three years old

As soon as Xing Cheng said this, Ning Xi felt like he was going to explode.

On the entire huge basketball court, there were only the two of them, in the darkness avoiding the headlights, looking at each other and facing each other...

Even the words that he opened his mouth were out of tune.

first love.

These two words seem to have never had anything to do with Ning Xi, and I never thought that this word would be used by Xing Cheng to describe each other.

After Cheng became sensible by himself, Ning Xi never thought about his feelings for Cheng, and even naturally, he was so tempted.

He is a rational person. In his life plan, if there must be a ranking, it must be career first, then family, and finally love.

But if the word love is replaced by "walking", Ning Xi will want to become a person controlled by sensibility.

But he can't.

Cheng Cheng is the person he loves the most in this world, but it doesn't mean that he should take it for granted and enjoy the good that Cheng Cheng has done to him.

He should have the most perfect life, an excellent degree, a happy family, and a bright and flat future in his journey.

Instead of choosing to be with him now, worrying about an empty living room without sofas, tables and electrical appliances in a simple room of a hundred square meters.

Now, with his back against the cold wall and his front pressed against him, the warm and powerful chest of the other party made Ning Xi fascinated, and suddenly remembered the warm handbag in the bedroom.

It's so hot to hold in my arms, hold it a little tighter, hold it for a while, and it will slowly cool down...

A hand warmer needs to be hot, so it must have a charging cable, but Ning Xi is not.

Facing Xing Cheng who had grown into a young man before him, Ning Xi couldn't find any reason to refuse, let alone what to say to minimize the damage to Xing Cheng.

Obviously he was passing the scissors to stab him, but the sharpest end was aimed at himself.

Xing Cheng put his hands next to Ning Xi's ears, looking at him through the light...

Ning Xi's silence caused the eagerness in Xing Cheng's eyes to fade away, and for a while, the strength to support was almost exhausted.

Only then did he realize that the two of them happened to be under the wall of "forever" that had always been in his heart.

I have thought about standing with his brother under this wall ten thousand times, but I never thought it would be in this way.

Xing Cheng sorted out his emotions, stepped back a little, and said seriously: "Brother, I think it's not that you've been unkind to me..."

Ning Xi was shocked all over, and did not give Xing Cheng a chance to continue talking, and the words that blurted out were tinged with thorns, and quickly interrupted him: "I'm in my early twenties, and I don't have time to talk to you about feelings."

Xing Cheng is indeed obedient and considerate, but this wildness has been trained to be docile for too long, and the wolf cub character in his bones was completely aroused by his brother's words. : "You are only one level older than me!"

Ning Xi didn't dare to look at him, and said in a low voice, "I'm three years older than you, Xing Cheng, I'm going to take the college entrance examination next year, and you're going to be in the third year of high school too."

Xing Cheng couldn't hold back his words at all: "I don't care if I'm in my senior year or not..."

"I care."

Stretching out his arm to block him, there was a little space around Xing Cheng, Ning Xi was just about to leave, but Xing Cheng grabbed his shoulder and stopped his movement: "Brother, I won't force you to stay with me. "

Xing Cheng himself could feel that when he said this, his heart was bleeding.

This sentence is too false.

Those who are unrequitedly in love don’t have to be together, as long as you are good to me, this kind of words are too fake, holding a knife to dig an inch into the heart, who doesn’t desire to be with the person they like?

Walking is not a saint.

But the other party was Ning Xi, even if he wished he could press his brother against the wall and kiss him forcefully, he would have to grit his teeth and bear it, and go home and go crazy hugging the quilt.

Xing Cheng endured and endured, and continued to ask under his voice: "Just tell me, I am in your heart, am I a special person?"

As soon as he finished speaking, Ning Xi suddenly turned his head and stared at him.

Ning Xi's eyes were a little red, and her figure was a little unsteady. She just stood there in the cold wind, like the withered leaves on the towering tree beside the playground.

It looked like it hadn't fallen, but it was like standing on the edge of a cliff, only one step away from going down.

More than special.

But strictly speaking, it is not special.

Because there is only one person in Ning Xi's world.

The one who can really get into his heart, who can touch his emotions, who can talk to him a lot every day, who can care about him at any time, and who can make him feel his existence at the first sight, is only Xing Cheng.

But Xingcheng is different. There are many people in Xingcheng's world. He has no shortage of friends or brothers, and his family is happy.

He was never short of love.

Ning Xi was short, but he dared not admit it himself, and he was never willing to face it.

Now he is faced with questioning his own progress, and he can't even say "yes", let alone nod his head.

Just looking at Xing Cheng, his eyes gradually dimmed.

Ning Xi took a deep breath, and pulled up the zipper of her clothes, so that she didn't feel any pain when her neck was pinched.

The air that entered the throat became biting, stuck in the throat, like a thorn that could not be swallowed.

Ning Xi became ruthless this time, and turned to leave while grabbing the collar.

Cheng Cheng stood where he was and didn't reach out to grab him.

He felt that his brother was like a fairy coming down to earth at this moment, seeing through the world of mortals, if he was so reckless to grab him back, there would be no need for this hypocritical plastic brotherhood.

He just stood there, watching his brother walk out step by step. Under the light, the figure was elongated, so long that he wanted to chase after him...

His brother's shadow dragged on longer and further away, and then slowly, slowly...

stopped.

Xing Cheng suddenly raised his head.

Ning Xi didn't leave.

He watched Ning Xi turn around, facing him, with his hands in his school uniform pockets, his chin raised slightly, it was too far away, and Cheng Cheng couldn't see the emotion in his eyes clearly.

Cheng Cheng's heart was beating wildly, and he ran out of the circle of darkness almost like galloping.

Ning Xi turned around.

back.

He thought about countless ways how to approach his brother quietly without disturbing him in the future, and secretly began to plan the next step. He didn't expect that Ning Xi would turn around after walking about ten meters away.

Xing Cheng ran up to Ning Xi and stood still, panting heavily, with his hands on his knees, he was stunned for a while, only to realize that his brother really didn't leave...

hold him.

These two words filled Xing Cheng's mind.

Given the height difference, Xing Cheng easily hugged Ning Xi into his arms and hugged him very tightly. The strength was comparable to his strength in rebounding every time he was on the court.

Ning Xi was about to be smothered to death in Xing Cheng's arms, no matter how much she pushed, she couldn't push it away, so she just...

Just let him hold it.

On the playground at night, on the basketball court, the headlights illuminated the whole court, there was no sound of basketball around, but there were the gasps of two boys mingling with each other.

One because of heartbeat, one because of ecstasy.

Being hugged for a long time, Xing Cheng was trembling all over, his lips caressed Ning Xi's ear inadvertently, he wanted to say a lot of words, but he couldn't say a word...

Ning Xi was also panting, this feeling of his heart being instantly filled, he had really expected it for too long, even if he was doing something wrong that he understood, even from this moment on, he had already begun to be unable to forgive such a of myself.

Xing Cheng hugged him desperately, his mind was in chaos, he had no time to think about what his brother meant by stopping, he only knew that he wanted to hug him, wanted to hug him tightly.

"Xingcheng, I'll wait for you."

Ning Xi smiled and continued, "You have to follow me."

He originally thought that he could do everything by himself, eat, sleep, study and read, and even smoke and drink alone in the living room...

But ever since Xing Cheng appeared, he knew that the wine he drank and the cigarettes he smoked were all the sea water filling his heart and the sea fog rising from the water surface.

Traveling is a ship on the sea, crossing the sea fog and waves, just to catch a fish hidden in the deep sea.

Ning Xi was that fish.

Even if you go ashore, you won't live for long.

……

Ever since Ning Xi asked Xing Cheng to follow him on the playground that day, Xing Cheng felt that his world had changed.

Adolescent boys are full of enthusiasm, all boiling in their hearts, wishing to give all the good things in the world to the person they like.

Not to mention Xing Cheng's character, if everyone's name had to be hung on his chest, there would definitely be four words on his chest, Ning Xi's people.

Although this title has not been verified by the real master, Xing Cheng has subconsciously felt that his brother must like him.

Even if you don't like it, it's a little indulgent.

Connivance, but also with helplessness.

Otherwise, with Ning Xi's character, how could he have said so much to him that day, how could he have turned around, and it would have been good if he hadn't kicked him away.

Xing Cheng grasped this point and desperately drilled into the gap.

On Friday afternoon, at the Youth Palace in Jinniu District, another foreign company had booked a venue. A group of bosses played together. Several text messages were sent to Xingcheng, saying that he was asked to play. One session was 200 yuan. A total of 800 yuan.

Xing Cheng didn't say anything else, and when there was no class, he climbed over the wall and left school with his jersey in his arms, and ran to Ximen'er on the bus.

I sat on the way for more than an hour, staggering, almost falling asleep while traveling.

The bus passed a junior high school. At this point, Xingcheng also saw many parents coming to pick up the students home, and he couldn't help but sigh in his heart.

There are so many perfect families in this world, why is God so stingy, it's fine not to give Ning Xi fatherly love, even motherly love is not hesitant to give him.

When he was a child, he was upstairs, and he often heard Ning Xi's mother lose her temper and smash things. In the end, Xiao Xingcheng felt that his brother would be thrown out the next second?

After listening to the quarrel, Xiao Xingcheng lay down by the window and listened to the movement from the window downstairs. He was about to fall, so he wanted to hear if his brother had ever cried.

No, not once.

Xiao Xingcheng threw the rope down, and all the candies and snacks were hung up, his hands were sore, and no one took them after hanging for half an hour.

He guessed, his brother didn't even glance at it.

Only Xiao Ningxi knew that every time the brother follower upstairs hung up something delicious and interesting, he himself sat on the edge of the bed and stared blankly.

As long as the rope hangs, he can stare at it for as long as possible.

Occasionally, there was a scolding from Xing Cheng's mother upstairs: "Xing Cheng! Don't die! You can't walk if there are stairs! If you have to open the window, I think you will smash your brother's window sill if you fall!"

As soon as she heard her aunt shouting, Xiao Ningxi became very nervous. She ran to the window and looked up. She was afraid of his younger brother upstairs, so she looked for him through the window.

Fortunately, after so many years, Xingcheng has never fallen off.

The game on Friday afternoon was definitely the most embarrassing game in Zhang Cheng's amateur career. He was so embarrassing that he had to keep feeding the bosses to get assists.

It's really technical work.

But it was his job too, and he had to do it.

Walking on the basketball court has always been a well-known killer weapon, but now it is really for the sake of money, and it has temporarily restrained its edge.

He ran with the ball on the court, desperately grabbed the rebound for the next fast break, and dunked it in his palm after grabbing it, looking at the high basket...

Sometimes, when playing outside, he would feel that he has grown a little bit?

Brother, he is only three years old.

Wait, wait for me, or, if I run faster, I will catch up.

Xing Cheng raised his head, looking at the blue sky above, he almost hated those three years of spring, summer, autumn and winter.

Three years, 36 months, how many days can't be counted, so he was separated from his brother.

It seems that life is impermanent, and the road to growth is long, and he will never be able to catch up.

The 800 yuan I earned that day was settled on the spot. As soon as I got it, I had planned for a long time, and when I got hot-headed, I took the subway to Taikoo Li.

He stood by the shelf and picked for a long time, and picked out a pair of more than 900 basketball shoes for Ning Xi.

Too expensive and not enough money at the moment, so buy a pair of shoes first, and wish his brother a big hit in the second grade in the school sports meeting, it's okay.

Xingcheng didn't care too much about his single-minded dedication to the enemy, looking at the pair of black and white sneakers, the more he looked, the happier he was.

In his mind, Ning Xi would definitely not accept anything above [-], but if it was less than [-], it would be considered cheaper, as a birthday present, wouldn't it be too much?

Besides, he earned the money by his own ability, so he was willing to spend money for his brother.

It's the end of October, and the beginning of November is Ning Xi's birthday, which is Monday.

It's raining today, the bell rang after school, and I don't have the habit of carrying an umbrella when I drive. I carry a sports brand pocket and run to the third year of high school. The water in my head flows down the back of my neck.

The classroom was empty, and Ning Xi had just finished the questions, so she was slower to pack things up. She put the stationery bag into the school bag, shook the ashes from the dictionary and put it in, and when she looked up, she saw Xing Cheng Tall, standing at the back door of the classroom, carrying a bag behind his back, looking at himself with raised eyebrows.

And a whistle was blown.

Ning Xi was speechless, almost rolled her eyes, coughed, and continued to tidy up her notebook.

He hadn't finished this yet, Xing Cheng couldn't stand anymore, he ran to Ning Xi with his bag, and sat him down: "Brother, it's your birthday today, I remember..."

Ning Xi glanced at the bag in his hand, feeling a little bad, frowned and asked, "Did you buy something for me?"

Xing Cheng ignored him, and stretched out his hand to grab his ankle, which made Ning Xi slam her back, blushing, "Don't mess with me..."

With strong arms, Xing Cheng grabbed him and was about to take off his shoes, but Ning Xi kicked him directly: "There are monitoring!"

Xing Cheng was a bit of a headache from being monitored. If it wasn't for what happened before, he would have taken Ning Xi's shoes off today!

Now he had no choice but to stand up, take out the pair of basketball shoes from the bag and put them on the ground, and said seriously: "Then you put them on yourself."

Ning Xi didn't even look at the shoes, and asked him directly, "Where did you get the money?"

Hearing this, Xing Cheng straightened his back: "I earned it myself."

Ning Xi thought for a while, and Xing Cheng was indeed not the one who would squander the family's money. With half-belief, with a cold face, he stood up and continued to collect his schoolbags.

Now Cheng Cheng was a little angry, squatting down and grabbing his brother's ankle again, Ning Xi was startled and cruel, and said: "Xing Cheng, I can't accept such expensive things."

Xingcheng became more courageous, and the hooligans also came up: "You don't wear it today, I will kiss you here, do you believe it or not?"

If it was in the past, Ning Xi would definitely beat him up first, then slap Xing Cheng's mouth for talking nonsense, put his schoolbag on his back, and leave without looking back.

But it is different now.

He can't do anything to disappoint Xing Cheng.

Ning Xi held back his anger, his heart was sour and sweet, he slowly squatted down, threw his schoolbag to Xing Cheng, and put on those basketball shoes.

That day, Xingcheng stood in his brother's classroom with his brother's schoolbag in his arms, watching his brother put on the basketball shoes he bought, as if he was watching his wife in a wedding dress.

Too beautiful.

Ning Xi tied up her shoelaces, grabbed her schoolbag and put it on her back. Holding an umbrella and a pocket containing old shoes, she followed a horse behind her buttocks, heading all the way down the teaching building.

When he reached the entrance of the teaching building, Xing Cheng took the umbrella from Ning Xi's hand and opened it, and there was nothing wrong with what he said: "Brother, I'm taller than you, I'll hold the umbrella."

Ning Xi was puzzled, this is not much higher.

Walking is very powerful, one centimeter tall is also high, standing upright, I have to cover you.

When I was a child, wasn't I also raised by you?

Xing Cheng walked all the way, and made Ning Xi laugh several times. Every time Xing Cheng lowered his head and looked over with a smile, Ning Xi immediately scolded him with a straight face: "Look at the road."

The two of them were holding an umbrella, and the rain was pouring down, hitting the surface of the umbrella one after another...

In Ning Xi's ears, it was magnified countless times.

Xing Cheng said with a smile: "When you were young, you held a small lotus-leaf umbrella and put it in front of me, and the water splashed and swung me all over me. I will remember you in this life."

Ning Xi snorted coldly: "He holds a grudge."

Xing Cheng originally wanted to say something, but seeing that he had reached the edge of the road, and the road ahead had to go down a step, the water on the road surface was already a little deep.

If you step on it, it is estimated that the newly bought sneakers will be scrapped today.

There was no one on the side of the road at the moment, the sky had gradually darkened, a few street lights were on, and under the shade of the trees, even the license plate number in front was hard to see clearly.

Ning Xi's hand was suddenly stuffed into the handle of the umbrella, and Xing Cheng took off his coat and put it on him, hanging his schoolbag in front of him.

He took Ning Xi's hand, walked around in front of him, exerted all his strength, and forced his brother to his back.

With both feet in the air, his whole body was carried on his back by Xing Cheng!

Ning Xi was dumbfounded.

Xing Cheng was so strong that he couldn't move it at all, Ning Xi came out with one free hand and pulled his ear and shouted: "You fucking..."

"Brother, are you still swearing?"

Xing Cheng exerted more strength to prevent Ning Xi from slipping off his back, afraid that he would flop, and reminded him: "Hold my neck tightly, if the water here has passed, I will let you down."

Ning Xi fell silent, and hugged Xing Cheng's neck tightly.

As an older brother, he just buried his face in the back of his younger brother's neck.

When Cheng Cheng stepped into the stagnant water, his socks felt soaked.

It's really fucking cold, and my heart is soaring.

While stepping on the water, Cheng Cheng said, "It's your birthday today, wear the shoes I bought for you, don't let them get dirty..."

He walked through stagnant water, and before he could stand still, he suddenly felt something warm touch the back of his neck!

The words "I'fuck" exploded in Xing Cheng's mind, his feet almost went limp, and he knelt down in the water.

He wasn't sure what it was, and didn't dare to think about it.

So soft.

The instigator on the back, Ning Xi, seemed to be okay, and he didn't feel that his movements were particularly obvious. He just sniffed and said in a muffled voice, "Okay."

That evening, for the first time, under the streetlight near home, carrying Ning Xi on his back...

Feel the soft temperature of his brother's whole body.

Ning Xi's umbrella held up very well, and he covered his head with all his attention, but his own back was wet a lot.

The running shoes are soaked.

After passing the stagnant water, he didn't put his brother down immediately.

Xing Cheng stared blankly at his drenched toes and the ripples around his feet as the raindrops fell.

He is alone, and now he bears the weight of two people.

Xing Cheng suddenly felt a little grateful for the rain.

Make it bigger.