Klein bottle personality

When Ding Muyan woke up, it was already dawn, and it was rare for him to lie on the bed and not want to get up.The last time he woke up with nothing to do was the time when he was on a big vacation. That time he had no burden and was in a happy mood. This time he really had nothing to do. Of course he could read a book or something else, but he looked up at the ceiling and couldn’t mention it at all. Come on.

After a whole morning was wasted, Ding Muyan braced himself to go out, and today he planned to visit his grandfather.

Ding Muyan's grandfather, Ding Zhixing, is a clear old man. He is over 90 years old and has a clear mind. He is a figure in the medical field and has many honorary titles behind his name.

When Ding Muyan arrived, he was reading a book in the sun, took off his glasses and raised his head slightly: "Here we come."

From him, Ding Muyan really saw the word indifferent. The nearly hundred-year-old man has experienced too many storms, and has seen too much life and death, so he takes everything lightly.Ding Muyan came to seek inner peace, and every time he had an unresolvable knot, he would come to chat with his grandfather, sometimes he didn't need to speak out his thoughts at all, just chatting casually, his mood would be relieved.This time is no exception.

"It's just in time." Ding Zhixing rubbed the center of his brows, "Read it to me, the word is too small, it makes my eyes tired."

Ding Muyan took it and saw that it was an English paper. He sat beside him, cleared his throat, and read it.

His cold and clean voice echoed in the room, and the afternoon sun drew out a circle of golden edges on him, and his jet-black hair was golden yellow.

After reading the full text, Ding Zhixing looked out the window and didn't respond.

"grandfather?"

Ding Zhixing took back the paper and glanced at it again, sighed: "I'm getting older, I still don't quite understand this article after reading it several times."

"Grandpa, people at your age can't even speak clearly. You are still researching academic papers. Can you leave some life for others?"

Ding Zhixing patted Ding Muyan on the head with the journal: "It's so courageous to laugh at your grandpa!"

Ding Muyan lifted the thin blanket on Tiding Zhixing's lap: "Don't dare, you see, I will accompany you as a reader as soon as I come, and I will work hard without complaint."

Ding Zhixing carefully bookmarked the journal and put it away: "You look like you were beaten outside and came back crying."

"Are you so sarcastic about your grandson?"

"I've heard about you." Ding Zhixing looked at Ding Muyan, "Are you sad?"

"Sad." Ding Muyan's mood dropped a little immediately, "I was suspended, and Dean Zhu didn't want to admit it, but that's the truth. People from the Health and Family Planning Commission talked to Dean Zhu and said that the influence was too bad. It must be dealt with seriously as soon as possible.”

"Little Zhu is still too bookish."

With Dean Zhu's current status in the medical field, Ding Zhixing is probably the only one who can refer to him as Xiao Zhu.Ding Muyan smiled wryly: "The dean has tried his best."

"What did your dad say?"

"He said he respected whatever choice I had."

"It's useless to talk about it!" Ding Zhixing was dissatisfied with his son's 1 points, "Then what do you think about it?"

"I don't agree!"

"This is the path you chose..."

"No, Grandpa, this is not the path I 'chosen', I didn't choose, I was chosen."

Sexuality is not up to him to choose, it must be said that he chooses to be his true self.

Ding Zhixing was taken aback for a moment, and sighed distressedly: "You are right." His eyes became blurred, as if separated by a layer of fog, there were fragments of memories in distant time and space behind the heavy fog: "But At least you still have a way to go, don't you?"

"Grandpa, don't give me chicken soup like 'Life is always wronged' and 'Life is unhappy'. I open my mouth to comfort others with these words, but I just don't feel happy. These years I Anyone with long eyes can see what I have done. I haven’t done anything wrong. Why do you treat me like this? There are many people who don’t know me at all, and I have never hurt them, but they want me to die. I cure diseases and save people I have a clear conscience, but I suddenly found that I was treating a group of demons."

Ding Zhixing stood up with support on the armrest, Ding Muyan quickly handed over the crutches, and Ding Zhixing walked slowly to the window on the crutches.His leg was broken once, and it failed to heal if it was not treated in time, and it became more and more inconvenient as he got older.

"I once knew a pair of people who were like you. At that time, the whole country was in chaos and wars, and people's fate followed the current. When they were good, they wore silk clothes and drank imported foreign wine. When they were bad, they ate bark and grass roots. Picked up from a dead person. The two separated and reunited, and then settled down in a small village. The people in the village took good care of them, gave them food and allocated a house for them to live in. In those days Ken Yun had a little food, and he was already a good person. They pretended to be a pair of brothers, but it was useless. Their relationship was quickly discovered by the villagers. At that time, there was an infectious disease in the village for unknown reasons, and many households fell ill. But those two people were safe and sound, so the villagers thought they were monsters who came to harm people."

Ding Zhixing seldom talked about the past, Ding Muyan did not expect him to suddenly say: "What happened later?"

"Later, the villagers locked the two of them in the house, piled up thatch, and set a fire."

Ding Muyan guessed that it would be a bad result, but he didn't expect it to be so bad. He couldn't imagine the helplessness of those two people trapped in the house and watching the fire grow bigger and bigger.

"People come from ignorance, and ignorance can make people stubborn, cruel, aggressive and even dehumanized."

It is this group of people who take in strangers, and it is also this group of people who burn people alive. It is never so easy to define kindness or cruelty.

Ding Zhixing looked at Ding Muyan: "At that time, you said you liked men, but your father couldn't accept it, so I'll help you convince him. I don't do it for anything, I just hope that you can take this road easier. A little bit is also good."

"I have always been grateful to you."

"Anyone will be sad if you put this matter on anyone. No matter what I say, I can't really comfort you. I can only say be stronger, you are not dead yet, and there are infinite possibilities."

"They want to drive me away, but I really don't want to. If I leave, I won't be able to come back."

The thick snow outside the window is dazzlingly white, and it is extremely cold when it melts, grabbing every trace of heat in the air recklessly.

"It will be fine." Ding Zhixing wiped off the thin moisture on the glass, "Everything will be fine."

Ding Muyan handed in his resignation letter the next day.

After returning home from Ding Zhixing, he thought about it all night. At midnight, he took out a pen and paper and wrote his resignation letter.His current situation is so bad that it can't be worse. Although the person behind the incident has been arrested, the ferment of public opinion will continue, which will make the tense doctor-patient relationship worse.If it's just him, that's fine, he doesn't want to hurt the people around him anymore, he doesn't want to see Dean Zhu with a sad face, being forced to burn by his superiors and subordinates.The current situation is that he has to take the blame. Even if he wants to stay in the hospital again, he has no face to ask Dean Zhu to carry the first bag for him.

When the resignation letter was placed in front of Dean Zhu, Dean Zhu's hands were shaking, and he pushed it back after reading halfway through it.

"Who told you to resign, didn't you tell you to rest at home? I don't accept it! Go back!" Dean Zhu was angry and anxious.

"Uncle Zhu, I've thought about it. I can't swallow this tone." Ding Muyan said against his will, "I can't stand being pointed at and scolded. If they insist on me leaving, I will leave. The ability is my own. How can I not go out of this door? Why should I be so useless!"

Dean Zhu patted the table and said, "Do you have to do this kind of thing that pleases relatives and enemies! Go and see what those people in your department are doing!"

Ding Muyan almost didn't hold back, he had too much to say, but he couldn't say a word, and finally just said lightly: "I'm sorry."

Dean Zhu drove Ding Muyan out of the office. In the chaos, Ding Muyan threw the letter of resignation on his desk, turned around and ran away, so angry that Dean Zhu scolded his mother behind his back.

Thinking of what Dean Zhu said, Ding Muyan felt uneasy, so he went to the department for a walk.

At first, he didn't find anything unusual. When he passed the nurse's station, he found a rainbow-shaped date knick-knack on the table.He was stunned, the nurse saw him greet him happily, and he found that besides a pen in her chest, there was also a small rainbow clip clipped on her chest, and he took a closer look that everyone had one clip on their chest, mainly white There is a touch of elf-like color in the hospital with different hues.

Ding Muyan couldn't control his emotions, turned around and left, took out his phone and flipped through it casually.In the department group, a nurse who went on maternity leave a few days ago posted a photo of a newborn baby, and a group of people posted congratulatory expressions below. Ding Muyan clicked on the photo and looked at it. Just about to send a red envelope, he found a person's profile picture When it was changed to a rainbow, he paused with his fingers and clicked on some other people's avatars, and found that almost everyone had quietly changed to a variety of rainbow avatars.

The sourness flooded in like a tide, and Ding Muyan, who wanted to ease his emotions, became more and more uncomfortable. He quickly turned off the phone and dared not look at it again, but the colorful colors still flashed in front of his eyes.They were obedient and did not demonstrate with great fanfare, but scattered parts and dotted rainbows in tiny corners.They are soft-spoken, but try their best to express their wishes.

After leaving the hospital gate, Ding Muyan received a call from Peng Zhicheng.

"I resigned." Ding Muyan said.

Peng Zhicheng took a breath, as if he couldn't believe that Ding Muyan had made this decision: "Then what are your plans for next?"

"I'm going to America."

"When?"

"tomorrow."

Peng Zhicheng was so pumped that he almost lost his breath, and said tremblingly, "Are you a little too fast?"

Ding Muyan smiled and said, "I'm going to attend an academic seminar, the itinerary has already been arranged."

Peng Zhicheng let out a long sigh of relief: "I was scared to death, I thought you were leaving soon."

"Then..." Ding Muyan said sadly, "By the way, I will pay a visit to Professor Ross to see if he is short of people."

Peng Zhicheng fell silent on the other end, and muttered for a long time: "It's really boring."

That night Peng Zhicheng came to accompany Ding Muyan to help him pack his luggage.

Saying that it is helping is not the same as making trouble. Ding Muyan is often on business trips, so he has a special suitcase for daily necessities, just a little adjustment and replacement of clothes.

"Oh, you are leaving now, and I will be left alone again." Peng Zhicheng lamented.

Ding Muyan folded his clothes neatly: "You have so many little flowers, how can you be alone?"

"Little flower is little flower, you are you, you are the unique Tintin baby."

"You don't hate me anymore."

Peng Zhicheng sighed again: "Speaking seriously, I'm just complaining for you."

Ding Muyan's mood hovered at the bottom.He is the Son of Heaven's favored son. Four years ago, he returned to China as an expert. It was such an honor and glory. Now his reputation has been discredited and he left in despair.

"Rather than being chased away by others, it's better for me to go by myself." Ding Muyan said.

Peng Zhicheng stood next to the suitcase, playing with travel-sized shower gel in boredom: "You see, you are about to leave now, and Xiao Jin didn't come to help you, it really is heartless and ungrateful."

Ding Muyan recalled how shocked he was when he received the call that night. He walked to the door and asked, "Can you go with me?" Ding Muyan coldly refused.

"You still want him to help me? Do you think I'm not unlucky enough?"

"I think he should kneel in front of you and apologize to you. It's too cheap for him to just let him go."

Ding Muyan grabbed the travel-sized shower gel and stuffed it into the suitcase: "My life is the most important thing."

Early the next morning, Ding Muyan rushed to the airport.

He was about to leave, and his mood was as heavy as a stone.Although it was only for a meeting for the time being, he knew that his departure was a foregone conclusion.The hospital he works in is one of the top hospitals in the country. Other large hospitals may not hire him due to his bad reputation. As for the small hospital, he is somewhat disdainful. It is a waste of his professional ability to have no source of disease. It has been a long time. levels will drop.

If he can’t go to China, he can only go abroad. According to his qualifications, the salary environment abroad will be better and the development space will be wider. It’s just that he has to go far away after returning to his family.

Before leaving, Xue Chuwei called him.

"Which flight are you on? I'll pick you up."

Ding Muyan felt that he was a bit supernatural, and he knew that he was coming: "You are in the east of the United States, and I will fly to the west of the United States. The distance is far away."

Xue Chuwei seemed to be ill, coughing so hard that he couldn't breathe, and his voice became hoarse: "Don't worry about where I am, I'll just pick you up."

"Xue Chuwei, are you sick and stupid or what, can't you hear that I don't want to see you?"

Xue Chuwei was silent for a long time and roared: "I am not reconciled!"

Another unwilling one, what's the use of being unwilling?Isn't it all done by yourself?

Ding Muyan hung up the phone and walked into the border inspection channel, followed the team forward a little bit, thinking about what to do when he went back.

It was his turn next, and his cell phone rang again suddenly, this time it was Dean Zhu.

"Xiao Ding, hurry to the hospital!"

Ding Muyan was stunned: "My plane is about to take off."

"If you are called, you will come!"

Ding Muyan was flustered by his yelling: "But I... I have already resigned..."

Dean Zhu was jumping anxiously at the other end: "I haven't accepted it yet, why are you resigning! You go back to the hospital immediately! Immediately! Immediately!"

The person in front had already left the country, and the border inspector signaled him to step forward quickly so as not to delay others.Ding Muyan was immediately dumbfounded by the three dean Zhu's yelling, and it took him a long time to realize what the other party was saying.The people behind him were urging him, and he held up his mobile phone and his gaze was blank for a moment.

"I'm sorry, let me go, I'm sorry." Suddenly he reacted and walked back against the long line.