like a dog

"Awake?"

Fu Rui was sitting on the chair, Lizhi lay on his knees, he scratched the back of the cat's neck without raising his head, Lizhi whimpered.Lin Xun stood up with his forehead supported, and his left hand was still on a drip, feeling dizzy and circling endlessly, sitting on the bed as if dangling on a winding mountain road.

"Water..." Lin Xun stretched out his hand towards him, his ears still buzzing.

Fu Rui picked up a glass of warm water on the bedside, patted his outstretched hand away, held the handle of the glass and brought it to his mouth, without changing his face, he said: "Farewell, it will be more troublesome if you spill it later."

Lin Xun drank silently with his head down, wiped his lips with the back of his hand, and his voice was not so dry and hoarse.He lowered his head and licked his dry lips, propped his forehead and felt dizzy.

"Uncomfortable? No strength? Then remember."

"sorry."

Fu Rui put the cup back on the bed, took two or three tissues and threw them on the quilt in front of his chest: "Don't tell me this, I don't want to hear it."

Lin Xun glanced at the bottle hanging on the hanger, and there were three or two cardboard boxes piled up in the opposite corner. He was still in the apartment, this was Lu Yuan's room.The curtains were drawn one layer, the sun shrouded the quilt, and the temperature of the air conditioner was turned up, but it still seemed to be cold on the body.I didn't feel it when I fell asleep, but after waking up, the numbness in my hands, feet and back became more and more clear, as if it was firmly fixed by a band all night.

Lin Xun leaned against the head of the bed.Those things that happened in the past resurfaced when the illness swept through, replaying in his mind over and over again during his sleepy period.He grunted and repeated his sorry.

Fu Rui was seriously injured that day, and he bled a lot. His hands and body were covered in scarlet, and it seeped into his limbs and bones, and he couldn't wash it off.He didn't see him for a long time, and his own sobriety was short.Nine days out of ten, he was out of control, taking too much medicine, and his thinking was dull. He seemed to have forgotten something, but he was torn to pieces by some bloody hands and couldn't get it together.

He wanted to see Fu Rui, but no one answered any of his questions about Fu Rui.One day someone other than a doctor finally came.

Guan Shan looked down at him as if looking at a puddle of mud.He told him that the previous operation had failed, Fu Rui's condition had deteriorated, and they had changed the treatment plan, but the possibility of a cure was still not high.His physical condition is also not suitable for artificial gland replacement. If there is no improvement within a month, Fu Rui will die of multiple organ failure caused by long-term pheromone disorder.

Lin Xun pinched his hand and wept bitterly, almost breaking his nails, his voice became hoarse early on, and all his shouts were hoarse and bloody.

"I heard that you are friends, so let's suffer together."

At first, Lin Xun couldn't quite understand what he meant, but when the medicine that pushed the vein took effect, he understood it completely.

Symptoms related to pheromone imbalance quickly appeared on him. The infinitely magnified sense of depression made his stomach churn and he was about to vomit. The sweet, greasy, bitter and spicy are twisted into a ball, and the senses feel like being squashed and crushed.It wasn't the severe pain of being stabbed through the lungs, but the fine pain that was torn from the inside out spread all over the nerves, and he couldn't even cry out.

"This is what you gave him. Every day in the future, I will also give it to you."

Injections are given every day, and the symptoms will last for nearly two hours after the injection.Lin Xun was often unconscious, but there seemed to be something else in the medicine, and he could always stay awake during these two hours.After two weeks, there was a certain resistance, and it became invalid in an hour.

By the third week, the medicine was stopped.Instead of feeling relieved, he suffered even more.

Suffering similar torture, he can also deceive himself that he is repaying, and when there is nowhere to repay, the sense of guilt strangles him even more bloody and smelly.And at the same time, his time fell into chaos again, today, tomorrow and yesterday cannot be separated.

"I'm sorry, everything is..." Lin Xun pressed the back of his hand, and there was an injection needle horizontally inside. This foreign object delivered the medicinal liquid into the body.But he always felt that his whole body was dirty and there was no cure.

"Now and before, I have..."

"If you hadn't finished drinking all the water, I would have poured the whole glass on top of your head." Fu Rui tore off his right hand, fearing that the needle would pierce the back of his hand later, "Some words, say it once or twice I'm up to you, talking back and forth, I'm going to feel sick. What do you think I am, a perverted masochist? If you are really sorry for me, I still stick to it every day, am I sick?"

"You don't," Lin Xun withdrew his hand and said softly, "I do."

Li Zhi, who squatted back under the chair, jumped onto Fu Rui's knee.Fu Rui's fire was defeated by it again, he swept its chin and asked, "What's its name?"

"Little Moon."

"Which Xiaoyue?"

"That little moon of Rhubarb."

"It's really nostalgic." Fu Rui put the lychee back on the ground, it stretched at his feet, and then jumped out of the room again.

Fu Rui looked at the direction it was leaving and said: "These stray cats look cute, but they are actually quite fierce, otherwise they won't survive. It's much better if someone is in pain, and the tail is also raised up because of the comfort." He turned to look at Lin Xun, although the fever subsided, his face was still pale and he lost some weight.He looked at him like he was looking in a mirror.

"Lin Xun, there are some things I haven't told you before. One is that the matter is over and I don't want to mention it, and the other is that there is no need to make such a clear distinction between us."

Fu Rui was silent for a while, and rubbed his fingertips when he was addicted to cigarettes, but he was sick right now.He cleared his throat and continued: "At that time, Guan Shan disappeared. There was no news for more than a month, and his mother couldn't bear it, and she had a mental breakdown. I brought his pheromone, and she thought I was him. She is no longer They didn’t eat or drink for several days, and they thought it was a good deal to use a fake one to save a real one. I also thought it was a good deal, so I took his place and stayed until I wanted to leave.”

Fu Rui touched the back of his neck, the tattoo was a family crest.Ironically, he was excluded when he wanted to blend in, and he was crucified when he didn't want to.

"The temporary mark won't last long, and can only be maintained by medicine. For four years, a needle will be stuck here every month, and the damage has already occurred. When I lived in your house, you also saw it, what I need The dose of inhibitors was already several times the normal amount at that time. Even without that accident, my body would have collapsed within three to five years."

Fu Rui looked at the palm of his hand, as if the tattoo had been burned into his palm.The person who gave birth to him threw him away as non-recyclable garbage, the person who raised him died before he could stand on his own, and the person who wanted to talk to him was gone forever.He knew that the woman's meticulousness was not for him, but it was fake, not his, and he wanted it too.

He spread his palms and then clenched them tightly, smiling as if it had nothing to do with him: "This is all just the retribution that was set early in the morning, and has nothing to do with you."

"Fu Rui, actually you didn't..." Lin Xun was silent for a long time before opening his mouth.

"Farewell," Fu Rui put his hands in front of him, "Take care of yourself first, and my business will end here. The one outside, what do you think?"

"I don't know." A sense of dizziness rushed in his mind, and Lin Xun pressed his forehead and hissed.

"You're too embarrassed. Lying in someone's arms doesn't count, and you have to hold hands with them. My eyes are really dying. Are you going to say that you have no impression?"

"That, I'm really..." Fu Rui leaned closer to him for a look, Lin Xun was stared into hair, and blocked his face, "What are you doing?"

Fu Rui avoided his hand, turned his head to look at him, and sighed as if he had discovered a novel creature: "I've fallen in love with it."

Lin Xun's brain exploded, and he coughed violently, choking on his saliva.

Fu Rui patted his knees and stood up: "Then it's up to you. You have attracted some children to like you from the beginning, whether you are serious or playful. Just a little, don't make such a big battle again."

Lin Xun blushed from coughing, and by the time he spoke, Fu Rui had already arrived at the door.

"where are you going?"

"There's an interview at two o'clock, and I'll open it after a few days of absenteeism. All evil capitalists." Fu Rui opened the door and sighed. "The TV station, the Fortune Channel, will go to the countryside to shoot pigs when it's done. Let's go first."

Fu Rui closed the bedroom door, stood there for a while, leaning against the door and sighing.

"Mr. Fu." Lu Yuan came out of the kitchen.

"Call me Fu Rui. I don't like your name. There is still half of the bottle left, and it will take another hour. Pay attention." Fu Rui went to the living room and was stopped by him.He looked back at him, he had heard this name many times, but this was the first time he had seen him.

"But to be honest, I don't like you either."

Lu Yuan was stunned: "Really? Maybe it's because of pheromones. Teacher Lin Xun can't feel it, and I haven't had much control here. It's probably uncomfortable for you."

Fu Rui was noncommittal, and directly changed the question: "Did you send him to the hospital?"

"The teacher said before that he didn't want to go, so I contacted the doctor I knew to come over."

"Three o'clock in the morning, in the development zone? Are you an old acquaintance?" Fu Rui smiled. Is the air conditioner turned too hot? My palms were sweating just now in the bedroom, and now my back is a little sticky.

"Well, I'm familiar with each other, so I'm willing to help." Lu Yuan glanced at the second bedroom, and Lin Xun probably fell asleep again. Although he just caught a cold and a high fever, he still needed to take a good rest. "Fortunately, nothing happened. He said it would be fine after hanging this bottle. He will probably feel comfortable tonight..."

There was a murmur in his ears, and Fu Rui became more and more irritable, watching his mouth open and close, his voice seemed to be distorted and amplified, mixed with the noise of sharp nails scraping a blackboard.He checked him out and found out that he is not from Guan Shan.

But he always felt something was wrong.

"Who are you?" Fu Rui interrupted him bluntly, and he was startled when he said it.

Lu Yuan frowned and looked at this person, his words were inexplicable.But his pheromone was abnormally stable, and he couldn't read anything.

"Me?" Lu Yuan smiled helplessly, and answered according to his intention, "I belong to him."

Fu Rui followed his gaze to the second bedroom, and when he looked back, his vision suddenly became blurred.

"Mr. Fu Rui, you seem to be, are you not feeling well?"

"what?"

Fu Rui couldn't hear what he said, but seeing him approaching, it became more difficult to breathe, his body reacted faster than his mind, staggered back and nearly fell down.He raised his hand in front of him, numb from his throat to his chest, as if the air was too thin to breathe any oxygen: "You...don't come near me."

As soon as he finished speaking, his heartbeat increased sharply like stepping on a springboard, and Fu Rui knelt down on the ground with weak knees.He opened his mouth and panted heavily, dragging him to the ground like invisible hands that were rushed out of the floor and grabbed his throat.

His eyes were dizzy due to lack of oxygen, and a faint breath sneaked into his itchy nasal cavity.Fu Rui opened his eyes wide in disbelief, but his neck was stiff and he couldn't lift his head, and something was stuffed into his hand.

"You're overbreathing, relax." Lu Yuan held his wrist through his sleeve, guiding him to cover his mouth and nose with the fresh-keeping bag in his hand, "Are you... not very good at regulating?"

Fu Rui tightened his bag tightly and tried his best to slow down his breathing.Damn it, he had seen an Omega with extremely poor adjustment ability before, so bad that he would be anxious to breathe if he stayed beside Alpha for more than a minute, but this had nothing to do with his current situation at all.

He can smell the pheromones that his body can smell, without any complicated deduction, he can imagine how strong the pheromones in the room are.People who don't feel pain know that they have stepped into boiling water only when they get scalded.His feedback was so sluggish that it was almost non-existent, and when he realized it, his body could no longer bear it.

"Fu Rui, are you still there? What's the matter?" Lin Xun's voice came faintly from the bedroom door.

"What can I do! You lie down for me!"

Fu Ruiqiang kept his voice steady, cursing crazily in his heart.Are all the people living in this house mentally ill? This is what this person just said is not very controlled?If the pheromone had a body and weight, it would directly crush him, including the human body and the bones.

It is conceivable that the smell entrenched in every corner like a vine, taking root on the sofa, floor, wall, and electrical appliances. Everything he touched and never touched was branded.The bed that Lin Xun slept on, the shirt that didn't fit him, and the glass of water by the bed were all soaked in this unrestrained breath.Infinitely expanding attachments and greed, as well as more unidentifiable emotions, are crowded inside.

Fu Rui couldn't touch the whole picture, but when he touched the sporadic bits, he could imagine what kind of colossus it was, lurking in the air that Lin Xun used to breathe day and night.

One is bored and can't speak.One can't hear it.

Fu Rui stood up straight on his knees, and muttered in a low voice: "It's really a goddamn design..."

"Can it work?" Lu Yuan stretched out his hand to support him.

"I can't die." Fu Rui blocked his hand, crumpled the fresh-keeping bag and threw it to him, "Thanks. I was the one who overreacted and said some nonsense just now, just pretend you didn't hear it."

Fu Ruiba shouted to the bedroom in a high voice: "Lin Xun, I'm leaving, I won't be here for a few days!"

He supported the wall to the door, Lu Yuan followed him a few steps away.Fu Rui waved his hand and said, "Let's go. Leave me alone and go look at him. This guy's brain circuit is not normal, and he will be thinking about it later. Take care of him."

Lu Yuan still sent him out, and Fu Rui walked into the elevator without looking back.He collapsed as soon as the elevator doors closed.

He leaned against the wall and smiled wryly: "Who are you provoking..."

Lu Yuan closed the door and entered the house, threw the fresh-keeping bag into the trash can, filled the porridge and brought it to the bedroom, Lizhi followed behind him, meowing around his feet.Lin Xun was about to get out of bed, when he saw Lu Yuan open the door and came in, he asked, "Just now..."

"It's okay, your friend talked to me for a while. It's louder, did it disturb you?" Lu Yuan put the bowl on the bedside, pulled the chair closer and sat down.

Lin Xun frowned suspiciously, and asked again: "Aren't you going to work?"

"It's just an internship, I've asked for leave. Your side is more important." Lu Yuan touched Lin Xun's forehead, "It's much better, but let's wait until the needle is finished before getting out of bed."

Lin Xun was startled, this action evoked some vague impressions: "That night I..."

"You had a fever at that time, it was so bad that I couldn't even wake you up. Teacher, you are really messy sometimes. Not only me, but everyone who cares about you will be worried." Speaking of this, Lu Yuan remembered Another thing, "When did you call? I didn't even know your friend was coming."

Seeing Lin Xun shaking his head, Lu Yuan asked suspiciously, "Didn't you tell him?"

"Have you called an ambulance?" Lin Xun touched his knuckles, his fingertips were cold from the drip for a long time, "Then they will know."

"Lu Yuan, I may be different from what you imagined. It's not that I don't trust you. When I gave you the keys to my house, I gave you my trust." Lin Xun closed his eyes wearily. Closing his eyes, Lu Yuan was in front of him, too bright, "But I... I don't know how to give other things."

"I don't know what to say, I'm saying I don't know again," Lin Xun said and laughed, "I used to hate this saying, it was vague and not a responsible person, but I still changed You have become such a person. Lu Yuan, you are a very good person, you should not waste your time on people like me, you will meet someone better, then you will..."

Lu Yuan suddenly said: "Then I will move out from here now, will you be happy?"

"Are you going?"

"Look, don't you know?" Lu Yuan held Lin Xun's hand and gently stroked the protruding knuckles on the back of his hand, "You don't want me to go, do you? You always hide your words, and many people will Take your politeness seriously. You don’t have to say these polite words to me.”

"I'll just ask you some simple questions, you don't need to answer them, but don't lie." Lu Yuan looked up at him, "Do you want me to leave here?"

"When you just woke up, you didn't see me, were you disappointed?"

"Would you rather have someone else you know touch you like this than me?"

Lu Yuan held his cold fingers and warmed them with his palm.Lin Xun didn't answer, but his pulse betrayed him.Lu Yuan was too close to him, the tip of his nose almost reached the tip of his nose.The distance between them was closer than this when they got along before, but it happened to be so slightly apart, which was even more anxious.

"Will it be a bad thing to kiss you now?"

In the whispered words, the eagerness rose in the closeness of the lips and teeth.Lu Yuan didn't move, they were so close that they brushed their eyelashes in the blink of an eye.Lin Xun's breath collided with his, as if he was dizzy again.He closed his eyes and kissed him, soft and warm like a dream.They kiss all the time, kissing carelessly in love.The love hidden in the ecstasy and obsession escaped violently in this sober kiss.

He couldn't hide it in the first place, since he entered the door, he couldn't hide it anymore.He wants to see him, wants to see him every day when he opens his eyes.

"Teacher, you took the initiative this time. There will be no lies about not wanting to fall in love this time." Such a shallow kiss burned all the way to his heart.Lu Yuan pressed against his lips and said softly: "If you want to be with me, you must speak honestly. Will you be honest?"

"Ah."

"Can I ask you to charge some interest? You don't even know how sad I am to see you make yourself like this. You also made a mess in the bedroom, and the floor is almost soaked. I have to clean up the room here. I still have to take care of you, and I have no place to sleep tonight, so I can only sleep on the sofa." Lu Yuan complained softly, "If you don't give me some compensation, I really have no motivation."

"What kind of... do you want?"

"Kiss me again."

Lin Xun caressed his face, the warmth made him feel at ease and moved.He kissed him, hesitated when he left, and kissed him lightly at the corner of his mouth.

"enough?"

"not enough."

"No matter how much I have..." Lin Xun's face was burning hot from Lu Yuan's eyes, and he turned his face away and said in a softer voice, "When I get better..."

"You said it." Lu Yuan smiled and bent his little finger with him, "I've made a hook, I won't give you food for a week if you renege on your debt."

"Nonsense." Lin Xun shook his head and smiled, but still stretched out his hand to hook him.