The overlord's Bai Yueguang always wants to commit suicide, what should I do?

"Xi Qin, no matter what you will face, will you be with me?"

At this moment, Xi Qin's uneasiness calmed down. He held the phone quietly until the sun shone into his eyes, shaking him so much that he couldn't open them. I wonder if the light hurt his eyes, and the tears stopped. Can't stop dripping out.

"...Yes, of course I would," Xi Qin wiped the corners of his eyes bewilderedly like a child, and made up his mind, "I'll come out with you, you wait for Brother Cheng!"

"Hello?! Qinqin...!"

Without further ado, Xi Qin hung up the phone, opened the Weibo account, almost finished the declaration of coming out, and just waited to press the send button. A call flashed and interrupted him, and he looked at the caller ID His hand almost crooked - "Cheng Da Boss".

This is Cheng Qi's number. As the big boss in front of him, Xi Qin didn't dare to hang up his phone, but he didn't know why he called him at such a critical time, so he answered suspiciously: "Hello? Mr. Cheng... "

"Xi Qin, what are you doing?" Cheng Qi's tone was extraordinarily serious.

Xi Qin laughed: "I didn't do anything, I finished work early today, and I'm going to take pictures..."

"Don't believe anything that kid Cheng Qi tells you, don't be impulsive, understand?" Cheng Qi said earnestly, "You have to be clear about your current identity, and Cheng Chi Media will pay for all your irrational behavior, but even if Cheng Qi I'll give you the bottom line, and I have to tell you, think about the consequences."

Although Cheng Qi's words were serious, Xi Qin was awakened by one sentence. He is not an ordinary person now.

Like being poured by a bucket of ice water, Xi Qin woke up instantly, and the hot spark in his heart was extinguished. Chao Chengqi apologized and promised again and again that he would not do stupid things, and hung up the phone.

On the other end, Cheng Qi frowned and put down his phone, staring at Cheng Qi who was sitting opposite him, gnashing his teeth, wishing to tear him apart: "Don't harm my artist! You fucking come out of the closet!"

Cheng Qi didn't change his face: "What about your family's, my family's, didn't you just sign A Qin reluctantly when you came in? Now you're rushing to get it again?"

Cheng Qi stopped talking nonsense with him, and asked him directly: "Don't be poor with me, what should we do about this matter? There is nothing you can do if you suppress it, Aunt...you already know?"

Cheng Qi knew that he was asking about coming out of the closet, it was indeed a little sudden, no one knew that it was secretly photographed, Cheng's mother was not old when she was not sick, she often surfed the Internet, and she was very concerned about Cheng Qi's news, who Zhizhi saw the news that Cheng Qi was secretly photographed today, and asked Xiao Chang and Lao Liu who had been following his son in disbelief.

Xiao Chang was fine, old Liu's honesty was exposed all at once, and now Cheng's mother knew even more that her son was not only gay, but also adopted a starlet, and even brought him into the media company of his nephew Cheng Qi.

Cheng Qi wanted to give his mother some psychological preparation first, and even talked to the family doctor to ask him to give his mother some psychological counseling on the acceptance of homosexuality, but it ended unexpectedly before it even started.

Cheng Qi got the news from his hometown right away, the housekeeper often called with a tight tone, telling him to go home at night.

"It's okay, I'll go back and talk to my mother," Cheng Qi said calmly, "I'll leave it to you, Ah Qin."

Cheng Qi stared at his back suspiciously, and stopped him abruptly: "Hey! Do you really want to spend the rest of your life with Xi Qin?"

Cheng Qi turned around and asked him, "Then what about you and Yu En?"

This stopped Cheng Qi from asking, he was stunned for a while, then shook his head in a daze: "I don't know... If Yu En doesn't accept it, I can't either."

Cheng Qi didn't have any worries about coming out. He had two fathers above him, and he himself was not born to his father, but was inherited from a side branch of the married family.

And the problems he has to face are not easy. If the person he likes doesn't like him, there is nothing he can do about it.

But Cheng Qi smiled: "It's nothing more than a difficult brother, come on brother, we all have to work hard."

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Xi Qin calmed down, and Cheng Qi sent him a wechat message telling him not to worry, he would take care of it, as long as Xi Qin said that, he would not be afraid of anything.

After repeatedly looking at the messages from Cheng Qi, Xi Qin finally felt relieved. The photographer also came at this time, so he had to hurry up and finish the shooting.

The sky was getting dark, and it was the golden hour of the evening sun. Xi Qin hadn't gotten away from the incident just now, and stood absent-mindedly in front of the camera, not in the mood.

"I'm sorry, Brother Qin may be a little tired after shooting for a day." A Chi quickly said to the photographer.

The photographer groaned and touched his chin, waved his hand and said: "It's okay, this kind of empty state is not bad, his shape is suitable for a natural expression... Light up a little bit! Okay—the first picture, look at the left!"

Xi Qin followed the instructions and looked to the left, leaving a delicate and cool side face. No expression is the best expression for him. Only Xi Qin can afford such an image of a icy beauty.

Posing like a marionette, after taking pictures for a long time, the sun was about to set, the light was getting dimmer, and Xi Qin was a little tired, the more so, the more paralyzed his face became, and there were even icicles in his eyes.

A Chi on the side was terrified, afraid that Xi Qin's eyes would anger the photographer.

However, the photographer became more and more excited as he took more shots, especially this kind of cold eyes that don't treat you as a human being, he likes it even more!This is what an ice beauty should look like!

Xi Qin's back was sore and exhausted, and he had to pose in various poses. His body was frozen, and he looked at A Chi hopelessly, as if asking him when it would end.

A Chi was stared coldly at Xi Qin, startled, and innocently replied with a dazed and ignorant expression.

The light was not good enough, and Xi Qinqiang cheered up with the photographer's words "Okay, the last one". In a trance, he saw A Chi's hand, and the phone that was holding him turned on, and a name appeared on the interface—" Cheng Qi".

It was Cheng Qi who called him.

At that moment, all the exhaustion disappeared, Xi Qin stared at the name intently, the frost in his eyes melted, and there was a smile on his mouth, as if in spring, everything was revived and full of vitality.

This scene was kept in the last photo of this shooting, and was later regarded as a treasure by Xi Qin's fans. It was placed in the last photo of Xi Qin's first photo album, named "melting". Qin, will take out this photo, and everyone will fall instantly.

After finishing everything and returning to the hotel, it was already eight o'clock in the evening. Xi Qin was so tired that he was sleepy when he touched the bed. It was his little cleanliness that forced him to take a shower, lay down on the bed again, and glanced at WeChat with the remaining strength. ...There is no news about Cheng Kei.

He was a little uneasy for a moment, he knew that Cheng Qi was going to meet his elders tonight, and he only had time to make a phone call to reassure him, but now it might be so difficult that he can't even use his mobile phone.

In order not to cause trouble for him, Xi Qin didn't ask any more questions, but just sent a "good night" and stared blankly at Cheng Qi's WeChat avatar.

It was the same black cat, both like him and Cheng Qi, alone in the snow, finally seeing the dawn of hope, the light dimmed again, and rumors and gossip stabbed in all directions like needles.

"... Homosexuality? Oh my god, you blinded me for nothing, and you actually want to confess to him, disgusting!"

"...Men like men? It's not a pervert!"

"...I heard that this kind of person is very promiscuous, don't get in touch with him! Be careful!"

The numerous and noisy voices were overwhelming, like tentacles surging in the darkness, eating away at everything.

The black cat seemed to move, took an attacking posture, grinned hoarsely at the danger around it, and was finally swallowed by the darkness.

Xi Qin was taken aback, and tried to open his eyes wide while he was half asleep, only to realize that it was all his own illusion, the screen of the phone went black, reflecting his lacklustre face.

After a while, he rubbed his face hard on the pillow, pulled out the pen and paper, used the darkness to infinitely expand the despair and struggle in his heart, tore open the painful hole, and cruelly inspired .

He knows how to write the theme song for the movie version of "The Era of Backlight". Now, the youthful youth of the protagonists, the pains of countless ideals and reality intertwined, let's use his sleepless nights tonight as a coloring point .

Xi Qin is not the only one who can't sleep all night tonight, and Cheng Qi, who is thousands of kilometers away, is also the same.

He didn't expect that he was a big man, almost thirty, and he was locked in the house by his old mother and couldn't go out.

When Cheng Qi came home, Cheng Mu was still very normal at first, she asked about her health and care, and didn't mention anything about the closet, but before he could react, he went to the bathroom during the meal time, and when he returned to his room, he found that His cell phone and keys were gone, and he turned to open the door, which was also locked.

"...Mom, open the door." Cheng Qi knocked on the door helplessly, knowing that the old lady was standing outside.

The stubborn mother was silent for a while, and then her voice came from the crack of the door: "Reflect on yourself, don't go to work tomorrow, I will help you ask for leave, you have food in the drawer, don't starve yourself Mom, go talk to Cheng Qi."

Cheng Qi was helpless: "Don't be like this... I was wrong, my son was wrong, I didn't tell you earlier, I have always been that kind of person, I can't change it, I can't reflect on it, the company has a morning meeting tomorrow, I can't absent……"

"It's okay if you don't reflect! Give me a good rest! What if I'm tired and sick?" Cheng's mother was a little excited, and she choked up, "You can't leave anymore. There are so many people in the family, but you are the only one left for my mother." ..."

Cheng Qi's heart was twisted for a moment. He knew that his mother had been through a lot these years. Cheng's mother was originally just a well-educated young lady. Her parents were in trouble and married to start a family. The rare true love in the family marriage, but as soon as she came, she met Cheng's family. Going downhill, all the way was hard, finally got Cheng Qi, but Cheng's father became sick from overwork.

Until seven years ago, Cheng's father couldn't bear the pain and committed suicide. Cheng's family was on the verge of bankruptcy, and Cheng Qi was still studying abroad. All the burdens were on Cheng's mother. Follow her.

Only this time, he could only go against his mother's wishes.

"I'm sorry, Mom," Cheng Qi leaned against the door and said in a low voice, "My son is unfilial and has kept you from hiding it for so many years, but I just want to love someone who happens to be the same gender as me. Second Uncle and the others are also very happy ?”

His second uncle, that is, Cheng Qi's father, had a gay man who immigrated abroad. The two got a certificate. Their son, Cheng Qi, planned to go abroad in another three to five years and completely ignored him.

When he was a teenager, when Cheng Qi realized his own sexuality, he felt that his second uncle was living a happy life. Although his own family was relatively happy, he could not ignore his unique sexuality, he was depressed and longing for it.

As he grows older, he wants to find a partner more and more without restraint, so that he can live a life like a fairy couple like his second uncle. If he wants to have offspring, he can adopt another child, how nice...

Also how difficult.

It is so difficult to meet such a person who must be him. It is so difficult that he searched hard for ten years before he found a child who was half a year old. Watching him holding a guitar on the stage of the bar, pretending to be Singing like an adult, he fell into it unknowingly.

Later, I found it difficult because the child disappeared and I couldn't find it. The bar closed down, the phone number was empty, and the little guy's name was not asked clearly. The object of love at first sight just disappeared.

It's too difficult for me, Cheng Qi thought.

Later, when Xi Qin reappeared in his field of vision, he focused on keeping a close eye on him, for fear that he would miss another five or six years. His heart could afford to wait, but his time did not.

Now, there is another difficulty... His mother, the mother he has never disobeyed since he was a child.

Cheng's mother sneered, but did not speak, Cheng Qi didn't understand why her mother had been so indifferent to her second uncle and the others all these years, it was completely different from the brothers and sisters when her father was alive.

"Okay, don't say any more, take a good rest and go to sleep."

Cheng's mother left, and Cheng Qi didn't knock on the door again, both of them need to calm down and think about what to do.

Looking back at this familiar room, Cheng Kei has not been back for a long time since he was a nap until he was 15 years old and went out to study. The furnishings of the room have not changed, except that all electronic devices and communication tools have been confiscated.

Even the floor-to-ceiling windows were locked from the outside, and they couldn't be opened without a key, and the only way to get out was by breaking the glass, but Cheng Qi didn't want to have too much trouble with his mother for the time being, so this night... let's compromise.

Not being able to contact Xi Qin, Cheng Qi was also a little uneasy, but he had already asked Cheng Qi, so there should be no problem, but on his own side, it was the first time he met such a tough mother, which really caught him off guard and made him dumbfounded.

I don't know how Xi Qin would feel if he heard that his man was locked at home by his old mother and couldn't get out.

"Ah-"

On the other side, Xi Qin, who was turning grief and anger into inspiration, couldn't help but sneezed, and quickly wrapped his clothes tightly for fear that he would catch a cold. A grueling ailment cannot come at such a critical period.

"...Brother Cheng..." Xi Qin was finally so sleepy as he was writing, he lay down on the scarf Cheng Qi left behind and rolled a couple of times, rubbing against each other, sniffing the vague smell , fell asleep...