almost lonely

of.He found a compartment in the back, took off his clothes, stood in and turned on the faucet, not daring to turn on the water too much for fear of being discovered.

Just when he got close to the small stream of water and just wet himself, there was a sudden sound of footsteps at the door, Ning Juechen frantically went to turn off the water, and then remembered that the flashlight was still on.The sound of footsteps stepping on the water was getting closer and closer, echoing in the silent bathroom, Ning Juechen was completely frightened, and froze in place, not daring to move.

"Don't be afraid, it's me." It was Xu Ye's voice.He didn't fall asleep just now, and heard that Ning Juechen got up and went out. After waiting for a long time, no one came back. He was afraid that Ning Juechen would have a stomachache again, so he followed him out to find him.

The first reaction of a man in this situation is probably to reach out to block his little brother, and Ning Juechen is no exception.Just a second later, he immediately raised his left hand to cover his right hand, and then panicked to cover the scars on his chest.

It was the second time Xu Ye saw Ning Juechen's right arm like this. He didn't expect that Ning Juechen's condition was even more serious. When he looked over, it was full of deep and shallow old injuries, criss-crossing and densely packed.With the little white skin left, the whole person seemed to be tied up in a mess with dark red ropes.

Ning Juechen clasped his hands in front of his chest, squeezed his legs and retracted into the corner, shivering against the cold tiles, his expression seemed to be about to cry.He lowered his head and heard Xu Ye's footsteps quickly gone.

I scared him, Ning Juechen thought dejectedly.

Unexpectedly, after half a minute, Xu Ye came back again, holding a big bath towel in his hand.He came over and put the towel on the horizontal bar of the cubicle to make a curtain: "Wash it quickly, don't attract Old Feng."

Ning Juechen was stunned for a moment, and the tears he was holding back just now couldn't hold back in an instant.He turned on the faucet and inhaled heavily at the sound of rushing water.

After a while, Ning Juechen tentatively asked: "Brother Ye, are you still there?" Xu Ye's voice was very close, separated by a bath towel: "Yes."

"Brother Yi?" "Why?" "I just want to call you." "..."

"Brother Ye." "..." "Brother Ye, are you leaving?" "No."

"Brother Yi..." "You bathe with your mouth?"

Ning Juechen actually wanted to call back all the times He Mingyue shouted today. He wished that Xu Ye was his brother Yi alone.

After coming out of the bathroom, Xu Ye took off his coat and threw it to Ning Juechen, then put on a bath towel and sneezed loudly.The bright white moonlight shines on the corridor in front of you through the jagged shadows of the trees, making it unreally beautiful.

Ning Juechen didn't know where the courage came from, but he suddenly asked: "Who is the person you like?" Xu Ye paused, and turned to look at him: "Such gossip." Ning Juechen He began to blush again, and his voice was as soft as a mosquito's screeching: "I'll just ask." Xu Ye smiled: "It's okay to tell you, but you have to keep it a secret."

Ning Juechen had a bad feeling, he suddenly regretted asking this question, he didn't want to know anymore.

"I like Jue Lan." Xu Ye lowered his voice, "I liked him the first time I saw him when I was 11 years old."

None of them noticed that there was still a person standing at the corner of the toilet not far away, his mobile phone screen was brightly on, staying on the recording interface.

Five days later, a processed audio file was uploaded by an anonymous user to the campus forum of No. [-] High School.

15 Are we reconciled?

Ning Juechen was released by Xu Ye on Monday morning. He waited anxiously downstairs, and went to Xu Ye's house with his schoolbag to find him.Grandma just came back from shopping for groceries, with several bags in her hand: "The kid has already left the house! Call me and ask!"

Ning Juechen helped grandma carry the things into the kitchen and put them away, and called Xu Ye, but the other end hung up immediately as soon as he got through, and he was flustered for a while while holding the phone.Seeing that the time was running out, Ning Juechen had no choice but to hail a taxi at the entrance of the alley.It cost 13 yuan to the school, and he paid with the change in his school uniform pocket. He planned to invite Xu Ye to eat soup dumplings in the morning.

Ning Juechen entered the classroom by stepping on the bell for morning reading, and saw Xu Ye sleeping motionless on the table with his whole face buried in his arms.Ning Juechen lightly put down his schoolbag and sat down, turned his head and hesitated to ask him where he went in the morning, but the English teacher had already come in with the book in his arms: "Put away all the books, and take out the dictation book!" Ning Juechen Juechen had no choice but to swallow the words that came to his lips, and turned back silently.

Today, Ning Juechen habitually copied the words of the first unit after writing them.Xu Ye didn't like to memorize words the most, and it would be pretty good if he could write five out of twenty.Ning Juechen folded the answer, quietly stuffed it on Xu Ye's desk, and carefully poked the back of Xu Ye's hand with the folded corner of the paper.

Xu Ye raised his head and glanced at him expressionlessly, stretched out his hand and pulled the piece of paper over and squeezed it into a ball, then raised his hand and threw it out viciously, hitting the ground and flying far away.Ning Juechen didn't know what he meant, but felt flustered and scared. Xu Ye looked at him with cold eyes, never before.

After finally getting out of class, Ning Juechen dared not take the initiative to talk to Xu Ye.Ever since Xu Ye confessed his feelings for Lu Juelan in front of him that day, Ning Juechen didn't know how to face Xu Ye. These thoughts came and went in his mind this week:

——Xu Ye is of the same kind as him.

——Xu Ye has someone he likes.

——That person is his twin brother Lu Juelan.

The first sentence is the sugar coating of temptation, the second sentence and the third sentence are the deadly poison inside.Every time I think about it, it's like swallowing a handful of arsenic, but my heart is really hurting and almost rotten.

In the next four days of social practice, Ning Juechen was in a trance and absent. He deliberately avoided Xu Ye several times, did not sit with him in class, did not eat with him at noon, and even changed the bed position silently. . —— Ning Juechen didn't know that his abnormal behaviors turned into evidence of guilt and wrongdoing in Xu Ye's eyes.

He spent two whole days on the weekend doing mental training, how to hide his heart and continue to be Xu Ye's friend, how to play the younger brother of the person he likes well, and how to laugh and talk when he is with him in the future. .As a result, Xu Ye suddenly became like this in the morning, and Ning Juechen didn't know what was going on.

Xu Ye was so gloomy and frightening all day long. After school, Ning Juechen finally gathered up the courage to chase him to the carport, and stopped him anxiously: "Brother Yi?" Xu Yiyang threw the U-shaped lock into the car basket with a bang Ning Juechen was startled, and looked up at him in bewilderment.

Xu Ye's tone was disappointment mixed with anger, and his eyes were full of exhaustion: "Ning Juechen, I believe in you, and I regard you as a friend and a brother. What about you? Are you trying to mess with me or your brother?!" Ning Juechen Juechen was in a daze, before he could figure it out clearly, he had already started to apologize like a conditioned reflex: "I'm sorry..."

This has been his survival instinct formed for a long time, no matter whose fault it is, it is his fault in the final analysis.He has long been used to stepping himself into the dust bit by bit to bow his head to please. He used to be afraid of being beaten, but later he was afraid of losing.

This relationship has never been equal, Xu Ye only needs to take half a step back, and Ning Juechen will immediately be terrified and distraught, wishing to kneel and chase ten steps forward.

Hearing the "I'm sorry" blurted out, Xu Ye almost sneered and pulled away Ning Juechen's fingers holding onto his cuff one by one, and said, "Forget it."

After this sentence, the two of them didn't talk at all for a while, and Xu Yi looked at him as if he was looking at the air.Ning Juechen was wronged to death, but he didn't dare to ask, and he was desperately reflecting on what he did wrong every day.He never plays forums or gossips with his classmates, and it has been two weeks since he figured out what happened.

The third period on Friday afternoon was a computer class. The students in the previous class did not turn off their phones after finishing their work. The browser interface was still on the homepage of the campus forum.The title of the most popular post is "High-powered man confesses his love!"The target is Lu Juelan, Class [-], Grade [-]! (There is a recording hammer inside)", with a red word "fire" floating beside it.Ning Juechen grabbed the earphones in a panic, and the earphone wires were twisted into a tight knot, and it took a long time to untie them.He put on the earplugs with trembling hands, and clicked the play button of the audio in the post.

In the recording, his voice has been processed, and the original timbre can no longer be heard, but Xu Ye's voice is clearly audible, "I like Jue Lan. I liked him the first time I saw him when I was 11 years old." The first page of the post is Someone guessed who was speaking. Ning Juechen held the mouse tightly and dared not turn down, as if a large basin of ice water had been poured over his head and face. For a moment, he felt ashamed, and all the blood on his face faded clean up.This day Xu Ye disappeared after school again, Ning Juechen decided to explain to him on the weekend.

Xu Ye's birthday is at the end of March, and Ning Juechen started preparations very early.There was a time when Xu Ye liked to play Rubik's Cube, and Ning Juechen took a fancy to a speed-twisting Rubik's Cube specially used for competitions. In fact, he didn't know good or bad, but this one is more expensive, so it should be good.After finally saving enough money to buy it for Xu Ye, Xu Ye's enthusiasm for the Rubik's Cube has passed, and Ning Juechen has never seen him play with it.

He also gave Xu Ye a copy of "Love in the Time of Cholera" according to his preference, a very thick and heavy hardshell book, which was later used by Xu Ye to make instant noodles.So Ning Juechen has always been worried about birthday gifts. That day, I overheard the Sports Commissioner talking about a new limited-edition sneaker from a certain brand. Ning Juechen waited in line for several hours to buy it. Trolling will not like it.

He called Xu Ye on Saturday afternoon, but Xu Ye kept hanging up. Ning Juechen wondered if Xu Ye had blacklisted him.he