say you like me

The past few days have been quite busy, everyone is graduating, preparing for the graduation ceremony, getting drunk with roommates, and...saying goodbye to the last wanton youth.

Liu Ziqi was admitted to graduate school, and Wen Jin didn't intend to continue reading. The two of them hadn't had a good conversation for a long time except when they met at the handover in the store.

It was the first time I visited in the third year of high school. The lights were dim and there were few people. They only sold beer, and there was only one brand.The only thing that can make people praise is the bar owner's "songs", all the music played is Wen Jin's favorite.

The two of them had already finished a beer, and they both drank too much.

"I don't feel much about graduating. Anyway, I'm still going to school... I just miss my roommates." Liu Ziqi murmured while holding the empty wine bottle.

After all, people from big cities are more experienced and knowledgeable than people from this poor place.When Liu Ziqi came out to the dormitory when he was a sophomore, a group of old men were eerily quiet for a minute, then they didn’t say anything, and at night they sent him a red envelope to wish him happiness, which really moved Liu Ziqi to the core.

In the beginning, Liu Ziqi gave people the impression that he was the kind of obsequious bitch who dared not speak out even if he was bullied, but the longer he got to know him, the more Wen Jin felt that this person was honest.

When he was in high school, he dared to openly like the mentally handicapped sports committee in his class, and was bullied miserably.But even though he suffered a lot because of his sexuality, he still insisted on coming out in college, and even founded a society for the rights of sexual minorities.

He is silent, but always surprises the people around him.Anyway, Wen Jin admired it.

Wen Jin picked up the cup and touched his, and the two of them raised their heads and took the last sip.

"...Oh right, Da Wenzi, I've always wanted to ask you something." Liu Ziqi looked up at him, "That Yu Yang, is he a senior in high school..." He burped, " The one you raped...?"

This man really drank too much.

"Tsk," Wen Jin frowned, "I didn't fucking force him!"

Liu Ziqi nodded drunkenly, "I know, I know, I'm just referring to that matter, as long as you understand..."

The eyes he looked at Wen Jin seemed a little clear again, "Is that him? The one with you now."

Wen Jin pursed his lower lip, "Yes." He nodded.

"Fuck!" Liu Ziqi slapped the table violently, "So you two were consensual at the time! Why did you let you take the blame!"

"..." Wen Jin was almost speechless, "You really know a lot."

"We didn't do it back then, we weren't together, friend, understand?" He patiently explained word by word.

"Oh..." Liu Ziqi nodded boredly.

Wen Jin looked at his watch, "Okay, it's already eleven o'clock, let's go back."

When Liu Ziqi got up, he was shaking and shaking, and he was amused, "Why do you think my drinking capacity is not as good as yours?"

"I just had a few drinks with you, can you not get drunk if you drink the left glass and the right glass?"

Wen Jin picked up Liu Ziqi and went out, hailed a car and stuffed him in skillfully, "Master, send him to Century Garden, thank you."

Just as he was about to close the door, Liu Ziqi suddenly grabbed his arm, "Which one of you will go up and who will get off?"

Wen Jin closed the door with a "pong!"

This small town is said to be under construction, but there are not many people.

Wen Jin was the only one wandering around in the empty streets.

He suddenly remembered that Yu Yang had walked along this street as well.At that time, he had just transferred to another class, and he drank some wine during the class reunion, and kicked here frantically for Yu Yang to see...then somehow they hugged each other, probably because Yu Yang was afraid that he would fall.

Just as he was thinking, the man called.

Wen Jin is in a good mood now, with a brisk tone, "Haven't you slept yet?"

"En." Yu Yang's voice sounded strange.

"Have you caught a cold?" Wen Jin frowned involuntarily, "Why are you so sullen?"

"No," said the other side, "have you gone home yet?"

"On the way home."

"Did you drink? How much?"

Wen Jinxin said that these two questions of yours can be combined into one, so why not just ask "have you drank too much?"...

"Drink a little." Wen Jin said.In fact, there is more than one point. He can walk now, but his head is already a little confused.

"You don't think I want to cry, do you?" Wen Jin joked.

Unexpectedly, there was a "hmm" over there, "I really want to."

Yu Yang seemed to be in a low mood and his voice was hoarse.

This would have changed any 1.9-meter strong man who acted like a baby with his wife, bah, and husband. Wen Jin would definitely get goosebumps all over his body and cast aside this bitch in his heart.But now, hearing Yu Yang like this, his heart ached for nothing.

He was wondering if something had happened in the store?After all, it is indeed not easy to take care of such a large and smoky place.

"What's the matter, is this?" Wen Jin couldn't help lowering his voice, and said softly, "What's the matter? What happened?"

He vaguely heard the sound of sniffling, the sound was very low, probably because Yu Yang took the phone away.Well, he was almost sure that the idiot was indeed crying.

"It's nothing," Yu Yang said in a low voice, "I just miss you so much, I really... really miss you, I want to see you."

Fuck?Really want to cry? !Wen Jin was stunned, who is right for this 1.9-meter-large piece?

"Then let's video, I'll call you now." Wen Jin said.

"Oh no! No, there's no need..." Yu Yang said anxiously, probably because he was afraid that Wen Jin would find out that he was crying so embarrassingly, but he didn't know that Wen Jin had already guessed it.

"Why? Don't you want to see me?"

"I...I don't have makeup on..." Yu Yang suddenly thought of the reason why Zhao Fan's girlfriend refused to accept Zhao Fan's video every time, and almost blurted out.

"What the hell?" Wen Jin was so startled that he couldn't control the volume, and the birds on the tree flew away in fright...

Then there was uncontrollable laughter, and he almost returned home with a long smile.

"Then...then you go put on makeup..." Wen Jin panted with a smile, "Let me see after it's done..."

After giving him a laugh, Yu Yang seemed to be in a better mood, and they talked for a while before hanging up the phone.

Before hanging up, Yu Yang suddenly said inexplicably: "...do you hate me?"

Wen Jin froze for a moment, thinking that he had heard wrongly, "What?"

Yu Yang stopped talking.

After a while, Wen Jin took a breath and said softly, "No, I hate what you did."

"...I hated myself," he chuckled, "I hated myself for being a gay."

It's wishful thinking to like someone, even if you're bruised, you can't blame the other person, and no one forces you to like him.You directed and acted on your own and acted out a great joy in your heart, and the joy, anger, sorrow and joy are all your own.

Wen Jin didn't know why Yu Yang was so abnormal today, and he didn't intend to ask, so he thought it was because he missed him too much.

"I miss you too." Wen Jin said softly.

...

It was a nice day, the sun was rarely mild after the rain, and the air smelled nice of earth.It happened to be Saturday, so Wen Jin decided to visit his father's grave today.

Because it rained yesterday, the path on the mountain was a bit muddy.Wen Jin followed her mother all the way up the mountain, fearing that she would slip and fall.

Halfway through the walk, it suddenly started to rain, and Wen Jin quickly opened the umbrella.Yu Yang repeatedly asked to bring this umbrella, he said, "The humidity is high on the mountain, maybe it will rain."

This girl is really amazing sometimes, what to say, Wen Jin kept sighing in his heart, not at all attributed to his ignorance.

When I was on my way to the top of the mountain, a person coming down the mountain came head-on.The mountain road leading to the cemetery was relatively narrow, and the man was also holding an umbrella. Wen Jin thought that it would be hard to live with two umbrellas together.

This uncle was about the same age as his mother, wearing a black windbreaker and black trousers, and his expensive leather shoes were covered in mud.When they met, Wen Jin was thinking whether to put away the umbrella first, but the uncle put away the umbrella first, and then leaned aside in a very gentlemanly manner, letting them go first.

It's just that when he saw Chen Yajing, the man was stunned for a moment, and then bowed slightly, as if to express some kind of respect.Raindrops hit his collar, but he didn't seem to notice it.

Is this also etiquette?How decent, Wen Jin thought.

But Chen Yajing walked away indifferently as if she hadn't seen it.

"Thank you." Wen Jin looked up and smiled politely, but was stunned when he saw the man's face clearly.

Uh... this guy looks familiar, but I can't remember where I've seen him before.

The handsome uncle was also taken aback when he saw him, and he was sure that the two of them had definitely met each other.

Before Wen Jin could think about it, when she came to her senses, Chen Yajing had already walked to the front on her own.

"Oh mom! It's raining!" Wen Jin hurriedly chased after her.

That's why I feel a little strange, a person who attaches so much importance to politeness, usually goes to the supermarket to buy something, and would just say thank you to the cashier, why didn't he thank that person just now?forget?She was quite happy chatting with herself when she went up the mountain just now, why does she seem to be angry now?

But after hearing Liu Ziqi say that his mother is now in menopause and has an unpredictable temper, Wen Jin thought that Chen Yajing might be the same, so she quietly followed her mother without talking.

After bypassing rows of solemn stone monuments, he finally came to his father's tomb.

Wen Jin was a little surprised to find that someone else seemed to have been here not long ago, because there was a bunch of fresh purple-blue flowers in front of his father's monument.If I remember correctly, this kind of flower seems to have a very hypocritical name called "Forget-me-not".Probably his father's former comrades-in-arms came here,

But Chen Yajing didn't show any surprise, and even pushed the bunch of flowers aside with some disdain, and put the white rose she brought on it.

Yes, Director Chen can only be romantic here.Whenever he came to see his dad, his mother would buy a bouquet of white roses like a teenage girl on a date.

She looked at the young man in the small black and white photo on the tombstone, and her expression gradually softened.

"Old man, my son is back to see you," he said with a smile, and laughed at himself, "You always look so young, I'm embarrassed to call you that."

Wen Jin unscrewed a bottle of good wine and poured more than half of it on the head of the stele, "Dad, it's been a long time since I've come, so I'd like to offer you a toast." After speaking, she also took a big gulp.

"Mom, would you like some?" Wen Jin handed the bottle to his mother.

"No, I have an operation tomorrow."

"Look, Dad," Wen Jin smiled, "My mother is still so devoted to her job, and she doesn't know how to rest. When I'm not at home, I make instant noodles all day long."

Chen Yajing also laughed, and the two rushed to file a complaint, "Wen Yinan, you first teach this brat a lesson in your dreams, and you never tell his mother when you find a date..."

Wen Jin opened her eyes wide and looked at his mother, "I, I..."

I don't?Forget it... Wen Jin was speechless, opened her mouth and stared at her blankly.Don't know how she knows.

Chen Yajing looked at him coquettishly, "You are all born by me, so I can't tell if you pretend to be like me?"

His father died for a full 14 years.

This scar has gradually faded under the erosion of time.

Wen Jin still remembers that in the summer when she was 8 years old, Chen Yajing, who was still wearing a white coat, squatted in front of him, her eyes were red and swollen, but she said every word loudly:

"Wen Jin, now you have to listen carefully to everything your mother tells you." She touched little Wen Jin's face, "Your father is a great hero, and you are the son of a great hero, you can't embarrass him. "

She didn't hide from Wen Jin because Wen Jin was too young as her colleagues suggested, she frankly put the bloody naked truth in front of her 8-year-old son.

Every year when she goes to visit the grave, she takes Wen Jin with her and chats with her father like this.It seemed that his mother and son were arguing, while his father was listening to them quietly.

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