If you don't want to be gay today, start driving

For the first time, I discovered that my mother's decision was right.

She told me to be nice to everyone because I couldn't control my desire to be nice to He Yi, no matter how nice I could be to the people around me, it would still highlight my unique and warm liking for He Yi.

I was even afraid that my inexplicable enthusiasm would scare him, and I didn't know where my continuous enthusiasm came from. I was obviously not such a person before.

When I got home that time, I asked her worriedly, "Who is He Yi? I seem to like him very much."

There was no wave in the mother's eyes, but then she covered her mouth and cried bitterly.

She once said that if you fall in love with someone else's love, you may pay it off in your whole life. Everything is owed to others...

I couldn't understand what she was saying at the time.

The world of adults is too complicated, I refuse to understand, all I know is that the man named He Yi makes me feel like him from the bottom of my heart.

Want to be nice to him.

He Yi is so beautiful, it is not an exaggeration to give him all the good things.

I have never taken care of others, but when I am with He Yi, I can do everything, and I naturally want to take care of him, every second.

At that time, I often thought, why am I so superficial, because others are good-looking, so I just silently praise them endlessly.

In my eyes, He Yi is like a cunning, clever little leopard with beautiful fur.

When he turned his back to me, he looked like he was showing his teeth and claws, but when he was facing me, he was instantly gentle and charming. All the sharp teeth were hidden under the luxurious fur. He thought I didn't know how dangerous he was, but I was touched by his presence in my eyes. In front of him was a completely harmless little guy.

Like it's just me.

He was a little cold towards me at the beginning, not the kind of character who easily trusts others.

And he seems to have enemies outside the school. Every time after school, he hides and goes out. Once he was blocked by someone. I wanted to help him, but I saw with my own eyes that he couldn’t even carry a pot of water in front of me. The guy who got up kicked the two people flying, and quickly disappeared at the intersection.

The arrogance in his bones cannot be well concealed by pretending to be cute.

He's really powerful and as dangerous as I imagined.

But I was still worried that he would get hurt, and I showed up when he was blocked for the second time.

He Yi is like a born showman. The moment he saw me, he suddenly softened into that way. He ran away and didn't fight back, and he became a powerless him again.

I know, maybe he needs me.

Since then, every time I have a holiday, I have to send him home first, and then pick him up when school starts. He didn't agree at first, he was very stubborn, but I patted his head and said, "Good boy."

He became very nice.

At first I couldn't figure out why he had to restrain all his sharpness in front of me, but I was willing to escort him.

When I found out later, I really wanted to go back to the past and slap myself twice. Because a beautiful leopard likes you, it doesn’t even dare to show its favorite claws again. It hides for fear of arousing your disgust. You But he never thought about why he wanted to please you, why he cared about your liking.

In the end, I even forgot that He Yi is such a strong person, and being nice to him seemed to be an instinct of my survival. I resisted letting him touch my other side, the crazy and rebellious side. Like he refuses me to know the real him.

We are all afraid of showing our imperfect selves to each other.

But I am not a good person, studying is just a matter of passing by, but I will teach He Yi to study hard, not to skip classes, not to smoke, and not to have any bad habits, if possible, I really want to raise him like he showed in front of me Be obedient like that, always be obedient.

I can feel more and more changes in He Yi, he is softening, as if I witnessed the process of his cold heart gradually melting, I treat him well, and he becomes more and more dependent on me, I think sinisterly , This is really good, he can't leave me, the best.

I thought we would always be like this, but in the second year of high school, I suddenly had a dream, dreaming of the reason why I never thought about why He Yi would become another person in front of me.

I can't remember what kind of dream it was, anyway, I will completely forget it when I wake up every day, I just keep telling myself, don't let He Yi like boys, don't let him like anyone.

Don't let him get hurt.

I remembered a little bit of the time when the mood fluctuated the most in the dream. It seemed that I had an argument with He Yi in the dream. I felt in a very bad mood, but I couldn’t figure out why. Shaved an inch back.

That day He Yi had a stomachache and didn’t go to physical education class, and he ignored me when he returned to the dormitory. I was going to buy him medicine and let him eat, but he didn’t listen. I was upset and forced him to eat and take medicine , but he still lost his temper and didn't want to go to the restaurant with me that night.

I thought this was just the beginning, but I didn't expect that he would start to change his ways and want to leave me later.

I became unable to control myself.

I began to try every means to keep him, only to ask him to treat me like before, and I even did a very shameless thing, I fell in love with him.

God knows how scared I am of him taking this path, but I'm dragging him to hell anyway.

We tugged and tugged and encountered many difficulties.

I was entangled by Lu Hanxue out of nowhere, and what kind of drama was there to marry her. I didn't know her before, and I had to deal with her with the belief that I couldn't embarrass my family. Yat is angry.

I thought, I must be with him no matter what.

But He Yi seemed to be hurt by me somewhere, and he was determined to leave me.

The time he was bullied by the yellow hair, I really wanted to stab that guy to death, but unfortunately someone called the police, the police came, and my family also came. But he was forced to hide his name and go abroad.

He Yi is even more difficult to keep.

Fortunately, I was thick-skinned enough to sneak back to the country to catch him again and again, and refused to let go. In the end, he gave in and we were together.

It feels good to have him, exactly as I imagined, like taming a wild leopard, hugging his beautiful and thin waist, watching his tearful eyes when looking at me, and his hoarse Moan, groan,,... I really love him.

But I have always had doubts in my heart. I have a dream that has not been solved. I didn't expect that after I went abroad recently, the dream became clear.

In the dream, He Yi and I did not have a bad relationship in the second year of high school, but lived in peace until the third year of high school was about to graduate.

He Yi in the dream suddenly told me that he liked me because he wanted to do that kind of thing... I was surprised, I never seemed to think about this in the dream.

Even within a minute after he finished speaking, I imagined countless possibilities. When did he have such an idea?

But I ended up hesitating and giving another kind of ambiguous answer.

When people are very nervous, they always do things that they can’t figure out afterward. For example, why my answer is so stupid and irrelevant. I obviously don’t think that way in my heart. Why do I have to talk cheaply to tease him?

When he said those words, I didn't have a device to understand, why was my mind distracted all the time.

I have always felt that I like He Yi, but I have never thought about the aspect of my liking. I only know that I like to hold him in my hand and pamper him. As for the other things...

I don't want to admit that I'm a little psychologically shadowed, I should be strong enough to have no flaws, but after meeting He Yi, I'm no longer invulnerable.We all know that Ren Gaofei had a same-sex lover before, and I didn't feel much about it, but the two of them came out of the closet at a young age and killed someone... That boy died, I've seen it before, between the eyebrows and He Yi There is a slight resemblance, but I never noticed it until Pang Rui once asked me after knowing He Yi's existence, "You are not secretly in love with Ren Gaofei's ex-boyfriend, are you?"

I'm talking nonsense.

But he said that He Yi and that person really looked alike, and I suddenly realized that there was a little bit of it, but after looking at it for a long time, it was completely different, and there was no resemblance at all.

Totally two people.

But people are always superstitious. Ever since I had this knowledge, I subconsciously resisted that He Yi would go this way.

I couldn't tell why, but I was flustered, and I warned He Yi countless times that he must never fall in love with boys.

He might think I was baffled then.

So even if I wake up and don't remember the dream, I will resist him liking men.

The one in the dream was particularly afraid of losing him. With him, it seemed that he had countless weaknesses. A simple sentence from others, a curse that was not a curse, would cause panic for a long time.

I witnessed Ren Gaofei's so-called love tragedy at the beginning, and He Yi, who I dote on so much, would never allow him to walk on this path.

But in the dream, I fell in love with him in the end, and loved him so much that I was sure that when I woke up, I still loved him.

When He Yi didn't reveal all this to me, I could still pretend to be a fool, thinking that we could get along well like this forever. I didn't even have any plans for my future life, it was only him, only him.

After figuring it out, I realized that everything had been very clear all along.

Why did He Yi and I change ourselves for each other?For him, I became a completely bad person who I despise. For me, he put away all his sharpness and stayed by my side like a tamed cat. He obviously has such a sharp claw, but he never lets it go. hurt me.

That's because we like each other.

I am very happy, is He Yi and I also connected in the dream?But when the dream changed, what appeared in front of my eyes was He Yi's corpse.

I don't know what happened in the middle, but I feel like I'm really cursed.

Ever since I knew that He Yi and Ren Gaofei's ex-employee were somewhat similar, I was very disturbed. I was very afraid that something would happen to him one day because of this, but my prediction was completely correct. Not long after I knew it, He Yi...

I just can't believe it.

After waking up, I recalled that He Yi had been in a bad state since the sophomore year of high school, and he would never put away his eager minions from me. Even when he frequently came into contact with the boys around him, Hong Yangfei and Ren Gaofei, I realized that since then Since then, everything has changed.

I am also changing.

I know that I need to change and do something, but I can't tell what is right. Is it right to keep He Yi by my side forever?

If Yi Cong is looking for a boy, shouldn't he be with me?

We should be... in love.

I refused, crazily resisting.

But in the days that followed, I still repeated that dream every day: He Yi died in front of me again and again.

I resented why fate was so cruel, it made me confused for more than a month and couldn't tell which side was reality, but I kept losing He Yi.

I feel like I'm going crazy.

But I finally woke up.

After waking up and looking at the date, my dear He Yi is still waiting for me in China. He is a very good sports student, and because of his good looks, he has many fans.

He is my boyfriend who I have liked for a long time.

Time and space are probably really messed up. I seem to have predicted the future that didn't happen in advance by mistake. I know what kind of pain my He Yi has endured alone and was born again.

After I returned to China, I couldn’t help but tell him that I guessed it. I knew something had happened to him, so I kept getting reminders of dreams... Fortunately, we were lucky enough to piece together again to change everything.

He Yi also acquiesced, such absurd things happened between us.

But the cruelty of fate will never end. When I thought we would never have any obstacles, he hugged me and fell asleep sweetly, never waking up.

It seemed that after all the grievances had been washed away, he left with peace of mind.

I guard him every day in the hospital, he is quiet.

Everyone thinks that He Yi may be dying, no one knows what kind of disease it is, why he suddenly has no signs of life, but I will never give up on him, he will definitely wake up, so many things, so no We have all reversed the possible things, how could we separate because of a simple coma.

I was right, he was really awake.

Ask me how many times I cried, I really don't remember. ,

Thinking of what happened in the past two years, I couldn't help but breathe a sigh of relief. He finally stayed by my side, completely.

I was probably the one who was talking about crying with joy, as long as I thought of him coming back, I couldn't help but burst into tears.

Finally took him back to the home of the two of us.

I couldn't help but wanted to cry again, I didn't want to be seen by him, so I could only make an excuse to go to the kitchen to make soup for him, but He Yi didn't save me any face, even ran to the kitchen, and saw the man squatting on the ground crying bitterly I.

I reluctantly wiped away my tears.

He Yi comforted me for a while, then suddenly asked me, "Jiang Qin."

"Ok?"

"Are you a crying bag?"

"..." He Yi is like this, he really doesn't save me any face, I stammered, "No..."

"You are," he pinched my nose and rubbed against my body, "tell me how many times I've seen you cry? If you keep crying like this, what will you do if you become a sissy in the future? Isn't it sissy? ...uh... let me go!"

He hugged him tightly and kissed him for a while, "Baby, do you think I'm a mother? Is it a crying bag?"

He nodded boldly, "Yes, that's right."

He Yi, you are finished, your husband is angry.

【I am He Yi】

I am He Yi.

Jiang Qin is really terrible, crying at every turn, crying and crying, doesn't he have to linger when there is a long drought and rain, he is really... just fucking busy crying.

I felt very uncomfortable. After lying down for more than a month, I felt that my muscles and bones were not moving. After hugging him for a while, I suddenly had an idea. Maybe after the two of us finished the life-harmonious exercise, I could move my muscles and bones.

One must know that holding back for such a long time, even though one is not awake, one is almost becoming a monk with pure six senses.

As a result, I was thinking wildly here, Jiang Qin suddenly put out the fire, took off the apron, picked me up by the waist, and said viciously, "Baby, do you really think I'm a crying bag?"

"Hmm..." I shouldn't have wronged him.

He hugged me and walked quickly to the bedroom, "Then I'll leave my talk here today, don't cry."

"Huh? Why am I crying?"

He bowed his head and kissed me, "Because your husband will fuck you."