life in a hurry

Since that incident, Fu Nansheng has completely settled down—comparatively speaking.

Chen Feiqing quickly noticed something new about Fu Nansheng.

He tried to reason with Fu Nansheng: "I'll come out soon, you go back to the house first."

Fu Nansheng shook his head silently.

Chen Feiqing took the next best thing: "At least you take ten steps back."

Fu Nansheng shook his head silently.

"Five steps."

Shaking his head.

"Three steps, be obedient."

Fu Nansheng hesitated and felt aggrieved. Seeing that he insisted, he reluctantly backed away slowly and kept his eyes fixed on him.

Chen Feiqing went into the toilet with a headache.If this continues, he may not dare to drink more water.

——Fu Nansheng became extremely clingy. No matter where Chen Feiqing went or what he would do, he would follow him, and he would call out anxiously when he couldn't see him for a while.At night, Chen Feiqing pulled him over on the spur of the moment. It's not like this happened before. Fu Nansheng yelled so anxiously that he had to pull him back and coax him for a long time before he calmed down.

When he was in the capital, Chen Feiqing asked Doctor Bai to show him —— Doctor Bai’s face was darker than ever, and he was so stretched, but he still showed it — after reading it, he said that Fu Nansheng had a heart disease and was slow to take medicine. Slow raising is just a consolation, whether it can be well depends on God's will.

Chen Feiqing felt that what Bai Qiancao wanted to say was that Fu Nansheng was crazy.

Everyone else thinks so.

Chen Feiqing didn't feel like it. He had seen lunatics, but they were all insane. He didn't recognize anyone, and he didn't even know who he was.But Fu Nansheng is not. Fu Nansheng knows everything clearly, remembers everyone and everything, and he is not crazy at all. He is even more well-behaved than before. Apart from being clinging to Chen Feiqing like never before, there is nothing wrong with him.

There is no other way, so I have to listen to the doctor and take it slowly.

Chen Feiqing didn't know how she felt about Fu Nansheng now.

When Fu Nansheng kidnapped the emperor to Mo country and started a war, Chen Feiqing really thought about killing Fu Nansheng. If the two of them met in the battle, he felt that he would really do it.However, the two of them never met until Chen Feiqing won the decisive battle, and some generals found Fu Nansheng and captured him back.

The general was Chen Feiqing's friend named Song Zi. He met Fu Nansheng, but he didn't know what to do for a while, so he arrested him first.

Since he was a prisoner, Chen Feiqing didn't go directly to kill people, he just wanted to do business and execute after returning to Beijing.After all, there is nothing else between him and Fu Nansheng now, only business affairs.

The emperor and Bai Qiancao came back at this time.

Chen Feiqing was overjoyed and escorted the two of them back to the capital. He was so busy that he didn't want to think about Fu Nansheng in the prison.That's not his business anymore, it's the emperor's business.

He worked so hard not to think about it, but suddenly he heard the emperor say: "Fei Qing, it was Fu Nansheng who sent me back."

Chen Feiqing said without thinking: "He probably wants to leave a way out for himself."

The emperor looked at him for a while, then sighed: "Do you really think so?"

Chen Feiqing really thought so.

The emperor pondered for a long time, and said, "Do you know why Fu Nansheng did this?"

Chen Feiqing said: "I don't know, and there is no need to know."

He just needs to know that he and Fu Nansheng have broken off their friendship, and he will never think about it again.

The emperor said: "It's really a pity for him. If he didn't have such a temperament, with his talent, and if he was cultivated well from an early age, he would definitely become a famous figure in history. It's a pity that good fortune tricks people."

Chen Feiqing remembered that Fu Nansheng had indeed mentioned such a wish. Although he and Fu Nansheng were arguing about other things, he was very happy and proud of Fu Nansheng.It's a pity that it hasn't been a year since Fu Nansheng said that, but somehow he wants to go on a wrong path, and he doesn't know why.No one could know what Fu Nansheng was thinking, let alone Chen Feiqing, he only knew that he was tired, really tired.

It wasn't the first time that Chen Feiqing was deceived by someone like this, and it probably wouldn't be the last time. However, he would never have such tired thoughts about Lu Ding, King Ning, the Emperor, or even his father.This is also natural, other people are doing it for righteousness, Chen Feiqing prides himself on taking care of his priorities and will not care about his own gains or losses.But Fu Nansheng is not, Fu Nansheng has no righteousness, only selfishness.

Chen Feiqing once thought that he could change Fu Nansheng, but was severely laughed at by the facts.

He even felt ashamed.

Nowadays, many people regard him as the hero who turned the tide. Those absurd things with Fu Nansheng in the past seem to have been erased from people's memory, or it is just that Chen Feiqing was deceived by monsters when he was young and frivolous. It's too late.

But Chen Feiqing still felt embarrassed, just endured and said nothing to anyone.

He doesn't really like fighting.He really wanted to surpass his father, because he was eager to prove to his father that he had grown up and was no longer the child who would only be reprimanded by his father for not growing up and being incapable of acting in front of his mother .

But when he grew up a bit, Chen Feiqing felt that it didn't matter. It would be good if the country was stable and the people lived and worked in peace and contentment. There was no need for war. If he is a hero, he would rather be a mediocre being in a peaceful and prosperous world.

The emperor said: "It's a pity that Fu Nansheng doesn't think so. He is a muscle. He only hears the first half of a sentence, and he will read the first half of the sentence instead of listening to the second half of the sentence."

Chen Feiqing was silent.

The emperor said again: "If I'm not mistaken, Fu Nansheng did all this just to let you have today's achievements."

Chen Feiqing really didn't know what was going on in Fu Nansheng's mind.

He not only told Fu Nansheng about his so-called ambitions when he was young and frivolous, but also mentioned to the emperor that he was at a loss for not making achievements, but the emperor thought that was what ordinary people would think, and he just comforted him to do what was in front of him and wait quietly opportunity.Fu Nansheng couldn't wait any longer than Chen Feiqing himself. The opportunity didn't come, so he made it himself.

Chen Feiqing couldn't recover for a long time, and it took a long time to ask the emperor: "Why did you tell me?"

The emperor said: "When Fu Nansheng let me go, he made a condition with me that I would never tell you. But I am the emperor, and I have never been coerced by anyone, and Fu Nansheng can't do it."

Chen Feiqing asked again: "Why did you tell me?"

The emperor sighed, and smiled helplessly: "Do you know why Zhen and King Ning both like you so much?"

Chen Feiqing looked at him silently.

The emperor said: "You are someone we can't become, but seeing you doing well, it seems that we feel that we have an extra life."

The emperor asked him: "What do you think now?"

Chen Feiqing said: "I don't know."

Chen Feiqing really didn't know.

He didn't like Fu Yinger in the past because he thought it was Fu Yinger who made Fu Nansheng such a capricious temperament.But now Fu Nansheng made the biggest mistake in his life, but it turned out to be because of him, Chen Feiqing.

Chen Feiqing didn't ask Fu Nansheng to do these things wishfully, nor did he want him to do so at all.

However, Fu Nansheng has already done it.

Chen Feiqing really didn't know what he should do. He wanted to apologize to the world for Fu Nansheng's death, but the emperor refused: "It is true that I don't want you to die because of personal reasons, but I am not lying to you. From the public's point of view, you Now that he is dead, no matter how he dies, he is causing me trouble, how will the people of the world think of me? To kill a hero? To kill a rabbit? I can’t bear such a reputation in the history books.”

Chen Feiqing couldn't die.

The emperor asked him to go back and think clearly.

He locked himself in the room and thought about it for an unknown number of days. Finally, he took Fu Nansheng away.

Fu Nansheng was very panicked along the way, wanted to ask but dared not ask, held back for a long time before whispering: "I hurt you."

Chen Feiqing asked him: "Will it still be like this in the future?"

Fu Nansheng shook his head.

Chen Feiqing smiled.

In fact, I don't really believe it.

But that's the way it is, and it can only be so.Chen Feiqing never thought that he would make such a big mistake in this life. He once went home to confess to his father, and he hoped to be beaten by his father, but his father didn't beat him or scold him. For the first time in his life, he was like a loving father He patted his head in a normal way, and said: "Since you are a human being, there are always difficulties, so you can figure it out for yourself. I used to treat you harshly because you were loved by thousands of people from birth. I'm afraid they will spoil you." It's okay without you."

Saying it means not saying it.

The emperor was not at all afraid that Chen Feiqing would take Fu Nansheng away. He originally planned to let the two of them go to the place of exile by themselves, but after weighing it, they still didn't do so, which made people follow the rules.

According to the rules, the two of them had to walk all the way wearing shackles.The emperor even gave special instructions to pick two of the most daring and vicious guards who are not afraid of offending others to escort the two of them. On the way, they should be scolded and beaten according to the rules, so you don't have to be polite.

Chen Feiqing thanked the emperor very much.Even so, it can't make him feel less guilty, but at least it's better than eating and drinking.He has no face to face tens of thousands of people who are alive or dead, and he shouldn't be able to live comfortably anymore.

After all, Fu Nansheng's strength was much weaker. Wearing heavy shackles, he walked against the sun for days, and couldn't bear it if he couldn't eat or sleep well.

In fact, the guards are also in a dilemma. They are just vicious and not stupid. Fu Nansheng is nothing more than that. Could it be that they really offended Chen Feiqing?But with the emperor's orders, he didn't dare to completely disobey, so he awkwardly urged him to hurry up.

Chen Feiqing sighed, and helped Fu Nansheng carry the wooden yoke on his shoulders all the way to remove some weight.

Resting at the ruined temple in the wilderness at night, the two guards knew a little bit of the hazy inside story, so they were not afraid of them running away, and they just set fire outside, ate, drank and chatted.

You have to wear shackles to rest at night, but at least you can sit on the ground and borrow something to lean on.

Fu Nansheng arched his hands and lifted the wooden shackle on Chen Feiqing's shoulders. He saw that the clothes on his shoulders were torn and stained with blood, which happened every day. The old wounds were not good, and new wounds continued.

Chen Feiqing said lightly: "Let's rest, tomorrow we have to get up early and hurry."

Fu Nansheng said in a low voice, "It's better to kill me."

Chen Feiqing asked him: "Is it hard?"

Fu Nansheng knew what he was going to say: "I know that I killed many people. I have no right to complain, but I did it all. I have nothing to do with killing or cutting me. How much do you want to come here to carry these crimes on purpose?" Make me regret it for the rest of my life?"

Chen Feiqing said: "I'm not for you, but for myself. Even if you die, I know that the war started because of me, but I still have to bear the reputation that is not worthy of the name, and I will feel very uncomfortable, and I will still plead guilty."

Fu Nansheng also couldn't understand him, and said: "You are not a saint, and no one will regard you like this as a saint. Why do you always do this?"

On the contrary, Chen Feiqing smiled at him and said, "To be my person, I must first think highly of myself, otherwise so what if many people think highly of me?"

Fu Nansheng was silent for a moment, then whispered: "I was wrong."

Chen Feiqing's smile was a little sad.Fu Nansheng always admits his mistakes more frankly than anyone else, but he never corrects himself, and he doesn't count on it anymore.

Fu Nansheng felt that this time Chen Feiqing really wanted to punish herself, and she really didn't want to forgive herself, so using this method made life worse than death.

He finally knew what it was like when Chen Feiqing was really angry. It was very terrifying, and the torture method he came up with was the most terrifying torture in the world.

He had no choice but to please Chen Feiqing in every possible way, and leaned over to lick his wound with his tongue.The trauma medicine powder brought by the guard ran out, and he had to buy it when passing through the next town.

Chen Feiqing looked at him sideways, and suddenly called him softly: "Nan Sheng."

Fu Nansheng looked up at him.

Chen Feiqing asked him very gently: "Let's have a good life from now on, shall we?"