Remembrance Hibiscus GL

The furnace of benzoin that was lit before sleep has long been burned out, leaving only a faint fragrance lingering in the room, and the surroundings are extremely quiet.Lian Zhen lifted her heart to her chest, almost held her breath, and stared at Binglun for a moment: "Your father... how would he know?"

"I don't know either. At that time we were inexperienced and we had just tasted love. Maybe we accidentally showed the clues, and I don't know." Binglun said: "But there is one thing that is very strange. At that time, the Huo family suddenly Two people died, one of my father's concubines and one of her personal servants, said to be suffering from sudden illness."

Lian Zhen was shocked: "You suspect that their deaths are related to you?"

"This is just my guess. Although that little concubine is only a few years older than me, she has a very delicate mind. She is usually flattering, nosy, and gossip. A day or two before she died, I saw their master and servant. , doesn't look like he's going to get sick."

Although Lian Zhen is kind and simple, she is by no means stupid. Hearing this, she has already guessed what she meant.That woman is Huo Mu's concubine, and her age is similar, so she has been in close contact with them on weekdays. They are young and affectionate, and they do not hide their secrets. , and told Huo Mu about this matter, Huo Mu naturally regarded it as a family scandal, not to mention that Binglun is the eldest daughter and has a high status, he may have long had the idea of ​​climbing the dragon and becoming a phoenix, and when he was frightened and angry, he killed him to keep his mouth shut. . . . . .The more Lian Zhen thought about it, the more frightened she became, and she couldn't help shivering deeply.

Binglun seemed to be immersed in the memories of the past, for a while, no one spoke, and suddenly there was a slight sound of footsteps outside, but it was Gao Xian standing outside the pearl curtain, and said from a distance: "Queen Mother, when is the meal time?" In the past, the slave came here to ask the master to show me."

"It turns out that it's been so long without knowing it." Binglun looked at Lian Zhen: "Are you hungry?"

Since Lian Zhen was injured, her diet was mainly light and nourishing. Most of her daily intake was some soup, porridge, fruits and vegetables, etc. At this time, she was really hungry, but when Binglun was talking about something important, she was eager to listen and hesitated Uncertain, he looked at Binglun eagerly: "You...are you leaving?"

"Then I don't want to leave." Binglun slightly raised the corner of his mouth, turned around and said, "I'll have dinner at Master Chen's place today."

"Yes." Gao Xian responded, and hurried out to order Chuan Shan.

There are all kinds of delicacies from all over the world on the dining table, which are fresh from land and water. Binglun only tasted the yam tofu soup, cooked mung bean dishes with a pinch of vinegar, and ate half a bowl of fragrant rice. Such a delicate side dish.

After silently eating and rinsing his mouth, several young eunuchs removed the dining table, bowls and spoons, and then brought up various fresh fruits such as cherries and loquats.Gao Xian watched his words and demeanor, when everything was over and everyone left, he went out with him and waited outside alone.

Seeing the golden-yellow loquat peel, Binglun saw that it was huge and plump, picked one, carefully peeled off the skin, and handed it to Lian Zhen's lips. Lian Zhen hesitated for a moment, took it by herself, and ate it silently. Sweet and delicious.

Binglun didn't mind either, after she finished eating, she took out a silk scarf to wipe her hands, then picked up the cup of dew bud tea, bowed her head and took a sip.

Lian Zhen still thought about what she said, and whispered: "Your father should...should not have done that, right?"

Binglun smiled lightly, noncommittal.

Lianzhen sighed and asked, "What about after that?"

"Afterwards, his attitude towards Wan'er was completely different, and he even spun a huge lie."

"What lie?"

Binglun gritted her silver teeth lightly, and said: "He slandered Wan'er, saying that she had an affair with a servant in the mansion, ruined the lintel of my mother's house, and shamed the Huo family, so he expelled Wan'er from the Huo mansion , My mother pleaded repeatedly and even knelt down because of this, but she couldn't get it back."

Lian Zhen took a deep breath: "How could he do this? It's too much!" It must be known that a woman's fame is a big deal, especially for a lady from a noble family. The relationship between Lin Wanxi and Binglun Putting it aside, she has the reputation of being an adulterer, and she will be looked down upon for the rest of her life. Even with her background, she can no longer match those children from famous families with similar backgrounds, and she is not even qualified to choose someone to marry.Lian Zhen couldn't suppress her anger: "Your father said so, can other people believe it?!"

"With my father's status and status, how could anyone not believe what he said? Even if some people didn't believe it in their hearts, but the boy confessed it all, and took out their private lifelong token to see, then there would be no doubts. People are suspicious."

"This..." Lian Zhen couldn't speak, and said after a while: "What a despicable and shameless method! That boy really deserves to die!"

"He was damned, and he was dead."

"how?"

"He was also expelled from the Huo Mansion. It didn't take long before someone found his body. The government said that someone robbed property and took the opportunity to kill someone. No matter what, there are always some muddled cases in this world. No matter what, He is always an inconspicuous little person, and in the huge capital city, the death of such a person is no different from the death of an ant." A sneer flashed across Bing Lun's face: "It's just that my father is indeed the candidate Very well, that boy was originally an orphan, with a handsome skin and a mean and stupid heart. He desperately wanted to change his humble status. Such a person could not resist the temptation to do such a thing. It's just right."

Lian Zhen felt chills from the bottom of her heart, and after a while, she said softly: "You... hate your father very much, don't you?"

Binglun pursed the corners of her lips, and said slowly: "My feelings for him are very complicated, and it can't be summed up by the word 'hate'." As if he didn't want to talk more, he immediately returned to the original topic: "There is a house in the east of the city. , It was originally my grandfather's property. After my grandfather died, it belonged to the Huo family. After my father drove Wan'er out of Huo's mansion, he arranged for her to live there, and assigned a few servants to serve her. she."

Her attitude has always been calm and peaceful, as if she was talking about other people's affairs. When she said this, she was a little uncontrollable. She stood up slowly and turned her back. Her voice was low and hoarse: "At that time, For the first time in my life, I tasted heartache and despair. I was grounded for several months. My father warned me that if I behaved abnormally, he would make Wan'er disappear in the capital forever. It was no different, but I was almost going crazy in my heart. I begged my mother hard, and finally, one time, I took the opportunity of going to the nunnery outside the city to offer incense with her. I went to see Wan'er. She lost a lot of weight. I can't forget how she looked when she saw me...but the next day, I learned of her death...she committed suicide with a dagger I gave her .”

When Lian Zhen heard this, she couldn't help but let out an exclamation. She covered her cherry lips with her right hand, and tears filled her eyes.

Binglun took off the string of emerald jade and lotus beads on her wrist, put them in her palm, and held them tightly. The cold and hard touch seemed to make her feel better. After a long silence, she gradually calmed down and said softly: "She was killed by my father. Before being expelled from the Huo Mansion, she knew that I was going to enter the palace, and that the life in that mansion was very miserable. Moreover, she also knew that my father would marry her in the end. ...I just hate that I didn't see her thoughts at the time, if I knew, I would rather stay and die with her."

She stood there, her back was lonely and arrogant, the calmer her voice was, the more one could feel an indescribable sadness, Lian Zhen was heartbroken, tears poured out like a spring: "I'm sorry, I... ...I shouldn't have brought up your sadness, it's all my fault..."

"I'm fine." Hearing her crying sadly, Binglun turned around and walked in front of her. Lian Zhen couldn't help herself anymore, put her face on her waist, put her arms around her with her right hand, and said sobbingly: " She is so pitiful, so miserable... I was a little jealous of her at first... I shouldn't be like this..." By the end, I was sobbing.

Binglun stared at her with his head down, his eyes fluctuating. After a long time, he raised his hand and gently stroked her hair, his face full of tenderness.

Lianzhen's crying gradually subsided, but the tears wet a large area of ​​Binglun's silk robe.Binglun didn't realize it, and spoke again: "After Wan'er died, I became a puppet, and I was controlled by my father. During that period, I wanted to end my life countless times, but I didn't do that after all... ...Maybe, it's because I don't have the courage, maybe, it's because of my poor mother, or something else... Later, I entered the palace and turned into an imperial concubine. At this time, I couldn't die Well, if I die, it will affect the entire Huo family, including my mother, and some relatives I care about. Later, my mother fell ill and died, and my father was also suspected by the emperor and lost his power. I am still alive, but numb , death and immortality are irrelevant, there is no difference."

Lianzhen never thought that people like her would mention the word "death" so frequently. Although she said it lightly, she could imagine what kind of terrible darkness she had experienced in her heart. You can feel it in her words. . . . . .Lianzhen was in so much pain that she was almost suffocating, but she just hugged her tightly, unwilling to let go for a moment.

"Since I will not take my own life with my own hands, I am even more unwilling to die in the intrigues of concubines in the harem. Even if my father loses power, self-preservation is easy for me. Of course, I will not give birth to the emperor. .I was like a walking dead, living a dull and quiet life in the harem until... I met you." A faint smile rose from the corner of Bing Lun's mouth, and his voice became soft: "That day I chose , I did not go because of illness, but I heard your name from someone else, and the moment you appeared, you actually aroused the jealousy of Concubine Min and Concubine Li, and even I became a little curious."

"Later, I saw you at the empress's place. You were indeed peerless, with a well-deserved reputation and countless beauties in the harem. You lost all color in front of you, but the most attractive thing about you is that you have a kind of lightness and beauty. The breath is heartbreaking, not daring to desecrate, but wanting to be cared for."

It was the first time Lianzhen heard her talk about her feelings when she first saw her, and she raised her head: "Am I so good? Is it because I was injured that you deliberately praised me to make me happy?"

Binglun said: "I'm telling the truth." He straightened his face: "In the harem, I never want to get into trouble. But for you, I want to protect you for no reason. Maybe you don't believe it, your Appeared, changed me, I was a person on the verge of death, my life should be over like this, but you injected living water into my life, injected vitality, injected courage, injected passion, I suddenly wanted to To be alive, I want to do something. You happened to appear in front of me, and my father happened to be reused by the emperor, so I seized this opportunity, Lian Zhen, without you, I would not be where I am today."

Lianzhen suddenly remembered what she said before, "You mean a lot to me", and finally understood what it meant, but this kind of meaning was still not enough, she felt sore, and whispered: "I... Do I look alike to her?"

Binglun was stunned, and quickly said: "It's not like, you all look beautiful, but you don't look alike." After a pause, he continued: "But you are both innocent, kind, gentle, and considerate. Oh, I always think of others in everything.”

Hearing what she said, Lianzhen was secretly relieved.

"Actually, you don't have to take some of my words to heart." Binglun looked embarrassed, a little hard to say: "Most of the time, I know what I'm talking about and what I'm doing, such as in court, in front of those courtiers, But in front of you, it's not like that."

"You said a lot to me." Lian Zhen bit her lower lip and said after a while: "What are you referring to?"

Binglun's slender fingers passed through her soft and dense hair, supported her fragrant shoulders, and finally confessed her inner feelings: "I like to be with you, but once I get too close to you, I feel sorry for her." , I feel very uncomfortable in my heart, but staying away from you and making you sad is also not easy. So sometimes, I really don’t know what to do. "

Lian Zhen was shocked, and stared at her, her starry eyes that were still full of tears shone with joy: "You...you mean..."

"Lianzhen, I don't care about you, I still have you in my heart." Binglun met her eyes, and sighed softly: "You are beautiful and pure, and you treat me as deeply as the sea, I'm not hard-hearted, how can I really be unfeeling?"

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Update for Xiaohei's long comment