like a dog

Han Xuan and Lin Xun had their wedding at the end of June.The sea in Qingying was very mild that day, the waves rolled over and the fine sand was soft.Han Xuan put on the ring again for Lin Xun. Unlike before, it was put on the ring finger of his right hand this time.

The lack of a little finger does not affect life, but when Lin Xun washes his hands, he occasionally looks at his left hand in a daze for a while.The news of his return was only told to Lin You, Yu Wen and Yu Qi.According to Lin Xun's own wishes, the tombstone was still kept, and only the people buried at that time were reburied.

So there were fewer people attending his wedding than at his funeral.

Standing beside Han Xun, Yu Qi turned to tell him about the bird flying across the sea.The waves hit Han Xun's feet, tickling his ankles.Han Xun lowered his head and smiled, as if he saw the snow-white waves.He was in shock for too long, and the lack of oxygen in the brain caused sudden blindness. When Han Xun found out that he could not see, he was calmer than the rest of the time when he stayed in front of the hospital bed.

"Fool, why cry, I'm not dead."

Han Xun felt more numb than sad.He suffered from insomnia all night, and when the light came in, the grayness in front of his eyes seemed to have bleached white.Think of it as GameOver opening RoundTwo, life is your own, you can't be ruined once by others, and ruined by yourself again.

The members of his own family still have to recognize him. Lin Youlai asked Han Xun what he wanted, and Han Xun said it was casual. "That's it, there is no need to change the name. If the surname is Lin, isn't it even more confusing?"

After Lin You left, Han Xun leaned on the hospital bed and looked at the blinds following the faint light.He blinked, even if he couldn't see, there was still a difference between opening and closing his eyes.

"Do you think I'm pitiful?" Yu Qi didn't say anything, but Han Xun knew that his eyes must be red.He wanted to laugh, but couldn't hold back the tears.

"I feel pretty miserable myself."

When Yu Wen came to Zhangzhou to see Lin Xun, Lin You bought him an apartment near Chongming Hospital.After Han Xun was discharged from the hospital, he lived with Yu Wen.Yu Qi also applied for a leave of absence from school and moved his luggage back from school.The two lived under the same roof, and they became brothers in name before their love affair started.

Although Yu Qi is an orphan adopted by Yu Wen in his early years, in the legal sense, Yu Wen is his father.If Lin You and Yu Wen hadn't planned to have twins back then, Han Xun would have to call him brother like Lin Xun.

But the two of them seemed to have reached a tacit agreement, and neither of them mentioned it.Eating and living together, we talked less than when we were separated by train.

Han Xun gradually adapted to the life of blindness. Before he was discharged from the hospital, Yu Wen cleaned up the apartment, moved those fragile items, and wrapped the corners of the cabinets.But Han Xun was not familiar with the layout of the room, and his leg injury was just right, so he would bump into it if he was not careful.Yu Qi put the strings on the tables, chairs and cabinets to hang bells, and it was only after that that he realized that Han Xun would sleepwalk at night.

Yu Qi heard noises coming from the living room in the middle of the night, so he got up on tiptoe to look, and found Han Xun standing in the living room alone.He thought Han Xun was getting up to drink water, but he didn't respond when he called him softly, so he realized that he might be sleepwalking.He tried to hold Han Xun's hand, but seeing that he didn't respond much, he took his hand and walked slowly towards the bedroom.

Yu Qi didn't know whether Han Xun had been like this before, or if this problem just appeared recently.He pulled Han Xun to sit down on the bed, and Han Xun sat quietly by the bed, breathing steadily, his eyelashes drooping, much quieter than usual.Yu Qi looked at his unfocused eyes under the moonlight, and held him in his arms silently for a while.He fell asleep holding his hand and didn't let go all night.

The next day, Yu Qi found an opportunity to talk to Yu Wen about this matter, and Yu Wen also felt that the matter was a bit tricky. Han Xun's temperament was very similar to Lin Xun's when he was a child. Hard to say.But no matter how stubborn or strong he is, his heart is soft.

Perhaps Han Zheng did give Han Xun a chance to be born and raised him, but that was only out of his selfishness.He never regarded Han Xun as his son, nor did he treat him as a real person.

He gave him a chance to live, and killed him with his own hands.

No one can bear the pain of being discarded by those closest to him without hesitation.Han Xun pretended to be nonchalant, but everyone could see how reluctant he was.If he is forced to see a psychiatrist at this time, I am afraid that there will be greater resistance, which will be counterproductive.

Although Lin You and Yu Wen are Han Xun's biological parents, blood relationship is not a panacea.Han Xun's scarred heart cannot be healed with just a few hugs and a few belated words of care.Lin Xun couldn't intervene in this matter, and the only thing that could make Han Xun open up now was the remaining time.

What Yu Wen meant was to press the button and not mention it, and then discuss with him to see the doctor when Han Xun's condition improved.After thinking about it, Yu Qi thought it made sense, so he went to sleep with Han Xun with the pillow and quilt that night.

"What are you doing? I don't know how to avoid suspicion...I'm your brother now."

"Come on, it's you who call me brother according to my age."

Yu Qi muttered in a low voice, usually doing things slowly, but now he spreads the quilt very neatly.Han Xun didn't have the energy to make trouble with him, so he fell asleep too.The two of them slept in their respective quilts at first, and after turning off the lights, they chatted and chatted together before they got into the same quilt.

"Brother Yu, is it not good for you to be like this?"

Han Xun smiled and bit the accent on the address, Yu Qi blushed and coughed under the quilt.They were holding hands under the quilt, and Han Xun tapped his fingers on the back of Yu Qi's hand, and slowly fell asleep.

After two o'clock in the morning, Yu Qi found that he was empty again.Han Xun lowered his head and walked slowly towards the door of the bedroom. Yu Qi hurriedly got out of bed with his pillow in his arms and stood in front of him.Han Xun bumped into a soft wall, was stunned for a moment, turned around and continued walking.Yu Qi also hugged the pillow and turned around until Han Xun wobbled back to the direction of the bed before hiding aside.

Han Xun fell down on the bed, pressed against the quilt and closed his eyes again.Afraid that he would get up again, Yu Qi dug out a tie from the drawer, carefully tied it around Han Xun's wrist, and tied the other end on his hand.Han Xun didn't get up again, but on the second day, Yu Qi really couldn't get up.He was firmly tied to the head of the bed, and the tie was still tied in a knot.

Han Xun fumbled to open the door and went out, but he still had a bad face when the door was closed.

"I really don't see that you are this kind of person."

Yu Qi wants to cry but has no tears, his heart is full of me, not me.

At night, Han Xun lay far away, two people could be squeezed between them.Yu Qi huddled in his own bed and didn't say a word.In the middle of the night, Han Xun fell asleep, and hung one leg across Yu Qi's body.Yu Qi was so stressed that his back ached, and he silently moved to the side.But thankfully, he didn't wander around that night.

Several months passed, and Han Xun's leg injury was completely healed, but his eyes still hadn't improved.Han Xun also adapted to this kind of life. Lin Xun gave him a computer for the blind. He leaned on the sofa and held his notebook, typing on the keyboard more slickly than Yu Qi.The frequency of sleepwalking at night has also decreased a lot, and sometimes I will be pulled back to bed by the sleepy rest period just after waking up.

Han Xun was a little confused about waking up in Yu Qi's arms in the morning, but he didn't ask, and just yawned as usual.

This week Yu Wen went back to Qingying to deal with the store, and there were only Yu Qi and Han Xun left in the apartment.Han Xun shook Da Da Da's wet hair, wiped his hands on his pajamas, plugged in the hair dryer and let it blow a few times, and he was done.

"No, you'll wet the pillow later." Yu Qi pulled him back and pressed him against the edge of the bathtub, Han Xun grumbled and pursed his lips, but he also sat down and let him do it.

Yu Qi blows his half-dry hair, and touches the warm hair with his fingers, which seems to be very soft.The bathroom was full of the whirring of the hair dryer, and the two of them seemed to have suddenly quieted down.Han Xun sat by the bathtub, like a small animal wet by the rain, his fluffy fur softened, and he finally showed some fragile embarrassment.

"Actually, that's pretty good."

Yu Qi turned off the hair dryer, Han Xun still lowered his head, the water droplets wet his eyelashes, and the hot wind made his cheeks a little red.

"Otherwise, when I look in the mirror, I don't even know who the person I see is."

Yu Qi squatted on the bed, Han Xun's eyes were wet with water, they were still bright, but without focus.Yu Qi's eyes were flushed, if he could change, he would rather give him half of his own light.But Han Xun's blindness has nothing to do with the eyes themselves, even if the cornea is replaced, it will not have any effect.

There is no 100% in medicine, and doctors never only talk about probability.No one knows the [-]% or [-]% possibility, whether it will be better tomorrow, a week later, or it will not be better in this life.

"You are you."

Yu Qi knelt on the wet tiles, held Han Xun's hand and said, "When I met you in the game, I didn't even know your name. I came to find you by train, and I didn't even know you What do you look like? Tall, short, fat, or thin. I come to see you, believe in you, and like you, just because you are you."

Han Xun lowered his head and laughed, as if he had reached a critical point, he slid down from the bathtub and hugged Yu Qi tightly.He squeezed his arms tightly and wept, the pain that was almost suppressed until it rotted, finally burst out.

Yu Qi's eyes were already red, but his nails sank into his flesh, so he gritted his teeth to hold back the tears.He used to think that being weak would not harm anyone, and that even if Omega was a little incompetent, it seemed that there was nothing wrong with it.But rather than being a weakling, he wants to be another person's pillar more and more.

After Han Xun couldn't see, Yu Qi often walked around the room with his eyes closed. He remembered the furnishings in the room better than he did.He learned to cook and ran five kilometers around the apartment building every day. On the day he was discharged from the hospital, he also ran in and out to carry things.Some things are the most difficult just the first step, just like now, he has the strength to hug him up.

Yu Qi caressed his face and kissed him, in the bedroom with the lights off, it seemed like they were the only ones burning with tiny gasps.Yu Qi lowered his head and kissed him, Han Xun was itchy from the kiss, and when he couldn't see it, his other feelings were magnified.He opened his eyes blankly, unable to guess where his lips would fall in the next second.

Han Xun sniffed and cursed "Bastard", his nasal voice was wet, but his throat was dry.The unknown made him a little uneasy, he turned his face to hide, but was kissed by Yu Qi on the cheek.He shrank his neck and was kissed on the ear again.He hummed and curled up his toes, like a little girl going to bed for the first time, trembling slightly from the tip of her hair to the tip of her fingernails.

"Don't play with me..."

Han Xun frowned and glanced in the direction of the sound of breathing.Yu Qi's cheeks burned, and he whispered, "I didn't." Han Xun was so angry that he twisted his leg, there was nothing, it was clear.

"Don't!"

Yu Qi rushed to grab his hand, feeling a little guilty. Han Xun had just shed tears, and his panting was rustling. The way his eyelashes were trembling and hiding from him made his heart itch, so he couldn't help but kiss him in the direction where he was hiding.Yu Qi also knew that he had gone too far, afraid that Han Xunzhen would be angry, so he stood up blushing.

"I... I'm going to take a shower."

Unexpectedly, Han Xun became even more angry.

"What are you taking a shower for?"

Han Xun directly pulled Yu Qi back, pressed his chest, lowered his head and gritted his teeth: "Don't force me to fuck you."

"That's okay," Han Xun was stunned for a moment, but Yu Qi said hesitantly, "But I think it will be more comfortable if you are fucked by me..."

Han Xun's face flushed from burning, and Yu Qi's tone was too sincere, even if he wanted to scold him, his tongue tied up and he couldn't speak.Yu Qi didn't understand the situation, thinking that Han Xun had acquiesced, and asked cautiously: "Do you want to do it again by yourself like last time?"

"go away!!"

Yu Qi got out of bed and rolled, he squatted outside the door for a while, all he could think about was Han Xun, Han Xun who was groping for the bell to familiarize himself with the environment again and again, Han Xun who was sleeping peacefully in his arms after sleepwalking , and Han Xun who stepped barefoot in the snow that day.

He stood up, took a deep breath, and rolled back silently.He confirmed one thing that night, the way Han Xuntong blushed and refused to let him see it was really cute.

After that day, Han Xun did not sleepwalk anymore.Sometimes the two of them would still wake up in the same bed, with their foreheads touching their foreheads, and their hair was a little too disheveled, but that only happened in the morning when Yu Wen was not at home.

Two days before Lin Xun's wedding, Yu Qi and Han Xun went to the barber shop. Han Xun flicked his hair and turned to Yu Qi. Even if there were other people around, his breathing sound was different.

"How about it?"

"Very good." Yu Qi added after thinking about it, "Very good, I really like it."

"Who cares if you like it or not."

Han Xun smiled and turned back.After they checked out, Yu Qi took Han Xun's hand and walked down the street. There was a lot of noise and traffic, and Han Xun's palms were sweating. Yu Qi slowed down and stopped at the entrance of a milk tea shop with few customers.

"Do you want milk tea? I'm a little thirsty."

"It's all right."

"Which flavor do you want to drink? There are many kinds..." Yu Qi stood at the door of the milk tea shop and read all the signature flavors on the advertising stand.

Yu Qi has never had the habit of drinking milk tea, and Han Xun knew that it was not because he stopped here because he was thirsty.Yu Qi held his hand, he could hear his heartbeat, the sun and the shadow of trees under the white clouds.

"You can choose whichever you like, and you can drink two if it's difficult to drink."

Han Xun had never been to Qingying's seaside before.Yu Qi stood beside him and talked to him about the beach, the sky, and a bird skimming over the sea.

The sea was warmed by the sun, and the waves beat against his ankles. Lin Xun called out to them from a distance, and Yu Qi stretched out his hand in response.The bouquet fell from the blue sky, and Yu Qi jumped up to catch it firmly, but Han Xun was splashed with seawater.

Yu Qi hurriedly wiped Han Xun's face with his sleeves, tried to hold back but still couldn't help laughing.Han Xun wanted to kick him, but his chest was filled with fragrance.

"Give you."

Yu Qi tiptoed and kissed Han Xun's forehead. Everyone else was on the other side of the beach, so he was a little bold.

Han Xun held the bouquet in a daze, he blinked, the dark sea in front of him receded slowly, the color gradually became clear in the white light, the white bouquet was like a handful of snow falling on his hand, the waves were floating The surface of the sea even stings him a bit.He looked up at Yu Qi, his smile was brighter than the sun, there were drops of water on his chin, and a petal fell from his hair.

The sea breeze blew, and the petals slowly fell into the sea. Han Xun held the bouquet and pulled Yu Qi to kiss him.The waves beat the back of the feet, and the afternoon sun is more beautiful than the night's dream.