like a dog

The clouds were thick, and the thunder rolled low and dull in the sky.

Half of the pencil rolled bloody to the ground, Liu Yun staggered back half a step with wide eyes, blood spattered wildly from between his fingers.He collapsed on the desk convulsively, like a fish caught ashore, his eyes were wide open, and his mouth was bubbling with blood.

Blood dripped down the edge of the table, Zhong Yue raised her head with a stiff neck, her lips trembling, unable to speak.

"Don't look."

Lin Xun covered Zhong Yue's eyes, the blood spread to their feet, and the stuffy room was full of bloody smell.Thunder exploded outside the window, and the torrential rain finally fell.

Zhong Yue turned her head blankly: "Has he already..."

Lin Xun's right hand hanging by his feet was dripping with blood, broken wooden thorns and lead cores were embedded in the flesh.He was also in a trance for a moment, and then hummed hoarsely.

The books on the desk were scattered all over the floor, the phone fell on the concrete floor, the receiver fell to the side, and the phone line was torn off.Lin Xun tore off a piece of clothes, and hastily wrapped around the wound on his hand a few times.

"I'm going to find someone, you wait for me..."

Zhong Yue nodded dully, and took a long time to get up on the ground.There were two people in the room, but only the sound of one breathing.Zhong Yue felt the sticky blood on his hand, looked at the trembling hand, it seemed that there was only blood red in his eyes.

Will he really come back?

A thought popped up like a stab, Zhong Yue froze on the spot, raised his hand and slapped himself.He clenched his arm in tears, it was so thin that it could pinch the bone even with a little force.If he wasn't such a useless piece of trash, it wouldn't drag him down to this point.

What to do now, what to do...

Zhong Yue caught a glimpse of the broken pencil on the ground, sniffed, picked up the pen and pencil sharpener on the ground, tremblingly opened his palm, and held the bloody pencil.The smell of blood stimulated his nasal cavity, mixed with his own pheromones, like a sticky smell coming out of a quagmire under the scorching sun.

He raised his head and exhaled, the blood on the ceiling dazzled his eyes, and he was a little numb.

It was raining heavily outside the window, Zhong Yue grabbed her sleeve and wiped the window sill and table back and forth.Liu Yun fell on the table covered in blood, his pupils dilated.Zhong Yue struggled to open his hand, grabbed his fingers that were not stiff, and scratched his arm.

Zhong Yue wiped the sweat and blood from his chin, closed his eyes tiredly, and held the pencil sharpener against his throat.A faint pheromone floated out of the thick bloody smell, he opened his eyes in astonishment, Fu Rui stood at the door with his whole body wet, his face was pale, and his body was full of strange aura.

Why... a mark?

Zhong Yue clutched the knife in his hand tremblingly, the smell made his temple throbbing.

Alpha's pheromone is poison to him, like ants gnawing on the base, and the smell of Fu Rui's body makes his blood run wild.But the inhibitor steadily suppressed his pheromones, leaving only the anxiety scratching in his internal organs.

"Zhong Yue, put down the knife first."

"Think about Lin Xun, Zhong Yue, think about him..."

Fu Rui held his hand, and carefully took the knife from his hand.Zhong Yue sat paralyzed on the ground, as if the pillar had been pulled out.He choked up tears, and he didn't expect too much, he knew in his heart that he was too far away for him.He just thought that maybe one day he could get closer to him, just one step.

Is even this wish a luxury?

"You are still young, everything is in time. It was Liu Yun who wanted to force you, so you resisted, right?"

"You killed him because your life was threatened. This is different from others who casually rushed in and stabbed someone to death. You were protecting yourself for a legitimate reason..."

stop talking, stop talking...

Zhong Yue was in extreme pain, as if a thorn had grown out of his chest, pressing against his ribs coldly.The sound of thunder seemed to hit his back, and every word was like a light on his back, about to knock him into the abyss.

"I will testify for you, but I have to call the police first."

"No...you can't call the police."

Zhong Yue hurriedly grabbed Fu Rui's hand, as if grasping the last ray of hope.The blood stained the back of his hand, a moment of panic flashed in Fu Rui's eyes, and he pulled out his hand calmly.

"There are only a few of us in the school, and the traces here can't be erased by the two of us. It's only a matter of time before they find out that Liu Yun is dead. They will find out who killed him as soon as they investigate. The best choice is to surrender."

"Trust me, I will help you to testify that you didn't intend to kill him, and nothing will happen."

The rain was so loud it almost drenched him.The smell on Fu Rui's body was so anxious that he was going crazy, the sky was gloomy, except for the dark red of blood in the room, it was the gloom of evening.He could no longer see a way out.

Fu Rui picked up the telephone wire on the ground, and a flash of lightning exploded outside the window, and two people were reflected on the cracked glass.

"Mr. Jiang, I'm sorry."

Zhong Yue stood behind Fu Rui. He was trembling at first, but the moment he met his eyes, he was so numb that he didn't feel anything at all.He pushed him as hard as he could, and the moment the glass shattered, he felt chills all over his body after realizing it.What made him panic even more was that Fu Rui didn't fall down, but fell out on his back.

Although the windows are closed tightly, the screws have been loosened due to disrepair. In addition to the previous impact, they are already crumbling.As soon as Fu Rui hit it, the window frame came loose completely, and he didn't even have time to grab anything.

"Fu Rui!"

Zhong Yue fell to the ground, and Lin Xun didn't know when he would come back.He rushed in, the hoarse voice piercing his eardrums.Fu Rui's stunned moment when he fell out of the window was deeply burned in front of his eyes.Zhong Yue looked down at her trembling hand, the horizontal wound on the palm, like a monster devouring people's hearts.

"Do you know what you did?"

Lin Xun grabbed his shoulder and shouted, Zhong Yue was also at a loss, he didn't know what he was doing.He just wanted to buy a little more time, but things backfired, and everything went wrong and outrageous like a snowball.

The heavy rain wet the scattered books on the ground, slanting down in the blood all over the ground, splashing it as if it was boiling.Zhong Yue burst into tears and laughed. He looked at Lin Xun, and there was a thunder in the rain, and they were as embarrassed as two drowning dogs.

"I just want to... protect you..."

"Lin Xun!"

Han Xuan held Lin Xun's face, he was as stiff as a sculpture hewn out of the ice and snow, his eyes wept lazily.He called him many times, but there was no response.

"it's me."

Lin Xun stared at the ceiling in a daze, which seemed to be splashed with wet blood.He smelled blood, and the thick blood smell filled his nose and lung ducts.He looked down at his hand, under the loose gauze, there was an unhealed wound on his palm.And beside the wound, there were fine dots like soot.

The graphite that could not be picked out in time at the beginning has all become tiny gray spots embedded under the skin.His body helped him remember the sins he had forgotten.

His shoulders trembled slightly, and he said with a low smile, "I killed someone."

"Lin Xun, that's not important, don't think about it now."

"You don't know anything at all," Lin Xun laughed choked up, "I left him there alone, how could I...leave him there like that. He believed in me so much, but I completely... "

He couldn't imagine how Zhong Yue survived that night, and every day after that.Han Zheng was forcibly grounded by Han Lin, and he had no way to go to the West Bridge to take Zhong Yue away.Heavy rain can destroy all the evidence, even if Zhong Yue said that he didn't kill him, no one would believe his words.

Abandoned by the person he trusted the most, how desperate he must have been during the two months in the detention center.

"He can have a better life, he can have more... If it weren't for me, they would all be alive, and it's all my fault."

"It has nothing to do with you, those things are not your responsibility at all." Han Xuan pulled Lin Xun's shoulders, "Han Xun will be fine, the doctors are saving him, there will be news soon, don't let your imagination run wild."

"No, he won't wake up." Lin Xun shook his head numbly, he lost all hope, and his tears lost their warmth.

"why it's not me?"

Lin Xun lowered his head, as if caught in a whirlpool.Countless pairs of bloody hands stretched out from the mud, pinching his flesh and dragging him into the darkness.He has been dragging others down since before.Those related to him and those who treated him well did not end well.

His eyes were gray, like a formatted machine.

"It should be me who died."

Lin Xun's cheeks were burning hot, and the pain burned back a little bit of consciousness. He stared blankly at Han Xuan who had slapped him. He had never seen him show such an expression.

"Why do you have to take other people's faults on yourself? I said I would save him, and he would definitely live. Even if it was a one in a million chance that he didn't wake up, it was Han Zheng who killed him. What does it matter to you?" Han Xuan squeezed Lin Xun's shoulders, his suppressed anger could no longer be controlled, "Liu Yun deserves to die himself, what difference does a person like him have if he is alive or dead!"

"But Zhong Yue is innocent, you have no idea how painful he is in that kind of place..."

"I know!"

Lin Xun was taken aback by Han Xuan's yelling, he looked at him blankly, Han Xuan laughed with red eyes, lowered his head and said hoarsely: "Of course I know what it's like..."

He had seen him cry, but never seen him so sad.

"Have you ever wondered why he was locked in the Alpha prison?" Han Xuan lowered his eyes and let out a slow breath.He gently closed his eyes, as if removing the last layer of armor.

"Because he was originally an Alpha."

Lin Xun was stunned for a few seconds, he heard every word clearly, but couldn't understand his words.Most of his brain seemed to be eroded by electric current, and suddenly he couldn't move for a minute.

"I was downstairs in your apartment that day. The wrong taxi was fake, but the heat was real. I told you that it was because I used medicine that shouldn't be used for a long time, and it was too late when I found out that there were side effects. It is an inhibitor, formulated with type I and type II. My smell is too similar to Han Lin, my mother is afraid that I will be discovered, and has been feeding me this drug since I was born."

"I developed very slowly and was shorter than my peers. Those medicines were a heavy burden on my body, and the toxins were deposited and couldn't be excreted. When I was four years old, I had a small dark spot under my eyes. At first I thought it was Mole of tears, but it got bigger and bigger, and finally spread to almost half of the face."

Han Xuan took Lin Xun's hand and covered his left eye.When the wound touched the tears, Lin Xun's palm was tingling, and his vision froze along with his breathing.

"Teacher, I'm sorry."

Tears mixed with blood flowed down, and Han Xuan laughed with a sandy voice.

"I'm still here to see you."