three years old

Ning Xi was sitting in the classroom doing his homework, his mind was full of the contents of the books, how could he be in the mood to think about what was on his mobile phone, and now he was so absorbed in his studies that he forgot all about it.

He was about to open the information book to look at the geographic atlas, when the girl at the next table tapped on his desk with a pen: "Ning Xi!"

Ning Xi didn't raise her head, she finished writing the last few words, and then sat up straight, the girl said again: "This is the book handed over by the door at the back."

After finishing speaking, she put an exercise book in her hand on Ning Xi's desk. Ning Xi's fingertips rubbed the pages of the cover, and she recognized it immediately. Isn't this the notebook he gave Xing Cheng before?

He said "thank you" softly, and covered the palm of his hand to put it in the drawer, when he suddenly felt a note caught under the cover, he took it out and held it between his fingers, and slowly unfolded it in the drawer to read.

He stared at a crumpled piece of paper in his hand and blinked.

There is a small line of English above: iloveyou.

Ning Xi is smart, his brain turns quickly, and he suddenly remembered the sentence written on his mobile phone "English is only fifty, he should not even know iloveyou", it is not obvious that foreigners can listen to it Do not understand the level of English.

His younger brother definitely saw it, otherwise it would be impossible to hand over a note so hastily.

Ning Xi was still calm on the surface, quickly sat up straight, looked around, and caught a glimpse of a person standing by the window next to the corridor in the classroom, with familiar eyebrows and eyes, and the corners of his mouth curled up with a bit of anger There are only two words on the son's expression: proud.

Seeing Xing Cheng at this moment, Ning Xi felt as if he had been struck by lightning.

He looked away as if he was getting an electric shock, crumpled the note into a ball in a panic and stuffed it into the school uniform bag, his brows were tightly frowned, the eyes were still filled with ice that could not be melted, and only he knew that the one look just now had set him on fire. Duowang's heart is on fire.

Through the window, Xing Cheng pointed to Ning Xi, made a gesture of hooking his fingers, and then pointed to the men's bathroom at the end of the corridor.

The class was still doing self-study last night, and the teacher who was in charge of the class was grading papers on the podium, and Ning Xi stood up immediately.

As soon as the teacher looked up, Ning Xi said sincerely: "Teacher, I want to go to the bathroom."

The teachers who stayed in the evening self-study in the third year of high school were more relaxed. As long as they did not affect others, students in such top classes would not be under much control. The teacher nodded, and Ning Xi quietly went out through the back door.

Now that he was walking in the corridor, he didn't see a single shadow.

Probably in the bathroom.

Ning Xi put his hands in his pockets, walked in with a dull head, stared at the small circle of light at the door of the bathroom, his heart felt like a drum was beating.

He entered inside, sighing secretly in his heart that the cleaning work of the school is very good. There is hand sanitizer next to the sink. It is estimated that a cleaning lady came to clean it just now, and there is a scent of washing flowers.

It was class time now, Ning Xi saw that there was no one in the bathroom, and called "Xing Cheng" a few times, but no one responded.

Ning Xi was about to turn around and go back to the classroom, but stopped to think for a while, and felt that Xing Cheng should not be so bold as to walk him, so she went to open the door of the first cubicle and searched one by one.

After opening the fourth row of compartments, Ning Xi was suddenly pulled in by a strong force before she could see who was standing inside.

Immediately afterwards, Ning Xi was directly pressed against the door of the compartment, and someone hugged her back tightly. Ning Xi's nose was filled with the familiar scent of soap from this man, and she hugged him on the back subconsciously, letting him go He buried his face in his neck.

Ning Xi was a little dazed, staring blankly at the hair on the top of this person's head, and immediately felt who it was.

He was confined in such a small space, and his breathing was a little difficult. He moved his body and tried to stand up straight, but was hugged violently from the back of his waist. move."

Just about to indulge Cheng Cheng, he didn't expect this kid to be so fat that he opened his mouth and bit his neck, Ning Xi groaned in pain, turned his head to hide, his chin was pinched by Cheng Cheng and straightened back ...

Ning Xi frowned and scolded him in a low voice: "This is a school!"

Xing Cheng doesn't care about these things, he is determined to hug him today: "I don't care."

After reading Ning Xi's mobile phone memo, he asked the teacher for leave, took the notebook and went to the third year of high school, all he wanted to drag his brother to a place where no one was around, so he could give him a good hug How can he care about anything else?

Ning Xi pushed him away a little bit, he was really convinced, and he got here because he didn't have classes at night...

Children who are sixteen and seventy-seven are stupid, and they dare to do anything when they are crazy!

Before he could open his mouth, Xing Cheng lowered his head and squeezed his chin and blocked it. Ning Xi turned his head to hide, unable to catch his breath, bent his elbows to touch Xing Cheng's chest, and shouted at him: "Xing Cheng!"

As soon as he finished speaking, the door of the men's bathroom was pushed open.

Ning Xi held her breath for a moment.

The boy who came in was probably in his third year of high school. He hurried in to go to the toilet, with heavy footsteps. He picked a cubicle that could be opened and went in.

As soon as the compartment door was closed, Ning Xi didn't feel the vibration of the door behind her, and secretly heaved a sigh of relief.

Fortunately, they were not selected in this row, otherwise the bear who is walking now will be...

As soon as he relaxed, Xing Cheng hugged him tightly again, bit his neck, and kissed him as if he was chewing on something. Xing Cheng's head, let him run amok here, bit his lip and endured, not even daring to breathe out.

Ning Xi finds it fresh and exciting, but it's really inappropriate in school...

Besides, he was really afraid that Xingcheng would seriously ask him if he wanted to be together.

This problem has been a problem since he became sensible and realized that Xingcheng was interesting to him.

Ning Xi is 20 years old, he is no longer a child, he has to be responsible for his words and deeds, and he must take up that responsibility before he can give it a go.

Age is always a hurdle.

He dared to say that at his current age, he didn't even know what he really wanted.

After the boy in the toilet on the opposite side closed the door and left the bathroom again, Ning Xi was relieved, her chest heaved continuously, and she stared at Xing Cheng with wide eyes.

He didn't even need to look, there must have been a crimson hickey on the collarbone.

Ning Xi pulled out his arms and pulled up the collar of the school uniform to cover it. Before his shortness of breath subsided, he leaned back on his elbows to support Xing Cheng, raised his eyes and said, "It's time to go to class."

Cheng Cheng didn't quite understand what he meant, he thought he was being too reckless here, so his throat choked, and he lowered his head to kiss his brother's ear: "I was wrong, brother, you are my partner ..."

Ning Xi turned her face away again, bit her lower lip and said, "You don't have to do this."

Seeing that his brother's expression became cold again, Xing Cheng was shocked as if someone had poured a basin of cold water on him, and he frowned and said, "What's wrong with me?"

"Let's talk after school."

Ning Xi gently pushed him away, stood up straight, tried to calm down her emotions, and repeated through gritted teeth: "We'll talk after school."

When Xing Cheng opened the door of the compartment and walked out with a livid face, Ning Xi stood in the compartment, not knowing how he watched him go out.

What he said just now, even he himself didn't understand whether he blurted it out accidentally, or deliberately picked the softest part of the ride and stabbed it.

He was the one who took the kiss first, and Ning Xi never denied it.

He doesn't regret it either.

After all, in this world, no matter who it is, it is too precious for someone who can connect with you to kiss once seriously.

As soon as the evening self-study was over, Ning Xi stood at the door of the classroom with his bag on his back for a long time, but he didn't see Xing Cheng waiting for him. He ran and searched the corridors and rooftops, but he couldn't find anyone.

Ning Xi sighed, rubbing his hands, originally wanted to take out his mobile phone to call Xing Cheng, but suddenly remembered that his mobile phone was still with him, so he gave up.

With a bag on his back and a thin coat outside, the cold wind was blowing in his face, and he walked along the path home alone under the shade of trees that blocked the lights of the street lamps.

For the first time, Ning Xi felt that walking on this road was so cold.

He didn't know that at that time, the cat was ten meters away from Xingcheng, wearing short sleeves in the winter night, and followed him all the way.

As for why he wears short sleeves, his skin is itchy and he wants to torture himself.

As soon as he saw Ning Xi, he became dizzy, and the more the wind blew, the more awake he became.

In the second year of high school, self-study in the evening was released earlier, and Xingcheng still had two bowls of seafood porridge in his hand, and a plate of salty boiled white, thinking that he would go back to his brother's house later, and the two of them would sit down and have a good talk.

But now he is staring at Ning Xi's lonely back, and he doesn't even have the courage to rush up and hug him tightly.

Just like this, he followed all the way to the courtyard of the community, entered the unit building, finally couldn't hold back, and didn't care if the porridge would be spilled, he went up to block his brother's door after chasing him, stuck half of his body in the doorway, and put his hand Lifting the porridge he was carrying, his eyes were full of hope.

Seeing Xing Cheng wearing short sleeves, his face flushed from the cold, leaning against the door panting for breath, Ning Xi's heart softened instantly.

The softness melted into a puddle, which was not worthy of supporting his willpower.

Ning Xi was really helpless, sighed, and said lightly: "Come in."

Walking into the room, he took the bag of food and put it on the small table he bought earlier, trying to make himself happy.

This is where he and Ning Xi kissed for the first time.

Years later, no matter how many residences he changed, or how luxuriously and exquisitely decorated the living room was, in his heart, it was far inferior to this small, dark living room without a chandelier.

Here, like a world, surrounded his youth and dreams.

Xing Cheng spent the whole evening self-study, thinking for a long time, how to confess to his brother, how to be together well, what to do after being together, how to take good care of his brother every day, how to be sticky together without delaying his brother study.

The small desk lamp in the living room was on, Ning Xi took the mobile phone handed over by Xing Cheng with a complicated expression, and deleted the memo in front of Xing Cheng.

He took a deep breath.

Xing Cheng almost knocked over the porridge bowl in his hand.

The two sat opposite each other, not talking.

Ning Xi put his left hand behind his back, tightly strangled the flesh on his thigh, flustered with pain, endured it for a long time, and finally choked out a sentence: "I have to tell you clearly, Xing Cheng."

Xing Cheng didn't answer, he took a spoon to stir the porridge in the bowl, and listened patiently to Ning Xi's speech.

Ning Xi's left hand became stronger again, and it is estimated that there is a deep red mark now: "It's one thing to like it or not, but it's another thing to be together or not."

After a little reaction, Xingcheng let out a "huh".

Ning Xi felt that her thigh was going to be pinched and numb by herself, and said, "I..."

The sound was so painful that it changed its tone, the stalk was stuck in the throat and could not be said, Xing Cheng raised his head in shock, Ning Xi adjusted his emotions, and immediately continued: "My heart does not mean that I must be with you."

What he didn't expect was that Xing Cheng stood up as soon as he said these words.

Xing Cheng's complexion was particularly bad, and there was almost a hint of hostility in his brows and eyes.

Ning Xi seldom saw this kind of energy on his face, except for fighting, Xing Cheng, a small explosive bag in Qingyang District, was rarely so angry in front of his brother.

Ning Xi didn't care if he listened or not: "Xing Cheng, you are only 17 years old, and there are still many uncertainties."

Xing Cheng turned around, went directly to get the unworn school uniform jacket on the shoe cabinet, put it on his body, and then went to pick up the schoolbag on the side of the shoe cabinet and carried it on his back.

Knowing that he was going home, taking advantage of the dim lights in the living room, Ning Xi spoke bluntly.

"Don't rush yourself in."

He doesn't care, the family is incomplete, and the elders don't care much about him.

He walks alone in the world, facing the world.

But in Xingcheng's family, Xingcheng is hope.

If you are with Xingcheng, it will be difficult for Xingcheng's parents to accept it for many years.

If I and Cheng Cheng are not together, it is just the pain of the two of them in the past few years.

At that time, Ning Xi hadn't realized the love that had sprouted between the two when they were young...

That is, the love of my life.

As he walked away, he touched the cold paper bowl with the back of his hand, and poured the untouched seafood porridge and salty boiled white on the small table into a plastic bag, and was about to take it out and throw it away.

Putting aside the plastic bag containing the garbage, Xing Cheng followed the light to see his brother.

Sitting there quietly, expressionless, looking gentle and harmless, but said the most hurtful words in the world.

This is what Ning Xi is like. Everything he says is a double-edged sword. If he stabs someone else, the other end will definitely kill him bloody.

It was like this when I was a child, the adults in the building came to the yard with sugar bags to distribute candies to the children, and Xiao Ningxi would always sit by himself, silent, and when asked if he wanted it, he just shook his head and nodded again.

Want to reach out, but dare not touch.

Carrying his schoolbag, and wearing a blue school uniform on his shoulders, Xingcheng knelt down, gently wiped Ning Xi's face with the palm of his hand, and slid his fingertips down his chin until Ning Xi was kissed by himself during the self-study that night. scarred collarbone.

Take his hand again.

Xing Cheng bowed his head, half kneeled, and imprinted a pious kiss on the back of Ning Xi's hand.

Ning Xi was already dead, and continued: "You are with me, and you will always be the first."

After saying this, Ning Xi lowered his head slightly, and the words he said seemed out of his control: "I can give you whatever you want."

He stared blankly at Xing Cheng slowly getting up, walked to the door, turned his face in the dark, hoarse, smiled, and said, "I don't need it."

Whether it was a sneer or something, Ning Xi couldn't tell.

When the door was about to be closed, Ning Xi sat alone in the living room, listening to the sound of walking, as if desperately trying to suppress something, she said something in a low voice.

"Do you know that with me, you will always be the only one?"