Respect is worse than obedience

"Haruko, you're back."

"Yeah." I was in a bad mood and went back to my room as soon as I got home. I drank some wine on the way back, and my stomach felt a little uncomfortable.

"Haruko, have you been drinking? Do you know that your stomach can't drink." My mother smelled alcohol and knocked on my door.

"Do I know, I only drank a little, I have a headache, and I want to sleep." I made up a reason at random and put it under the bed.

"Haruko, is there something wrong with you? What's the matter, tell Mom."

"It's okay mom, it's late, you go to rest"

Hearing that there was no movement outside the door, I lightly got up and sat on the ground, repeating what Musi said today in my mind.

It's really sad, Musi...

After a sleepless night, when I woke up in the morning, my mother broke down the door and sent me to the hospital.

Gong Qing, you are really pitiful. You put this place in the hospital for a man again and again. One day, you will die in his hands.

"The part of the patient's stomach that was originally removed has grown very well in the past few years. However, drinking alcohol in the past few days has caused great damage to the stomach. I think the parents need to ask if the patient has been stimulated recently."

After listening to the doctor's analysis, I didn't even have the courage to look up.

My mother frowned at me, and finally asked the question.

"Qingzi, tell mom the truth, has that Musi been looking for you these days?"

"No, Mom, why did he come to me? I was worried about work." I kept finding reasons to prevaricate.

"Qingzi, listen to mom and have a good relationship with Fang Yan. Look at your current appearance and stop dating that Musi. Mom doesn't want to lose you yet."

"Mom, I know, how can I be so stupid, even if I don't feel sorry for myself, I have to be worthy of my father."

Mom hugged me, I know, I shouldn't mention my father.

Not long after, Fang Yan came to see me in the hospital. When my mother saw Fang Yan coming, she left the ward without saying a word.

"Gong Qing, what's wrong with you, you know that your stomach is not very good these two days, why do you still drink like this, you don't want to die, look at your face, is there any blood!"

As soon as Fang Yan saw me, she began to scold me. I had no choice but to be scolded if I did something wrong, so I could only listen.

"Okay, okay, I know I was wrong, and I won't do it in the future."

I am comforted.

"Gong Qing, if you do this again in the future, I won't help you anymore. Do you know that your phone call scares me to death?"

Suddenly, Fang Yan burst into tears, which startled me. For them, I will pay more attention in the future.

Fang Yan cried for a while, stopped, and then remembered to ask me why I want to drink again. I indulged once last time, and I have already broken my limit. This time I drank by myself again.

I didn't say a word, so Fang Yan made a rough guess. In fact, she knew everything about me and Mu Xi, and there was nothing to hide.

Fang Yan then stood up and wanted to go to Mu Xi to make a theory, which stopped me. In fact, there is no need for that now.

I stopped Fang Yan, but I didn't expect that another person would look for him.

"I didn't expect to find you here, Musi."

"Auntie, why are you here? What do you need from me?"

"Musi, I beg you, Auntie, don't come to Qingzi again. Since you are already engaged, why do you have to torture him? Your father, you, and we can't afford it. He has already paid the price for being with you , lost Gong Qing's father, I don't want to lose me and his son again."

"Auntie...you...what are you talking about..."

If I knew that my mother was going to find Musi, in the hospital, I would never have let her go.

Because of the needles, my stomach has healed a lot. I couldn’t stay in the hospital, and I was about to be discharged. Although my face was still a little pale, I could still see the past. When I go back, I don’t know if I can do the job of a substitute teacher. I guess I'm looking for a new job.

Just as I was about to leave the hospital, I saw the person I didn't want to see the last few days.

Fang Yan picked me up from the hospital that day, as soon as she saw my expression, she stood in front of me.

"Sir, may I ask if you are..."

Mu Xi didn't even look at her, but stared straight at me behind me, which made me a little puzzled, what happened to him.

"Hey! I was talking to you, I didn't hear you!" Mu Xi instantly ignited Fang Yan's anger.

"Sorry, there's nothing for you here."

Mu Xi pushed Fang Yan away, which made me feel a little bit uncomfortable, and pulled Fang Yan over.

"Sir, I don't seem to know you. This is my girlfriend. Please treat her like this." After a few words, I could feel Musi's huge trembling. I didn't know what he was talking about. What's wrong, all I know is, I need to get out of there quickly.

"Qing'er..."

Hearing this name made me tremble and feel a little dazed.

"I'm sorry, please don't call me that, I'm not familiar with you." I pushed Muxi away and pulled Fang Yan to leave. I couldn't stay here for a moment.

"Qing'er, I know, everything, everything that happened four years ago, I know..."

As I turned to leave, he said this.

I smiled and turned around, "Musi, so what if you know, this is already a fact, now you are engaged to Anna, nothing has changed, please don't change now, I don't want to hear you say you regret it Now, you didn't do anything four years ago. Maybe I didn't understand it four years ago, but now I understand it. I know it wasn't done by you, but you still reflected the facts, Musi, accept your fate, We can never be together."

These words, I can finally say it to him, finally.

I know that Mu Xi is not letting go, but what's the use, I don't want to love anymore.

On the way back, Fang Yan was looking at my expression, showing no expression. I no longer have too much emotion for Mu Xi.

After hearing what I said, Musi stood there for a long time. This is what the aunt at the hospital gate told me later.

When I got home, although I was in a bad mood, I still had to be concerned about my mother's feelings, so I tried my best to pretend to be happy. To my mother, it was unfilial for me to behave like this.

I don't know if my father in the sky will scold me like a dog when he sees me.

At night, the management teacher of the kindergarten called me and asked me why I didn’t come these two days. I thought I would be laid off, but unexpectedly, there was no one in the school, so I explained it to the teacher.

The teacher was very reasonable and allowed me to teach when I was in good health. If I was absent from class for the past two days, it would count as my leave and I would be paid.

I didn't expect the school to treat me so well, no, at that time, I should have thought of why, but I didn't.