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Shi Dongdong sat in the passenger seat next to Chen Zhi, and kept looking out the window.

Before, they went to Qiao Hao's department and were told that Qiao Hao was on the evening shift that day.Shi Dongdong walked straight out the door as if he didn't want to wait for a second.Helpless, Chen Zhi had no choice but to drive the car out.

At this time, it was the rush hour for work, and the car was stuck on the road as soon as it left the hospital.Although the distance from the hospital to Qiao Hao's residence was not far, Chen Zhi couldn't help feeling a little anxious under the slow speed.He looked at Shi Dongdong, worried that his body would be uncomfortable. In fact, not only his body, but also his mental state. After all, not all patients could bear the truth.

Shi Dongdong didn't notice his gaze at all, and still stared straight out of the window, but, as if the crowds and traffic hadn't been seen by him, the scene outside the window slowly changed in his eyes, but he was only in his own eyes. What is the world thinking about.

Chen Zhi didn't dare to ask him what he was thinking, even if he asked, he probably wouldn't answer.

After driving for nearly half an hour in just a few minutes, Shi Dongdong was already staggering when he got out of the car.

"I'll take you up." Chen Zhi supported him.

"No, I can." Shi Dongdong smiled at him rarely, and slowly pushed his hand away.After the cool temperature left, Chen Zhicai noticed that Shi Dongdong, who was wearing a hospital gown, was still wearing a pair of slippers—he hurried out of the hospital without even putting on socks.

"I'll wait for you here." Chen Zhi said behind Shi Dongdong.After finishing speaking, he felt that it was unnecessary, the people in front ignored him, and this time, he might not have the need to wait here.

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Shi Dongdong finally came to Qiao Hao's house.

He held the corridor to breathe calmly for a while, because he didn't want Qiao Hao to see him exhausted, and felt that he had recovered a lot before he knocked on the door.

The door was quickly opened, but the person inside was not Qiao Hao, but Qiao Min.

"It's you?" Qiao Min was wearing an apron. When he saw Shi Dongdong, he was even more surprised than him. He stood there for a few seconds before remembering to let him in.

"Qiao Hao... isn't there?" Obviously there was no sign of Qiao Hao in the room, Shi Dongdong went straight to the kitchen with his last hope, but only saw that there was no one there.On the stove, there was an uncovered thermos bucket that was steaming hotly. This was the thermos bucket that Qiao Hao once used to deliver soup to him.

Shi Dongdong frowned, and looked at Qiao Min suspiciously.

"My mother is sick, Qiao Hao is taking care of her in the hospital, and I'm about to deliver her meals." Qiao Min untied her apron, slowly put it on the chair by the dining table, and then looked at the man in the hospital gown Shi Dongdong said again, "Ah, it's not in your hospital, but in the community hospital here, because...it's closer."

Shi Dongdong was even more puzzled, but he didn't know how to ask the question.

And Qiao Min didn't seem to be in a hurry to answer his doubts, but reluctantly bent the corner of his mouth at him, and then said, "What do you want to see Qiao Hao for?"

"I..." Shi Dongdong felt a little unnatural, he didn't wear shoes when he came in, and now he was stepping on the floor with bare feet, and felt a bit embarrassed when he lowered his head, and he didn't expect that it would be Qiao Min who greeted him.

"I'd better wait for him to come back..." Shi Dongdong turned around and wanted to leave.

"Wait a minute!" Qiao Min stopped him, "Don't you want to ask why my mother is sick?"

Qiao Min's words made Shi Dongdong's heart sink, and he could only ask, "Auntie, what's wrong with her?"

"She probably doesn't feel well anywhere now..." Qiao Min shook his head with a wry smile, walked to the sofa and sat down, then motioned for Shi Dongdong to sit down too, "Since you're here, let's talk."

"I'm here to find Qiao Hao." Shi Dongdong stood where he was, subconsciously supporting the back of the sofa, and didn't go to the place Qiao Min asked him to sit down.

"Qiao Hao and my mother confessed about you, but my mother couldn't accept it, so she fell ill. She didn't want to go to Qiao Hao's hospital because you were there." Qiao Min sighed, made a simple statement, and made a statement to Shi Dongdong again asked, "Sit down, let's talk."

Shi Dongdong had no choice but to walk over. In front of Qiao Min, he dared not look her directly in the eyes - he was not wearing a hat or socks, and he was also wearing a hospital gown that was wrinkled from sleeping.For the first time in his life, he felt embarrassed in front of other people.

"I have nothing to do with Qiao Hao." He said.

"Qiao Hao will be very sad when you say that." Qiao Min put his hand on his forehead, his brows looked very similar to Qiao Hao, "You know he likes you, right? When you are not feeling well, he will act like crazy Worry, I have seen all these with my own eyes, so I think you should not be ignorant. Tell me frankly, how do you feel about Qiao Hao? Like it or not, or just bored in the hospital, find a fool to find him make fun of?"

"I like it." Shi Dongdong didn't hesitate much, and looked at Qiao Min honestly. There was no point in hiding it, because the other party was also looking at him honestly.

"Very well, he is not wishful thinking after all."

"But he doesn't know yet. I came here to tell him."

"It seems that you tested him for a long time, and you only came to tell him today. That kid told me about his feelings for you before. To be honest, I was shocked. I never thought I would have such a younger brother." Qiao Min Shaked his head again.

"You don't want him to be with a man, do you?" Shi Dongdong asked indifferently.

"Don't look down on me like this, Dongdong, I'm not old fashioned."

"Then you don't want him to be with someone who is dying?" Shi Dongdong asked again, the corners of his mouth raised unnaturally.

Qiao Min looked at Shi Dongdong carefully, this time, she didn't answer immediately, but thought for a while before speaking slowly.

"It took you so long to be sure of your feelings for Qiao Hao, and he is my younger brother, and I have always loved him. Although the two feelings are different, I hope that he can be happy and happy. Same thing. Maybe sexuality is indeed predestined, but I hope he finds a partner who will be there for him all the time, not a patient who needs his care all the time and...will leave him at any time to make him sad. I say so ,hope you do not mind."

"I like your directness." Shi Dongdong smiled, "There are a bunch of indirect people that kept me in the dark about my illness for so long. After being told the truth all at once, I didn't even know What should I do, I ran to Qiao Hao without even thinking about it..."

"Dongdong, I'm sorry." Qiao Min closed his eyes, "I know I'm selfish, some things, the elders always have time to digest, and I will try my best to help Qiao Hao convince his parents to accept that he is different from others This fact. But there are some things that I can’t convince myself. I know what kind of person my brother is. He has never been in love since he grew up, and he has never said who he likes. I can imagine how serious he is to you But because of this kind of earnestness, I am very afraid...he will be hurt. For example, do you think you really like him, or do you just see him as a kind of dependence? I think people should be sick when they are sick. If you are fragile, you may magnify your emotions and feelings, and regard a person or thing as sustenance or dependence. I don't want Qiao Hao to be just such a thing to you. Or, love is a kind of mutual companionship, but you really Have you ever been with him well? If it’s just his one-sided contribution, I don’t think it’s true love. I feel sorry for my younger brother. I have a failed marriage, so I hope he can stop being like me emotionally. Unlucky."

"I understand what you mean, what you said makes sense." Shi Dongdong nodded with a smile, "I seem to...see Qiao Hao as that kind of thing...if I love him, probably not Wait until you know your illness before coming to him and confessing. I'm probably just afraid of death."

"Dongdong, now that medicine is advanced, you don't have to be so pessimistic."

"Advanced medicine, don't you believe that I can accompany him?" Shi Dongdong asked back, the smile on his face froze.

"I'm sorry... Dongdong." Qiao Min bit his lips, unable to refute the other party either verbally or emotionally.

And Shi Dongdong had already stood up, "Don't say sorry anymore, I know what I should do. In fact, I've always done that, now... probably I'm just sick and confused."

"Dongdong..." Qiao Min suddenly felt a heavy pain in his heart, and for a moment he wondered if what he did was wrong.

"Don't worry, I won't tell him." Shi Dongdong smiled lightly, his pale face looked very weak.

Qiao Min felt more and more guilty. He didn't understand whether what he couldn't say was the confession he had prepared, or today's conversation.But in fact, there is no difference between the two.

She had no choice but to follow him to the door and watch him put on her slippers, but she couldn't say anything to hold him back.

"I'm leaving, I hope my aunt's illness will recover soon." When walking out the door, Shi Dongdong turned around and said to Qiao Min.

"Can you go back alone?" Qiao Min said anxiously, because his complexion was really bad.

"Don't worry, it's impossible for a person like me...to go out alone." Shi Dongdong held the doorknob indifferently, and closed the door himself, leaving Qiao Min inside.

Qiao Min suddenly didn't have the courage to open that door again, she just stood there in a daze, and walked back to the kitchen after a long time.In the insulated bucket without the lid on, the porridge was already cold.

She walked to the phone and dialed Qiao Hao's cell phone.

The other side quickly picked up, Qiao Hao's voice was very hoarse.

Qiao Min was stunned for two seconds before speaking to the person on the other end of the phone, saying that he had overslept and asked him to buy two breakfasts directly.

As for Shi Dongdong, he almost exhausted all the strength in his body to walk downstairs to where Chen Zhi parked his car.

When the person in the car came out, his vision was already blurred, and the voice of that person seemed to come from a very distant place.He was suddenly thankful that such a situation didn't happen when he was talking to Qiao Min before.

He looked at the person who had been talking to him in bewilderment, and the feeling of exhaustion overwhelmed him, so that he only came and said "don't tell others that I have been here" before collapsing.