No.70 days

Shao Wu stared at him blankly for a few seconds before he was sure that it was Yang Shuyi.

Sister Shan was obviously startled, and stood up abruptly: "Yang Shuyi—why are you here?"

Yang Shuyi walked into the ward and stood a few steps away from the bed.

"I'm here to see him," he said, "Master, can we have a private chat?"

"You..." Sister Shan turned her head to look at Shao Wu, meaning to ask him if he would like to.In fact, Shao Wu's brain was still blank at this time, but his body responded first, and he nodded at Sister Shan.

Sister Shan got up, still a little hesitant: "Call me immediately if you need anything, you know?"

"it is good……"

"You don't have to worry about the school, I will contact you if there is a situation."

"Okay... thanks."

It wasn't until Sister Shan's footsteps disappeared in the corridor that Shao Wu finally realized that Yang Shuyi had come.

He was dark and thin, and the hair on his forehead was wet with sweat.He took a few steps forward and stood beside the bed, as long as Shao Wu stretched out his hand, he could touch him.

Did he rush back from Aba?Shao Wu smelled a dusty smell, some leather smell, some gasoline smell, some cold plateau air, he was even wearing an assault jacket, the fabric was smooth and cold, making his whole body line sharpen up.

Shao Wu thought for a while and asked, "Did you hear that just now?"

Yang Shuyi didn't answer, but bent down with his hands on his knees, his face suddenly approached Shao Wu's.

Maybe it was because of the tan, but his eyes were brighter than ever.

Shao Wu and him looked at each other in a daze, and two seconds later Yang Shuyi suddenly burst into tears, and he actually cried.

Shao Wu: "You—"

Yang Shuyi turned around quickly, wiped away his tears with his back to Shao Wu, then turned back and asked, "How many stitches?"

"do not know."

"Then I'll ask the doctor—"

"Hey," Shao Wu could only say, "Seven needles."

"Can I see it?"

"Wrapped in gauze, I can't see... It's nothing, I just shaved a piece of hair."

Yang Shuyi knelt on the hospital bed with one knee, bent over and lightly touched Shao Wu's shoulder, and looked at the wound on the back of Shao Wu's head.However, a thick piece of cotton gauze was placed on the wound, and two bandages were wrapped around it, so it was true that nothing could be seen.

Yang Shuyi asked in a low voice: "Does it hurt now?"

Shao Wu thought that other people would come to see it anyway, so he simply told the truth: "It hurts like hell, the painkiller has worn off."

Yang Shuyi didn't speak.

"Do you have a cigarette," Shao Wu said, "give me one."

"This is the hospital..."

"Oh, I forgot." The hospital is non-smoking.

Yang Shuyi let go of his hands, retracted his legs, and stood by the bed.

Shao Wu asked him again: "Did you hear what you just said?"

"Ah."

"So you already knew... Thinking about it this way, you have hinted at me a few times, right?" Shao Wu was lying, he was standing, and from Shao Wu's angle, he could just see the silver buttons on his jeans, " Before the college entrance examination, you told me that you would not go to Beijing to go to school, and that night I went to Southwest University to find you, and you said you were not in the mood for a relationship...but then you were with Zou Xin again. You have given me many hints ,I did not get it."

"Shao Wu..."

"Of course it's not your fault, you're annoyed by me too, right? You can't refuse directly, because I'm a crush," Shao Wu said on his own, "It would be nice if we both explained it earlier. , I confessed earlier, or you rejected me earlier... There is no need to delay until now."

"Shao Wu, do you hate me very much?"

"No, I don't hate you, but I just... just, how should I put it," Shao Wu was still staring at the button, "I'm a little sad, not because of you, but because of myself. I'm dreaming, I often fantasize that you can accept me, you suddenly don't like girls, you are with me...it turns out that when I was dreaming, in fact, I have been rejected by you, kind...kinda The feeling of wasting time."

Yang Shuyi said, "I'm sorry."

"Don't apologize, didn't you hear what I said to Sister Shan just now?" Shao Wu closed his eyes and paused, "I didn't do this for you now, it's because I couldn't live with you before, in high school. "

"It's for me in high school."

"Ah."

Shao Wu thought, I am deceiving myself and others again.

Whether he was facing Sister Shan or Yang Shuyi, he could justify himself with the phrase "for the sake of the former Yang Shuyi", but only when facing himself did he know that he was lying.How can there be any "before" and "now"?Yang Shuyi has always been Yang Shuyi, and he has always loved him during the years that have flowed slowly like clouds and water.He even clearly remembered how angry he was when Gao Shenguo mentioned "9 yuan". He thought that 9 yuan was enough for Yang Shuyi to go to graduate school - at that moment he knew that he did all this for Yang Shuyi, for the former him , also for him now.How could he love someone so much?Fan Pengfei bribed the teacher with 9 yuan, which had nothing to do with Yang Shuyi, but he felt unreasonably that it was unfair that people who should study could not continue to study.For the sake of Yang Shuyi, he is willing to fight against this pointless "unfairness".

"So, you already," Yang Shuyi leaned over, looking straight into Shao Wu's eyes, "you don't like me anymore, do you?"

"It's not that I don't like you anymore," Shao Wu said, "It's because I gave up hope."

"...you gave up?"

"Yes, I give up."

Yang Shuyi said again: "I'm sorry."

Shao Wu also repeated: "You don't need to apologize to me."

"I'm not apologizing for what you did."

"Why then?"

"Because..." His voice trembled a little, "Because I didn't like you before."

In an instant, Shao Wu's voice trembled: "What about now, Yang Shuyi, what about now?"

Yang Shuyi didn't answer, but bowed his head and kissed Shao Wu.

His dusty smell enveloped Shao Wu's body, he kissed very lightly, just rubbing against Shao Wu's lips with his dry lips, Shao Wu grabbed the collar of his jacket, and his breathing became short of breath.In a trance, Shao Wu felt that they were in the wilderness, with the smell of high mountains, forests, and the rolling Minjiang River. Yang Shuyi was like a strong wind. He knew the direction of the wind, but he could never grasp it—until this moment. For a moment he caught the wind.

Yang Shuyi got up slightly, and his breathing was a little anxious.

For a moment, the two looked at each other without speaking.

In the end, Yang Shuyi reached out and touched Shao Wu's hair: "There's a lot of blood."

"It flowed before the needles were stitched, and it got on my hair," Shao Wu said, "It hasn't been washed yet."

"Let me wipe it for you."

"it is good."

Shao Wu stood up, stepping on the disposable slippers issued by the hospital, and slowly stood up.Yang Shuyi asked nervously, "Can I go?"

"Can go."

But Yang Shuyi still took off his jacket and reached out to support Shao Wu's waist.

The single ward has its own bathroom, which is very clean, but also very small.Two men walked into the bathroom, which immediately seemed crowded.Yang Shuyi moved a chair, asked Shao Wu to sit facing him, and said, "Wait for me."

He walked out of the ward quickly, and Shao Wu sat on the chair and waited without saying a word.When the silent count reached 522, Yang Shuyi opened the door and came in, holding a newly bought basin and towel.

He walked into the bathroom, turned on the hot water, tried it with his hand, then brought a basin and took half of it.

Soak the snow-white towel and wring it dry.When he twisted the towel, Shao Wu saw the bulging muscle lines on his forearm, slender and neat, the same as what he saw seven years ago when he sneaked a glimpse of him playing games in an Internet cafe.

Yang Shuyi folded the towel a few times and said softly, "Tell me if it hurts."

"Ah."

Shao Wu closed his eyes, feeling the warmth from the towel.Yang Shuyi gently pinched a strand of his hair and rubbed it slowly with a towel.Shao Wu gradually felt a little hot on his face, as if the strand of hair he rubbed also felt tactile.

After rinsing the towel several times, the water in the basin became cloudy. Yang Shuyi poured out the water and took another half basin.This time he unfolded the towel, pressed it with his fingers, and gently wiped it on the scalp away from the wound.It took only a moment for Shao Wu to react, and the unbearable itching went from the scalp to the lower abdomen.

Shao Wu didn't know how he could hold back, when Yang Shuyi was changing the third basin of water, he quickly glanced in the mirror, only to see that his entire face, ears and neck, were completely red.

He knew that Yang Shuyi must have seen his embarrassed appearance.

His body is like a string voluntarily sent to Yang Shuyi's hand, as long as Yang Shuyi plucks it casually, continuous vibrato will immediately come out of his body.What's more, what's more, now--

"Shao Wu," Yang Shuyi finally put down the towel, he stood, and the voice came from above Shao Wu's head, "I'm selfish."

"..."

"I should have rejected you earlier, but I didn't, because of you..." He stretched out his hand, and gently held Shao Wu's face, his palm was warm, "Because you are the only one in this world, apart from my mother-in-law and my father." Besides, the best person to me."

"It's me who is selfish... When I feel the most inferior, look down on myself, and feel like a jerk, you are the only one who treats me well. I always remember the day I came back from Wenchuan—you know, Wenchuan was a hell after the earthquake Every night, people are crying, and people are calling where the doctor is. I saw many people were buried in the collapsed building. At first, they were still calling for help, and they could chat with people outside, and then they couldn’t. I talked less and less, and finally... there was no sound. I almost didn’t want to live when I came back from Wenchuan, it was hell, how can I pretend nothing happened and continue to live when I come back from hell?” His voice became choked up, "If I hadn't quarreled with my dad that night, he wouldn't have taken Aunt Xiaojuan to Yingxiu. My father-in-law and mother-in-law didn't tell me, but I understand that I am responsible for their son's death. Longlong changed Being an orphan is also my responsibility. At that time, I really felt that I deserved to die. I should simply die in Wenchuan——Shao ​​Wu, I came back from Wenchuan that day, and I didn’t know how to face them. Then you, you asked me, 'what happened to your hand'."

"At that time, I thought, you are my lifelong friend... But then I found out that you like me, you applied for my major, you like me so much that I dare not reject you, I know if I reject you, then we It's over. Every time you go to school to find me, I am very conflicted. I am happy that you come to me, but I don't want you to come, because I can't respond to you when you come... When I was a sophomore, I tried to think I'll let you do it yourself, but I really can't be hard..."

Shao Wu raised his head, and a tear happened to fall on his cheek.Yang Shuyi cried.

"Shao Wu," he said, "I'm a bastard, I don't deserve your liking."

Shao Wu raised his hand and wiped away Yang Shuyi's tears on his face with his fingertips.

Yang Shuyi is crying for him - does this mean that even if he can't be his lover in this life, at least he has become his very important person?

Shao Wu's Adam's apple twitched, and he knew exactly what he was doing—go past that and they really, really couldn't be friends anymore.But he couldn't help it.Facing Yang Shuyi, he could never bear it.

Shao Wu raised his hand and lightly picked the button of Yang Shuyi's jeans, which was the silver button.

"Yang Shuyi," despair and hope entwined on his lips at the same time, "Let's do it once, just once, okay?" Whether Yang Shuyi accepts it or not, they can't be friends anymore, Shao Wu looked up at Yang Shuyi, silently begged him to nod in agreement.He longed for him for seven years, whether it was repayment or disenchantment, this time he wanted to have him, even if it was only for a moment.

Yang Shuyi also looked at Shao Wu, the tears in the corners of his eyes were still wet.

After a while, he nodded.

Shao Wu took a tight breath, got up, and locked the bathroom door.

He squatted down in front of Yang Shuyi, looked straight at Yang Shuyi, raised his hand, unbuttoned his jeans, and then slowly pulled down the zipper. This process was very slow. He looked at Yang Shuyi and was prepared in his heart. Push him away, he will never beg again, this is the last bit of his dignity.

However, Yang Shuyi didn't push him away.Yang Shuyi let him take off his jeans, revealing his strong thighs and gray boxer briefs.Shao Wu swallowed a mouthful of saliva.This is the first time he has done this kind of thing. Although he has seen it in GV before, it is the first time. What is more terrible is that the target is Yang Shuyi.

Shao Wu said in a low voice: "If it hurts you, tell me." Yang Shuyi didn't say anything, but just put his hand on Shao Wu's shoulder, like a kind of silent acquiescence.

With trembling fingertips, Shao Wu took off Yang Shuyi's underwear.

Yang Shuyi's penis appeared in front of his eyes, but he didn't get an erection.

Shao Wu closed his eyes, leaned over, and gently licked his penis.He couldn't describe the smell, it wasn't pleasant anyway, but as long as he thought it was Yang Shuyi, it seemed that he could accept anything.

Shao Wu licked Yang Shuyi's penis a few more times, then he opened his mouth to enclose the top of the penis. He carefully closed his teeth, and licked from light to heavy with his tongue. The penis hardened, and the liquid secreted from the tip was mixed with saliva and swallowed by him. Since he kept his mouth open, his mouth was a bit astringent.

Shao Wu pressed his tongue down hard, endured the feeling of vomiting, and continued to swallow Yang Shuyi's stiff penis. He hoped that he could suck it deeper to make Yang Shuyi more comfortable—until the top touched the soft flesh deep in his upper jaw, He let out a muffled cough, and heard Yang Shuyi's voice: "Okay, Shao Wu."

Shao Wu continued to lick his penis, squatting until his legs became numb, so he half-kneeled, ignoring the pain of the wound at the moment, his head rose and fell between Yang Shuyi's crotch, and Yang Shuyi's deep panting sounded like The waves pushed him.

"Okay, Shao Wu, Shao Wu" After some time, saliva flowed from the corner of his mouth, Yang Shuyi pressed his shoulder and said in a hoarse voice, "It's ok.

Shao Wu spat out his penis and raised his hand to wipe his lips.

The corners of Yang Shuyi's eyes were a little red, he got up and took off the jeans drooping on his calves, then his underwear, and then his T-shirt.Shao Wu trembled and wanted to take off his clothes, but Yang Shuyi grabbed his wrist: "I'll be careful not to touch the wound."

Shao Wu raised his arms obediently, Yang Shuyi carefully rolled up the hem of his T-shirt, and slowly went up to the neckline, Yang Shuyi held the collar with one hand, and hung the other over his wound, and said softly: "Don't move your head. "

So carefully, he slid the neckline of the T-shirt over the back of Yang Shuyi's hand without touching the wound at all.

Shao Wu took off his sports pants, and the white underwear had been pushed up by him.

The two faced each other naked, both a little flustered.Yang Shuyi turned on the shower, and when the water became warm, he pointed the shower at Shao Wu's body and rinsed it.Shao Wu hugged Yang Shuyi's waist, leaning his hot cheek on his shoulder.Warm water trickled over their embracing, tense bodies, both stiff, cocks rubbing against each other every now and then.Shao Wu said, "Come on straight...no lube."

"It will hurt, won't it?"

"It's ok."

Yang Shuyi was silent for a few seconds, and came back quickly after leaving the bathroom, holding a half-empty tube of sunscreen in his hand.

"Is this okay?" he asked.

"…Can."

Shao Wu squeezed the sunscreen on his fingertips, then lowered his head, and put his fingertips behind him.Yang Shuyi stood in front of him, breathing more and more heavily.

"...I think it's ok"

"If it hurts, say it."

"Um"

Shao Wu propped his hands on the wall, and Yang Shuyi's slow entry from behind really hurt, very painful, Shao Wu gritted his teeth and shed tears, without yelling to stop.

He felt that after a century, Yang Shuyi finally got in, and the pain was so painful that he couldn't feel it anymore.

Yang Shuyi moved slowly, wrapping his hands around his waist tightly.It still hurts—Shao ​​Wu closed his eyes and fondled himself, to his surprise, even though it hurt so much, he still held on, thinking of Yang Shuyi thrusting into his body, the pleasure came like a gust of wind, he Like a leaf in the wind being rolled up high, he was dizzy, the tide of emotion was surging, and he ejaculated quickly.

"Shuyi, Yang Shuyi..." Shao Wu turned his head and called his name.

Yang Shuyi leaned over and kissed him vigorously.