almost lonely

On the day of volunteering, the two of them did not speak to each other like strangers in the classroom.After school, Ning Juechen followed Xu Ye all the way, and when they got home Xu Ye finally lost his patience, turned around and yelled at Ning Juechen, "Why are you still following me?" Ning Juechen couldn't explain himself, he He lowered his head and clenched his fingers.Xu Ye lost his temper and said a lot of words, Ning Juechen can't remember clearly, only remember the last sentence is: "Ning Juechen, you turned me into a bastard who beat the brother of the person I like, you do you know?"

Seven years of obsession, seven years of torture, seven years of asking for nothing, and seven years of giving up but not being able.In retrospect, Ning Juechen felt that it was probably from Xu Ye's words that he went completely crazy.

——If this is the way to keep you, step down knowing that there is a cliff.While saying "I know", he approached Xu Ye and kissed her on tiptoe.

17 Don't Call Me That Again

Ning Juechen thought he was going to die, his whole body was in pain as if he had been run over hard, and his eyes also started to turn around. 25 years of life is actually not a long time. The first 15 years revolved around his father, and the next ten years were all about Xu Ye.

Speaking of which, the days when Xu Ye was kind to him were pitifully few, all in less than a year of his sophomore year.The memories in my mind are like playing a movie. These days seem to be infinitely elongated and elongated, frame by frame slowly appearing in front of my eyes.

Ning Juechen almost reviewed every morning and night when he and Xu Ye went to school together, he was like an outsider floating in the void watching memories.Seeing myself gradually learning how to smile, seeing myself laughing as if I had lived a real life.

In the following years, he suddenly pressed the fast-forward button: he secretly changed his college entrance examination choice in order to go to a city with Xu Ye; he shamelessly pestered Xu Ye again and again; It became an unspeakable bed partner relationship; Xu Yi graduated from college and was ordered by his father to go home and take over the company, Ning Juechen gave up the signed job and followed him; Xu Yi rented an apartment and told him "we live together", but The number of times I have come here is very few, - Ning Juechen often feels like an earth-bound spirit trapped there, and has already exhausted himself bit by bit in the days waiting for Xu Ye's patronage.

The end of the memory is the tragic car accident in the tunnel, the forehead seems to be cut by glass, the warm blood drips down, and the sound of my crazy heartbeat and shortness of breath is all around my ears.It was noisy, someone was talking, anxiously calling a name over and over again. — not my name, not me.

Xu Ye's curse-like call suddenly pierced into the depths of the brain like a steel needle, stirring up and down unscrupulously, his body was already numb with pain, Ning Juechen only felt that his headache was splitting like a knife, and he was soon bottomless The despair engulfed me.

"Juelan! Juelan! Lu Juelan!" Stop calling me that, brother Yi, please.

He struggled desperately to get out of this terrible nightmare, the oxygen was getting less and less, and no matter how hard he breathed, it seemed to be futile, and he couldn't catch even a tiny bit.

I'm dying, Ning Juechen thought, I'm dying...

Consciousness sinks into darkness and slowly floats, floats, rises, rises.There seemed to be light, and his eyes gradually began to glow white. He looked towards the bright place exhaustedly, and finally opened his eyes with difficulty.

What caught my eyes was white first, the white ceiling, the white walls, the white quilt, and several doctors and nurses in white coats.Ning Juechen rolled his eyes and saw Chen Yuhong and Lu Chengxiong standing behind him. Chen Yuhong was leaning against Lu Chengxiong with a pale face. Lu Chengxiong also looked haggard, with disheveled hair and tightly knit eyebrows.

Lu Juelan's fiancée was also there, and Ning Juelan couldn't figure out why she was here.Then he saw Xu Ye, and when his eyes met, Ning Juechen's heart suddenly felt sore, and his first reaction was to run away, as if it was an animal's instinct to seek advantages and avoid disadvantages.

It was very noisy, they were all talking, but Ning Juechen could always catch Xu Ye's voice very accurately, which had become his subconscious instinct.

Xu Ye was calling a name, the same as in the phone call when the car accident happened, and the same as the end of a long nightmare, it was not his name after all.Ning Juechen felt that either he was crazy and had hallucinations or Xu Ye was crazy and talking nonsense. How could Xu Ye, how could he still call him Lu Juelan under such circumstances?This is really... cruel.

Even if Ning Juechen was sober and thankful that he survived just now, it was completely wiped out by Xu Ye's every word.His eyelids were heavy and his body was heavy. He couldn't hold on any longer, so he closed his eyes and fell asleep again.

When he woke up again, it was already late at night, a small light was on in the darkness, and a woman was lying on the edge of the bed, tightly clutching his hand.Ning Juechen narrowed his eyes, and with the help of the dim light, he could tell that the person in front of him was not Chen Yuhong... Lu Juelan's fiancée?Ning Juechen had only met this sister-in-law once, and he didn't even know her name, so he was a little confused about what was going on.

He moved his stiff fingers slightly, and the woman woke up almost immediately, stood up and threw herself into his arms: "You scared me to death, Lu Juelan! You really scared me to death..."

Ning Juechen seemed to fall from one nightmare into another, and when he opened his eyes, it was the next nightmare.

He subconsciously dodged back, involving the right hand connected to the infusion set, and the needle was stirred heavily in the blood vessel.He lowered his head in pain, and then froze for an instant: the flesh on his wrist was clean and intact, without scars...why there were no scars? !

He grabbed the needle in panic and tore it off, pushed the hands around his neck away, and tried to stand up.But because he had been lying down for too long, he didn't have any strength in his body, and his feet were so soft that he almost fell to his knees.The woman screamed and came to help him, Ning Juechen shook off her hand like an electric shock, got up, stumbled into the bathroom, and locked the door with a bang.

Ning Juechen's mind went blank, he couldn't think at all, he just watched the bright red blood ooze out from the needle's eye and merged into a small bunch, flowing onto the pale and flawless wrist that didn't belong to him at all.

After a while, he mustered up the courage to raise his head very slowly: what was reflected in the mirror was Lu Juelan's face.Ning Juechen's two hands on the sink suddenly lost their strength, staggered back a few steps and hit the wall, sliding down against the cold tiles and sitting on the ground as if collapsed.

The knock on the door lasted for a long time before it stopped. Ning Juechen thought that Lu Juelan's fiancée had already left.He didn't know whether it was because of the cold or fear, but he was shaking violently all over. He could hardly hold the doorknob, and opened the door with great effort. When he looked up, he bumped into his sister-in-law who rushed in with the doctor.Ning Juechen froze on the spot.

Desperately, he was pushed back to the bed, despondently cooperated with the doctor to do a set of examinations, despondently allowed the nurse to stop the bleeding and disinfect his needle, and despondently fell into Lu Juelan's fiancée into his arms, crying and laughing.

Ning Juechen couldn't figure out whether he was crazy or the world was crazy.

He licked his lips, the dry dead skin scratched his tongue, and his throat was dry and itchy, making people want to vomit, and the sound that came from his own throat was terribly strange.

He asked the first sentence in a trembling voice: "Where is... my brother?" The woman replied sobbingly: "In the ICU, I haven't woken up yet." Ning Juechen was startled, and repeated at a loss: " ICU?" Sister-in-law leaned on his shoulder: "Well, the doctor said the situation is not very good."

She said that their car hit the big truck in front first, and was rear-ended by an off-road vehicle coming from behind, resulting in a second accident.Their car was nearly pushed under the van, and the passenger in the passenger seat was badly injured.

What's the matter?Why did I become Lu Juelan?What if I am in Lu Juelan's body?My body is still alive?Or am I already dead?Ning Juechen listened blankly, all kinds of thoughts in his mind were in a mess, and his mind began to hurt like a needle prick again, and he was so uncomfortable under the sharp pain that he couldn't breathe.

He finally persuaded his sister-in-law to leave and sent her to the elevator. The sister-in-law kept complaining all the way, saying that before today, it was my mother who stayed here to watch the night, so I couldn't change it.Ning Juechen changed the topic awkwardly and said that the driver was waiting downstairs, so you should go quickly.The sister-in-law reluctantly hugged him for a while and kissed his face before leaving.

Ning Juechen stood at the elevator entrance until his legs were numb, so he walked towards the ward bit by bit by touching the wall. When he saw Xu Ye, he thought he was dazzled.Xu Ye fell asleep on the plastic seat in the corridor in a very awkward posture, with the back of his head leaning against the white wall, rubbing some dusty wall powder.

In the past, Xu Ye was his island of safety, the only safe place he could live in, but in this situation, standing in front of Xu Ye, he only felt afraid.

In fact, Ning Juechen didn't make any movement or make a sound, but Xu Ye woke up as if he had sensed him, his mind was still not clear, he looked at him in a trance and called out: "Chenchen?" Ning Juechen His eyes flickered, and before he could make a sound, Xu Ye rubbed his eyes and smiled wryly: "It's Jue Lan."

Ning Juechen frowned at him, Xu Ye was so thin that his cheeks and eye sockets were deeply sunken.It seemed that he hadn't tidied himself up for several days, his chin was covered with messy stubble, and his hair was sticking up randomly.The last time Xu Ye was like this was when his grandma passed away. It seems that he was really afraid of losing Lu Juelan, Ning Juechen thought.

He twisted his fingers unconsciously: "Why are you here now?" Xu Ye lowered his head, buried his face in his hands, and said in a muffled voice: "You woke up today, Chenchen must be awake soon, I Wait here." Ning Juechen paused, and heard Xu Ye choking.

Xu Ye actually cried?Xu Ye actually cried...