three years old

At the end of January, winter vacation.

The winter vacation of most colleges and universities in Beijing is more than half a month earlier than the senior year. In addition, his mother urged him, so Ning Xi bought a high-speed rail ticket and arrived at the station two hours earlier.

A box containing some changes of clothes, a few bags of specialty products, and three books.

This book was copied by him lying on his desk every day when he was free in Beijing. It was all the key points of his high school entrance examination summary. The emphatic sentences were drawn brightly with red pen. Ning Xi couldn't help it, she wanted to touch it with her fingertips.

This car drove very fast, leading him across mountains, rivers, lakes and seas, and vast fields, like a river returning to the south, rushing down from the north.

Xingcheng seems to have turned into this small boat, carrying him towards his hometown.

People who study abroad are always homesick.In the past, I probably didn’t think my hometown was so good, but once I left for a while, I began to miss the two-liang noodles sold at the corner of my house, the one-dollar scratch-off at the gate of junior and senior high schools, or the rush to buy it at the turn of summer and autumn. The ground is full of leaves.

The people there, the things there, urge the pace of growth, run to the end, and disappear again.

After almost ten hours, we finally arrived in Chengdu, and the whole carriage seemed to wake up.

It was the first time he came to Chengdu East Railway Station, probably because it was already ninety o'clock at the peak of the return journey, and there were a lot of people at the subway station. Luckily, Ning Xi was tall and had little luggage, so he was able to squeeze in.

This brat, Xingcheng, lied to him before that it wasn't cold, but it was obviously the dry winter, and the basin couldn't rain, and the wind blew fiercely into his neck, making it bone-chillingly dry.

After only passing one station by subway, Ning Xi felt that it was too slow, so she ran out of the subway station with her suitcase, took a taxi, and headed towards the community.

Returning home is like an arrow, one step and two steps, he just wants to be quicker.

After returning to the street he was familiar with, he didn't go home directly, but dragged his suitcase towards the direction of Shizhong. There was some noise from the small turning of the suitcase along the way. While rushing home, a few passers-by turned their heads to look at him, but Ning Xi didn't notice it at all.

He rushed to the school gate with all his heart.

Before reaching the canteen at the gate of the school, Ning Xi took aim at Xing Cheng, who was half a head taller than most of them, from the crowd.

My younger brother's stubble head was shaved again, and his summer tanned skin turned whiter. The zipper of the school uniform was half-zipped, perhaps because of hard training and he lost weight. His jaw line is sharp and sharp.

He carried a basketball bag on his back, inside was a Spalding, dark blue leather mixed with yellow, with the logo of the NBA Thunder printed on it.

Cheng Cheng turned around, flicked the ball, and accidentally hit the light pole next to him. He also "hissed" and said "It hurts" in a low voice.

He is a person who loves the ball like his life, if the Thunder's team logo is painted, he doesn't know how depressed he will be.

Xing Cheng took out a mobile phone from his pocket and glanced at it, then frowned and stuffed the mobile phone back.

Seeing his action, Ning Xi remembered that after he fell asleep in the car, he was in a hurry to get out of the car, and even on the way, he didn't have time to reply Xing Cheng's text message.

Before Ning Xi could speak, a short-haired girl walked around from one side and called out to Xing Cheng, "Xing Cheng!"

The girl was holding an ice cream in her hand on such a cold day, she was wrapped warmly in her school uniform, her cheeks were flushed, she followed Xing Cheng's side step by step, and Ning Xi couldn't hear what she said.

He thought she looked familiar, and after thinking about it for a while, he remembered that she was the girl who had a fight with Xingcheng and the others over supper on Yulin Road, a member of the school basketball cheerleading team.

Ning Xi's heart tightened, but he didn't think too much about it. He was about to go over and call Xing Cheng, but Xing Cheng was tall and had a wide field of vision, like a watchtower. Everyone was stunned.

My brother came back early?Or am I delusional?

Cheng Xiyu followed Xingcheng's gaze, overjoyed, and called him first, "Brother Xi!"

Xing Cheng ran over to drag the suitcase in his hand, he was still in a daze, isn't his brother still attending classes in Beijing?

Knowing that the two brothers are good, Cheng Xiyu didn't think about anything else, so he dragged Ning Xi by the arm and begged him: "Brother Xi, can you help me make an appointment with Ying and Chen?"

"Xiyu, I told you, he likes traditional ones, ladies' ones, and ones older than him..."

After finishing speaking, Xing Cheng stretched out his arms to grab Ning Xi's wrist, and directly pulled the person to his side, covering half of Ning Xi's face with his body, "If you like it, you can go ask him out, it's useless for you to ask my brother to come out to help, Ying and Chen only look at my brother, not you."

Ning Xi's mind turned quickly, she understood what it meant, and glared at him: "Don't make trouble for nothing."

Ying Yuchen and Xingcheng are both little devil kings in the world, thanks to him standing in the way, holding a scale between them, otherwise they would dare to enter the school team, go to the house on the first day and fight on the second day , must become a pair of natural enemies, and whoever can overcome will die.

The relationship is quite good, they are buddies, but Xing Cheng is jealous and can't get rid of it, so he can't avoid saying a few words occasionally.

Xing Cheng felt that he was not afraid of the slanting shadow, "I'm not wrong."

He stretched out his hand to ice Ning Xi's face, it didn't have much temperature, just about to speak, seeing that girl Cheng Xiyu was still standing here, it seemed that she didn't know how many watts of light were shining on her head.

Xing Cheng said: "Xi Yu, you go back first, I will make an appointment for you tomorrow."

One side supports the other side, and most of the girls here are aggressive and dare to do it. After hearing this, they almost didn’t jump up, and excitedly went to squeeze the hem of their clothes: "Jojoyo! You tell him! Tomorrow at four o’clock in the afternoon, Taikoo Li Paragon, I Wait for him!"

Cheng Xiyu happily walked away, Ning Xi glared at Xing Cheng: "He has an appointment with us tomorrow."

"Us?" Xing Cheng got a little pissed, and pinched Ning Xi's face, "Did you tell him in advance that you were back?"

Ning Xi was a little cold and lacked confidence. The place where she was pinched was hot, so she was forced to grin and say, "I have a surprise for you."

He especially misses the moment when he went downstairs to "get the courier" in Beijing last year. It was like a surprise from the sky. What fell all over the world was not snow, but clouds floating down to lead him and Xingcheng home. .

This surprise was indeed a surprise. At the school gate, Xing Cheng hugged Ning Xi and walked around, "You are the surprise of surprises!"

There was too much wind in his ears, Ning Xi didn't hear this sentence clearly, but buried his face in his clothes and hat, covered his face and scolded: "You are crazy!"

Although Xingcheng is tall and strong, but Ning Xi jumped up to about 1.8 meters anyway, and his hands softened after a few steps, and he started to come up with bad ideas: "Brother, I will carry you back, if you are embarrassed, just let me go." The hat is raised to cover your face, I don't want people to look at you more."

"It's on the street... slow down!"

Before Ning Xi could react, he was carried on his back by Xing Cheng. The young man's strong arms supported his body with his backhand. He quickly buried his face in the back of Xing Cheng's neck, only his eyes were exposed when he put on his coat and hat. , looking around with half-closed eyes, still in the same sleepy state, he just feels comfortable and enjoying, so he no longer cares about the people around him, just see it when he sees it.

He opened his mouth and bit Xing Cheng's neck, scolding him: "You are really crazy."

They temporarily stored their luggage in the canteen in front of the school. It was a windy winter night, and the way home was not long or short. Occasionally they met classmates on the road, and Xingcheng only said that someone had a fever.

The buddies looked surprised, the surroundings were pitch black, they couldn't tell that it was Ning Xi on their back, and they didn't expect it to be a man with an ambiguous smile, carrying a schoolbag and whistling, chasing after him, Brother Cheng Niu force!

"I've been shouting this slogan for three years, so I don't get tired of it."

Holding back his laughter, Xing Cheng whispered to Ning Xi: "In the past, when I played games, when I was too tired, they would call your name."

"Why haven't I heard of it?" Ning Xi insisted.

The corners of Xing Cheng's lips curled up uncontrollably, and he said, "Isn't it always when the person involved in the secret love is not around that they start booing?"

Ming Lian has done it too. At the time, Ren Mei was chasing him in class every day, and she always said that she would give a small report to Ning Xi. As if she had been put on a magic spell, she immediately sat upright, picked up her notebook, and wrote the words on the blackboard. The formula, of course, was fishing in the net for three days and basking in the sun for a hundred days, and then he devoted himself to love, which really affected his study.

Their homeroom teacher also educated you, in high school, you should either have a good relationship or take a good university entrance examination. If you don't learn, you don't have any skills, you don't have a serious look, what do you waste three years for?

Xingcheng feels lucky, but fortunately he didn't waste it, he fell in love, and he will definitely pass the university entrance exam.

Ning Xi just lay on his back like this, rare docile and obedient, didn't put on a straight face, didn't look coldly, just rubbed his face against his school uniform, and made another comment, Xing Cheng, where's your crab?

The crab on the back of the school uniform in junior high school means that you are domineering, so don’t draw it now?

"That's a scorpion, which means you. I'll emphasize it again," Xing Cheng gasped, "But anyway, I'm dating now. Can I just write your name?"

Ning Xi muttered: "Why don't you draw my face?"

"Side profile, front face, head up, even high..."

His mouth was tightly covered by Ning Xi, "You have to be ashamed!"

"It's all about you, why should I have face?" Xing Cheng retorted.

After Xingcheng digested the word "tide", he continued: "You look good in every way, which one do you want me to draw?"

Ning Xi lay on his back, wanting to die of joy, but said seriously: "Go and install an LED screen, 360-degree loop playback without dead ends."

Hearing his brother say this to amuse himself, Xing Cheng wished he could hug his brother into a ball and ravage him, he gritted his teeth and said, "Ann, I'm going to fuck well today!"

For the last part of the road, Xing Cheng was really tired, so he didn't persevere. He felt that his brother was going to slippery, so he reluctantly let it go. A wolf in the wind turned back to get his suitcase.

The two of them ran into the corridor almost in the dark, without even turning on the lights, they leaned against the crack of the door, and hurriedly took out the key from his schoolbag. This key was left for him by Ning Xi before he left, and he kept it with him all the time. On the body, I remembered, and occasionally went in and sat down.

He was in a hurry to insert the lock, and couldn't get it in a few times. Ning Xi couldn't stand it any longer. She snatched it and opened the door. She stretched out her hand to pinch him: "I've never seen you so horny."

Xing Cheng then squeezed in to take off his shoes, and finally reached a place where no one was around. He pressed Ning Xi's forehead and kissed him. After the kiss, he said nonchalantly, "What, my purpose of sending you home is very simple."

Last year, the scene where Xing Cheng slapped himself in this place was vivid, and Ning Xi couldn't help but ask, "Are you addicted to slapping yourself?"

Xing Cheng didn't take it seriously, "Would you like to try again to see if I'm ruthless..."

"Okay!" Ning Xi pushed him.

Immediately afterwards, Ning Xi leaned forward again, turned her face sideways, closed her eyes, squinted her eyes and said with a smile: "Kiss me."

The two went crazy in the room in the dark for a while, and Cheng Cheng took a coat from the closet and put it on Ning Xi, and went out holding hands to find a place to recharge the utility bills and buy some daily necessities at a chain supermarket outside the community. In addition, still carrying the two cans of soda, he wandered back home slowly.

On the first night when Ning Xi came back, he also knew that Xing Cheng's family knew about the two of them, and he was "ashamed" for him, so he was too embarrassed to keep Xing Cheng, so he had to use the excuse of being tired and wait for the two to clean up. It was a nice room, and after the sanitation was done, he urged Xing Cheng to go home.

This time at night, he slept comfortably. He was lying on the bed alone, closed his eyes, but his mind was full of running through the window, squatting beside his bed, undressing or putting on clothes, and even lying on the desk. The posture of writing on it is quite pleasing to the eye.

On the second day after returning, Ning Xi called her mother early in the morning. The aunt who connected the line over there said that she had to transfer to another hospital. Take a small three-wheeler, and you will be there for five yuan.

After one semester, Ning Xi's mother rarely called Ning Xi. Ning Xi would not answer the calls every week, and occasionally answered once or twice, saying "everything is fine" and "everything is fine" before hanging up.

That day Ning Xi stood by the window with her mobile phone for a long time before she sent a text message to Ying Yuchen, saying that she might not be able to make an appointment today and she was going to a hospital around the city because her mother was sick.

Ying and Chen said they wanted to go see together, and asked him if he would take Xing Cheng with him, Ning Xi only said that he was going to study, and saw Xing Cheng going out early in the morning with his schoolbag on his back, before dawn, with a box of milk in his hand , I don't have enough clothes, I guess I'll be frozen.

When the aunt called, she said that she was divorced. His stepdad, who drove a second-hand BMW, took his younger brother away. He probably went to a nearby satellite town. He didn't stay in the city. Ning Xi was completely stunned. He didn't Hearing the slightest rumor, although the monthly living expenses are not much, he still pays to the card as usual. No one mentioned the matter of getting sick to him, and he never thought of it.

Maybe it's because of the loud current from the receiver over there, Ning Xi struggled to listen, but the auntie held the phone and yelled for a while, as if she didn't think it was her sister at all: "You don't know your mother, cervical cancer? , I said I was not feeling well before, but when I went to check, it was in the middle and late stages, and there was no life!"

Ning Xi was speechless for an instant, so she could only ask bluntly, "Which hospital? I'll take a taxi."

The aunt seemed to be eating, the market over there was too noisy, and she was annoyed even holding the phone, but she couldn't help nagging at her nephew: "I'll send you the address on WeChat! Hey, Ning Xi, your family has a student from Peking University, you can't help it." Oh, your mother received so many red envelopes, and she didn't know how to use them for medical treatment? She said that she could only live for half a year, and there was no cure. She was disgusted by men, and said that her private life was indiscreet..."

"Stop talking," Ning Xi forcefully interrupted her difficult words, "I'll go over."

Ning Xi's understanding of "maternal love" in the past 21 years is too complicated.

He watched his mother remarry, divorced from his life, and then had his own family. Although the occasional care and greetings were very small and rare, he still grasped Ning Xi's sensitive nerves, and was often caught by her. When you encounter it, it's like an old wound, pouring alcohol or sprinkling salt on it will not be able to withstand this pain.

Ning Xi still remembers that when he was a child, he stood in front of his house holding a bowl of fruit shaved ice. Xiao Xingcheng rushed over with a car model, and then slowly backed away. , my mother said this cold stomach, don't eat too much!"

He was there stupidly, nodded, and still ate with his head buried.

This kind of food may not be good for a child's stomach, but Ning Xi just couldn't help but want to taste a few more mouthfuls, and this was bought for him by his mother.

Ning Xi's heart is too soft, and she is only soft for the people he cares about.

Just like the people he has been in contact with since he grew up, he is clear about "good for him" and "bad for him", but as soon as family affection is involved, the boundary becomes blurred.

He longed and dreaded it, and took on the responsibility at the same time.