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It was raining continuously outside the window, and the central air conditioner was roaring inside the house. Ou Xuyang sat beside Bian Xiaojun, and he didn't let go of his hand for a moment.He held this hand and pressed it against his cheek, and there were many things in his heart that he wanted to say to him, even if he hadn't woken up, it was probably because he hadn't woken up that he had the courage to say it.

"I didn't want to hide it from you, but I was selfish because I was afraid that we would never be able to do it again after telling you the truth. Of course, I understand you. Even a man can't stand this fact. I think we should end it too. Well, it's okay, we can still be friends..."

He started to choke up when he said this, thinking to himself, I'm going to lose him...

"How about being friends? At least don't be too unfamiliar with me. You can still get together and talk when you are free. Don't worry, if you have someone else, I won't embarrass you... I will go far Far away, just watch you from afar..."

"Where are you going?"

Bian Xiaojun, who was originally asleep, suddenly asked a question, Ou Xuyang was startled by the sudden arrival, and let go of his hand in surprise, "You're awake!"

Bian Xiaojun felt a throbbing pain in his body, he was very dizzy, and his vision blurred, but he still stared at Ou Xuyang, and asked again: "Where are you going?"

Ou Xuyang didn't care about talking at all, and was in a hurry to ring the bell to call the doctors and nurses, but just as he was about to make a move, Bian Xiaojun grabbed his hand, and Bian Xiaojun said, "It's a good thing I didn't die. I won't hear you when I die." You just said those stupid things."

One word grabbed Ou Xuyang's heart, he stared at him blankly, his nose felt sore, and he cursed: "Are you out of your mind?! You know that there is a high-speed exit and you still pass through it! It was so big that night. You don’t know how to hide from the rain?! The cold rain is pouring on you and you rush into the expressway... Do you know that you almost died?!” Cursing and cursing, I cried myself.

The two were silent for a while, and then Ou Xuyang remembered that Bian Xiaojun still had a high fever, so he hurriedly poured hot water for him to drink, but when the water was handed to Bian Xiaojun, he pushed it away, and said to Ou Xuyang in a dry voice: "You sit down Come on, let's talk."

Ou Xuyang then sat down, his eyes lowered, "I know what you want to say."

"What am I going to say?"

Ou Xuyang took a deep breath, "I know you can't accept that I have had sex with Li Yao, indeed several times, but I want to justify myself, no matter how many times, none of them was voluntary, in fact, I came back several times to think I'm telling you, but I have to say it! Forget it, I'm fine, we'll still be friends, right?" In the last sentence, Ou Xuyang asked cautiously.

"How can I be friends with you?" Bian Xiaojun shook his head, moved his stiff neck, closed his eyes and faced out the window.

A trace of coolness penetrated into Ou Xuyang's heart, and his heart ached from the cold. Well, he should leave. I promised Mr. Bian that as soon as Xiaojun woke up, he would leave immediately, not to mention that he doesn't even want to be friends with you. .

"Then you have a good rest, I'm leaving." Ou Xuyang stood up hastily, turned around in a hurry, fearing that it would be too ugly if he cried in the next second.

However, Bian Xiaojun's hand grabbed his wrist, and his heart stopped for a moment, and some hope rose vaguely, but he heard Bian Xiaojun say this——

"You're right, I really can't accept it, but can you let me think about some problems alone, and I'll tell you when I figure it out, okay?"

what is the problem?When can I figure it out?How would the answer be different when you came to tell me?Ou Xuyang felt pain, what's the point of waiting?

"Why waste time waiting for an answer when you can already make a decision?" Ou Xuyang smiled wryly and shook his head, "Bian Xiaojun, you already want to get away, I understand, why bother to find excuses for yourself..."

"Ou Xuyang, I just asked you to wait a little longer, I really have some, some ideas that I can't sort out—"

"You've actually sorted it out, you just can't open the mouth, right?" Ou Xuyang pulled his hand away, "Okay, I won't make it difficult for you, I'll take the initiative to say it, Bian Xiaojun, let's break up, don't bother." Let's be friends again, let's never see each other again!" When he was talking, he tried to control the tears in his eyes, but it was of no avail.

"I didn't say we wanted to break up!" Bian Xiaojun was in a hurry, panting and sat up from the hospital bed, "Did you understand me? I just need time to digest, and I want you to give me this time!"

"How long? How long? A few months or a few years?! You obviously can't accept me like this, even after another 100 years, why don't you just say, 'Ou Xuyang, let's break up'? Because of fear Do you want to take any responsibility? Don’t you want to be this villain? Or are you afraid that you have betrayed what you said back then that you would stay with me for the rest of your life, why will you still be here next year—” Suddenly Ou Xuyang lost his voice, and they looked at each other. I can vividly remember every word and every word on the Lushan train.

Ou Xuyang covered his eyes in pain, and he reluctantly said loudly: "That's enough, you and I don't need to hide like this, just speak up if you have something to say, it's over, I'm not a child, it's just a relationship, don't look at it like that not open!"

It's just a relationship... In his eyes, he and I are just a relationship!

"I told you to wait, why don't you agree!" Bian Xiaojun roared.

"Do you still have to wait? Isn't the result clear enough?! So what if you come to me tomorrow and tell me the answer? It's not the same! If you don't want it to end, you will say it now, but you don't. I already know it, but you just dare not say it..." Ou Xuyang was really sobbing now.

"You knew I was going to break up!" Bian Xiaojun was furious, "We encountered such a thing, but you refused to give me even a little patience! Do you think I feel good?! Seeing you being treated like that Fucking... I just wanted to die that night, you know! When the car hit me, I didn't really hurt at all, why?! Because I thought it was such a relief!"

It was as if a knife had pierced his heart. Ou Xuyang, who had lost too much blood, was cold all over. He stepped back subconsciously, "I'm sorry...I'm sorry for you, I made you want to die...you don't have to die, I I will give you relief now, I will leave here forever, and never let you think of me..."

Bian Xiaojun's eyes were red, and his blurred vision began to turn black due to the lack of oxygen in his brain, "Why is breaking up so easy for you, huh? How could you say it so happily in front of me, huh? I’m probably just a thorn in my heart, right, if you say pull it out, you’ll pull it out, right!”

"I just said what you wanted to say for you!"

"How do you know that's what I thought!"

"Since you don't want to, tell me now that you don't want to break up at all, that you have accepted everything, can you say it?"

After the words fell, there was silence.

Ou Xuyang laughed out loud, and tears fell down his cheeks. Finally, he stopped laughing and crying, "That's it." He opened the door and walked out.