cold flame

After Lin Mo practiced the piano, he lay face down on the sofa. Xiao Bai came over and scratched the sofa with his paws to attract the owner's attention. Lin Mo took out a toy from under the coffee table and gave it to him, while he watched the little guy running around alone listlessly.

At this time, I suddenly received a call from Lin's mother.During this period of time, in order not to disturb his recovery and recuperation, his parents basically contacted Gao Wenxuan and learned about his son's recent situation from his son-in-law.

Sometimes when calling Gao Wenxuan, Lin Mo was asked to answer the phone, carefully for fear that he would give up on himself after knowing the truth about his palm injury.If you call at this time today, you should have something to say.

"Momo, you're home alone now, what are you doing?" As soon as she picked up the phone, Mother Lin's familiar voice came.

"I didn't do anything, I just finished practicing the piano."

Mother Lin immediately asked nervously, "Can you practice the piano now?"

"I practiced with my left hand."

"Well, Wenxuan told me a few days ago that you were still in a bad mood and had never played the piano. It seems that you have almost recovered now."

Lin Mo responded in a low voice.

"Since there are no major problems, then go home. You have lived there for such a long time, and it is not good to bother brother-in-law. Although Wenxuan always said that it is okay to let you continue to live, but you After discussing it with Dad, I still think it's not good to bother him all the time, and your brother-in-law is also very busy at work, anyway, now that you're getting better, come back and live, what do you think?"

"Ah."

"What's the matter, Momo, are you in a bad mood? Your dad and I feel weird not seeing you at home every day. It's better to go home early. It's almost New Year's Eve. Why don't you live in someone else's house..."

"Got it, Mom."

"Okay, then remember to tell Wenxuan, tell me in advance when you get home, mom will cook your favorite dishes for you."

After hanging up the phone, Lin Mo ran to the balcony to put away all his clothes, put them on the sofa and folded them one by one. Xiao Bai seemed to feel the master's determination to leave, and walked around beside him, constantly rubbing against the master's face. The legs tried to make Lin Mo spend more time with it.

The folded clothes were placed on the single sofa, and Lin Mo teased Xiao Bai absent-mindedly.After the incident the day before yesterday, he and Gao Wenxuan had completely reached an impasse.

The two stopped talking and walking the dog together. Except for the sentence that Gao Wenxuan made dinner yesterday and told him to eat, they didn't even have normal daily greetings, let alone sending him back to his room after watching the movie like before.Although Lin Mo always went to take a shower immediately after eating, avoiding any chance to get along with Gao Wenxuan.

He didn't know why he did this, he just wanted to escape subconsciously, not to face that person who was so close and difficult to guess, and not to delve into that sudden kiss.Although returning to the original point again, the day-to-day togetherness and increasing intimacy during this period are gone.

In fact, there is no call from Mother Lin, and he is also thinking about going home.

Originally, I came here temporarily to go to the hospital for reexamination. Seeing that the injury is recovering in a good direction, I don't have to go to and from the hospital for a long time. Why is it so late?It's not that he hasn't asked himself, but he can't face the most authentic answer in his heart.

And everything always comes to an end, Lin Mo decided to wait for Gao Wenxuan to come back at night and tell him that he will go home tomorrow.

As it turned out, Gao Wenxuan didn't go home for dinner, and he didn't text or call to notify him. He just ordered takeaway for Lin Mo just like he didn't reply when something happened before.

It rained at night, accompanied by rolling thunder, which was clear to my ears.

The person lying on the bed turned over impatiently, opened his eyes, and stared at the white light flashing in the room through the curtains. He had insomnia, and he couldn't figure out the reason for his insomnia.

A relationship that was clearly ready to give up before the injury, now it seems that it is impossible to face it calmly.Counting it down, the days of living here are not many, but every day has become a crucial memory. If it weren't for Gao Wenxuan, maybe after he learned that he could no longer play the piano, he would not be able to accept it so quickly.

It was Gao Wenxuan who allowed him to vent the anguish in his heart, and brought him out of the dark fortress with his own hands.Every careful move, every soft smile, can let him be himself without any scruples, whether it is frustration, sadness, unwillingness, or regaining the courage of faith, because of the silent companionship, it is strong enough to support As he relied on these, he quickly adjusted to the most familiar self.

Like a ray of light in the darkness, it saved him.

But at the same time, this person is also an abyss heavier than the darkness. Seeing that Lin Mo was about to take the first step to escape completely, he was pushed into an abyss beyond redemption.He can't speak, and he can't expect others to extend their hands. He can only stay in the dusty corner under moral ethics, quietly waiting for the day he is forgotten.

There will always be a day when you forget it. If you forget this feeling, you can really let it go, right?He asked himself uncertainly in his heart.

Winter nights are always extraordinarily quiet. Lin Mo listened to the sound of freezing rain hitting the balcony in the warm room. Along with the muffled thunder, there was a sudden sound of the door opening and closing—Gao Wenxuan came back.

Turn on the phone screen, it's a quarter past twelve. Since living here, except for that overtime work, Gao Wenxuan has never been home at this time.Lin Mo waited and heard more movement outside every day, so he got out of bed and opened the door.

The living room was dark with no lights on.Lin Mo, who has adapted to this environment, saw that the other party was sitting on the sofa, under the jacket that was casually thrown aside, it was Xiao Bai who was constantly curious and rubbed up, attracted by strange smells.

"Did it wake you up?" Gao Wenxuan asked in a deep voice, looking at Lin Mo in the dark.

"No."

Lin Mo answered while standing a few steps away from the door of his room.There was a rumble of thunder, and lightning shone in through the floor-to-ceiling windows of the living room, instantly brightening the room. In the flash, Gao Wenxuan, who was sitting where he was, was still staring at him, with a somewhat unfathomable and weird expression on his cold face.

"My mother called today, and I plan to go back tomorrow." Lin Mo still said it through the cold living room.

"That's it..." Gao Wenxuan stood up suddenly, stretched out his hand to pull down the flat tie, and walked towards Lin Mo.

A few meters away, a smell of alcohol rushed over, "How did you come back after drinking so much?"

The people who came over ignored his words and stood in front of Lin Mo. The approaching distance made him take a step back, leaning his body against the white wall. Lin Mo frowned and said, "I've finished what I want to say."

"I haven't agreed to let you go yet." What is different from whispering is the oppression of different opinions in the words.

"I can leave as I want, when do I still need your consent?" Lin Mo raised his eyes and looked at him coldly. When he was about to turn around after saying this, his left hand was held and pressed against the wall.

"What if... I don't want you to go?"

Those deep eyes seemed to melt into the boundless night, surrounding Lin Mo without warning.The warm breath pressed against his cheeks, and the smell of alcohol permeated everywhere, making people slightly dizzy, but when he suddenly thought of something, his eyes darkened.

"I'm not my sister, you're drunk again."

Gao Wenxuan froze for a moment, let go of Lin Mo, a wry smile appeared on the corner of his mouth, and said in a slightly hoarse voice: "Fool, how could I have misunderstood you."

Looking at the man who didn't know why, Gao Wenxuan couldn't help gently stroking his cheeks and his chin that had already healed and become smooth, and said in a serious tone: "Don't you understand? I like you, or... is it—— "

It doesn't matter what the following words are, just these four simple words are enough to ignite a raging flame in Lin Mo's heart.

He couldn't restrain the agitation, and his body made the most honest move in an instant, and responded to this hopeless confession that he had been waiting for for seven years with a passionate kiss.

He never thought that someone would light a lamp for him in the dark and cold corner, and the deep and muddy swamp turned into a solid and broad shore.

Those feelings that have been going all the way from the beginning to the end are like moss growing in the crevices of rocks for years, covering all his sorrows and joys in a thick layer, and cutting off his nostalgia for Xiangyang.Humidity, denseness, dirt... the feeling of carrying all these is too heavy.

I can't count how many emotions are derived from the madness at certain moments, and I sigh and struggle for it.He was confused by his identity as a man, depressed by the insurmountable ethical boundaries, and deeply repented of his heart that he knew he couldn't get close to but still fell into.You can't retreat or advance, and you will always be on the edge of giving up and continuing.

No one can understand his unspeakable secret, and he has long been prepared to grow old with this secret.Or bury it in your heart for a long time, and wait for the day when you finally alienate that person, the bitter memories will gradually fade away, and what remains is a ray of sweetness that cannot be extinguished alone.

At this moment, the sweetness is filled to the whole chest by the person in front of him, and the temperature melted in the depths of his body is about to make him shed tears at any time.

Lin Mo closed his eyes and poured his surging emotions into this kiss.

Knitted coats, shirts, belts, crumpled ties... spread all the way from the door to the bed, panting (hexie) and moaning (hexie) endlessly, naked (hexie) bodies tightly entangled, and the flashes outside the curtains When you enter the room, you can see the spring color that is the same as the indoor temperature.

They explore every part of each other's bodies, confirming more than the senses.Unknown to plunder, to ask, to suck the elegant neck, the beautiful collarbone, the tight chest... as if it is enough to imprint the traces of oneself on the other party's whole body. Savor the pleasure of encroachment.

Only the moment of intersecting can be the truest proof that they are fascinated by each other and are holding on to each other desperately.Ethics and morals, relatives' public opinion, and guilt are all wiped out, and they will sink together.

To climb to the highest peak together, and then drown in the deep sea of ​​desire together.

This ultimate beauty is born because of the extreme unhappiness.