Attract souls

The alarm clock rang happily, but Ming Xiao felt very unhappy when he got up.

But for the sake of making a living, Ming Xiao got up angrily, as usual, hating the early days and having to get up early at the same time.

Repeat the same thing every day, wash up, go out, buy breakfast, go to the hospital where he works, put down the documents, take a sip of water, and start to receive his various patients until noon.

However, today seems to be different from usual. No, in fact, everything seems to be different from a few days ago. Colleagues always ignore him intentionally or unintentionally, and sometimes even show disdain on their faces.

Huang Xiao didn't understand why, maybe... something he did to offend them.

Huang Xiao sat down in his seat helplessly, habitually opened the water glass, took a sip of water, and waited for his patient.

"Xuan Xiao...", a soft cry lifted Huang Xiao's head.He looked at the girl in front of him who hesitated to speak, and felt warm in his heart.

The girl named Yu Ran in front of her should be her best friend in this hospital.

He has always been unsociable, but this girl never dislikes him, and always talks to him casually, even when he was in a slightly awkward situation before, she never showed any estrangement.

"what happened?"

Hearing this, Yu Ran frowned, her eyes dazed for a while, seeing that there was no one around, she hesitated to approach Huang Xiao, and said in a low voice: "Xu Xiao, you don't know, you are gay now The matter has spread throughout the hospital, you... come out and explain it quickly."

Seeing Yu Ran's sincere eyes, Xiao Xiao felt that his expression seemed to be about to collapse. He tried his best to collapse himself, but his heart felt as if the wind had leaked out, sad and desolate.

I can't hide my feelings that I've been hiding for four years. Thinking of the world's hatred towards homosexuals, thinking of the disdainful eyes of people around me... and my mother in the country, who is not in good health, and always hopes that I can find a good one. daughter in law……

What would happen if she knew about this matter, she didn't dare to imagine, and she couldn't even imagine, Xiao Xiao felt her heart was clenched by a force called despair, loosened, clenched again, breathing seemed so difficult.

what do I do……

"Xiao Xiao, Xiao Xiao... what's wrong with you, hurry up and clarify, you are definitely not gay, right?"

Yu Ran's anxious voice pulled him back from his obsession, and he looked at Yu Ran speechlessly, answering everything with silence.

He saw that during this silent time, Yu Ran's expression became more and more surprised... There was even a trace of resistance...

Huang Xiao felt that the saliva he swallowed was bitter.

He took a deep breath and maintained a calm demeanor, but if you observe carefully, you will find that the muscles on his face seem to be trembling slightly.

"No need to explain, I am."

Yu Ran's expression gradually became embarrassing, she calmly opened the distance between herself and Huang Xiao, with incredible eyes.

It took a long time for Yu Ran to leave Huang Xiao, and the back view of her leaving looked a little dazed.

People...

Huang Xiao pulled out an ugly smile.

Sure enough, paper cannot contain fire.At that time, it was because I was afraid that my homosexuality would affect my work and future. I was afraid that I would not be able to face the disgusted expressions of the people around me. I was afraid that my mother would not be able to bear it when she knew about it. together...

That's why he and Tan Yue started an underground relationship at the same time. Unexpectedly, this conversation lasted for four years.

Obviously it is a love that I regard as a treasure, and it is obviously a lover that I regard as a wall, but because others abandon me like a bag, I have to cover it up and never see the light of day.

Life is endlessly sad.

Huang Xiao clenched his fists, his mind was in a mess, he lay on the table, not knowing what to do.

However, the world didn't keep him at a loss for too long. After a while, there was a loud knock on the door.

Huang Xiao ignored it, to be exact, he was in his own world, he didn't notice the knock on the door at all, until the knock sound came from his desktop, he suddenly woke up, staring blankly at the familiar colleague in front of him .

"Hey, the leader is waiting for you in the office, go quickly."

After conveying the news in a bad tone, the so-called colleague quickly walked out of here, creating a gust of wind around Huang Xiao.

When the colleague walked to the door, he cursed dissatisfiedly, the voice was not loud, but it fell into Huang Xiao's ears clearly, "Fuck, gay."

Huang Xiao's heart seemed to be hanging in the cold wind, his fingertips were white and extremely cold.

It seems that this job is still out of the question...

Finding a job is not easy these days.It's not easy to live.

However, this is not a good ending for him.

With such self-comfort, Huang Xiao walked to the leader's office at the end of the corridor.

When I walked to the stairs, I suddenly felt sadness, despair, pain, and even hopeless emotions, like waves one after another, coming in an endless stream.

With a strong desire to survive, Huang Xiao struggled to escape from there, as if he had come back to life, but he still had lingering fears in his heart.

He has walked this road many times, but he has never lived like this once. It is like the rest of his life after a catastrophe, but this place is obviously on the first floor. He is down-to-earth, safe and secure, and yet he can produce such terrible emotions.

Still in shock, Huang Xiao knocked on the leader's door.

The leader sat in the document, nodded slightly to Huang Xiao, without any superfluous expression, just like usual, he didn't seem to know about it at all.

But Huang Xiao knew that the whole company knew about it, so why didn't he know about it?

There is always calm before the storm.

The leader was very straightforward, "I've already heard about your affairs."

Huang Xiao forced a smile with difficulty.

Then I heard something completely unexpected, "It's up to you who you like, but you still have to deal with your own reputation, don't embarrass yourself, do you understand what I mean?"

Huang Xiao was stunned, and nodded subconsciously. It's really unbelievable that this famous stubborn and pedantic leader can be so reasonable!

It's like a dream.

What surprised Huang Xiao the most was that the leader came out from the document, patted him on the shoulder, and said meaningfully, "If there is a wedding banquet in the future, don't forget about me!"

This... this must not be a real leader!

Can't believe it!Is this still the leader who is famous for his rigidity!

"Okay, let's go to work."

After all, the leader returned to the chair and started his own business.

Huang Xiao stood for a while, calmed down his ups and downs in the past half day, and opened the door in a daze.

It's been many years... This is the first person who knows that he is gay and comforts him so much. Other than that, what he endures is indifference, white eyes, and contempt.

Just one sentence, just one sentence, he seemed to have returned to the ground from the cliff, just now he was still chilled to the bone, now it seemed like a breeze was blowing.

He closed the door, leaned against the wall, and saw troublemakers wandering around, their eyes fell on him, but when he looked at them, they all lowered their heads again, as if they were doing their own business.

But Huang Xiao knew that they were watching him all the time.

The author has something to say: Do you have any cute friends?