breath, I realized that I had said a lot. When I was young, when the nurse came in to record, he saw an extra person here, and after a few glances, he felt familiar, but he didn't know where he had seen it before, so he retreated angrily.

When Xu Chenmu said it, he regretted that he had said so much. It was like telling Song Xinshan, you go and stop breathing anyway, since she is hopeless, just take care of the funeral.

Get up hurriedly, say I have something to do and leave first, Song Xinshan looked up, she realized that this man was crying.

"..." In this way, she couldn't bear it immediately, as if she had done something cruel to him, sighed, and sat opposite him, thinking that if she had a microphone in her hand and a camera behind her, She wouldn't be so flustered, prying into the secrets of people's hearts is scary and unprepared, and there is no reason at all. When she saw this man, his mind was full of lilies in the sun, and she didn't know why he was so magical.

What is the word magic?She was stunned and lowered her head, and Song Xinshan spoke at this moment.

"I think I'm ashamed - every day those nurses come to wash my mother's body, she has no privacy, I pretend that I am a dutiful son, I want to make up... I used to treat her badly and despise us If I'm poor, I'll be looked down upon if I'm poor. Others say I'm poor, and I can't even catch up with a girl..." Looking at Xu Chenmu, Xu Chenmu immediately felt pointed, folded his arms and mumbled back. Grinning, he lowered his head and continued, "I often quarreled with my mother, and I was also angry that she was so old and stubborn, and said a lot of nasty things... Later, when she was ill, I didn't want to come to see her—when she was critically ill, I I was panicked, a little scared, and then I remembered that she was kind to me, she was alone...she raised me so much...I worked day and night, and the medical expenses were still not enough. Later—— "

"..." Xu Chenmu patted him on the shoulder to comfort him, but he didn't know how to comfort him. This description was completely unfamiliar, and he had never heard it before. Facing a dry river bed, he unexpectedly I don't know where the tears come from.

But as if giving Song Xinshan comfort, he hugged her, fell on her shoulder and cried, she was startled, and heard him say: "I really, I don't want to do it to that woman, to be a badass, she I have money, and I want to quickly get medical treatment to compensate my mother. I... I made a bad face, and I said bad things about you... I lost my personality and dignity, and I have a lot of self-esteem since I was a child... I really, I don’t know What to do, I can't save my mother anymore, she can't come back no matter what I do, I can't make up for it in my life, I still say bad things about you, I still laugh with you as a slave, Lu Qiong wants I went to talk to you for a while and I didn't go, just because that woman had her birthday, her birthday...what does it have to do with me, she celebrates hundreds of birthdays a year..."

The more she talked, the more wronged she felt. She felt that her right shoulder was covered with tears, soaked and buried, but she couldn't bear to push this guy away. She thought it would be good to express this regret. Many people have such regrets , Buried in her life, she has seen too much, but there are still some ripples in her heart, she thinks why Song Xinshan has been treated as a bad face by others, who was shouting the slogan of freedom and dignity back then, fate is capricious, But the emotional Song Xinshan is still Song Xinshan. She thought she suddenly remembered who Song Xinshan was, an ex-boyfriend under a joke. She looked at Song Xinshan's mother, who was barely alive under the ventilator. And with dignity, she became like this when she was sick, lingering on her last breath, and lost the dignity of thinking-her son also lost his dignity because of her appearance.

I sighed quietly in my heart, the joys and sorrows of life.

"Mu Mu, I've lost my composure..." Song Xinshan got up and wiped his tears when he had cried enough, Xu Chenmu endured that disgusting address for the time being, while shrugging his shoulders, thinking about when he wet his right shoulder Partly dried, she thought she had frightened Lu Qiong for more than an hour, what would happen to Lu Qiong?

At this time, the pleasure and secret joy of the prank just now were completely gone in her heart. She thought how short life is, and many things are so coincidental and heavy. She doesn't know when it will be the last time. Why is she angry? Do you think about it and solve it properly, in case you have any regrets in the future?

So he couldn't sit still for a second, and found an excuse to leave Song Xinshan, and when he went out, he was a little dumbfounded, and didn't know the way.

Where did she and Lu Qiong leave separately?I didn't see clearly where it was, there seemed to be a row of benches, and there were many people crowded there for infusions... No matter where there are a lot of them!

I had no choice but to walk back to the toilet according to my memory. I passed a peasant couple eating boxed lunches, and walked back along the original route. I don’t know if I walked back. It seemed much familiar, but Lu Qiong was not there.

"..." Suddenly a balloon started to blow up in her heart, and she became angry when she was swollen. She missed Lu Qiong so much, but Lu Qiong didn't even look for her, didn't care at all, didn't care at all.

"You said, if you run again, I will kill you. Should I do it or do it?" Lu Qiong's voice suddenly sounded from the right, and she turned her head suddenly. Lu Qiong looked at her quietly without smiling. He didn't look angry, he just stood at the door with his arms folded. There was the toilet that he just got into just now, and he didn't meet——

The balloon in my heart blew up - let it go with a bang, and the balloon flew away.

But she still has to be angry when she is angry on the face: "Aren't you looking for me?"

"Anyway, you will come back." Lu Qiong answered quickly, "I stood at the door for a long time, and I didn't see you go out, so I knew you would come back, so I came back, it just so happens."

She was guarding the door...Xu Chenmu grasped the important point, cheered from the bottom of his heart, and spread his arms around her: "Lu Qiong, Lu Qiong, I won't be angry anymore."

"Don't be angry if something happens." Lu Qiong glanced at her lightly.

"When such a big event as parting from life and death happened, and then I took it lightly for a moment, I treat every time I see you as the last, so that I won't regret the last time in the future, in case I really ran out just now, Kaji If there is a car accident and you are dead, then we will be angry for the last time, and then my coffin board will not be able to hold back, Lu Qiong, just smile, and I won’t be angry if you smile.” She is like a koala Wrapped around Lu Qiong, the couple eating lunch looked up to see that the kind-hearted man just now was hugged tightly by this crazy woman, and couldn't help feeling a little worried, but seeing her laughing, they thought it was a friend joking, so they didn't pay much attention.

You see, there are still many good people in the world.

Xu Chenmu's icy nose leaned towards Lu Qiong's high nose bridge, and his eyes met. Lu Qiong smiled slightly: "Don't talk nonsense. Don't get into a car accident."

If she doesn't get into a car accident, she will lose her memory and become stupid, and if there is a car accident, she won't be able to pull her back.

"I'm telling the truth." Xu Chenmu looked back, "Lu Qiong, do you love me?"

"Why suddenly—"

"sad……"

"..." Xu Chenmu's aggrieved face was really lethal. She wondered what happened during this hour and six minutes. From being a little gloomy to getting angry at old grievances, to now seeing the world again, her face changed like Singing Sichuan opera, but she was really happy in her heart. Some things cannot be said, such as Tang Yi, she gradually tilted the balance to Xu Chenmu's side again, and this matter can be resolved in a short time, but there are some things that can't be said. It's a matter of a lifetime, slightly blushing, "I love you."

"Happy." Xu Chenmu let go of her, stomped small steps, covered his face, and bowed down, "I'm super happy." In the second half of the sentence, there was a muffled voice, and a small slit appeared when he covered his eyes with his fingers. to take a peek at her.

"What if I lied to you?" Lu Qiong couldn't help asking her.

"..." As if really frightened by this question, Xu Chenmu was stunned for a long time, then turned to look at her, then at his own hands, thinking about it, "But I believe you—"

Why do you lie about this kind of thing... Old wife, old wife...

Xu Chenmu's eyes widened, and Lu Qiong finally smiled: "I won't lie to you either."

"You were lying to me just now!" Xu Chen was so angry that he widened his eyes even further.

"I say in case."

"No chance, Lu Qiong."

Lu Qiong nodded: "Okay." The redness on her cheeks was still there, she thought for a long time, but she still didn't ask her what happened to "farewell to life and death", she slightly pursed her lips, and put the coat on her arms Shake it off and put it on Xu Chenmu's body: "Eat."

"Didn't you eat either?"

Lu Qiong raised the corners of her lips and shook her head: "I was abandoned by you, and I have no intention of eating."

Xu Chen thought at night, ah, that's the case, then he has committed a heinous crime...

"You...then you beat me to vent your anger...?" Xu Chenmu asked tentatively, and there was also some playfulness in it. Lu Qiong just hugged her and walked with her eyelashes curled, as if smiling.