almost lonely

So much so that he didn't react for several seconds after opening the door, and it took him a while to find his voice: "What... are you doing?"

Of course he recognized the person in front of him, he saw several bright red paper balls rolling around Ning Juechen's feet, he was squatting on the ground, putting the folded clothes into the suitcase.Xu Ye's eyes instantly became bloodshot and red: "Where are you going? Are you going to find that Qiu Hui?"

Ning Juechen was suddenly pulled up by him, and for a moment he thought his arm was going to be dislocated, and the things in his hand fell to the ground with a snap.Xu Ye looked down and saw a small red book, which was Lu Juelan's passport.Xu Ye's eyes froze for a while, and he could hardly stand still: "You still want to go abroad?! You actually want to go abroad?! Where do you want to go?!" Ning Juechen showed a tired smile: "Look, Aurora."

He didn't want to cause trouble for Qiu Hui, but Qiu Hui knew how to impress him.The first manuscript he sent to Qiu Hui back then was called "If I Said We Go to Northern Europe". Qiu Hui asked him why he chose Northern Europe instead of other places. Ning Juechen told him that he had a favorite song called " Northern Europe is the end of our death".Qiu Hui proposed this kind of invitation at this time, and Ning Juechen had no way to refuse: every day now is getting closer to his "death terminal".He knew that Xu Ye would not let him go, so he decided to spend this birthday with Xu Ye before sneaking away, even though it seemed that he couldn't leave now.

Xu Ye tried hard to suppress his emotions: "Stop joking, Chenchen, think about where you can go now? You only have so much time every day, where can you go..." Ning Juechen said lightly: "My brother said that he will give me time, a lot of time." Xu Ye was stunned: "Your brother said? What do you mean?" Ning Juechen gestured with difficulty: "I wrote on the paper, and he is below , answer me, like, write a letter."

"Did I tell you not to use his time! Don't use it, don't use it! It will only make you...disappear faster!" Xu Ye's voice was trembling and crying in anxiety, "Or... You never believed it? Do you think I'm restricting you? Deceiving you deliberately? I don't want you to show up?" Ning Juechen bit his lip and refused to say a word.

"So you believe in Qiu Hui, you believe in Lu Juelan, but you don't believe in me, you hate me so much!" Xu Ye let go of him, his expression slowly distorted, and his tone seemed extremely bleak, "Chenchen, why did we become Is that so? I can't wait to cut this heart out and show you, but you don't want it anymore... What should I do?"

Ning Juechen's memory is broken here.

When I woke up again, it was already dawn, and it should be almost noon again.His head hurt a little, and he couldn't remember what happened afterwards. He propped up his upper body and wanted to sit up, but his right hand was suddenly caught by something.Ning Juechen squinted his eyes and turned his head to look over, only to find that his hand was locked to the bedpost by something like a handcuff, unable to move at all.

Xu Ye pushed open the bedroom door and came in, smiling very gently: "Are you awake? Do you want some water? It's still hot, let me blow it..." Ning Juechen's voice changed: "What, what do you mean?" Xu Ye Sitting down beside the bed, Ning Juechen knocked over the water glass to the ground with a wave of his left hand. The hot water splashed all over Xu Yi's hand, and the back of his hand immediately became red and swollen.He bent down and picked up the glass with a blank expression: "I'll pour another glass."

"Xu Ye!" Ning Juechen yelled hoarsely at his back, his right hand was still hanging in the air, and the chain slammed into the iron rod at the head of the bed.

29 I promise you everything

None of them knew that the time left for them was only seven days.

Both of them are just lingering in an empty body with that pitiful obsession, one desperately wants to be free, and the other will not let go.The love and hatred of the past dormant deep in the body like ants gnawing at the bones, gradually gnawing away all the remaining rationality, leaving only endless obsession, pulling, consumption, and torture.Xu Ye sometimes felt that he was completely broken from the inside, broken into small pieces, and would collapse if touched.

—The world is a gigantic madhouse.

Xu Ye can't say such high-level words, this is what he saw in Ning Juechen's colorful magazines.He still hated Chinese as before, and felt dizzy just looking at the densely packed words on the entire page.He forced himself to read on, remembering this sentence after so long.The world is a huge madhouse, but you are the antidote to my cure.

Who in this world is not a patient?Xu Ye thinks that he himself belongs to the kind of terminally ill and hopeless, and now he depends on Ning Juechen's medicine to keep his life alive.

Ning Juechen's temper became very weird, and Xu Ye sometimes couldn't tell whether he was talking nonsense with a naive face or deliberately changing ways to anger himself.Ning Juechen deliberately imitated Lu Juelan's expression, imitated Lu Juelan's speech, and exhausted all the harsh sentences that could stab Xu Ye.

Xu Ye just smiled helplessly: "Stop messing with Chenchen, it's not fun." Ning Juechen flattened his mouth in disappointment, and asked him seriously: "Why? I learned it, isn't it?" Xu Ye pointed Pointing to the adhesive tape on his face: "Lu Juelan will come straight up and beat me up."

The cut on his brow bone has scabbed over, there is a bruise on his cheekbone, and there are a lot of bruises on his body, some are the result of Lu Juelan, and some are left over from the fight with Qiu Hui who came to the door a few days ago ,——Xu Ye didn't want to mention this name in front of Ning Juechen.

Sometimes Ning Juechen didn't eat or drink water for several consecutive meals, Xu Ye squeezed his cheeks and opened his teeth to force him to pour in when he was out of breath.Ning Juechen coughed heart-piercingly and provocatively provocatively: "Xu Ye, are you sick? So, like, feeding people? A vegetative person is not enough for you to show off, not enough for you to show off. Bar?"

Xu Ye tried his best to suppress the anger in his heart, and reached out to wipe off the oil and water stains on the corners of his mouth: "You don't need to say such words on purpose to provoke me, I won't be angry." Ning Juechen sneered, and waved his hands Everything was swept to the floor, and the cups and saucers crackled and shattered.Xu Ye cleaned up the debris and food residue without saying a word, and then brought a new one over: "Do you eat it yourself or shall I help you?"

Sometimes Ning Juechen didn't say a word, even his breathing became very light and shallow, he just lay on the bed with a blank expression, staring at the ceiling absently, not knowing what he was thinking.Xu Ye also seemed to have lost his soul, sitting on the edge of the bed and holding his hand tightly, as if he wanted to feel his pulse to be at ease: "Chenchen, can you talk to me?" Listen, continue to maintain this empty state, or simply turn over and leave Xu Ye a back view.

This was when he was still sober, and it was not until the next few days that he became really delirious.As soon as Xu Ye went back that day, he heard rustling noises coming from the room. He put down his things and walked over, and saw Ning Juechen sitting on the bed with his head lowered, pulling the shackles on his hands and pushing them out.Xu Ye's temples twitched violently, and he couldn't hold back for a moment and kicked directly on the door.

Ning Juechen was startled by the sound, and turned his head to look over with his eyes wide open, the tears hanging from the corners of his eyes slowly rolled down his cheeks like in slow motion.Xu Ye was stunned for a moment, as if the drop of tear had scalded directly into his heart.Ning Juechen supported the elbow of his right hand with his left hand and shook it, and said softly while crying: "Brother Yi, it hurts so much."

Xu Ye has gotten used to Ning Juechen's stinging and hurtful words these days, so he found it difficult to face it for a while.He came over with the medicine box and untied the shackles in silence.

The fingers of Ning Juechen's left hand were all red, the nail of the index finger was broken, and the soft pink flesh inside was turned out, and the blood was half-dried on the fingertips, which had already condensed into dark red lumps.There was a circle of red scratches on his right wrist, which were left by repeated rubbing and scratching of the shackles.

Holding Ning Juechen's hand, Xu Ye first wiped off the blood, and then disinfected it with a cotton swab dipped in alcohol.It should be quite painful, Ning Juechen's hand was trembling in his palm all the time, and the tears kept falling, so that Xu Ye's eyes also became sore.After taking the medicine, Ning Juechen wanted to pull his hand back, but Xu Ye grabbed his fingers just as he moved.

When the sound of chains sounded, Ning Juechen's face turned pale: "Okay, don't you lock it? I will, be obedient." Xu Ye only thought that he wanted to escape in a different way, and pretended to be miserly. The method, so the little enthusiasm that had just surged in my heart cooled down again: "No, because you don't believe me, so I don't believe you either." Ning Juechen whispered as the shackles locked with a "click" One sentence: "It hurts."

A person can lose so much weight in a few days, Ning Juechen's wrists are dangling in the wide handcuffs, it is frighteningly thin.Xu Ye grabbed his right hand tightly and wrapped two layers of gauze around the shackles.

It was the next day when I found out that something was wrong, Ning Juechen shook the shackles vigorously and looked anxious: "Brother Yi, have you seen the key to this?" Xu Ye didn't know what kind of script he was talking about. The accumulated exhaustion has made him unable to breathe: "Chenchen, really stop making trouble, I'm very tired..."

Ning Juechen nodded, and immediately stopped making noise: "Where did you go just now? I wanted to find you, but this thing locked me up, and I couldn't leave." Xu Yi sighed: "Hospital. Where do you think I can go?" Ning Juechen nodded again: "Is anyone sick? Do you want to go tomorrow?"

Xu Ye used all his patience this time: "What the hell are you trying to say? Chenchen, I can't hold on any longer, please stop playing like this." Ning Juechen visibly flinched back, and the chain followed His movements were clanging and clanging, and after he calmed down, he said timidly: "If this